Lost Confused Unkind
Chapter 121
I speant what was left of the night in Shawn's room telling him the whole story from start to finish! By the time I got to the story about the ropes being tampered with it was 7am. Shawn had hardly said a word at all, he sat on the edge of the bed with his chin in his hands nodding occasionally.
"So the rest you know, there's nothing more to tell.....yet! But I do know one thing Shawn he won't leave me alone & he won't let me be with Jeff!" I sighed, "So now do you think I'm crazy?"
Shawn shook his head & looked me dead in the eye. "No, I don't think yoyu're crazy at all...." he stood up & looked at his watch, "...and neither will Dwayne when we tell him!" he stretched his arms up in the air & yawned.
"Oh no! No way!"
"Yes way!" He knelt down infront of me, "this is getting too dangerous not to tell him! And Jeff too for that matter!"
"Shawn!" I whined & put a hand to my forehead.
"Look honey from what I can see these 2 guys think the world of you! Don't worry about it!" He smiled & touched my cheek "I'll explain it to them, it'll be sweet ok? Trust me!" I just stared at him & he sighed, "Ok you said yourself Jeff was there for some of this shit right? I mean the hair dye for starters?"
"Yeah but that was when we though the son of a bitch was still alive!"
"Ok ok!" he said softly, "Get some sleep & when you wake up it won't seem so bad!"
"What time are you leaving for the airoport?"
"I'm not!" He stood up & took off his watch & threw it on the bedside table, "I suddenly got this terrible stomach bug, might be food poisoning and there's just no way I'll be able to make that flight!" He sat down on the edge of the bed & took off his boots.
"Vnce will have a cow!"
"No he won't!"
"Yeah he will! I mean Jeff & Dwayne are already out of..."
"Would you let me worry about that?" he stood up & took off his belt & I suddenly felt very uncomfortable. "I told you it'll be sweet! Now here's the bed, help yourself! I'm gonna take a shower then call Shane O! I might even get some shut eye myself for a couple of hours!"
I stood up, "It's ok I'll find Jeff's room & crash, you can have your bed!"
"No, you're not going anywhere! You really wanna venture out there after what happened...' He pulled his shirt over his head & I looked away, ".....last night?"
I closed my eyes & took a deep breath! I'd completely forgotten about Adam & a whole new wave of guilt washed over me making me feel sick to my stomach! "Shit!" I muttered under my breath.
"Shit indeed! Get some sleep! I'll try not to wake you!"
"Shawn can I ask you a question?"
"Sure!" He said as he got to the bathroom door & turned around.
"why are you doing this? I mean before yesterday I hardly even knew you and now...." I paused, "...I just don't get it!"
He smiled, "Let's just say someone once did a good thing for me a long time ago!" He smiled as he remembered something that was lost to me, "I guess it's payback time!" With that he went in to the bathroom.
I sat on the edge of the bed, I had no idea what he was talking about but I was so glad I finally had someone to talk to about all of the stuff that was going on! Someone that actually understood what was happening to me! I was actually starting to believe that maybe I wasn't crazy after all & I can't describe the feeling that gave me! I kicked off my shoes & lay my head onto the pillow, my eyes were just starting to close when I heard a cell phone playing something that resembled an old Guns N Roses song! I rolled onto my back & listened! Yes it was definately Sweet Child O'Mine! I Shook my head & smiled as I got off the bed, "Maybe that's 1980 calling shawn!" I muttered as I looked around for the phone. I wandered around the room & realised it was comming from a heap of clothes on the floor. I picked up a jacket then looked over at the bathroom door, the water was still running, Shawn obviously hadn't heard it! I put my hand into the pocket & pulled it out. I looked at the screen & it said 'MATT' I wrinkled my brow....maybe I shouldn't answer it! How would he explain it to anyone if a woman answered his phone? I went to the bathroom door and knocked.
"SHAWN! YOUR CELL IS RINGING!"
"CAN YOU GET IT FOR ME PLEASE?" he yelled back.
"OK!" I pressed the button & slowly put the phone to my ear. damn I hated those things! "H...hello?" I said nervously.
"Hey babe!"
I took the phone away from my ear & looked at it! "Erm...I think you have the wrong number!"
"I don't think so!" My jaw hit the floor when I regonised the voice! I couldn't speak & tears welled up in my eyes! "Hear you've been having a rough time of it lately?" The bathroom door opened and shawn came out wearing a cheep white hotel robe! "Just thought I'd check in on my favourite girl!"
"M......m......Matt?" my voice was barely abve a whisper.
"OF COURSE IT'S NOT MATT YOU STUPID BITCH!" I dropped the phone & put my hands to my mouth.
"Oh fuck! Oh fuck! Oh fuck!" I whispered, tears streaming down my cheeks & I was shaking from head to toe.
"There's no one......let me just check!" Shawn fiddled with the phone & then sighed. "The last person to call this phone was Shane O yesterday! Was it him? Was it Mick?"
"It was.......it was.......it...he....he.................." My heart was racing & I could barely get a breath! "It.....he........"
"Shh come on! Calm down!" He put his arms around me & I sobbed.
