Lost, confused, Unkind (Sequel To "Freaked")
Chapter 84
I couldn't believe what I was hearing, Shane wanted to make me head of something! I'd never been head of anything in my entire life! I was a born follower not a born leader & I was scared to death of the offer he'd just made me!
"It doesn't make sense Shane! I mean Jesus at least let me work my way up!!"
"It would only be for a little while, until the Smackdown tour is over!"
"And then what?"
"And then we find you something else, anything more suitable for your talent than what you're doing right now!"
"Such as what? Shane I don't mind telling you right now this is scaring the shit out of me!"
Shane smiled & put his hand on my shoulder, "It'll be great, trust me!" I swallowed hard, "You are a born worrier ya know that?" He grinned, "Think of the challenge! Think of the carreer opportunity here! You can do this I know you can or I wouldn't be asking you! Listen I'm going to go back to the hotel, it's late, just tell me yes or no & I'll set the wheels in motion before I go back to America!"
"God Shane I don't know! Maybe my life isn't ready for this right now!"
"Maybe this is what your life needs right now Bec?" He raised his eyebrows & gently rubbed my shoulder.
"But why? I mean why are you doing this? Why me?"
"Because you can do it! You just proved my suspicions tonight!"
"Yeah nothing to do with Matt or that you feel sorry for me? I'm not a charity case Shane!"
"So do it for free then!" he winked, "Come on Bec yes or no?"
One word, that's all it was going to take to change my life! One simple little word & I'd never have to go back to that office or those people with their false nails & false friendships! It would be so easy but I found it so hard! In America kids are taught that they can be anything they want to be! 'Mom I want to be President!' "Well honey that's just marvelous!' In England if you strive for success people knock you down! It's just the way things are! 'Mum I want to be Primeminister!' 'Oh that's nice dear now drink your tea!' We are brought up to be pessimistic, always the glass half empty! As soon as we have drive and ambition we are told not to be so ridiculous! Ok so I wasn't exactly running for office here but the principle was the same! Nothing this good happens to people like me, what's the catch?
"What if I say yes & I can't do it? What if I screw everything up?"
"I'm not asking you to do this on your own! You will have people check things before they go out, people that have done this sort of thing before although I don't think your work will ever be knocked back! Relax! Just say yes & leave the rest to me ok?" I nodded slowly, "Great! Well I will be in touch with the details! In the meantime go back to that office & give them hell!" He smiled, kissed my cheek & left me there in shock!
The rest of the week past very slowly indeed! Friday came & I didn't think the day would ever end, but 5pm came around & everyone started to leave! I hadn't even told them I wasn't going back! They were all going to the pub but I declined, I hadn't been out all week, screw them! I just went home every night & opened a bottle of wine. Friday night was no different, until here was a knock on the door & there stood a guy with a clipboard!
"Delivery for you miss!" he handed me the board & I signed it, "Where do you want all of it?"
"All of what?"
The guy stood back and 3 other guys walked past me in the doorway with huge boxes, dumped them in the living room, went back for 3 more then 3 more! I was completely confused. They left & I stared at all the boxes in my living room! There was a letter attatched to one so I ripped open the envelope.
"BEC
Couldn't get an office so the office is coming to you! Hope you don't mind! There will be some 'muscle' around in the morning to help you set it up! Call me if there's a problem!
ShaneO xxx"
"Jesus!" I put my hand to my head & stared at the boxes! I didn't even open them, I just finished off my bottle of wine & crashed out on the couch!
I knew nothing more until 8am the next morning when I was woken by someone hammering on my door! My head hurt as I stood up to answer it & I ran a hand through my hair to try & tidy it up a little! If this was Shane's 'muscle' I wished he'd given me a couple of hours to tidy up a bit! God knows where they were going to set up this so called office, the flat was once again, a total mess!
"I'm coming! I'm coming! Jesus no need to….." I opened the door, there was muscle outside alright but it wasn't what I'd expected in a million years!
