Authors Note: Okay so this chapter 13, and I'm not really sure how much I like this fic, but I'm going to continue to write it because I started it. I feel I've left some things left unfinished in the story so over the next couple of chapter I hope to fix them up, so everything ties together in then end. Also this story is longer then I had once planned so now we're looking at chapter 14-16 for the wedding scene...LOL at least I got around to writing the dinner scene.
Chapter 13
--------------------------
If you love somebody
let them go. If they
return, they were
always yours. If they
don't, they never were
--------------------------
I felt a soft nudging on my shoulder, I groggily shooed the hand away, and groaned. I felt the poke again, again I shooed it away. Then I heard a small whisper in my ear. "Mommy." The voice was small and that off my son. I looked down at him, then kissed the top of his head. "Happy birthday." Logan laughed loudly causing Carter and Jeremy to stir. I looked over at them, all of us still in the same places as last night. I rubbed his back as he continued to giggle into the pillow my boys were three years old. Jeremy put his head on Carters shoulder yawning, so I took Logan out into the kitchen to make him some breakfast. "Ma, can you make us pancakes." Logan said with wide eyes.
"Yeah, anything for you." I started to prepare the pancake batter, as Logan played with his toy trucks on the carpet. Last night was interesting, Luka and Sam were cute together, they seemed comfortable together, it was just awkward putting the four of us in the same room, the tension was deffintly palpable. I liked spending time with Carter away from the kids, it would be nice if we could have a more formal 'date', but I knew this was no longer an option he and Tanya were now a couple, he told me though that he would not be going to the wedding with her but with the twins and I, the twins were the ring bearers, and we even arranged a babysitter so Carter and I could stay out later and enjoy the celebration. Tonight we had even planned a small party for the boys. He even has a few friends with kids, so he invited them, Susan, Chuck, Luka, Sam will all be coming, Pratt too, Gallant. Anyone at the hospital was invited hopefully it would be a good time. "Hi Jeremy." Logan said poking his head up from his cars. Jeremy walked out of the room tiredly. Carter trailing slowly behind him. "We get pancakes." Logan said getting up and following the sleepy heads. "Pancakes?" Carter said questioningly, I nodded. "Happy birthday boys." Carter said leaning down to hug Jeremy and Logan, I smiled getting in on the birthday hug and wishes.
"What time is everyone coming?" Carter asked as we cleaned the table.
"6." I replied not looking up. He nodded, I continued to bring the dishes from the table and stack them in the sink, when Carter stood in front of me not letting me by.
"Okay, because I invited Tanya, is that okay with u?" I manoeuvred my way around Carter and roughly set the dishes on the counter, Carter sighed. "Abby, she IS my GIRLFRIEND." Those words caused a nice sharp pain in my chest.
"I know, I know. I don't mind." I said feigning a smile.
"Okay." He said patting me on the shoulder then leaving to play with the kids.
Great the first time I meet this women is at my sons birthday party.
-----------------------------
Things maybe not what
they seem but its just
because life is messed up
-----------------------------
"I love PARTIES!" Pratt said dipping a chip into the chip dip.
"Well this ones for 3 year olds, Pratt so put the tequila away." Gallant said sitting next to Neela his long time girlfriend and future wife. "Right there sergeant." Gallant rolled his eyes a Pratt's snide comment. All the adults sat in the living room, while the kids played, in the living room and bedroom. The infamous Tanya had yet to arrive and I was beginning to think maybe she wouldn't when I heard a knock at the door, Carter was in the washroom, so I decided I should get it, until he came charging around the corner and told me to take a seat and that he wanted to get the door. I heard him greet her, his voice very happy and peppy. I heard a few laughs and then I saw her, she has short brown hair, wavy hair, and brown eyes, she is short about my height and build too. I looked over at Susan and she nodded agreeing we looked very alike. "Hey, Abby this is Tanya." Carter said taking her by the hand and leading her to me. "Hi." I said getting out of my chair.
"Mommy. When do we get to open presents." I heard Logan say.
"Oh, Tanya this is one of my son's Logan." He said leaning down to pick him up.
"Hi Logan." Tanya said nicely. I was really starting to hate this women.
Logan buried his head in Carters shoulder. "He's a little shy." I said taking the young boy from Carter. "We'll open presents after cake." I said putting him down. His little eyes widen just like they did when I told him we could have pancakes this morning.