Chapter 121
I speant what was left of the night in Shawn's room telling him the whole story from start to finish! By the time I got to the story about the ropes being tampered with it was 7am. Shawn had hardly said a word at all, he sat on the edge of the bed with his chin in his hands nodding occasionally.
"So the rest you know, there's nothing more to tell.....yet! But I do know one thing Shawn he won't leave me alone & he won't let me be with Jeff!" I sighed, "So now do you think I'm crazy?"
Shawn shook his head & looked me dead in the eye. "No, I don't think yoyu're crazy at all...." he stood up & looked at his watch, "...and neither will Dwayne when we tell him!" he stretched his arms up in the air & yawned.
"Oh no! No way!"
"Yes way!" He knelt down infront of me, "this is getting too dangerous not to tell him! And Jeff too for that matter!"
"Shawn!" I whined & put a hand to my forehead.
"Look honey from what I can see these 2 guys think the world of you! Don't worry about it!" He smiled & touched my cheek "I'll explain it to them, it'll be sweet ok? Trust me!" I just stared at him & he sighed, "Ok you said yourself Jeff was there for some of this shit right? I mean the hair dye for starters?"
"Yeah but that was when we though the son of a bitch was still alive!"
"Ok ok!" he said softly, "Get some sleep & when you wake up it won't seem so bad!"
"What time are you leaving for the airoport?"
"I'm not!" He stood up & took off his watch & threw it on the bedside table, "I suddenly got this terrible stomach bug, might be food poisoning and there's just no way I'll be able to make that flight!" He sat down on the edge of the bed & took off his boots.
"Vnce will have a cow!"
"No he won't!"
"Yeah he will! I mean Jeff & Dwayne are already out of..."
"Would you let me worry about that?" he stood up & took off his belt & I suddenly felt very uncomfortable. "I told you it'll be sweet! Now here's the bed, help yourself! I'm gonna take a shower then call Shane O! I might even get some shut eye myself for a couple of hours!"
I stood up, "It's ok I'll find Jeff's room & crash, you can have your bed!"
"No, you're not going anywhere! You really wanna venture out there after what happened...' He pulled his shirt over his head & I looked away, ".....last night?"
I closed my eyes & took a deep breath! I'd completely forgotten about Adam & a whole new wave of guilt washed over me making me feel sick to my stomach! "Shit!" I muttered under my breath.
"Shit indeed! Get some sleep! I'll try not to wake you!"
"Shawn can I ask you a question?"
"Sure!" He said as he got to the bathroom door & turned around.
"why are you doing this? I mean before yesterday I hardly even knew you and now...." I paused, "...I just don't get it!"
He smiled, "Let's just say someone once did a good thing for me a long time ago!" He smiled as he remembered something that was lost to me, "I guess it's payback time!" With that he went in to the bathroom.
I sat on the edge of the bed, I had no idea what he was talking about but I was so glad I finally had someone to talk to about all of the stuff that was going on! Someone that actually understood what was happening to me! I was actually starting to believe that maybe I wasn't crazy after all & I can't describe the feeling that gave me! I kicked off my shoes & lay my head onto the pillow, my eyes were just starting to close when I heard a cell phone playing something that resembled an old Guns N Roses song! I rolled onto my back & listened! Yes it was definately Sweet Child O'Mine! I Shook my head & smiled as I got off the bed, "Maybe that's 1980 calling shawn!" I muttered as I looked around for the phone. I wandered around the room & realised it was comming from a heap of clothes on the floor. I picked up a jacket then looked over at the bathroom door, the water was still running, Shawn obviously hadn't heard it! I put my hand into the pocket & pulled it out. I looked at the screen & it said 'MATT' I wrinkled my brow....maybe I shouldn't answer it! How would he explain it to anyone if a woman answered his phone? I went to the bathroom door and knocked.
"SHAWN! YOUR CELL IS RINGING!"
"CAN YOU GET IT FOR ME PLEASE?" he yelled back.
"OK!" I pressed the button & slowly put the phone to my ear. damn I hated those things! "H...hello?" I said nervously.
"Hey babe!"
I took the phone away from my ear & looked at it! "Erm...I think you have the wrong number!"
"I don't think so!" My jaw hit the floor when I regonised the voice! I couldn't speak & tears welled up in my eyes! "Hear you've been having a rough time of it lately?" The bathroom door opened and shawn came out wearing a cheep white hotel robe! "Just thought I'd check in on my favourite girl!"
"M......m......Matt?" my voice was barely abve a whisper.
"OF COURSE IT'S NOT MATT YOU STUPID BITCH!" I dropped the phone & put my hands to my mouth.
"Oh fuck! Oh fuck! Oh fuck!" I whispered, tears streaming down my cheeks & I was shaking from head to toe.
"There's no one......let me just check!" Shawn fiddled with the phone & then sighed. "The last person to call this phone was Shane O yesterday! Was it him? Was it Mick?"
"It was.......it was.......it...he....he.................." My heart was racing & I could barely get a breath! "It.....he........"
"Shh come on! Calm down!" He put his arms around me & I sobbed.