Lost, Confused Unkind
Chapter 96
It took me a while to get my barings back once I was downstairs among the corridors but I was eventually convinced I was headed in the direction of Shane's room! As I past one of the locker rooms the door was open so I glanced in & raised a hand at Torrie and some of the other girls that I'd never seen before. Torrie said hi & the rest of tham smiled & I headed on my way. I got to the end of the corridor & literally bumped into Adam!
"Sorry I wasn't watching where I was going!" I laughed.
"That's ok! I'm looking for Sasha actually! She came to find you ages ago! Have you seen her?"
I shook my head. "Nope! I was up in the cafe having a coffee with Shannon!"
"Ah right! Where are you headed now?"
"To find Dwayne! I hope he's still in shane's room!" Adam smiled & pointed in the direction I'd just come from! I sighed, "Man I have a hopeless sense of direction!"
"Not to worry! I'll come with you! Maybe Sasha found dwayne!"
We started to walk back the way I'd just come & as we passed the woman's locker room I heard my name mentioned so I stopped.
"What's the..."
"Shhhhh!" I cut Adam off mid sentance so I could listen!
"Yeah well she was Matt Hardy's girlfriend when he died!" I heard Torrie say.
"No shit?" said another female voice.
"Yeah! She has his kid although...." she lowered her voice, "Between me & you it's been said the kid aint even his!"
My eyes widened & Adam took hold of my arm to lead me away. "Come on!" He whispered but I shrugged him off!
"You're kidding?" One of the girls whispered.
"Nope!" Torrie said smugly!
"So who's is it then?"
"Hey I never said it WASN'T his! It's just a rumor that's all!"
"Oh come on Torrie!"
"Ok but you can't tell anyone & you didn't hear this from me right?"
There was a chorus of 'sure!' and 'no problem' from the girls in the room.
"Well from what I heard......it's Jeff's kid!"
"NO WAY!!" they giggled. My stomach lurched & I felt sick! Adam it his lip then looked down at his feet.
"Yeah but you never heard it from me you swear?"
I started to walk away but Adam grabbed my arm. "Bec!"
"No!" I yanked my arm free & hurried along the corridor with tears stinging my eyes. I found an emergancy exit & shoved open the door finding myself in the parking lot & alone! I slumped to the floor, pulled my knees up to my chest and leaned my back against the wall. I tried so hard not to cry but I just couldn't help it! I was just so sick of the whole Jeff bullshit! It physically drained me.....maybe Sasha had been right after all? Maybe it wasn't worth all the stress & heartache. The door opened & I quickly wiped my face on my sleeve.
"We really do have to stop meeting in parking lots!" Adam smiled & sat his ass down beside me on the ground. "Hey come on pay no attention to that lot! They're like the WWE covern or somethin'!" he nudged me & I forced a smile.
"Is that what everyone is saying about me? About my son?"
"No!"
"Have you heard it before? That Jude isn't Matt's?" Adam looked at the sky & sighed. "Be honest with me Adam! Is that shit the talk of the locker room or what?"
"Look, I said pay no attention! They're just bitches!"
"You haven't answered my question!"
He sighed, "Ok I had heard it before but it was ages ago! No one is talking about it now and trust me most of the guys nailed that rumor as soon as they heard it!" he touched my arm. "Forget it!"
I looked down at the ground, "How can I forget it? Everyone thinks that I....that I'm a slut and..."
"No one thinks that! No way!"
"So what ARE they thinking huh? That I was fucking Jeff the minute Matt died? Or...or worse maybe they think I was fucking them both at the same time!"
"No!"
"Y'know I knew this was a bad fucking idea! Even when I woke up this morning I knew I should just stay home! Dammit!" I stood up. "I wish I had! Maybe I'll just go now!"
Adam stood up, "Don't do that! Wait!" He grabbed my arm & spun me around. It was weird! It was like our eyes locked & I had no strength to turn away! We just stared at each other unblinking & unmoving! Alarm bells rang in my head & all I wanted to do was turn & run but I couldn't! The only other person that had ever had that effect on me had been Matt! It scared me! We must have stood there like that for over a minute!
"There you a....." We both spun around, the spell broken at last!
"Sasha!" Adam seemed to shake his head slightly as if he was trying to clear it!
"What's going on?" She looked from one of us to the other with a puzzled & suspicious look on her face!
"Nothin!" Adam forced a smile. "We....we.....were looking for you actually! And....and Dwayne!" (Nice try at not sounding guilty Copeland!)
"I'm just....." I gestured to the door & stepped towards it, ".....ah see ya .....later....or something!" I pulled open the door & stepped inside! I had a really weird feeling like someone had been inside my head trampling around with huge boots on! As I stood in the corridor with one hand on my forehead trying to clear my head I suddenly realised I hadn't taken my pills that morning!
