Lost Confused Unkind
Chapter 107
I eventually found Jeff's locker room & knocked on the door. I was greeted not by Jeff but by a half naked super hero!
"SHANE!"
"BEC! Err....." he fumbled with the towel around his waist, "Hi! Erm I didn't expect to..." he gestured to the towel.
"Hmm.....obviously not!" I smirked, "Is Jeff here?"
"Yeah he's just in the bathroom....come in! He's gettin ready for the show!"
I stepped inside, "Ah putting on the war paint you mean?"
"Yeah!" Shane laughed, "Something like that! Have a seat! I'm sure he won't be long!"
"Erm...knowing Jeff & his 'art' I'd say I was in for a fair wait! Can you just look and see if he's decent?"
"Sure! JEEEEFF! DUDE!" He hammered on the door, "You butt naked in there?"
"NO why?"
Shane gestured to the door, "Go on! He's all yours!" he smiled.
I thanked him & slowly pushed open the door. Jeff was standing with his back to me, looking into a long mirror & dabbing paint onto his shoulder. He stopped for a second when he saw my reflection.
"Hi Jeff!" I said quietly.
"Hi." he went back to his paint.
I cleared my throat, "Ah I wanted to appologise for what I did earlier! I didn't mean it!"
"Yeah? It was a pretty good shot for an accident!"
"Are you pissed at me?" I put on my best 'puppy dog' look as I stepped closer to him.
He sighed & looked down at his feet, "No, but you didn't have to boot me in the nuts Bec! Jesus!"
"I'm sorry!"
"Ok!"
"You're fucking up the blue part!" He sighed & held the brush out to the side so I walked over & took it from him. "I really didn't mean to kick you in the balls y'know?" I dabbed the blue paint onto his shoulder, "It was just a reflex reaction!" I smirked.
"Oh so it's funny now?"
"I'm sorry!" I burst out laughing & he eventually gave in & smiled.
"It's not funny!"
"So what are you smiling at?" I giggled. "Ok I'm serious stop it or I'll be the one fucking up this paint! It'll look like someone's just thrown the whole damn pot at you!"
"So what was it all about? You & Sasha I mean?"
I turned him sideways as I continued to paint, "It was about her trying to get through to me and about me not wanting to hear the truth!"
"The truth about Matt?"
"Yeah!" I said quietly, "She said a lot of things that made sense!" I turned him to face me again, "I do need to try & sort my life out, I guess I just don't know how to do it right now! There! How's that?"
Jeff didn't even turn to look in the mirror, he just stood there staring into space. "Jeff?"
"Huh? Oh...." he turned around, "Yeah that's great! Thakyou!"
"Something on your mind?" I started to clear away the brushes & little pots of paint.
"Yeah actually.....you are!"
I froze & swallowed hard. "Well I shouldn't be!"
"Why not?"
"Jeff we've been through this!"
"Don't move to Miami!"
"What?"
"You heard me! Don't go!"
"I....I can't just NOT go!"
"You can do whatever you want to do!"
"And what if what I want to do is go to Miami with dwayne! Jeff where has this come from?"
"I just......" he turned away from me, "I want you to come back to Cameron....be with Jude!" He hung his head, "be with me!"
"I can't do that not right now!"
"Then when? I mean will there ever be a time at all?"
I turned him to face me, "I hope so Jeff, really I do! I mean it!"
"Then why wait? I don't understand!"
"Because I can't share my life with anyone until I have my head straight! I need to be me for a while just to put things in perspective ok?" He looked at his feet, "Jeff we talked about this already! I thought you understood!"
"I don't understand but....if that's what you need to do then..." he shrugged his shoulders, "I'm just scared....that you won't come back at all!"
I Smiled, "I will! I dunno when but it will happen!" I touched his cheek, "Just let me figure a few things out first ok?"
"Yeah or you might just run off & fall in love with Dwanye!" he laughed!
"Oh God no!" I laughed, "No no no! He would drive me crazy!" I smiled, "I just need to get sorted out!"
"Maybe I can help?"
"Help what?"
"Help you get things figured out!" He leaned in & I felt his lips on mine. It was so unexpected that I caught my breath slightly. I closed my eyes & let it happen. I felt his tongue in my mouth as he held my face with both of his hands & I responded with my own as I ran my hands through his hair slowly. There was something there......something on the verge of what we'd once had & I was so glad to feel it! Ok it wasn't exactly the 'knock you on your ass' kiss that we'd had in the past but damn it was better than nothing! When we parted he kept his hands on my face.
"Did that help?" He said almost breathlessly & I smiled.
"A little!"
He kissed me again, this time deeper than the first until I could barely breathe.
"Guys I just need..........OOOOOPS! Sorry!" Shane closed the bathroom door quickly.
"I guess I should go.....get cleaned up before the show!" I smiled.
Jeff bit on his lip, "Yeah..........guess I better let Shane in before he pees in his tights!"
We both laughed, "See you around then?" I said as I made for the door.
"Yeah I hope so!" He smiled. Finally he let go of my hand & smiled one more time before I left him.
