Lost confused unkind
Chapter 93
Later that day Sasha went out shopping with my sister but I didn't feel like it! Truthfully I needed time to think about quite a few things! I stood in my room staring out of the window but not really seeing anything, my mind was on other things like Jeff, Adam, Jude......and Dwayne! Why did every one of my problems have to do with a guy in one form or another?! The thing with Sasha & Adam had taken me by surprise that was for certain! Even though what me & Adam had at the time it meant nothing! But the more I thought about it I did feel a little jealous that now he was with Sasha! I couldn't figure out why though, if it had meant nothing then it shouldn't matter to me at all! but still I got that uneasy feeling in my stomach & I had to try & work out what the problem was not just for my sake, but for Sasha's and Adam's too!
I pulled a chair up to the window & sat down watching the people below going about their normal every day routines! Boring! I thought to myself! All of them boring! None of them grabbing life by the balls as Sasha had put it! I got a feeling of depression just watching them all drudging through another day, I didn't want to get like that! I bit on my thumbnail, one problem at a time girl! "Adam Adam Adam!" I whispered & ran my hand through my hair. Why the hell did I feel even an incling of something for him now when I never had done before? I smiled to myself & leaned forward in my chair. I had that was the problem! I'd always felt something for him I just never realised or never wanted to admit it before! what Adam & I had I felt like it was mine and it was being taken away.....no that was wrong! Sasha wasn't taking it away at all, that would always be mine! What I had with Adam wasn't what Sasha had with him, she was simply making her own time with him now! I just had to accept that & I knew I could! She was my friend & I hoped Adam & I could be friends too!
Ok so one problem over with, solved, simple! now....on to the next on the list! Dwayne! I put my head back on the chair & sprawled my legs out infront of me. Dwayne, my best friend, wants me to move to Florida with him! Why not? Well I couldn't think of any sensible objections! There was no reason for me not to go with him! "By the balls!" I whispered & smiled. Problem 2 solved! I looked up at the celing & laughed. "Shit!" I said out loud & then decided to go & give him the news! Jude & Jeff were problems I wasn't going to solve so easily so for now I decided to shelve them!
I went into the kitchen where Dwayne was once again eating!
"I don't know where you put all that shit!" I laughed as he took a bite from his sandwich, "Looks like Scooby & Shaggy made that thing!" He smiled & wiped his mouth.
"Gotta feed the machine honey!" he winked!
"Hmm....." I turned my back on him & went to the counter, "I hope you don't expect me to cook for you every 5 minutes....erm.....when I'm living with you!"
He jumped out of his seat! "Are you serious?"
I turned to face him and smiled, "I don't HAVE to marry you though right?"
He started laughing & put his arms around me, "No no no I swear that's not part of the deal!" I hugged him, "And erm....what about Jude then?"
"Ah that's next on my list! I am getting there slowly!"
"List?"
"List of fuck ups! Jude & Jeff are the only 2 left to figure out!"
"Oh ouch!" He drew in a breath through his teeth, "You need any help?"
"Nah! I think it's time for me to face up to my own problems & sort them out on my own!"
"Ok what got into you? Where did you put the real Bec?" He looked down at me!
"Nothin, well just something Sasha said about only living once!" I smiled, "Oh & something about grabbing balls but we won't get into that!"
"Oh no please do!" He guided me to the table & we both sat down.
"She's seeing Adam did you know?"
"Copeland?"
"No apple! Yes Copeland you idiot!"
"Shit no! I didn't know!"
I sighed & Nodded, "Yeah she told me this morning!"
"How do you feel about that?"
I shrugged my shoulders, "Ok I guess! oh & she thinks you're gay by the way!"
Dwayne coughed, choking on his sandwich! "WHAT?!!
I giggled, "Yeah it's a long story!" I looked over at him, "You're not gay right?"
"Don't you think you might have noticed bynow?" He raised his eyebrows, "But I should watch my back! I'm the only one in this house that hasn't screwed Copeland!" He winked & I shook my head & laughed.
"I think you're safe!" I patted his hand!
"So are you ready for Smackdown tomorrow?"
"Tomorrow??!" He nodded & took another bite from his sandwich, "Shit! I didn't realise it was tomorrow!"
"Are you comming along?"
"I don't know! I guess I'll see how I feel in the morning!"
"Well if my opinion counts for anything I think it'll do you good! I mean I'm not working so you can just hang with me all day if you like?"
I smiled, "Ya know I think you're right! It'll be better than sitting on my ass in this place all night on my own! Yeah I'll come along!"
"Cool!" Dwayne smiled & squeezed my hand. God what would I ever do without this guy?
