Lost Confused Unkind
Chapter 100
I stood up & backed into a corner, all the while scanning the room, looking for a sign that I wasn't alone! I was shaking all over & still had my hands over my ears! I heard a noise & squeezed my eyes tightly shut as I turned my face into the wall.
"Go away!" I whispered.
"Bec?" I froze as I felt a hand take hold of mine. "Hey what's wrong?" It suddenly hit me who's voice it was & I felt like such an idiot! Slowly I opened my eyes, " Are you ok? You want me to go & get someone?"
I swallowed, "Adam! N....no I'm fine!" I quickly wiped my face, "I'm sorry I thought this room was empty!"
"Hey that's ok I was just in the shower and I heard someone shout! You had me worried!" He smiled, "Are you sure you don't want me to go and get someone? Sasha? Dwayne?"
"No really I'm ok!" I looked down to see him in only his tight black jeans & suddenly felt the urge to leave as quickly as I could! "I'm just gonna.....erm....go!" I took a step towards the door.
"You can stay if you wanna hang out here for a while?"
"No! Thankyou but I think I'll just go & find Dwayne!" I turned the handle, "Oh and Adam?"
"Yeah?"
"Since when did you start using Tommy? It stinks man!"
"Tommy? I er....I don't use Tommy! Why?"
I sniffed the air again, he wasn't lying, the smell had gone! "Oh...um....my mistake!" I pulled open the door to see Jeff comming along the corridor! In a reflex reaction I quickly shut the door again & turned my back to it! "Shit!"
"What's wrong?"
"Oh ah....." I sighed, "Jeff's outside!" I smiled sheepishly at him.
"And? You're in here now that doesn't figure!" He put his hands on his hips, "You don't want to see him I take it?"
"Not right now! Do you mind if I hang here for a while?"
"Of course I don't!" He smiled & gestured to the bench but before I could move there was a knock on the door. I stared at Adam! "Who is it?" He shouted.
"Adam is that you dude?"
"Shit!" I whispered.
"Ok shhh! Get in there!" He pulled on my arm & shoved me into the bathroom & closed the door quietly. "Yeah Jeff it's me! Come in!" I heard him shout. There was a couple of minutes of the usual 'How have you been? how's work?' etc & then I heard Jeff ask if he'd seen me! I held my breath!
"Bec? Um no no can't say that I have! She's probably with Sasha and Dwayne somewhere!"
"Ah right! Ok well if you see her can you tell her I'm looing for her & we need to talk?"
"Sure! Things ok with you two?" Adam asked.
"Ah no not really but I hope,.......ah it doesn't matter! Just give her the message will ya?"
"No worries!"
"Ok see ya & good luck for your match tonight! Eddie right?"
"Chavo!"
"Ah right! God luck!"
"Thanks man!"
I heard the door close, "Ok you can come out now!" I slowly opened the door & crept into the room rolling my eyes. Adam laughed, "You owe me big time!"
"Yeah! Thanks for that Adam!"
"Now you wanna tell me what's goin on?" He patted the bench beside where he was sitting & I sat down & leaned my head against the wall.
"Oh nothing! Just the usual!"
"And that is?"
"Bec fucks up again! Same old same old!"
He smiled & shook his head, "What have you done now?"
" I think.....well it's complicated! You don't wanna know!" I forced a smile.
"Sure I do!" He patted my leg. Damn how I wished he would put a shirt on!
"Well I think Jeff thought that I would just fall at his feet....ok I thought that too to be honest but......oh I dunno! It's weird!"
"You were in love with jeff right?"
"Hmm..."
"And now you're not?"Adam raised his eyebrows & I shook my head, "That's not weird!"
"It's not?"
"Hell no! Things change! People change! I mean you haven't seen each other in a while!"
"Yeah I know but I'm starting to think maybe I never actually loved him in the first place!"
"Not necessarilly!"
"How do you figure that?" I smiled at him & he shrugged his shoulders.
"People fall out of love as easilly as they fall into it sometimes!"
"This wicked world we live in!" I smiled & tucked my hair behind my ear. (Please God make him put a fucking shirt on!) "You sound as though you're speaking from experiance?"
"Yeah maybe!"
"Is everything ok with you & sasha?" I wrinkled my brow.
"What? Oh yeah yeah! Everything's great!"
"So you gonna tell me what you meant?"
"I'm just being phylosophical!"
"Betcha can't spell that!" I winked.
"Listen matey do you wanna hear my theory on life or not?" He nudged me. (Why wasn't he fully dressed???)
"Ok go on! I'm on the Edge of my seat!"
"Wouldn't you rather be on the seat of your Edge?" he wiggled his eyebrows & patted his lap!
"Asshole! I giggled, "Ok come on then! Life according to Copeland! What's your theory?"
"Well I just think that time away from someone can make you realise that maybe you don't need them anymore like you thought you did! Sometimes it gives you the chance to get them out of your head & see that you can live without them around!" I nodded slowly, "But sometimes it works the opposite! It makes you realise that when they aren't there you constantly crave to be around them!" We stared at each other & I gulped.
"Does it?" I said quietly & he nodded slowly as he looked into my eyes. "Well I think you're wrong!" I snapped at him & stood up quickly but he grabbed my arm & turned me to face him.
"Bec!"
"Adam no!" I whispered.
