Lost Confused Unkind (Sequel To "Freaked")
Chapter 82
I went out of the building & lit a cigarette as I leaned my back against the wall & closed my eyes! This shouldn't matter, it shouldn't be making my pulse race & my hands shake! 'Get a grip girl!' I thought to myself as I inhaled deeply. But it did matter & my pulse was racing & I heard Sasha's words 'Twice off doesn't work!' Three times would be crazy & I knew it! '3rd time's the charm!' Adam's voice echoed through my head & I took another draw on my cigarette & exhaled slowly. 'It's fine if you can both handle it without getting involved!' Oh shut up Sasha! Always the voice of reason! Well I was tired of reason & I was tired of boredom!
I went back inside & tried to act calm as I picked up the phone & dialed Shane's number. The rest of the office went silent & everyone seemed to stop what they were doing!
"Shane McMahon please! Yes it's Rebecca…"
"Bec! Hi! Shane's been waiting on your call!" Mirium, Shane's secretary said cheerfully, "How are you? How's the little one?" Without moving my head I glanced up to see everyone quickly turn away & find something to do when my eyes met theirs!
"Oh erm….fine thankyou!" I said quietly.
"Oh that's good! Ok well I'll put you through to Shane, one second!"
The line beeped, "Bec! Hey how's it goin?"
"H….hello Mr McMahon!"
"Mr Mc……ah right it's like that huh?" Shane laughed.
"Yes erm….sir!" I said nervously & he laughed again.
"Ok, I get it, all eyes on the star pupil huh?"
"That's correct!"
"Oh Jesus!" He laughed, "How's it goin anyway? Ok?"
"Yes!"
"Job ok?" I remained silent, "Or not?"
"Not much!"
"Oh right! I know it's not what you want to do but believe me I'm still working on it!"
"Thakyou Mr McMahon!"
"Oh this is priceless!" he laughed.
"Not really…SIR!" I said through clenched teeth!
"I might just keep you on the phone all day!"
"I don't think that would be a very good idea SIR!"
"Ok I'm just teasing! What I called you for was, well have you had time to look through the days announcements yet?"
"Yes I have indeed! I have the Smackdown schedule infront of me!"
"Ah great! Well there's been some changes over night that I need you to correct before that goes out!"
"Go ahead!" I grabbed a pen.
"Ok, well Steph's in for definite!" I circled Stephanie's name on the list, "And Mark!" I circled The Undertaker's name, "Oh and he's bringing his wife so we may add her to the show, what do you think?"
"Well there's not much point in putting her on the list, I would say save it, if she turns up it'll be an extra!"
"Great idea! Anyway where was I?"
"Steph…." I looked around me again, "…phanie and Undertaker!" I nervously hovered the pen above 'Edge' waiting for him to say the name!
"Oh right well you can pen in Nathen too but make sure that the 'Subject To Change' clause is clearly visable because I don't know how that one is gonna work out just now!"
"Yes sir! Is that all?"
"For now yeah!" My heart sank, "Now about the Raw shows I wanted…"
"R….Raw shows? There's gonna be Raw shows too?" I glanced up at all the enquiring eyes again! "Ahem erm sir?"
"Yeah I thought you said you read your memos?" he laughed.
"Hang on!" I rifled through all of the papers, knocking half of them onto the floor, "I can't find it!"
"Ok I'll run through it now….or maybe I could call you at home later if that'll be easier?"
"Yes please!" I heaved a sigh of relief!
"Ok sweetheart! I'll call you tonight! Don't work too hard!" he laughed.
"Ok thankyou sir! Goodbye!"
I hung up the phone & about 2 seconds later half the office crowded around me desk!
***
When I got home that night I threw my purse onto the couch that was heaped with clothes that needed ironing, kicked off my shoes & opened a bottle of wine. I had to wash a glass, the place was a mess & I didn't care! I just couldn't be bothered! I ran a deep bubble bath & took my glass with me. How I ever lived like that I'll never know! I hadn't even picked up the mail from the floor infront of the door, I just stepped over it every night & ignored it! It was all bills anyway!