Chapter 93
Later that day Sasha went out shopping with my sister but I didn't feel like it! Truthfully I needed time to think about quite a few things! I stood in my room staring out of the window but not really seeing anything, my mind was on other things like Jeff, Adam, Jude......and Dwayne! Why did every one of my problems have to do with a guy in one form or another?! The thing with Sasha & Adam had taken me by surprise that was for certain! Even though what me & Adam had at the time it meant nothing! But the more I thought about it I did feel a little jealous that now he was with Sasha! I couldn't figure out why though, if it had meant nothing then it shouldn't matter to me at all! but still I got that uneasy feeling in my stomach & I had to try & work out what the problem was not just for my sake, but for Sasha's and Adam's too!
I pulled a chair up to the window & sat down watching the people below going about their normal every day routines! Boring! I thought to myself! All of them boring! None of them grabbing life by the balls as Sasha had put it! I got a feeling of depression just watching them all drudging through another day, I didn't want to get like that! I bit on my thumbnail, one problem at a time girl! "Adam Adam Adam!" I whispered & ran my hand through my hair. Why the hell did I feel even an incling of something for him now when I never had done before? I smiled to myself & leaned forward in my chair. I had that was the problem! I'd always felt something for him I just never realised or never wanted to admit it before! what Adam & I had I felt like it was mine and it was being taken away.....no that was wrong! Sasha wasn't taking it away at all, that would always be mine! What I had with Adam wasn't what Sasha had with him, she was simply making her own time with him now! I just had to accept that & I knew I could! She was my friend & I hoped Adam & I could be friends too!
Ok so one problem over with, solved, simple! now....on to the next on the list! Dwayne! I put my head back on the chair & sprawled my legs out infront of me. Dwayne, my best friend, wants me to move to Florida with him! Why not? Well I couldn't think of any sensible objections! There was no reason for me not to go with him! "By the balls!" I whispered & smiled. Problem 2 solved! I looked up at the celing & laughed. "Shit!" I said out loud & then decided to go & give him the news! Jude & Jeff were problems I wasn't going to solve so easily so for now I decided to shelve them!
I went into the kitchen where Dwayne was once again eating!
"I don't know where you put all that shit!" I laughed as he took a bite from his sandwich, "Looks like Scooby & Shaggy made that thing!" He smiled & wiped his mouth.
"Gotta feed the machine honey!" he winked!
"Hmm....." I turned my back on him & went to the counter, "I hope you don't expect me to cook for you every 5 minutes....erm.....when I'm living with you!"
He jumped out of his seat! "Are you serious?"
I turned to face him and smiled, "I don't HAVE to marry you though right?"
He started laughing & put his arms around me, "No no no I swear that's not part of the deal!" I hugged him, "And erm....what about Jude then?"
"Ah that's next on my list! I am getting there slowly!"
"List?"
"List of fuck ups! Jude & Jeff are the only 2 left to figure out!"
"Oh ouch!" He drew in a breath through his teeth, "You need any help?"
"Nah! I think it's time for me to face up to my own problems & sort them out on my own!"
"Ok what got into you? Where did you put the real Bec?" He looked down at me!
"Nothin, well just something Sasha said about only living once!" I smiled, "Oh & something about grabbing balls but we won't get into that!"
"Oh no please do!" He guided me to the table & we both sat down.
"She's seeing Adam did you know?"
"Copeland?"
"No apple! Yes Copeland you idiot!"
"Shit no! I didn't know!"
I sighed & Nodded, "Yeah she told me this morning!"
"How do you feel about that?"
I shrugged my shoulders, "Ok I guess! oh & she thinks you're gay by the way!"
Dwayne coughed, choking on his sandwich! "WHAT?!!
I giggled, "Yeah it's a long story!" I looked over at him, "You're not gay right?"
"Don't you think you might have noticed bynow?" He raised his eyebrows, "But I should watch my back! I'm the only one in this house that hasn't screwed Copeland!" He winked & I shook my head & laughed.
"I think you're safe!" I patted his hand!
"So are you ready for Smackdown tomorrow?"
"Tomorrow??!" He nodded & took another bite from his sandwich, "Shit! I didn't realise it was tomorrow!"
"Are you comming along?"
"I don't know! I guess I'll see how I feel in the morning!"
"Well if my opinion counts for anything I think it'll do you good! I mean I'm not working so you can just hang with me all day if you like?"
I smiled, "Ya know I think you're right! It'll be better than sitting on my ass in this place all night on my own! Yeah I'll come along!"
"Cool!" Dwayne smiled & squeezed my hand. God what would I ever do without this guy?