Authors Note: Okay so I'm kinda loosing interest in this story I don't really no what else to write lol and I don't know if that many people are interested but I'll keep posting as long as you keep reading and reviewing thanks to the people who have been your comments mean a lot too me and are what kept me writing. If you have any thing u think should happen in the chapter after this jus say so and I'll most likely do it.
Chapter 7-
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Sometimes I remember When we were together Everything was perfect In each and every way You loved me forever, and more each day I should have known It was too good to be true I held my head high And tried and tried, to say goodbye I thought about our memories And all the good times The times I had you So tight in my arms And knew that it was true That I'd love you forever and that's what I'll do
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Holding tight onto Carters hand I walked in. Logan was grabbing onto Carter as he kept whispering don't worry everything's going to be okay into his ear. I wish it was that easy. Having Carter around and having him hold my hand brought a sense of relief. I looked back at him and he nodded. I bent down and planted a kiss on Jeremy's cheek, he was intubated, and had tubes all over him, Luka walked in looking down at the ground as he walked over to us. He nodded his headed and began to speak, "Jeremy, had a seizure, and hit his head, he had a blood clot, so we put him on thinner, we think he should be okay, he has a concussion, and epilepsy. I looked up my grip tightening on Carters hand as he brought me closer putting his arm around my upper back. "I'll let you be alone." Luka said as he walked away, I couldn't speak my baby, was lying in a hospital bed with tubes coming out of every which way. I could feel the tears well up in my eyes as Carter brought me into his chest, I layed my head against his chest as I had before and he placed gentle kisses on my head, as Logan ran his fingers through my hair. "It's okay Mommy." Logan said, I looked up at his big eyes and found comfort, and pulled myself together, for my boy. "I know baby," I said bring his head down and kissing him on the nose. Carter rubbed his arm "Hey Logan what say you and I head over to the ice cream shop and get some ice cream." He said with eyes, Logans eyes went just as big, as Carters as they headed out the door, Carter turned and looked at me and gave me a wink as I moved forward toward my babies bed. I bent down and laid a million kisses upon his sleeping head. I heard the door open and knew who it was. "Susan took him?" I asked without looking up from Jeremy.
"Yeah uh- she said, yah she said she didn't mind." I nodded as he same up behind me and sat down on the chair, "when's their birthday?" He asked not taking his eyes off the beautiful sleeping body in front of him. "uh next week April 21st."
I went to sit down forgetting Carter was already sitting in the uncomfortable hard chair, I sat down on his lap immediately feeling embarrassed. As I jumped to get up he stopped me. "No its okay," He said putting a hand on my leg. I leaned forward and looked at Jeremy some more. "You think, you think he's going to be okay?" I asked wiping a tear from my eye. "yes" Carter said simply, its like he was so sure, he hasn't been more sure of anything. "He's your baby, he was raised by you that makes him a fighter." I hoped he was right. I hope he would be fine. "You know I love these boys more then anything else in my life, they were my hope when I had none, they made me feel alive, they made me feel young and they reminded me of you." I wiped my eyes trying not to cry again.
"I wish, I had the chance to be there dad, I wish I had the chance to be with you, you left but I can't be mad at you for that because I left you too." I turned around and looked at him square in the eyes. "I'm sorry, I hated you for everything that happened, and I took them away which wasn't right of me. No matter how much I hated you I should have never let my feelings get in the way of what was right and I did." He nodded, as if we had made a truce. "I just, I just really need him to be okay." I could feel the tears coming now. Carter pulled me into a hug and I cried on his shoulder for a while, until Carter pulled away and looked at Jeremy whose eyes had opened a little, I looked at him and grabbed for his hand rubbing it with my. "Hey, sweetie we're here don't worry." Carter went to the end of the bed leaving me the chair and rubbed his forehead and gave him a small kiss.
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What happened? I'm not sure Everyone asks I tell them I don't know Every time I see you You look right through me Was something ever there to begin with? Yes. No. I still can't let go. I keep trying But you're locked in my heart You took my breath away with your smile You broke my heart with your silence I wish you would talk to me Just be a friend Things have happened And I needed someone to talk to That's when I wish you were still there I'm done trying to get something back that's over
But I'm still here for you Forever
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We walked over to the deli to quickly get some food neither of us wanted to leave Jeremy or Logan, but we were hungry and Luka said he would stay with them and the nurses said they would play with Logan. "I was thinking, Maybe you should stay with me, til the wedding and everything gets sorted out." Carter said as we stood in line I immediatly turned to look at him. "What would you like?" The scruffy old man asked roughly. "Uh- Ham and Cheese, mayo, a little lettuce but not more then what you can fit into a the centre of your palm, and a tad of muster,on the top of the bun, and onions,Abby" Carter said nudging me out of my trance. "Yeah whatever he's having" I was confused by his question and now eating something that sounded just as confusing. The man made and wrapped our food while I got back on topic. "Live with yuo."
"Temporarily. That way Jeremy can be in what will be his own room and Logan can be in his and you know your not infringing upon Susan."
"You think I'm infringing?"
"No, not at all."
"So we'll be living in the manson?"
"No, sold the mansion. I have a nice quaint little apartment. uh- 2 bedroom." he said grabbing our bagged food as we left the diner. "Were will I sleep?"
"my bed." It's like he had this planned the from the first day I got here.
"I couldn't do that."
"Why not, I would be happy on the couch its a pullout." I was flabbergasted, we were talking like the old days and he was giving up his bed for me.
"Carter." He stopped and placed himself directly infront of me, holding onto my arms lightly. "Hey, its fine I wanna be around you and the kids its what I wanted since I knew I had kids and I've wanted you for well ever." With that he walked into the hospital with me chasing after him with a big ole grin across my face. "Hey wait that's my sandwich." I said.
