Lost Confused Unkind
Chapter 114
I helped Shawn get Jeff back into his room & back into bed, then we both sat at his bedside. Shawn on one side & me on the other.
"You want me to get a doctor?" Shawn asked Jeff when he winced again.
"No I'm ok! They can't give me any more painkillers for a couple of hours any....." he gritted his teeth & I took hold of his hand & squeezed it tightly. "There's no point in getting a doctor!" I forced a smile at him as I brushed some hair from his face. I hated seeing him like this & knowing it was because of me! It was tearing me up inside!
"I've never fucking seen that happen before!" Shawn shook his head as he stared at the wall, "In all the years I've been a wrestler, I've never seen it happen!" Jeff nodded slowly & I bit on my lip & tried to hide my guilt. "Well Vince will be throwing a Goddamn blue fit I can guarentee it!" Shawn stretched his legs out infront of him & folded his arms across his chest.
"How's D?" Jeff asked.
I shrugged my shoulders, "He's awake, that's a good sign! I'm sure he'll be fine!"
"Jesus!" Jeff lay his head back & looked up at the celing. "He didn't look good! Man if his feet hadn't got caught up..."
"He'll be fine Jeff! This is Dwayne we're talking about here!" I forced a smile, "He'll come good!" I squeezed his hand again, "I'm gonna go & see what I can find out! Won't be long!"
I wanderd along the corridor in a dream-like state! This just wasn't happening, it couldn't be! I ducked into the ladies room to wash my face & try & shake some life back into my body! I ran the cold tap, took an elastic from my pocket & tied up my hair. Looking in the mirror was like looking at my mother! I felt like I'd aged 30 years in the last couple of hours but I knew I had to hold it together somehow! I had to be strong for Dwayne & Jeff, not least for myself! Any sign that the cracks were starting to appear & I'd end up back in the damn mental ward & then 'he' had me, no escape!
Absentmindedly I put my hands under the running water, it was a few seconds before I screamed!
"What the fuck?" I yelled & jumped back away from the sink! The water was boiling....yet it was the cold tap! Steam rose from the basin as I stared in disbelief! I looked back up to the mirror, now fogged from the rising steam, then quickly turned off the tap. My hands were red & tingling. "Jesus!" I muttered as I turned them over & over again inspecting the damage (there appeared to be none!) When I glanced back up at the mirror I gasped then stopped breathing altogether! Written in the steam were two words that would mean nothing to anyone else, but to me they instilled a sense of fear in me that I'd never experianced before! Two words.....
"KNOCK KNOCK!"
I stared as droplets ran down the mirror distorting the letters, making them run together until they weren't words anymore but veins, dripping off the mirror & running down the clinical white tiles on the wall.
The hairs on the back of my neck stood on end & I begged my legs to run but they wouldn't move! As I watched the words slowly disappear I finally let out a breath but my whole body began to tremble & still my feet were rooted to the spot! "Go away!" I whispered. Behind me I heard the door to one of the stalls open but before I could even turn around it crashed back against the wall & I was showered in shards of wall tiles & I bolted! I ran so fast that I smacked into the door before I could even get it open!
Once in the corridor again I squatted down with my back against the wall opposite the ladies room door and my head in my hands, gasping for air! 'Come on Bec! Get it together or you're on a one way trip to larlar land!' I thought to myself as I stood up. I kept my back to the wall for another minute while I caught my breath, not entirely sure how my legs were fixed for carrying me should I not have the support of the wall! When I finally felt steady enough I made my way to try & find Dwayne, if I could keep my mind on him then I could keep it off whatever had just occoured in the bathroom! That was my theory at the time & was sticking to it! I had only one other option & that was to go screaming to Jeff...AGAIN! But I couldn't put him through any more crap, I had to deal with this, with Mick, on my own! This was my life & my fight, I was tired of other people getting hurt, it was my turn if that's what it came to!
I found the room & peered inside until I got the nod from the doctor to go in!
"5 minutes!" he said sternly & I nodded as I approached the bed.
"Great! The table dancer I ordered is here!" he said weakly.
"God my worst fear has come true!" I kissed his cheek, "It's knocked all the Dwayne out of you & left me with the Rock!" I forced a smile & sat down on a chair beside the bed in the dimly lit room.
"Don't you believe it!" He reached for my hand so I took his in both of mine & held it to my cheek.
"How are you feeling?"
"Like someone gave me vodka again!" he sighed & squinted at me.
"God D I was so worried!" I kissed his hand & squeezed it tightly to my face.
"You'd better not be crying!"
"I'm not!" I lied & wiped my face on my sleeve.
"How's Jeff?"
"He's fine! Broken ribs & he's whining like a bitch but he'll be ok!" I looked up at his face, "It's you I'm more concerned about right now!"
"Well you needn't be! I'm fine! Back in the ring this time next week!"
"You fucking won't be though!"
"You watch me!"