"So where's the other twin?" Tanya asked scoping the place out.
"Oh, Jeremy, here lets go find him." Carter said taking her hand and leading her through the apartment to hunt out for the other twin. I tinge of jealousy in my stomach. I walked over to Susan and we walked into the kitchen. "I know." Susan said laughing.
"She's like your twin from a few years ago." Susan laughed
"Maybe, he liked me that way. So he's reminicning." I sighed.
"Don't worry about her, his heart lies with you. Trust me I know." Susan shrugged.
"Maybe it did." I said leaving and going out to join the party.
"Mommy, look its a truck!" Jeremy said running towards me. I picked him up and set him on my lap. "Next!" Logan said from Carters lap. Carter laughed.
"Okay, this is from me and your mom!" The boys looked on eagerly, as Carter went to the room to get a big box wrapped in Tonka wrapping paper. The boys took a seat on the floor and proceeded to rip at the paper. Revealing an X BOX. They started screaming I knew my boys, they loved video games.
------------------------
IN THE END,
ONLY KINDNESS
MATTERS
------------------------
I started to get ready for bed, Carter was saying goodbye to Tanya and I just couldn't bare be near when they said their goodbyes. I heard a cry, and I could tell it was from one of the twins and I walked out to see Jeremy crying and walking away form the front door. Carter was following him, trying to hug him but Jeremy just pushed him away.
"What's wrong." I asked concerned, leaning down to pick my son up.
"He saw me kissing Tanya goodbye." I looked at Carter. "I don't want to move." Jeremy cried. I took Jeremy back to bed, leaving Carter to wallow. I didn't think Jeremy would really be bugged by Carter dating, but I guess even at a young age kids are intuitive. I walked out to the living room and saw Carter sitting on the couch in the same position I left him in 10 minutes ago. "I'm sorry, I didn't see him there." He said turning to face me.
"It's okay, he just likes things the way they are now, they've had a bit of moving and bouncing around in their lives." "I know, you know I can hold off on Tanya for a bit if that's what would be best."
"Carter, you can't let me or the twins tell you how to live. Do what you want."
I said harshly as I left the couch to go to bed.
------------------------------------
Love Is Like Missing Someone
When Ur Apart But Somehow
Feeling Warm Inside Because
you're Close In Heart
------------------------------------
Chapter 13
--------------------------
If you love somebody
let them go. If they
return, they were
always yours. If they
don't, they never were
--------------------------
I felt a soft nudging on my shoulder, I groggily shooed the hand away, and groaned. I felt the poke again, again I shooed it away. Then I heard a small whisper in my ear. "Mommy." The voice was small and that off my son. I looked down at him, then kissed the top of his head. "Happy birthday." Logan laughed loudly causing Carter and Jeremy to stir. I looked over at them, all of us still in the same places as last night. I rubbed his back as he continued to giggle into the pillow my boys were three years old. Jeremy put his head on Carters shoulder yawning, so I took Logan out into the kitchen to make him some breakfast. "Ma, can you make us pancakes." Logan said with wide eyes.
"Yeah, anything for you." I started to prepare the pancake batter, as Logan played with his toy trucks on the carpet. Last night was interesting, Luka and Sam were cute together, they seemed comfortable together, it was just awkward putting the four of us in the same room, the tension was deffintly palpable. I liked spending time with Carter away from the kids, it would be nice if we could have a more formal 'date', but I knew this was no longer an option he and Tanya were now a couple, he told me though that he would not be going to the wedding with her but with the twins and I, the twins were the ring bearers, and we even arranged a babysitter so Carter and I could stay out later and enjoy the celebration. Tonight we had even planned a small party for the boys. He even has a few friends with kids, so he invited them, Susan, Chuck, Luka, Sam will all be coming, Pratt too, Gallant. Anyone at the hospital was invited hopefully it would be a good time. "Hi Jeremy." Logan said poking his head up from his cars. Jeremy walked out of the room tiredly. Carter trailing slowly behind him. "We get pancakes." Logan said getting up and following the sleepy heads. "Pancakes?" Carter said questioningly, I nodded. "Happy birthday boys." Carter said leaning down to hug Jeremy and Logan, I smiled getting in on the birthday hug and wishes.
"What time is everyone coming?" Carter asked as we cleaned the table.
