Lost Confused Unkind
Chapter 113
"Is he ok?" I asked as I pushed past Adam & out into the hall.
"I don't know! Woah! Slow down a minute!" He grabbed my arm & spun me around, "Just....wait a minute ok? We can't go in & see him yet, they are still running some tests & they'll let us know when we can go in!"
I sighed, "Ok! Ok! Dammit!" I bit on my nail.
"Why don't you go & see Jeff while we're waiting?"
I looked down at the floor, "ok! Are you comming?"
"Erm....no! I'll just go & give Sasha another ring give her an update!"
"Fine!" I went to walk away but he still held tight to my arm.
"Bec?" I looked up at him & he smiled, "It'll be ok y'know, Dwayne I mean! he's a tough cookie! he'll pull through you'll see!"
I bit on my lip, "And what if he doesn't Adam? I don't think I can.." Before my tears even fell I found myself in Adam's arms.
"He will get through this Bec!" he said over my shouler, "Come on! Don't cry!"
"Don't tell me not to cry!" I said through gritted teeth & pulled back from him, "Just don't say that! OK?"
Adam nodded, slightly confused as to why I was throwing such a fit over it! "Ok! Sorry!"
I swallowed hard, "I'm gonna see Jeff!" I rushed along the corridor before Adam could say any more. I stood in the doorway of Jeff's room for a moment, watching him as he lay dozing on the bed. his entire chest was bandaged up. God what had I done? Why couldn't he have just stayed away? Without thinking I turned back into the corridor, I needed some answers.
I found Steve's room & slowly pushed open the door. The person lying on the bed didn't even look like Steve but still I felt nothing for him. He was an evil bastard as far as I was concerned & what had happened to him tonight had been a long time comming! He opened one eye as I approached the bed that was surrounded by tubes and monitors.
"Bec?" He croaked.
"Why did you do it Steve?" I said quietly. He closed his eye & turned his head away from me slightly. "You rigged the ropes?" He nodded slowly & I took a deep breath, "Why did you drive the truck into a wall?"
"I can't stand it anymore!" His voice was rasping & I had to move closer to hear him, "He won't go away! I just want to die!"
"Who are you talking about? Jeff?" I was confused.
"You know what it's like!" He coughed & I took a step back to avoid whatever was showering out of his mouth, "You know! He won't leave me alone!"
"I don't know! Who are you talking about Steve?"
"I just want him to go aw..." Monitors started beeping.
"Steve! Tell me! Tell me who won't go away!" I said panicking. within seconds the door flew open & an army of doctors and nuses raced in to attend to him.
"Miss you really can not be in here!" The same male nurse ushered me to the door. I didn't put up any resistance as he pushed me into the corridor & I stood and watched as the door swung shut again. I felt as though I was glued to the spot where I stood as the realisation hit me that maybe I wasn't crazy after all! Even though Steve hadn't said his name I knew deep down that he was talking about Mick! If my instincts were right then I hadn't killed Matt! If they were right then I wasn't crazy! But if I WAS right then that son of a bitch could be anywhere doing anything & I didn't like the mixed feelings that flowed through my body! Elation tinged with fear, fear that I wasn't safe anywhere with anyone! I didn't know which was best to believe! I was sane & Mick was around every corner or I was totally crazy, had killed my boyfriend and had frequent delusional outbursts! Someone touched my shoulder & I screamed!
"Shit!" Adam jumped back.
"Don't do that to me!" I said as I clutched at my chest.
"Sorry! Sorry! Jesus!" He took a deep breath, "How's Jeff doing?"
"Jeff? SHIT!" I started back along the corridor leaveing a slightly bewildered looking Adam standing in the corridor!
When I got to Jeff's room he was attempting to get out of bed & I ran to his side.
"What are you doing?" I took hold of his arm.
"I need to pee!" he said through gritted teeth as he struggled to get his legs off the bed. "AH FUCK!"
"Stay there I'm gonna get a nurse!"
"Don't fuss! I'll be fine on my own!" He winced again & then looked up at me sheepishly, "Can you help me please?"
I rolled my eyes & let him put his weight onto me as he forced his legs to stand up!
"Where's Sasha when you need her?" I muttered as I helped Jeff out of the door. "I am so not comming into the men's room with you!"
"Aw shit! there's that plan out of the window then! Ahhhhh!" He clutched at his side.
"Jeff you should've let me get a doctor!"
"I'll be fine! Just get me to the door!" His face contorted in agony I led him along the sterile white corridor until we finally found the men's room. God how I fucking hated hospitals! Somehow I felt as though I'd speant half my life in them! Jeff was heavy & I thought I was probably going to end up in a heap on the floor before much longer! Just before my legs buckled from under me Shawn opened the men's room door & grabbed jeff!"
"Woah! HEY!" He looked down at me trying to straighten out my back! "You ok?" I nodded, "Why didn't you come and get me?" He said as he threw his arm around Jeff.
"He needed to pee!"
"Come on kid I gotcha!" Shawn kicked open the door & half carried Jeff inside as I stood rubbing my back & wondering what the fuck I was going to do next?