After my bath I threw on my robe, refilled my glass, switched on the stereo, threw the heaped up clothes onto the floor & lounged on the sofa! I closed my eyes to block out the mess & chaos that surrounded me & I thought about what had happened that day! I'd managed to convince the rest of the girls at work that Shane McMahon calling me was just a fluke, he needed to talk to someone & my name was on his list, nothing more! They seemed to believe me thank God! I couldn't be bothered with their questioning, but if they found out the real me, well I dreaded to think about it! My life wouldn't be worth living! It was worse than being at school!
The phone rang & snapped me back to reality!
"Hello?"
"Hey Bec it's Shane!"
I'd totally forgotten he was calling! "Oh hey Shane!"
"Ah are you ok?"
"Ah yeah, y'know!"
"Sorry about today! Are things THAT bad in the office?"
"No not really, they just don't know anything about me & I'd kinda like to keep it that way!"
"That's cool! I can understand that!"
"Thanks! So you were gonna tell me about Raw!"
"Oh yeah did you find the announcement?"
"Nope! Never got it! God knows where it ended up!"
"Ah ok! Well I have the list here if you want to write this down?"
"No just tell me, is Chris coming?"
"Jericho…..Jericho…..erm…yeah!"
"Oh that's fantastic! Maybe Betty will come over with him!" I smiled.
"Yeah! Erm don't you wanna ask about anyone else?"
"Umm no that's all!"
"Bec!"
"What?"
"Well don't you want to know if Jeff is coming?"
"No." My stomach lurched at the mention of his name, yes I did want to know but I was trying to convince myself I didn't! "Jeff has his own life to live same as I do!" There was a knock on the door, "Besides, he hasn't called me in God knows how long!" I walked to the door with the cordless phone still in my hand.
"Is that someone at your door?"
"Yeah it's cool I got it!" I pulled the door open & Shane McMahon stood there with his cell phone to his ear, grinning like a school kid!
"SURPRISE!!"
Chapter 82
I went out of the building & lit a cigarette as I leaned my back against the wall & closed my eyes! This shouldn't matter, it shouldn't be making my pulse race & my hands shake! 'Get a grip girl!' I thought to myself as I inhaled deeply. But it did matter & my pulse was racing & I heard Sasha's words 'Twice off doesn't work!' Three times would be crazy & I knew it! '3rd time's the charm!' Adam's voice echoed through my head & I took another draw on my cigarette & exhaled slowly. 'It's fine if you can both handle it without getting involved!' Oh shut up Sasha! Always the voice of reason! Well I was tired of reason & I was tired of boredom!
I went back inside & tried to act calm as I picked up the phone & dialed Shane's number. The rest of the office went silent & everyone seemed to stop what they were doing!
"Shane McMahon please! Yes it's Rebecca…"
"Bec! Hi! Shane's been waiting on your call!" Mirium, Shane's secretary said cheerfully, "How are you? How's the little one?" Without moving my head I glanced up to see everyone quickly turn away & find something to do when my eyes met theirs!
"Oh erm….fine thankyou!" I said quietly.
"Oh that's good! Ok well I'll put you through to Shane, one second!"
The line beeped, "Bec! Hey how's it goin?"
"H….hello Mr McMahon!"
"Mr Mc……ah right it's like that huh?" Shane laughed.
"Yes erm….sir!" I said nervously & he laughed again.
"Ok, I get it, all eyes on the star pupil huh?"
"That's correct!"
"Oh Jesus!" He laughed, "How's it goin anyway? Ok?"
"Yes!"
"Job ok?" I remained silent, "Or not?"
"Not much!"
"Oh right! I know it's not what you want to do but believe me I'm still working on it!"
"Thakyou Mr McMahon!"
"Oh this is priceless!" he laughed.
"Not really…SIR!" I said through clenched teeth!
"I might just keep you on the phone all day!"
"I don't think that would be a very good idea SIR!"
