Chapter 3-
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I been downhearted
baby ever since the
day we met.
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I ran around the apartment trying to get everything together. Everything ready for the plane ride. Logan and Jeremy were watching a movie. I had to get there outfits together, and my outfit too. I put all the things by the front doors. "Hey guys are you hungry? How bout we get some McDonalds." Logan and Jeremy turned around and their faces lit up.
"Yeah!" Jeremy screamed.
"Okay then come get your jackets on, and we'll go." I said to the two boys sitting on the couch.
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Psychiatrists say that 1
of 4 people are mentally ill.
Check 3 friends. If they're
OK, you're it.
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I fastened them into the plane seats and took a seat between them. "Mommy." I turned and looked at Jeremy. "Yeah?" I asked smiling.
"Are we there yet?" He said breaking out in laughter, with Logan following suit. During the whole car ride they did that, finding it funny. I've just learned to ignore it. But now it was annoying. "Okay guys that's enough." I said in my mother voice. One I have learned to perfect. They sat quietly. Giving me time to think. Mostly about how I was going to tell Carter that Logan and Jeremy were his, and then how I was going to tell them. I looked over at Jeremy, and Logan who were now watching Shrek on the TVs. I know the minute I tell Carter the kids are his he will want to be part of their lives, but he will also be angry.
I remember one of the last conversations we had, it was after he decided to go to Africa. I called him, trying to tell him not to go.
"Hello?"
"Hi, John it's Abby."
"Uh-Hi. Yeah, I can't talk, I'm getting ready to go."
"John, you're going to get hurt or killed if you go there."
"Listen Abby, I have to go and I don't have time for this or you right now. Go help your brother."
That was when I knew he couldn't truly forgive or understand me. It was 3 days after he had gone that I found out I was having a child and that was the day I decided I was going. I called Susan once I got to New York told her I was living out here, I never told her I was pregnant though for fear of Carter finding out, so I kept it hush, hush. We lost touch after about 3 months. we lost touch, she had started dating Chuck pretty seriously, I'm not sure if they are still together I forgot to ask which just goes to show how self involved I am. Here I am Carter free, but love him I just think we could never make it work. I had always hoped in secret that maybe he would find someone to marry and he would be easier for me to get over, now I wonder if he's truly over me. Maybe he loves me too, getting my hopes up wouldn't be smart, so I just hope that everything will turn out okay when I get into Chicago.
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Where is the good
In goodbye?
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"Please stay seated until the plane has safely landed." The captains voice boomed over the P.A system. I looked up groggily, being rudely awakened. I looked over and Logan was asleep, while Jeremy, was colouring, in one of the many books I brought him, called going to Grandma's house. "Hey Jeremy, we're almost here." I said slowly taking the crayons and the book from him. "Okay," he easily said. I was expecting a little bit of a fight, considering he was seeming a bit tired. The plane landed, and I woke, Logan up and got our things together. Logan didn't seem to want to get up though so I carried him on my hip as Jeremy, held onto my finger loosely. I kept checking on him to make sure nothing happened to him, as I carried a bag on my back and in my free hand. I looked around to see Susan and Luka waiting for us. I smiled and they walked over to us. "Hey Abby." Susan said glowing. smiled back. "Are these the boys?" Luka said, moving to eye level to stare at Jeremy. Jeremy shied away. "Don't be shy." I said. Rubbing his head. Luka picked Jeremy up. "I'll carry this one." smiling at him. Susan grabbed the bag out of my head and off we went to get the rest of my things.
"How was the flight?" Susan asked me in the car.
"Oh it was okay, Logan slept through most of it, Jeremy, watched movies and coloured." I said looking at the now sleeping Jeremy, and the still sleeping Logan. "When are you going to tell Carter." Luka question, well he sure didn't beat around the bush.
"Today." I stated calm and quite sure of myself.
"Today?" Susan repeated with a confused look on her face.
"Yes as soon as possible."
The rest of the ride was quiet, Susan told me she would watch the twins while looking took me to the hospital to talk to Carter, he got off at 4, and it was 3:30 so I knew we had to be quick. Luka, turned into Susan drive way and we all got out. I picked up Jeremy, while Susan took Logan and we headed up to put the boys down for a sleep while Luka emptied the car of our belongings.
Luka and I got back in the Car and headed for the hospital, once the boys were down.
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I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste.
I want you and your beautiful soul.
Your the one I wanna chase
You the one I wanna hold.
I won't let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul.