Chapter 84
I couldn't believe what I was hearing, Shane wanted to make me head of something! I'd never been head of anything in my entire life! I was a born follower not a born leader & I was scared to death of the offer he'd just made me!
"It doesn't make sense Shane! I mean Jesus at least let me work my way up!!"
"It would only be for a little while, until the Smackdown tour is over!"
"And then what?"
"And then we find you something else, anything more suitable for your talent than what you're doing right now!"
"Such as what? Shane I don't mind telling you right now this is scaring the shit out of me!"
Shane smiled & put his hand on my shoulder, "It'll be great, trust me!" I swallowed hard, "You are a born worrier ya know that?" He grinned, "Think of the challenge! Think of the carreer opportunity here! You can do this I know you can or I wouldn't be asking you! Listen I'm going to go back to the hotel, it's late, just tell me yes or no & I'll set the wheels in motion before I go back to America!"
"God Shane I don't know! Maybe my life isn't ready for this right now!"
"Maybe this is what your life needs right now Bec?" He raised his eyebrows & gently rubbed my shoulder.
"But why? I mean why are you doing this? Why me?"
"Because you can do it! You just proved my suspicions tonight!"
"Yeah nothing to do with Matt or that you feel sorry for me? I'm not a charity case Shane!"
"So do it for free then!" he winked, "Come on Bec yes or no?"
One word, that's all it was going to take to change my life! One simple little word & I'd never have to go back to that office or those people with their false nails & false friendships! It would be so easy but I found it so hard! In America kids are taught that they can be anything they want to be! 'Mom I want to be President!' "Well honey that's just marvelous!' In England if you strive for success people knock you down! It's just the way things are! 'Mum I want to be Primeminister!' 'Oh that's nice dear now drink your tea!' We are brought up to be pessimistic, always the glass half empty! As soon as we have drive and ambition we are told not to be so ridiculous! Ok so I wasn't exactly running for office here but the principle was the same! Nothing this good happens to people like me, what's the catch?
"What if I say yes & I can't do it? What if I screw everything up?"
"I'm not asking you to do this on your own! You will have people check things before they go out, people that have done this sort of thing before although I don't think your work will ever be knocked back! Relax! Just say yes & leave the rest to me ok?" I nodded slowly, "Great! Well I will be in touch with the details! In the meantime go back to that office & give them hell!" He smiled, kissed my cheek & left me there in shock!
The rest of the week past very slowly indeed! Friday came & I didn't think the day would ever end, but 5pm came around & everyone started to leave! I hadn't even told them I wasn't going back! They were all going to the pub but I declined, I hadn't been out all week, screw them! I just went home every night & opened a bottle of wine. Friday night was no different, until here was a knock on the door & there stood a guy with a clipboard!
"Delivery for you miss!" he handed me the board & I signed it, "Where do you want all of it?"
"All of what?"
The guy stood back and 3 other guys walked past me in the doorway with huge boxes, dumped them in the living room, went back for 3 more then 3 more! I was completely confused. They left & I stared at all the boxes in my living room! There was a letter attatched to one so I ripped open the envelope.
"BEC
Couldn't get an office so the office is coming to you! Hope you don't mind! There will be some 'muscle' around in the morning to help you set it up! Call me if there's a problem!
ShaneO xxx"
"Jesus!" I put my hand to my head & stared at the boxes! I didn't even open them, I just finished off my bottle of wine & crashed out on the couch!
I knew nothing more until 8am the next morning when I was woken by someone hammering on my door! My head hurt as I stood up to answer it & I ran a hand through my hair to try & tidy it up a little! If this was Shane's 'muscle' I wished he'd given me a couple of hours to tidy up a bit! God knows where they were going to set up this so called office, the flat was once again, a total mess!
"I'm coming! I'm coming! Jesus no need to….." I opened the door, there was muscle outside alright but it wasn't what I'd expected in a million years!