Authors Note- Okay so here's the part where the truth comes out...Is Abby really pregnant?
Chapter 16
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Didn't wanna see this day come,
all I wanna do is turn and run,
didn't wanna have to cry, now he
cant even look me in the eye...
Well now its his turn to be hurt,
cause I wont take being treated
like dirt! A girl will only take so
much, and now honey, your time
is up!!
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"So, it's two lines are blue?" I asked Susan as we sat on the couch watching Seinfeld reruns. She nodded, not taking her eyes away from the television. I fidgeted with the blanket that I had placed carelessly upon my lap. "Susan, Susan, Susan." I said tapping her annoyingly. She turned her head to look at me. "Yeah." I smiled, I was quite nervous.
"So...Do you want to be pregnant?" Susan asked with a sly smile.
"I don't know, I mean I love my boys more then anything in the world, but Carter and I we are going through a weird little patch right now, and I don't know if its the right time to bring a baby into the world, but who knows maybe everything will be cleared up by then." I rambled.
"Well then. I'm sure everything will be okay." Susan sympathized shoving handfuls of popcorn into her mouth. The stove buzzer started to go off as we sat there waiting.
"Its time." I said getting up from my spot on the couch to turn the annoying sound off.
We slowly walked towards the washroom where we left the stick and immediately started screaming. "YOU'RE PREGNANT!!!" Susan exclaimed,
"I KNOW" I screeched back. I was very excited by this news and so was Susan, but suddenly it hit me maybe I just wanted to be pregnant so I could get Carter. I bit down on my bottom lip and decided that I really did love having children and this didn't guarantee Carter and I as a couple anyways, just because I was pregnant with his child didn't mean anything, I did already have 2 of his children and he still wanted Tanya.
"You okay." Susan asked shaking me out of my daze. I nodded, and plastered a smile across my face as we burst into fits of giggles.
"Hello?" Carter asked opening the front door. I walked over to him, Susan followed grabbing her coat, "I'll see you guys tomorrow." We waved as she left.
I looked at Carter and smiled as he handed me sleeping Logan, and Cindy walked in with sleeping Jeremy handing him off to Carter. "I thought they were just going to sleep at Cindy's house?" I asked puzzled.
"Yah, I like them being here with us, where we know they are safe." I laughed and thought this was cute. Carter gave Cindy her money, and helped me take the boys too bed.
"you know I was thinking," Carter started. "The boys, I really upset them didn't I?" I nodded, "Well, I let you talk to them figuring it would be best coming from you, telling them that me kissing another women was okay, but maybe I should have said something."
"Yah, I think that would be best." I said putting Jeremy into his bed as he started to stir at little bit. He smiled and then put his arm around me leading me out of the room.
"Nice wedding huh? Uh- did you spend the rest of the time with Tanya?" I asked hesitantly, not knowing when was the best time to slip in the pregnancy thing,
"Are you?" He asked totally ignoring my question.
"Yes." I said getting a little misty. He lifted me up off of the ground twirling me in circles, I leached onto him, screeching quietly not wanting to wake the sleeping boys in the next room. "This is great, we're having more kids." He said, I could tell he was fogging up also, he set me down and pulled me in for a nice tight hug. I buried my face in his shirt
taking in his scent, I wished we could stay like this forever. Maybe we could.
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If nothing changed,
there'd be no butterflies
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"So you and mommy are still friends?" Jeremy asked Carter, as both boys sat on his lap and Carter explained to them about his kiss with Tanya. "Yes, I still care and love for your mother, but sometimes two people are better off as friends then married." I lay in bed reading eaves dropping on the conversation Carter was having with the twins. "So does mommy love you?" Logan pressed, "Maybe she still wants to be your girlfriend." He continued. He was right but I wasn't sure my 3 year old son should be the one to set this up. I heard a nervous laugh come from Carter. "I don't know, that's on your mother." Great thanks a lot Carter. I rolled my eyes. "When, we move out will we still get to see you?" Jeremy questioned.
"Yeah, you will your mom and I are going to arrange for you to come to stay with my every other weekend and one day a week and maybe when you get older you can visit with me more." I knew that this arrangement would be the best to start off with, and since I will be working at County also while the boys are in daycare there Carter could go visit or pick them up if his shift ends earlier then mine. "When do we move?" Jeremy continued, him and the questions the last couple of days. "In a week." Carter answered. I was worried now that this dilemma had been cleared up, how we would broach the baby subject since we had told the kids on several occasions that mommy and daddy were not together how do you go about telling them that we are now having a new baby. I could always leave that to Carter, he seemed to be doing a good job with this particular topic whose to say he wouldn't do well with the pregnancy subject. I heard Carter tell the boys that he had to go to work so I figured this was my cue that my alone time was over and I had my sons back. I put my book down, I wasn't really reading any ways, I got up and walked out to the main area. "Hey you." Carter said as he walked by me into the bedroom to change for work, he squeezed my hand quickly on the way in. I mouthed hey back and then sat with my boys and played cars with them. "Mommy, do you love daddy?" Logan asked. "Logan, why don't we play, I think we're all questioned out for the day." He nodded ramming his car into Jeremy's car. "Can we get McDonald's?" Jeremy exclaimed.