"6." I replied not looking up. He nodded, I continued to bring the dishes from the table and stack them in the sink, when Carter stood in front of me not letting me by.
"Okay, because I invited Tanya, is that okay with u?" I manoeuvred my way around Carter and roughly set the dishes on the counter, Carter sighed. "Abby, she IS my GIRLFRIEND." Those words caused a nice sharp pain in my chest.
"I know, I know. I don't mind." I said feigning a smile.
"Okay." He said patting me on the shoulder then leaving to play with the kids.
Great the first time I meet this women is at my sons birthday party.
-----------------------------
Things maybe not what
they seem but its just
because life is messed up
-----------------------------
"I love PARTIES!" Pratt said dipping a chip into the chip dip.
"Well this ones for 3 year olds, Pratt so put the tequila away." Gallant said sitting next to Neela his long time girlfriend and future wife. "Right there sergeant." Gallant rolled his eyes a Pratt's snide comment. All the adults sat in the living room, while the kids played, in the living room and bedroom. The infamous Tanya had yet to arrive and I was beginning to think maybe she wouldn't when I heard a knock at the door, Carter was in the washroom, so I decided I should get it, until he came charging around the corner and told me to take a seat and that he wanted to get the door. I heard him greet her, his voice very happy and peppy. I heard a few laughs and then I saw her, she has short brown hair, wavy hair, and brown eyes, she is short about my height and build too. I looked over at Susan and she nodded agreeing we looked very alike. "Hey, Abby this is Tanya." Carter said taking her by the hand and leading her to me. "Hi." I said getting out of my chair.
"Mommy. When do we get to open presents." I heard Logan say.
"Oh, Tanya this is one of my son's Logan." He said leaning down to pick him up.
"Hi Logan." Tanya said nicely. I was really starting to hate this women.
Logan buried his head in Carters shoulder. "He's a little shy." I said taking the young boy from Carter. "We'll open presents after cake." I said putting him down. His little eyes widen just like they did when I told him we could have pancakes this morning.
"So where's the other twin?" Tanya asked scoping the place out.
"Oh, Jeremy, here lets go find him." Carter said taking her hand and leading her through the apartment to hunt out for the other twin. I tinge of jealousy in my stomach. I walked over to Susan and we walked into the kitchen. "I know." Susan said laughing.
"She's like your twin from a few years ago." Susan laughed
"Maybe, he liked me that way. So he's reminicning." I sighed.
"Don't worry about her, his heart lies with you. Trust me I know." Susan shrugged.
"Maybe it did." I said leaving and going out to join the party.
"Mommy, look its a truck!" Jeremy said running towards me. I picked him up and set him on my lap. "Next!" Logan said from Carters lap. Carter laughed.
"Okay, this is from me and your mom!" The boys looked on eagerly, as Carter went to the room to get a big box wrapped in Tonka wrapping paper. The boys took a seat on the floor and proceeded to rip at the paper. Revealing an X BOX. They started screaming I knew my boys, they loved video games.
------------------------
IN THE END,
ONLY KINDNESS
MATTERS
------------------------
I started to get ready for bed, Carter was saying goodbye to Tanya and I just couldn't bare be near when they said their goodbyes. I heard a cry, and I could tell it was from one of the twins and I walked out to see Jeremy crying and walking away form the front door. Carter was following him, trying to hug him but Jeremy just pushed him away.
"What's wrong." I asked concerned, leaning down to pick my son up.
"He saw me kissing Tanya goodbye." I looked at Carter. "I don't want to move." Jeremy cried. I took Jeremy back to bed, leaving Carter to wallow. I didn't think Jeremy would really be bugged by Carter dating, but I guess even at a young age kids are intuitive. I walked out to the living room and saw Carter sitting on the couch in the same position I left him in 10 minutes ago. "I'm sorry, I didn't see him there." He said turning to face me.
"It's okay, he just likes things the way they are now, they've had a bit of moving and bouncing around in their lives." "I know, you know I can hold off on Tanya for a bit if that's what would be best."
"Carter, you can't let me or the twins tell you how to live. Do what you want."
I said harshly as I left the couch to go to bed.
------------------------------------
Love Is Like Missing Someone
When Ur Apart But Somehow
Feeling Warm Inside Because
you're Close In Heart
------------------------------------