Chapter 9

In Between

            The Christmas vacation came early this year. Dumbledore thought that since there was to be a Yule Ball, students could go home early and come back in time for the Ball. It was only for year 4 and up. Many people went home because they wanted to see if their parents were ok. You know who was still out there.

I sat on the sofa with Ron in the common room. Hermione and Harry were in the empty boy's dorm. I wrapped my arms around Ron. He's so soft and cuddly. I felt soft inside. He looked down at me.

"Hi Honey, are you ok? You must be tired, sleep, it's ok."

I nodded, I closed my eyes.

Please stop, please, I don't want you! Stop, I'm for Ron, not you! Ron, please come and help me, RON!!! Help me please!!! I'm for Ron; I'm for Ron, Not you!! Stop, Malfoy…uh, stop it!! STOP IT!!! Why are you hurting me?? I DIDN'T DO ANYHTING TO YOU!!! STOP IT!!! Get OUT of me, GET OUT!!!! STOP!!! Oh Ron, I love you, he killed me Ron, He KILLED Me. I'm FOR RON!!!!!

"NOT YOU!!!!" I screamed jerking out of Ron's arms. I screamed in pain, I grabbed my belly, a sharp pain ripped through it. I fell to the floor screaming, my tears ran down my cheeks like a river. I was aware of Ron in front me, shaking me.

"Lavender!!!"

No, no, no

"Lavender!!!"

No, no, no, it'll stop, it will….I promise…Don't black out now, he knows.

Everything went black.

*****

When I awoke, I was in the Hospital Wing. I had an IV in my hand. I reached out a hand to rub my belly, still round, thank God.

Ron was sitting next to me; he had shadows that were swollen and red under his eyes. He must have been crying a lot. I reached out to touch his hair. He awoke.

"Lavender…Honey, what happened? How do you feel?" He put his hand in mine, he kissed it.

"I don't know, I…feel ok."

"Lavender…I know what happened." He said sadly.

No, no, no, it'll stop, it will…I promise…He knows.

"Someone raped you," It wasn't a question. "You didn't tell me, I understand. But what I want to know is…who did this to you?" He said all this in a calm voice. I was afraid to look into his eyes. I couldn't stop the tears.

"Ron…Malfoy did this to me. I'm sorry I didn't tell you. He would have hurt me again." I said, looking down at my folded.

Ron's face grew red.

"Malfoy?"

I nodded my head. Ron stood up, bent down to kiss me on the lips, and patted me gently on the belly.

"I'll be back sweetie; I need to go talk to someone."

***

I walked down the hall, searching for him, knowing that he would be in the halls. I saw him looking out of a closet door.

"MALFOY!" I growled. I took him by the robes and pushed him up against the wall. The closet door swung opened. Ginny stumbled out of the closet.

"GINNY!!!WHAT THE HELL?" Ginny ran, not looking back.

"Don't come near my family again Malfoy. You leave Lavender alone. And our baby, Ginny and you are OVER. If I catch you with her I swear I'll kill you."

Malfoy didn't say anything but he grinned.

"She likes me Weasel. Ginny likes me, so…I can't really do anything." Malfoy said.

I punched him across the face.

"Leave them ALONE."

***

I turned on my side in the hospital bed. I looked at the door, still no Ron. I felt so trapped, so unsure, so…In between.