"NO!" I emphasised. I heard a unison of aw, please moms, I laughed and continued to shake my head no, rolling my car around the mat that was placed on the floor, it was the kid that had the roads on it made for kids. "DADDY!" Jeremy shrieked.
"JEREMY" He threw back as he walked out clad in a very nice suit.
"Can we go to McDonald's for dinner?" Great they were already playing one parent against the other.
"Jeremy, I heard your mom already say no. So NO!" With that he walked over to the boys and planted a kiss on their foreheads and then leaned down to me and whispered into my ear. "We'll tell them in a few days." I nodded then he kissed me gingerly on the cheek.
"ICE CREAMS YUMMY!" Jeremy said shoving another spoonful into his mouth.
I ate mine too, it was 6:54 and carter worked from 9- 6 today so I knew he'd be home soon, and he could deal with Logan, or at least help me deal with him. Logan sat across from me throwing his broccoli around his plate, refusing to eat it. I told him he could not have ice cream until he ate his broccoli. He did not agree with this and proceeded to throw a fit and then tell me he hates me. Logan was the temperamental one after all, he usually did not get like this but if you caught him at the wrong time he was hard to deal with. "I hate broccoli." He said throwing at Jeremy and hitting him right in the middle of his forehead. Jeremy looked up at me dumbfounded. "LOGAN RUTGERS" I shouted at him, I hated yelling at my kids but sometimes they needed it. "WHAT?" He screamed back enraged, and proceeding to throw another piece of broccoli but this time at me. I got up and picked Logan up, he started to kick and scream I tried to get a hold of his arms but he just ended up kicking me in the stomach. "I DON'T LIKE YOU! I WANT DADDY!" I knew he was mad but these words stung. "Leave mommy alone." Jeremy said getting up.
"Jer, go play okay?" He nodded with tears in his eyes and went over to the carpet.
"LOGAN GET IN YOUR ROOM NOW!" I ordered. He just looked at me, both are faces flushed with anger. His eyes were angry and his teeth and fist clenched into tight little balls. "NO!" He hollered back from the chair he was no standing on.
"YES!" I shouted back. Jeremy looked over at us, and ran to his room.
"JER! Come out here, you can't go in there, Logan is. Go sit on my bed Jer." I instructed.
He sombrely made his way out, neither Logan or I breaking the gaze we held on each other. "now." Logan I said calmly.
"NOOOOOOOO!" He screamed, suddenly the door opened and in walked Carter stunned to see us in the state we were in. Jeremy ran out of my bedroom and latched himself onto Carters leg. "Hey what's going on?" he said bending down to put his brief case on the floor and picking Jeremy up. "I HATE MOMMY!" Logan hollered to Carter.
"HEY!" Carter said angrily and walked over to me, still holding on to Jeremy.
"He wouldn't eat his broccoli and I he can not have ice cream until he eats it. He then though it would be an okay idea to throw pieces of broccoli and Jeremy and I!" I said on the brink of tears. He put his arm around me, then started to address Logan, "Logan, get to your room now." I could tell his was flabbergasted by the actions at what he thought was one of his angels. "NOOOOO I HATE YOU TOO!" Carter shook his head.
"NOW!" He hollered. Neither one of us liking raising our voices at our children.
"NO!" Jeremy was now in my arms, as I took him over to the couch to sit, I figured that was easier then having us gang up on Logan. Carter did something that shocked me, he picked Logan up tossing him over his shoulder and took him to his bedroom, Logan pounding on Carter's back the whole time with his fists and kicking him in the stomach, Carter took him to the boys room, set the screaming boy down and shut the door. He left calling him into him. "The broccoli will be waiting and you can apologize to your mother, brother and I, when you want out also, your in their till then." Carter said angrily.
"AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH" "The screams of an angry boy." I said looking up at Carter, from the movie.
My head was on Carters shoulder, his arm around me and Jeremy was sprawled out across our laps. "I love Jimmy Neutron." Jeremy yawned. Carter rustled his hair.
"Yeah." He said looking down at Jeremy. Logan had been screaming for an hour now, I was sure it would never and I think Carter was beginning to feel the same. "Mommy I'm tired," Jeremy expressed.
"I know buddy, I know." I said kissing the top of his head.