Chapter 113
"Is he ok?" I asked as I pushed past Adam & out into the hall.
"I don't know! Woah! Slow down a minute!" He grabbed my arm & spun me around, "Just....wait a minute ok? We can't go in & see him yet, they are still running some tests & they'll let us know when we can go in!"
I sighed, "Ok! Ok! Dammit!" I bit on my nail.
"Why don't you go & see Jeff while we're waiting?"
I looked down at the floor, "ok! Are you comming?"
"Erm....no! I'll just go & give Sasha another ring give her an update!"
"Fine!" I went to walk away but he still held tight to my arm.
"Bec?" I looked up at him & he smiled, "It'll be ok y'know, Dwayne I mean! he's a tough cookie! he'll pull through you'll see!"
I bit on my lip, "And what if he doesn't Adam? I don't think I can.." Before my tears even fell I found myself in Adam's arms.
"He will get through this Bec!" he said over my shouler, "Come on! Don't cry!"
"Don't tell me not to cry!" I said through gritted teeth & pulled back from him, "Just don't say that! OK?"
Adam nodded, slightly confused as to why I was throwing such a fit over it! "Ok! Sorry!"
I swallowed hard, "I'm gonna see Jeff!" I rushed along the corridor before Adam could say any more. I stood in the doorway of Jeff's room for a moment, watching him as he lay dozing on the bed. his entire chest was bandaged up. God what had I done? Why couldn't he have just stayed away? Without thinking I turned back into the corridor, I needed some answers.
I found Steve's room & slowly pushed open the door. The person lying on the bed didn't even look like Steve but still I felt nothing for him. He was an evil bastard as far as I was concerned & what had happened to him tonight had been a long time comming! He opened one eye as I approached the bed that was surrounded by tubes and monitors.
"Bec?" He croaked.
"Why did you do it Steve?" I said quietly. He closed his eye & turned his head away from me slightly. "You rigged the ropes?" He nodded slowly & I took a deep breath, "Why did you drive the truck into a wall?"
"I can't stand it anymore!" His voice was rasping & I had to move closer to hear him, "He won't go away! I just want to die!"
"Who are you talking about? Jeff?" I was confused.
"You know what it's like!" He coughed & I took a step back to avoid whatever was showering out of his mouth, "You know! He won't leave me alone!"
"I don't know! Who are you talking about Steve?"
"I just want him to go aw..." Monitors started beeping.
"Steve! Tell me! Tell me who won't go away!" I said panicking. within seconds the door flew open & an army of doctors and nuses raced in to attend to him.
"Miss you really can not be in here!" The same male nurse ushered me to the door. I didn't put up any resistance as he pushed me into the corridor & I stood and watched as the door swung shut again. I felt as though I was glued to the spot where I stood as the realisation hit me that maybe I wasn't crazy after all! Even though Steve hadn't said his name I knew deep down that he was talking about Mick! If my instincts were right then I hadn't killed Matt! If they were right then I wasn't crazy! But if I WAS right then that son of a bitch could be anywhere doing anything & I didn't like the mixed feelings that flowed through my body! Elation tinged with fear, fear that I wasn't safe anywhere with anyone! I didn't know which was best to believe! I was sane & Mick was around every corner or I was totally crazy, had killed my boyfriend and had frequent delusional outbursts! Someone touched my shoulder & I screamed!
"Shit!" Adam jumped back.
"Don't do that to me!" I said as I clutched at my chest.
"Sorry! Sorry! Jesus!" He took a deep breath, "How's Jeff doing?"
"Jeff? SHIT!" I started back along the corridor leaveing a slightly bewildered looking Adam standing in the corridor!
When I got to Jeff's room he was attempting to get out of bed & I ran to his side.
"What are you doing?" I took hold of his arm.
"I need to pee!" he said through gritted teeth as he struggled to get his legs off the bed. "AH FUCK!"
"Stay there I'm gonna get a nurse!"
"Don't fuss! I'll be fine on my own!" He winced again & then looked up at me sheepishly, "Can you help me please?"
I rolled my eyes & let him put his weight onto me as he forced his legs to stand up!
"Where's Sasha when you need her?" I muttered as I helped Jeff out of the door. "I am so not comming into the men's room with you!"
"Aw shit! there's that plan out of the window then! Ahhhhh!" He clutched at his side.
"Jeff you should've let me get a doctor!"
"I'll be fine! Just get me to the door!" His face contorted in agony I led him along the sterile white corridor until we finally found the men's room. God how I fucking hated hospitals! Somehow I felt as though I'd speant half my life in them! Jeff was heavy & I thought I was probably going to end up in a heap on the floor before much longer! Just before my legs buckled from under me Shawn opened the men's room door & grabbed jeff!"
"Woah! HEY!" He looked down at me trying to straighten out my back! "You ok?" I nodded, "Why didn't you come and get me?" He said as he threw his arm around Jeff.
"He needed to pee!"
"Come on kid I gotcha!" Shawn kicked open the door & half carried Jeff inside as I stood rubbing my back & wondering what the fuck I was going to do next?