"Ok I'm just teasing! What I called you for was, well have you had time to look through the days announcements yet?"
"Yes I have indeed! I have the Smackdown schedule infront of me!"
"Ah great! Well there's been some changes over night that I need you to correct before that goes out!"
"Go ahead!" I grabbed a pen.
"Ok, well Steph's in for definite!" I circled Stephanie's name on the list, "And Mark!" I circled The Undertaker's name, "Oh and he's bringing his wife so we may add her to the show, what do you think?"
"Well there's not much point in putting her on the list, I would say save it, if she turns up it'll be an extra!"
"Great idea! Anyway where was I?"
"Steph…." I looked around me again, "…phanie and Undertaker!" I nervously hovered the pen above 'Edge' waiting for him to say the name!
"Oh right well you can pen in Nathen too but make sure that the 'Subject To Change' clause is clearly visable because I don't know how that one is gonna work out just now!"
"Yes sir! Is that all?"
"For now yeah!" My heart sank, "Now about the Raw shows I wanted…"
"R….Raw shows? There's gonna be Raw shows too?" I glanced up at all the enquiring eyes again! "Ahem erm sir?"
"Yeah I thought you said you read your memos?" he laughed.
"Hang on!" I rifled through all of the papers, knocking half of them onto the floor, "I can't find it!"
"Ok I'll run through it now….or maybe I could call you at home later if that'll be easier?"
"Yes please!" I heaved a sigh of relief!
"Ok sweetheart! I'll call you tonight! Don't work too hard!" he laughed.
"Ok thankyou sir! Goodbye!"
I hung up the phone & about 2 seconds later half the office crowded around me desk!
***
When I got home that night I threw my purse onto the couch that was heaped with clothes that needed ironing, kicked off my shoes & opened a bottle of wine. I had to wash a glass, the place was a mess & I didn't care! I just couldn't be bothered! I ran a deep bubble bath & took my glass with me. How I ever lived like that I'll never know! I hadn't even picked up the mail from the floor infront of the door, I just stepped over it every night & ignored it! It was all bills anyway!
After my bath I threw on my robe, refilled my glass, switched on the stereo, threw the heaped up clothes onto the floor & lounged on the sofa! I closed my eyes to block out the mess & chaos that surrounded me & I thought about what had happened that day! I'd managed to convince the rest of the girls at work that Shane McMahon calling me was just a fluke, he needed to talk to someone & my name was on his list, nothing more! They seemed to believe me thank God! I couldn't be bothered with their questioning, but if they found out the real me, well I dreaded to think about it! My life wouldn't be worth living! It was worse than being at school!
The phone rang & snapped me back to reality!
"Hello?"
"Hey Bec it's Shane!"
I'd totally forgotten he was calling! "Oh hey Shane!"
"Ah are you ok?"
"Ah yeah, y'know!"
"Sorry about today! Are things THAT bad in the office?"
"No not really, they just don't know anything about me & I'd kinda like to keep it that way!"
"That's cool! I can understand that!"
"Thanks! So you were gonna tell me about Raw!"
"Oh yeah did you find the announcement?"
"Nope! Never got it! God knows where it ended up!"
"Ah ok! Well I have the list here if you want to write this down?"
"No just tell me, is Chris coming?"
"Jericho…..Jericho…..erm…yeah!"
"Oh that's fantastic! Maybe Betty will come over with him!" I smiled.
"Yeah! Erm don't you wanna ask about anyone else?"
"Umm no that's all!"
"Bec!"
"What?"
"Well don't you want to know if Jeff is coming?"
"No." My stomach lurched at the mention of his name, yes I did want to know but I was trying to convince myself I didn't! "Jeff has his own life to live same as I do!" There was a knock on the door, "Besides, he hasn't called me in God knows how long!" I walked to the door with the cordless phone still in my hand.
"Is that someone at your door?"
"Yeah it's cool I got it!" I pulled the door open & Shane McMahon stood there with his cell phone to his ear, grinning like a school kid!
"SURPRISE!!"