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When life closes a door.
it opens a window...so jump
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Chapter 16
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Didn't wanna see this day come,
all I wanna do is turn and run,
didn't wanna have to cry, now he
cant even look me in the eye...
Well now its his turn to be hurt,
cause I wont take being treated
like dirt! A girl will only take so
much, and now honey, your time
is up!!
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"So, it's two lines are blue?" I asked Susan as we sat on the couch watching Seinfeld reruns. She nodded, not taking her eyes away from the television. I fidgeted with the blanket that I had placed carelessly upon my lap. "Susan, Susan, Susan." I said tapping her annoyingly. She turned her head to look at me. "Yeah." I smiled, I was quite nervous.
"So...Do you want to be pregnant?" Susan asked with a sly smile.
"I don't know, I mean I love my boys more then anything in the world, but Carter and I we are going through a weird little patch right now, and I don't know if its the right time to bring a baby into the world, but who knows maybe everything will be cleared up by then." I rambled.
"Well then. I'm sure everything will be okay." Susan sympathized shoving handfuls of popcorn into her mouth. The stove buzzer started to go off as we sat there waiting.
"Its time." I said getting up from my spot on the couch to turn the annoying sound off.
We slowly walked towards the washroom where we left the stick and immediately started screaming. "YOU'RE PREGNANT!!!" Susan exclaimed,
"I KNOW" I screeched back. I was very excited by this news and so was Susan, but suddenly it hit me maybe I just wanted to be pregnant so I could get Carter. I bit down on my bottom lip and decided that I really did love having children and this didn't guarantee Carter and I as a couple anyways, just because I was pregnant with his child didn't mean anything, I did already have 2 of his children and he still wanted Tanya.
"You okay." Susan asked shaking me out of my daze. I nodded, and plastered a smile across my face as we burst into fits of giggles.
"Hello?" Carter asked opening the front door. I walked over to him, Susan followed grabbing her coat, "I'll see you guys tomorrow." We waved as she left.
I looked at Carter and smiled as he handed me sleeping Logan, and Cindy walked in with sleeping Jeremy handing him off to Carter. "I thought they were just going to sleep at Cindy's house?" I asked puzzled.
"Yah, I like them being here with us, where we know they are safe." I laughed and thought this was cute. Carter gave Cindy her money, and helped me take the boys too bed.
"you know I was thinking," Carter started. "The boys, I really upset them didn't I?" I nodded, "Well, I let you talk to them figuring it would be best coming from you, telling them that me kissing another women was okay, but maybe I should have said something."
"Yah, I think that would be best." I said putting Jeremy into his bed as he started to stir at little bit. He smiled and then put his arm around me leading me out of the room.
"Nice wedding huh? Uh- did you spend the rest of the time with Tanya?" I asked hesitantly, not knowing when was the best time to slip in the pregnancy thing,
"Are you?" He asked totally ignoring my question.
"Yes." I said getting a little misty. He lifted me up off of the ground twirling me in circles, I leached onto him, screeching quietly not wanting to wake the sleeping boys in the next room. "This is great, we're having more kids." He said, I could tell he was fogging up also, he set me down and pulled me in for a nice tight hug. I buried my face in his shirt
taking in his scent, I wished we could stay like this forever. Maybe we could.
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If nothing changed,
there'd be no butterflies
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"So you and mommy are still friends?" Jeremy asked Carter, as both boys sat on his lap and Carter explained to them about his kiss with Tanya. "Yes, I still care and love for your mother, but sometimes two people are better off as friends then married." I lay in bed reading eaves dropping on the conversation Carter was having with the twins. "So does mommy love you?" Logan pressed, "Maybe she still wants to be your girlfriend." He continued. He was right but I wasn't sure my 3 year old son should be the one to set this up. I heard a nervous laugh come from Carter. "I don't know, that's on your mother." Great thanks a lot Carter. I rolled my eyes. "When, we move out will we still get to see you?" Jeremy questioned.
"Yeah, you will your mom and I are going to arrange for you to come to stay with my every other weekend and one day a week and maybe when you get older you can visit with me more." I knew that this arrangement would be the best to start off with, and since I will be working at County also while the boys are in daycare there Carter could go visit or pick them up if his shift ends earlier then mine. "When do we move?" Jeremy continued, him and the questions the last couple of days. "In a week." Carter answered. I was worried now that this dilemma had been cleared up, how we would broach the baby subject since we had told the kids on several occasions that mommy and daddy were not together how do you go about telling them that we are now having a new baby. I could always leave that to Carter, he seemed to be doing a good job with this particular topic whose to say he wouldn't do well with the pregnancy subject. I heard Carter tell the boys that he had to go to work so I figured this was my cue that my alone time was over and I had my sons back. I put my book down, I wasn't really reading any ways, I got up and walked out to the main area. "Hey you." Carter said as he walked by me into the bedroom to change for work, he squeezed my hand quickly on the way in. I mouthed hey back and then sat with my boys and played cars with them. "Mommy, do you love daddy?" Logan asked. "Logan, why don't we play, I think we're all questioned out for the day." He nodded ramming his car into Jeremy's car. "Can we get McDonald's?" Jeremy exclaimed.