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I am here and you are there Only the ground separates us But as each day goes by We see the same sun rise and fall And I know that you will always be there
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Chapter 7-
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Sometimes I remember When we were together Everything was perfect In each and every way You loved me forever, and more each day I should have known It was too good to be true I held my head high And tried and tried, to say goodbye I thought about our memories And all the good times The times I had you So tight in my arms And knew that it was true That I'd love you forever and that's what I'll do
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Holding tight onto Carters hand I walked in. Logan was grabbing onto Carter as he kept whispering don't worry everything's going to be okay into his ear. I wish it was that easy. Having Carter around and having him hold my hand brought a sense of relief. I looked back at him and he nodded. I bent down and planted a kiss on Jeremy's cheek, he was intubated, and had tubes all over him, Luka walked in looking down at the ground as he walked over to us. He nodded his headed and began to speak, "Jeremy, had a seizure, and hit his head, he had a blood clot, so we put him on thinner, we think he should be okay, he has a concussion, and epilepsy. I looked up my grip tightening on Carters hand as he brought me closer putting his arm around my upper back. "I'll let you be alone." Luka said as he walked away, I couldn't speak my baby, was lying in a hospital bed with tubes coming out of every which way. I could feel the tears well up in my eyes as Carter brought me into his chest, I layed my head against his chest as I had before and he placed gentle kisses on my head, as Logan ran his fingers through my hair. "It's okay Mommy." Logan said, I looked up at his big eyes and found comfort, and pulled myself together, for my boy. "I know baby," I said bring his head down and kissing him on the nose. Carter rubbed his arm "Hey Logan what say you and I head over to the ice cream shop and get some ice cream." He said with eyes, Logans eyes went just as big, as Carters as they headed out the door, Carter turned and looked at me and gave me a wink as I moved forward toward my babies bed. I bent down and laid a million kisses upon his sleeping head. I heard the door open and knew who it was. "Susan took him?" I asked without looking up from Jeremy.
"Yeah uh- she said, yah she said she didn't mind." I nodded as he same up behind me and sat down on the chair, "when's their birthday?" He asked not taking his eyes off the beautiful sleeping body in front of him. "uh next week April 21st."
I went to sit down forgetting Carter was already sitting in the uncomfortable hard chair, I sat down on his lap immediately feeling embarrassed. As I jumped to get up he stopped me. "No its okay," He said putting a hand on my leg. I leaned forward and looked at Jeremy some more. "You think, you think he's going to be okay?" I asked wiping a tear from my eye. "yes" Carter said simply, its like he was so sure, he hasn't been more sure of anything. "He's your baby, he was raised by you that makes him a fighter." I hoped he was right. I hope he would be fine. "You know I love these boys more then anything else in my life, they were my hope when I had none, they made me feel alive, they made me feel young and they reminded me of you." I wiped my eyes trying not to cry again.
"I wish, I had the chance to be there dad, I wish I had the chance to be with you, you left but I can't be mad at you for that because I left you too." I turned around and looked at him square in the eyes. "I'm sorry, I hated you for everything that happened, and I took them away which wasn't right of me. No matter how much I hated you I should have never let my feelings get in the way of what was right and I did." He nodded, as if we had made a truce. "I just, I just really need him to be okay." I could feel the tears coming now. Carter pulled me into a hug and I cried on his shoulder for a while, until Carter pulled away and looked at Jeremy whose eyes had opened a little, I looked at him and grabbed for his hand rubbing it with my. "Hey, sweetie we're here don't worry." Carter went to the end of the bed leaving me the chair and rubbed his forehead and gave him a small kiss.
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What happened? I'm not sure Everyone asks I tell them I don't know Every time I see you You look right through me Was something ever there to begin with? Yes. No. I still can't let go. I keep trying But you're locked in my heart You took my breath away with your smile You broke my heart with your silence I wish you would talk to me Just be a friend Things have happened And I needed someone to talk to That's when I wish you were still there I'm done trying to get something back that's over
But I'm still here for you Forever
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We walked over to the deli to quickly get some food neither of us wanted to leave Jeremy or Logan, but we were hungry and Luka said he would stay with them and the nurses said they would play with Logan. "I was thinking, Maybe you should stay with me, til the wedding and everything gets sorted out." Carter said as we stood in line I immediatly turned to look at him. "What would you like?" The scruffy old man asked roughly. "Uh- Ham and Cheese, mayo, a little lettuce but not more then what you can fit into a the centre of your palm, and a tad of muster,on the top of the bun, and onions,Abby" Carter said nudging me out of my trance. "Yeah whatever he's having" I was confused by his question and now eating something that sounded just as confusing. The man made and wrapped our food while I got back on topic. "Live with yuo."
"Temporarily. That way Jeremy can be in what will be his own room and Logan can be in his and you know your not infringing upon Susan."
"You think I'm infringing?"
"No, not at all."
"So we'll be living in the manson?"
"No, sold the mansion. I have a nice quaint little apartment. uh- 2 bedroom." he said grabbing our bagged food as we left the diner. "Were will I sleep?"
"my bed." It's like he had this planned the from the first day I got here.
"I couldn't do that."
"Why not, I would be happy on the couch its a pullout." I was flabbergasted, we were talking like the old days and he was giving up his bed for me.
"Carter." He stopped and placed himself directly infront of me, holding onto my arms lightly. "Hey, its fine I wanna be around you and the kids its what I wanted since I knew I had kids and I've wanted you for well ever." With that he walked into the hospital with me chasing after him with a big ole grin across my face. "Hey wait that's my sandwich." I said.
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I am here and you are there Only the ground separates us But as each day goes by We see the same sun rise and fall And I know that you will always be there
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