"I'm not gonna watch you kill yourself, you do that you can do it without an audience! Tonight was bad enough there's like 50 reporters outside!"
"There is?" he smiled & then put his free hand up to his forehead.
"You ok? Want me to get the d..."
"I'm fine! Sit down would you!"
I did as I was told but eyed him cauciously, "So have they said when you can come home?"
"Couple of days all going to plan! If I have my way I'll be out of here in a couple of hours!"
"Well you're not getting your way!"
"Not in this state!"
I laughed & shook my head, even half unconcious he could still crack the jokes! He was pretty damn amazing in my eyes!
"Everyone's been so worried about you!" I squeezed his hand & he smiled, "Jay & Adam are here still!"
"Adam's here?"
"Long story! Oh & Shawn too, he drove us here & he's been great!"
"Nice guy Shawn!"
"Yeah he is!" I smiled.
"Well when you go out there you can tell them they can go back to the hotel & party!"
"There won't be any partying going on tonight!"
"Don't let me stop you! I'm fine! Now go on before that doc comes back in & kicks your ass out of here!"
"I don't wanna go..." tears welled up in my eyes again, "I'm staying here with you!"
"You are not! Besides I'm just gonna be out of it most of the night! Go & have a drink! Call Shane O & ask him to rearrange the fights n stuff & get everything organised! As soon as I step out of this place I wanna be on a plane to Miami!" he smiled, "With you!" he touched my cheek & I took his hand in mine & kissed it again. "Ok?" I just looked blankly at him, "Ok?" He said slower.
"Yeah if that's what you need me to do!"
"It is! Now go on get back to the hotel & tell them all I'll be back at work before they get the chance to pull the big sticks outa their monkey asses!"
"K!" I stood up & looked down at him. It didn't look right, this huge guy, The Rock, the fucking Scorpion King! lying helpless in a hospital bed. I just wanted to hold him, be in his arms & safe from all the monsters again! I wiped my face & sniffed.
"Don't you start!" He pointed a finger at me!
"I'm not! I had something in my eye!"
He smiled & squeezed my hand that he still hadn't let go of!
"Now get out of here before that doctor's foot is up your ass!"
I leaned over & kissed his cheek, "Take care! I love you!" I whispered in his ear. As I was about to stand up he put his hand on the back of my head & held my cheek to his! I couldn't hold him properly, not with the neck brace on & I was scared I'd hurt him! I closed my eyes & stayed like that until the doctor came in & made me leave!
Chapter 114
I helped Shawn get Jeff back into his room & back into bed, then we both sat at his bedside. Shawn on one side & me on the other.
"You want me to get a doctor?" Shawn asked Jeff when he winced again.
"No I'm ok! They can't give me any more painkillers for a couple of hours any....." he gritted his teeth & I took hold of his hand & squeezed it tightly. "There's no point in getting a doctor!" I forced a smile at him as I brushed some hair from his face. I hated seeing him like this & knowing it was because of me! It was tearing me up inside!
"I've never fucking seen that happen before!" Shawn shook his head as he stared at the wall, "In all the years I've been a wrestler, I've never seen it happen!" Jeff nodded slowly & I bit on my lip & tried to hide my guilt. "Well Vince will be throwing a Goddamn blue fit I can guarentee it!" Shawn stretched his legs out infront of him & folded his arms across his chest.
"How's D?" Jeff asked.
I shrugged my shoulders, "He's awake, that's a good sign! I'm sure he'll be fine!"
"Jesus!" Jeff lay his head back & looked up at the celing. "He didn't look good! Man if his feet hadn't got caught up..."
"He'll be fine Jeff! This is Dwayne we're talking about here!" I forced a smile, "He'll come good!" I squeezed his hand again, "I'm gonna go & see what I can find out! Won't be long!"
I wanderd along the corridor in a dream-like state! This just wasn't happening, it couldn't be! I ducked into the ladies room to wash my face & try & shake some life back into my body! I ran the cold tap, took an elastic from my pocket & tied up my hair. Looking in the mirror was like looking at my mother! I felt like I'd aged 30 years in the last couple of hours but I knew I had to hold it together somehow! I had to be strong for Dwayne & Jeff, not least for myself! Any sign that the cracks were starting to appear & I'd end up back in the damn mental ward & then 'he' had me, no escape!
Absentmindedly I put my hands under the running water, it was a few seconds before I screamed!
"What the fuck?" I yelled & jumped back away from the sink! The water was boiling....yet it was the cold tap! Steam rose from the basin as I stared in disbelief! I looked back up to the mirror, now fogged from the rising steam, then quickly turned off the tap. My hands were red & tingling. "Jesus!" I muttered as I turned them over & over again inspecting the damage (there appeared to be none!) When I glanced back up at the mirror I gasped then stopped breathing altogether! Written in the steam were two words that would mean nothing to anyone else, but to me they instilled a sense of fear in me that I'd never experianced before! Two words.....