"NO!" I emphasised. I heard a unison of aw, please moms, I laughed and continued to shake my head no, rolling my car around the mat that was placed on the floor, it was the kid that had the roads on it made for kids. "DADDY!" Jeremy shrieked.
"JEREMY" He threw back as he walked out clad in a very nice suit.
"Can we go to McDonald's for dinner?" Great they were already playing one parent against the other.
"Jeremy, I heard your mom already say no. So NO!" With that he walked over to the boys and planted a kiss on their foreheads and then leaned down to me and whispered into my ear. "We'll tell them in a few days." I nodded then he kissed me gingerly on the cheek.
"ICE CREAMS YUMMY!" Jeremy said shoving another spoonful into his mouth.
I ate mine too, it was 6:54 and carter worked from 9- 6 today so I knew he'd be home soon, and he could deal with Logan, or at least help me deal with him. Logan sat across from me throwing his broccoli around his plate, refusing to eat it. I told him he could not have ice cream until he ate his broccoli. He did not agree with this and proceeded to throw a fit and then tell me he hates me. Logan was the temperamental one after all, he usually did not get like this but if you caught him at the wrong time he was hard to deal with. "I hate broccoli." He said throwing at Jeremy and hitting him right in the middle of his forehead. Jeremy looked up at me dumbfounded. "LOGAN RUTGERS" I shouted at him, I hated yelling at my kids but sometimes they needed it. "WHAT?" He screamed back enraged, and proceeding to throw another piece of broccoli but this time at me. I got up and picked Logan up, he started to kick and scream I tried to get a hold of his arms but he just ended up kicking me in the stomach. "I DON'T LIKE YOU! I WANT DADDY!" I knew he was mad but these words stung. "Leave mommy alone." Jeremy said getting up.
"Jer, go play okay?" He nodded with tears in his eyes and went over to the carpet.
"LOGAN GET IN YOUR ROOM NOW!" I ordered. He just looked at me, both are faces flushed with anger. His eyes were angry and his teeth and fist clenched into tight little balls. "NO!" He hollered back from the chair he was no standing on.
"YES!" I shouted back. Jeremy looked over at us, and ran to his room.
"JER! Come out here, you can't go in there, Logan is. Go sit on my bed Jer." I instructed.
He sombrely made his way out, neither Logan or I breaking the gaze we held on each other. "now." Logan I said calmly.
"NOOOOOOOO!" He screamed, suddenly the door opened and in walked Carter stunned to see us in the state we were in. Jeremy ran out of my bedroom and latched himself onto Carters leg. "Hey what's going on?" he said bending down to put his brief case on the floor and picking Jeremy up. "I HATE MOMMY!" Logan hollered to Carter.
"HEY!" Carter said angrily and walked over to me, still holding on to Jeremy.
"He wouldn't eat his broccoli and I he can not have ice cream until he eats it. He then though it would be an okay idea to throw pieces of broccoli and Jeremy and I!" I said on the brink of tears. He put his arm around me, then started to address Logan, "Logan, get to your room now." I could tell his was flabbergasted by the actions at what he thought was one of his angels. "NOOOOO I HATE YOU TOO!" Carter shook his head.
"NOW!" He hollered. Neither one of us liking raising our voices at our children.
"NO!" Jeremy was now in my arms, as I took him over to the couch to sit, I figured that was easier then having us gang up on Logan. Carter did something that shocked me, he picked Logan up tossing him over his shoulder and took him to his bedroom, Logan pounding on Carter's back the whole time with his fists and kicking him in the stomach, Carter took him to the boys room, set the screaming boy down and shut the door. He left calling him into him. "The broccoli will be waiting and you can apologize to your mother, brother and I, when you want out also, your in their till then." Carter said angrily.
"AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH" "The screams of an angry boy." I said looking up at Carter, from the movie.
My head was on Carters shoulder, his arm around me and Jeremy was sprawled out across our laps. "I love Jimmy Neutron." Jeremy yawned. Carter rustled his hair.
"Yeah." He said looking down at Jeremy. Logan had been screaming for an hour now, I was sure it would never and I think Carter was beginning to feel the same. "Mommy I'm tired," Jeremy expressed.
"I know buddy, I know." I said kissing the top of his head.
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When life closes a door.
it opens a window...so jump
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