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I been downhearted
baby ever since the
day we met.
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I ran around the apartment trying to get everything together. Everything ready for the plane ride. Logan and Jeremy were watching a movie. I had to get there outfits together, and my outfit too. I put all the things by the front doors. "Hey guys are you hungry? How bout we get some McDonalds." Logan and Jeremy turned around and their faces lit up.
"Yeah!" Jeremy screamed.
"Okay then come get your jackets on, and we'll go." I said to the two boys sitting on the couch.
-------------------------------
Psychiatrists say that 1
of 4 people are mentally ill.
Check 3 friends. If they're
OK, you're it.
--------------------------------
I fastened them into the plane seats and took a seat between them. "Mommy." I turned and looked at Jeremy. "Yeah?" I asked smiling.
"Are we there yet?" He said breaking out in laughter, with Logan following suit. During the whole car ride they did that, finding it funny. I've just learned to ignore it. But now it was annoying. "Okay guys that's enough." I said in my mother voice. One I have learned to perfect. They sat quietly. Giving me time to think. Mostly about how I was going to tell Carter that Logan and Jeremy were his, and then how I was going to tell them. I looked over at Jeremy, and Logan who were now watching Shrek on the TVs. I know the minute I tell Carter the kids are his he will want to be part of their lives, but he will also be angry.
I remember one of the last conversations we had, it was after he decided to go to Africa. I called him, trying to tell him not to go.
"Hello?"
"Hi, John it's Abby."
"Uh-Hi. Yeah, I can't talk, I'm getting ready to go."
"John, you're going to get hurt or killed if you go there."
"Listen Abby, I have to go and I don't have time for this or you right now. Go help your brother."
That was when I knew he couldn't truly forgive or understand me. It was 3 days after he had gone that I found out I was having a child and that was the day I decided I was going. I called Susan once I got to New York told her I was living out here, I never told her I was pregnant though for fear of Carter finding out, so I kept it hush, hush. We lost touch after about 3 months. we lost touch, she had started dating Chuck pretty seriously, I'm not sure if they are still together I forgot to ask which just goes to show how self involved I am. Here I am Carter free, but love him I just think we could never make it work. I had always hoped in secret that maybe he would find someone to marry and he would be easier for me to get over, now I wonder if he's truly over me. Maybe he loves me too, getting my hopes up wouldn't be smart, so I just hope that everything will turn out okay when I get into Chicago.
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Where is the good
In goodbye?
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"Please stay seated until the plane has safely landed." The captains voice boomed over the P.A system. I looked up groggily, being rudely awakened. I looked over and Logan was asleep, while Jeremy, was colouring, in one of the many books I brought him, called going to Grandma's house. "Hey Jeremy, we're almost here." I said slowly taking the crayons and the book from him. "Okay," he easily said. I was expecting a little bit of a fight, considering he was seeming a bit tired. The plane landed, and I woke, Logan up and got our things together. Logan didn't seem to want to get up though so I carried him on my hip as Jeremy, held onto my finger loosely. I kept checking on him to make sure nothing happened to him, as I carried a bag on my back and in my free hand. I looked around to see Susan and Luka waiting for us. I smiled and they walked over to us. "Hey Abby." Susan said glowing. smiled back. "Are these the boys?" Luka said, moving to eye level to stare at Jeremy. Jeremy shied away. "Don't be shy." I said. Rubbing his head. Luka picked Jeremy up. "I'll carry this one." smiling at him. Susan grabbed the bag out of my head and off we went to get the rest of my things.
"How was the flight?" Susan asked me in the car.
"Oh it was okay, Logan slept through most of it, Jeremy, watched movies and coloured." I said looking at the now sleeping Jeremy, and the still sleeping Logan. "When are you going to tell Carter." Luka question, well he sure didn't beat around the bush.
"Today." I stated calm and quite sure of myself.
"Today?" Susan repeated with a confused look on her face.
"Yes as soon as possible."
The rest of the ride was quiet, Susan told me she would watch the twins while looking took me to the hospital to talk to Carter, he got off at 4, and it was 3:30 so I knew we had to be quick. Luka, turned into Susan drive way and we all got out. I picked up Jeremy, while Susan took Logan and we headed up to put the boys down for a sleep while Luka emptied the car of our belongings.
Luka and I got back in the Car and headed for the hospital, once the boys were down.
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I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste.
I want you and your beautiful soul.
Your the one I wanna chase
You the one I wanna hold.
I won't let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul.
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