Chapter 107
I eventually found Jeff's locker room & knocked on the door. I was greeted not by Jeff but by a half naked super hero!
"SHANE!"
"BEC! Err....." he fumbled with the towel around his waist, "Hi! Erm I didn't expect to..." he gestured to the towel.
"Hmm.....obviously not!" I smirked, "Is Jeff here?"
"Yeah he's just in the bathroom....come in! He's gettin ready for the show!"
I stepped inside, "Ah putting on the war paint you mean?"
"Yeah!" Shane laughed, "Something like that! Have a seat! I'm sure he won't be long!"
"Erm...knowing Jeff & his 'art' I'd say I was in for a fair wait! Can you just look and see if he's decent?"
"Sure! JEEEEFF! DUDE!" He hammered on the door, "You butt naked in there?"
"NO why?"
Shane gestured to the door, "Go on! He's all yours!" he smiled.
I thanked him & slowly pushed open the door. Jeff was standing with his back to me, looking into a long mirror & dabbing paint onto his shoulder. He stopped for a second when he saw my reflection.
"Hi Jeff!" I said quietly.
"Hi." he went back to his paint.
I cleared my throat, "Ah I wanted to appologise for what I did earlier! I didn't mean it!"
"Yeah? It was a pretty good shot for an accident!"
"Are you pissed at me?" I put on my best 'puppy dog' look as I stepped closer to him.
He sighed & looked down at his feet, "No, but you didn't have to boot me in the nuts Bec! Jesus!"
"I'm sorry!"
"Ok!"
"You're fucking up the blue part!" He sighed & held the brush out to the side so I walked over & took it from him. "I really didn't mean to kick you in the balls y'know?" I dabbed the blue paint onto his shoulder, "It was just a reflex reaction!" I smirked.
"Oh so it's funny now?"
"I'm sorry!" I burst out laughing & he eventually gave in & smiled.
"It's not funny!"
"So what are you smiling at?" I giggled. "Ok I'm serious stop it or I'll be the one fucking up this paint! It'll look like someone's just thrown the whole damn pot at you!"
"So what was it all about? You & Sasha I mean?"
I turned him sideways as I continued to paint, "It was about her trying to get through to me and about me not wanting to hear the truth!"
"The truth about Matt?"
"Yeah!" I said quietly, "She said a lot of things that made sense!" I turned him to face me again, "I do need to try & sort my life out, I guess I just don't know how to do it right now! There! How's that?"
Jeff didn't even turn to look in the mirror, he just stood there staring into space. "Jeff?"
"Huh? Oh...." he turned around, "Yeah that's great! Thakyou!"
"Something on your mind?" I started to clear away the brushes & little pots of paint.
"Yeah actually.....you are!"
I froze & swallowed hard. "Well I shouldn't be!"
"Why not?"
"Jeff we've been through this!"
"Don't move to Miami!"
"What?"
"You heard me! Don't go!"
"I....I can't just NOT go!"
"You can do whatever you want to do!"
"And what if what I want to do is go to Miami with dwayne! Jeff where has this come from?"
"I just......" he turned away from me, "I want you to come back to Cameron....be with Jude!" He hung his head, "be with me!"
"I can't do that not right now!"
"Then when? I mean will there ever be a time at all?"
I turned him to face me, "I hope so Jeff, really I do! I mean it!"
"Then why wait? I don't understand!"
"Because I can't share my life with anyone until I have my head straight! I need to be me for a while just to put things in perspective ok?" He looked at his feet, "Jeff we talked about this already! I thought you understood!"
"I don't understand but....if that's what you need to do then..." he shrugged his shoulders, "I'm just scared....that you won't come back at all!"
I Smiled, "I will! I dunno when but it will happen!" I touched his cheek, "Just let me figure a few things out first ok?"
"Yeah or you might just run off & fall in love with Dwanye!" he laughed!
"Oh God no!" I laughed, "No no no! He would drive me crazy!" I smiled, "I just need to get sorted out!"
"Maybe I can help?"
"Help what?"
"Help you get things figured out!" He leaned in & I felt his lips on mine. It was so unexpected that I caught my breath slightly. I closed my eyes & let it happen. I felt his tongue in my mouth as he held my face with both of his hands & I responded with my own as I ran my hands through his hair slowly. There was something there......something on the verge of what we'd once had & I was so glad to feel it! Ok it wasn't exactly the 'knock you on your ass' kiss that we'd had in the past but damn it was better than nothing! When we parted he kept his hands on my face.
"Did that help?" He said almost breathlessly & I smiled.
"A little!"
He kissed me again, this time deeper than the first until I could barely breathe.
"Guys I just need..........OOOOOPS! Sorry!" Shane closed the bathroom door quickly.
"I guess I should go.....get cleaned up before the show!" I smiled.
Jeff bit on his lip, "Yeah..........guess I better let Shane in before he pees in his tights!"
We both laughed, "See you around then?" I said as I made for the door.
"Yeah I hope so!" He smiled. Finally he let go of my hand & smiled one more time before I left him.