Chapter 96
It took me a while to get my barings back once I was downstairs among the corridors but I was eventually convinced I was headed in the direction of Shane's room! As I past one of the locker rooms the door was open so I glanced in & raised a hand at Torrie and some of the other girls that I'd never seen before. Torrie said hi & the rest of tham smiled & I headed on my way. I got to the end of the corridor & literally bumped into Adam!
"Sorry I wasn't watching where I was going!" I laughed.
"That's ok! I'm looking for Sasha actually! She came to find you ages ago! Have you seen her?"
I shook my head. "Nope! I was up in the cafe having a coffee with Shannon!"
"Ah right! Where are you headed now?"
"To find Dwayne! I hope he's still in shane's room!" Adam smiled & pointed in the direction I'd just come from! I sighed, "Man I have a hopeless sense of direction!"
"Not to worry! I'll come with you! Maybe Sasha found dwayne!"
We started to walk back the way I'd just come & as we passed the woman's locker room I heard my name mentioned so I stopped.
"What's the..."
"Shhhhh!" I cut Adam off mid sentance so I could listen!
"Yeah well she was Matt Hardy's girlfriend when he died!" I heard Torrie say.
"No shit?" said another female voice.
"Yeah! She has his kid although...." she lowered her voice, "Between me & you it's been said the kid aint even his!"
My eyes widened & Adam took hold of my arm to lead me away. "Come on!" He whispered but I shrugged him off!
"You're kidding?" One of the girls whispered.
"Nope!" Torrie said smugly!
"So who's is it then?"
"Hey I never said it WASN'T his! It's just a rumor that's all!"
"Oh come on Torrie!"
"Ok but you can't tell anyone & you didn't hear this from me right?"
There was a chorus of 'sure!' and 'no problem' from the girls in the room.
"Well from what I heard......it's Jeff's kid!"
"NO WAY!!" they giggled. My stomach lurched & I felt sick! Adam it his lip then looked down at his feet.
"Yeah but you never heard it from me you swear?"
I started to walk away but Adam grabbed my arm. "Bec!"
"No!" I yanked my arm free & hurried along the corridor with tears stinging my eyes. I found an emergancy exit & shoved open the door finding myself in the parking lot & alone! I slumped to the floor, pulled my knees up to my chest and leaned my back against the wall. I tried so hard not to cry but I just couldn't help it! I was just so sick of the whole Jeff bullshit! It physically drained me.....maybe Sasha had been right after all? Maybe it wasn't worth all the stress & heartache. The door opened & I quickly wiped my face on my sleeve.
"We really do have to stop meeting in parking lots!" Adam smiled & sat his ass down beside me on the ground. "Hey come on pay no attention to that lot! They're like the WWE covern or somethin'!" he nudged me & I forced a smile.
"Is that what everyone is saying about me? About my son?"
"No!"
"Have you heard it before? That Jude isn't Matt's?" Adam looked at the sky & sighed. "Be honest with me Adam! Is that shit the talk of the locker room or what?"
"Look, I said pay no attention! They're just bitches!"
"You haven't answered my question!"
He sighed, "Ok I had heard it before but it was ages ago! No one is talking about it now and trust me most of the guys nailed that rumor as soon as they heard it!" he touched my arm. "Forget it!"
I looked down at the ground, "How can I forget it? Everyone thinks that I....that I'm a slut and..."
"No one thinks that! No way!"
"So what ARE they thinking huh? That I was fucking Jeff the minute Matt died? Or...or worse maybe they think I was fucking them both at the same time!"
"No!"
"Y'know I knew this was a bad fucking idea! Even when I woke up this morning I knew I should just stay home! Dammit!" I stood up. "I wish I had! Maybe I'll just go now!"
Adam stood up, "Don't do that! Wait!" He grabbed my arm & spun me around. It was weird! It was like our eyes locked & I had no strength to turn away! We just stared at each other unblinking & unmoving! Alarm bells rang in my head & all I wanted to do was turn & run but I couldn't! The only other person that had ever had that effect on me had been Matt! It scared me! We must have stood there like that for over a minute!
"There you a....." We both spun around, the spell broken at last!
"Sasha!" Adam seemed to shake his head slightly as if he was trying to clear it!
"What's going on?" She looked from one of us to the other with a puzzled & suspicious look on her face!
"Nothin!" Adam forced a smile. "We....we.....were looking for you actually! And....and Dwayne!" (Nice try at not sounding guilty Copeland!)
"I'm just....." I gestured to the door & stepped towards it, ".....ah see ya .....later....or something!" I pulled open the door & stepped inside! I had a really weird feeling like someone had been inside my head trampling around with huge boots on! As I stood in the corridor with one hand on my forehead trying to clear my head I suddenly realised I hadn't taken my pills that morning!