"KNOCK KNOCK!"
I stared as droplets ran down the mirror distorting the letters, making them run together until they weren't words anymore but veins, dripping off the mirror & running down the clinical white tiles on the wall.
The hairs on the back of my neck stood on end & I begged my legs to run but they wouldn't move! As I watched the words slowly disappear I finally let out a breath but my whole body began to tremble & still my feet were rooted to the spot! "Go away!" I whispered. Behind me I heard the door to one of the stalls open but before I could even turn around it crashed back against the wall & I was showered in shards of wall tiles & I bolted! I ran so fast that I smacked into the door before I could even get it open!
Once in the corridor again I squatted down with my back against the wall opposite the ladies room door and my head in my hands, gasping for air! 'Come on Bec! Get it together or you're on a one way trip to larlar land!' I thought to myself as I stood up. I kept my back to the wall for another minute while I caught my breath, not entirely sure how my legs were fixed for carrying me should I not have the support of the wall! When I finally felt steady enough I made my way to try & find Dwayne, if I could keep my mind on him then I could keep it off whatever had just occoured in the bathroom! That was my theory at the time & was sticking to it! I had only one other option & that was to go screaming to Jeff...AGAIN! But I couldn't put him through any more crap, I had to deal with this, with Mick, on my own! This was my life & my fight, I was tired of other people getting hurt, it was my turn if that's what it came to!
I found the room & peered inside until I got the nod from the doctor to go in!
"5 minutes!" he said sternly & I nodded as I approached the bed.
"Great! The table dancer I ordered is here!" he said weakly.
"God my worst fear has come true!" I kissed his cheek, "It's knocked all the Dwayne out of you & left me with the Rock!" I forced a smile & sat down on a chair beside the bed in the dimly lit room.
"Don't you believe it!" He reached for my hand so I took his in both of mine & held it to my cheek.
"How are you feeling?"
"Like someone gave me vodka again!" he sighed & squinted at me.
"God D I was so worried!" I kissed his hand & squeezed it tightly to my face.
"You'd better not be crying!"
"I'm not!" I lied & wiped my face on my sleeve.
"How's Jeff?"
"He's fine! Broken ribs & he's whining like a bitch but he'll be ok!" I looked up at his face, "It's you I'm more concerned about right now!"
"Well you needn't be! I'm fine! Back in the ring this time next week!"
"You fucking won't be though!"
"You watch me!"
"I'm not gonna watch you kill yourself, you do that you can do it without an audience! Tonight was bad enough there's like 50 reporters outside!"
"There is?" he smiled & then put his free hand up to his forehead.
"You ok? Want me to get the d..."
"I'm fine! Sit down would you!"
I did as I was told but eyed him cauciously, "So have they said when you can come home?"
"Couple of days all going to plan! If I have my way I'll be out of here in a couple of hours!"
"Well you're not getting your way!"
"Not in this state!"
I laughed & shook my head, even half unconcious he could still crack the jokes! He was pretty damn amazing in my eyes!
"Everyone's been so worried about you!" I squeezed his hand & he smiled, "Jay & Adam are here still!"
"Adam's here?"
"Long story! Oh & Shawn too, he drove us here & he's been great!"
"Nice guy Shawn!"
"Yeah he is!" I smiled.
"Well when you go out there you can tell them they can go back to the hotel & party!"
"There won't be any partying going on tonight!"
"Don't let me stop you! I'm fine! Now go on before that doc comes back in & kicks your ass out of here!"
"I don't wanna go..." tears welled up in my eyes again, "I'm staying here with you!"
"You are not! Besides I'm just gonna be out of it most of the night! Go & have a drink! Call Shane O & ask him to rearrange the fights n stuff & get everything organised! As soon as I step out of this place I wanna be on a plane to Miami!" he smiled, "With you!" he touched my cheek & I took his hand in mine & kissed it again. "Ok?" I just looked blankly at him, "Ok?" He said slower.
"Yeah if that's what you need me to do!"
"It is! Now go on get back to the hotel & tell them all I'll be back at work before they get the chance to pull the big sticks outa their monkey asses!"
"K!" I stood up & looked down at him. It didn't look right, this huge guy, The Rock, the fucking Scorpion King! lying helpless in a hospital bed. I just wanted to hold him, be in his arms & safe from all the monsters again! I wiped my face & sniffed.
"Don't you start!" He pointed a finger at me!
"I'm not! I had something in my eye!"
He smiled & squeezed my hand that he still hadn't let go of!
"Now get out of here before that doctor's foot is up your ass!"
I leaned over & kissed his cheek, "Take care! I love you!" I whispered in his ear. As I was about to stand up he put his hand on the back of my head & held my cheek to his! I couldn't hold him properly, not with the neck brace on & I was scared I'd hurt him! I closed my eyes & stayed like that until the doctor came in & made me leave!