Chapter 100
I stood up & backed into a corner, all the while scanning the room, looking for a sign that I wasn't alone! I was shaking all over & still had my hands over my ears! I heard a noise & squeezed my eyes tightly shut as I turned my face into the wall.
"Go away!" I whispered.
"Bec?" I froze as I felt a hand take hold of mine. "Hey what's wrong?" It suddenly hit me who's voice it was & I felt like such an idiot! Slowly I opened my eyes, " Are you ok? You want me to go & get someone?"
I swallowed, "Adam! N....no I'm fine!" I quickly wiped my face, "I'm sorry I thought this room was empty!"
"Hey that's ok I was just in the shower and I heard someone shout! You had me worried!" He smiled, "Are you sure you don't want me to go and get someone? Sasha? Dwayne?"
"No really I'm ok!" I looked down to see him in only his tight black jeans & suddenly felt the urge to leave as quickly as I could! "I'm just gonna.....erm....go!" I took a step towards the door.
"You can stay if you wanna hang out here for a while?"
"No! Thankyou but I think I'll just go & find Dwayne!" I turned the handle, "Oh and Adam?"
"Yeah?"
"Since when did you start using Tommy? It stinks man!"
"Tommy? I er....I don't use Tommy! Why?"
I sniffed the air again, he wasn't lying, the smell had gone! "Oh...um....my mistake!" I pulled open the door to see Jeff comming along the corridor! In a reflex reaction I quickly shut the door again & turned my back to it! "Shit!"
"What's wrong?"
"Oh ah....." I sighed, "Jeff's outside!" I smiled sheepishly at him.
"And? You're in here now that doesn't figure!" He put his hands on his hips, "You don't want to see him I take it?"
"Not right now! Do you mind if I hang here for a while?"
"Of course I don't!" He smiled & gestured to the bench but before I could move there was a knock on the door. I stared at Adam! "Who is it?" He shouted.
"Adam is that you dude?"
"Shit!" I whispered.
"Ok shhh! Get in there!" He pulled on my arm & shoved me into the bathroom & closed the door quietly. "Yeah Jeff it's me! Come in!" I heard him shout. There was a couple of minutes of the usual 'How have you been? how's work?' etc & then I heard Jeff ask if he'd seen me! I held my breath!
"Bec? Um no no can't say that I have! She's probably with Sasha and Dwayne somewhere!"
"Ah right! Ok well if you see her can you tell her I'm looing for her & we need to talk?"
"Sure! Things ok with you two?" Adam asked.
"Ah no not really but I hope,.......ah it doesn't matter! Just give her the message will ya?"
"No worries!"
"Ok see ya & good luck for your match tonight! Eddie right?"
"Chavo!"
"Ah right! God luck!"
"Thanks man!"
I heard the door close, "Ok you can come out now!" I slowly opened the door & crept into the room rolling my eyes. Adam laughed, "You owe me big time!"
"Yeah! Thanks for that Adam!"
"Now you wanna tell me what's goin on?" He patted the bench beside where he was sitting & I sat down & leaned my head against the wall.
"Oh nothing! Just the usual!"
"And that is?"
"Bec fucks up again! Same old same old!"
He smiled & shook his head, "What have you done now?"
" I think.....well it's complicated! You don't wanna know!" I forced a smile.
"Sure I do!" He patted my leg. Damn how I wished he would put a shirt on!
"Well I think Jeff thought that I would just fall at his feet....ok I thought that too to be honest but......oh I dunno! It's weird!"
"You were in love with jeff right?"
"Hmm..."
"And now you're not?"Adam raised his eyebrows & I shook my head, "That's not weird!"
"It's not?"
"Hell no! Things change! People change! I mean you haven't seen each other in a while!"
"Yeah I know but I'm starting to think maybe I never actually loved him in the first place!"
"Not necessarilly!"
"How do you figure that?" I smiled at him & he shrugged his shoulders.
"People fall out of love as easilly as they fall into it sometimes!"
"This wicked world we live in!" I smiled & tucked my hair behind my ear. (Please God make him put a fucking shirt on!) "You sound as though you're speaking from experiance?"
"Yeah maybe!"
"Is everything ok with you & sasha?" I wrinkled my brow.
"What? Oh yeah yeah! Everything's great!"
"So you gonna tell me what you meant?"
"I'm just being phylosophical!"
"Betcha can't spell that!" I winked.
"Listen matey do you wanna hear my theory on life or not?" He nudged me. (Why wasn't he fully dressed???)
"Ok go on! I'm on the Edge of my seat!"
"Wouldn't you rather be on the seat of your Edge?" he wiggled his eyebrows & patted his lap!
"Asshole! I giggled, "Ok come on then! Life according to Copeland! What's your theory?"
"Well I just think that time away from someone can make you realise that maybe you don't need them anymore like you thought you did! Sometimes it gives you the chance to get them out of your head & see that you can live without them around!" I nodded slowly, "But sometimes it works the opposite! It makes you realise that when they aren't there you constantly crave to be around them!" We stared at each other & I gulped.
"Does it?" I said quietly & he nodded slowly as he looked into my eyes. "Well I think you're wrong!" I snapped at him & stood up quickly but he grabbed my arm & turned me to face him.
"Bec!"
"Adam no!" I whispered.