Authors Note: Okay I hope you all enjoyed the last chapter I know there wasn't a lot of romance in there, but I wanted to show Abby and Carter going through parenting and what every other parent has to go through, I thought it showed there willingness to work together, anyways this chapter deals with a little more of their romance issues, I know a lot of you want Tanya out of the picture but I think it would be boring to take her out of the picture right away and leaving no obstacles to get in Abby's way, and don't worry Carter will have a few obstacles of his own, anyways here's chapter 17.
Chapter 17
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This time it's over, I'm keeping
my heart ,I'm gonna be strong
& not fall apart .. It'll get better,
I'll no longer cry.. In a couple
of weeks, I wont want to die,
I won't want to go back, I'll be
able to sleep, It won't hurt so bad,
& it won't feel so deep
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I walked into the bedroom, Carter and I had already put Jeremy into my bed and had steered clear of the twins room. I crept in to their bedroom, we hadn't heard anything out of Logan in a half hour which was nice, but he still hadn't come out of his room, Carter and I both figured he tired himself out and fell asleep. The door clicked shut and there was Logan lying face down on the floor. I walked in and picked him up, I felt his warm breath on my neck and smiled, he seemed so sweet and innocent, I hated fighting with him. Jeremy does not put up the fights Logan does. "Hey." Carter whispered walking into the room, he walked over to us, brushing a loose hair out of Logan's face and watched as I laid him down on the bed. "He's so peaceful." I stated. Carter smiled then nodded. I pulled the blanket up around his small body, I sat on the bed and stared at him. Carter sat down behind me and I rested my head against his chest. "I love them both so much, I don't know what I would do with out them." I could feel him sigh and rub my arm.
"I like watching them sleep." I said nestling closer to his body. "Yeah, I don't know how I ever lived with out them." Carter said standing and then taking my hand, he put his arm around me and we left. "I'm going to get to bed," I said leaving, to go to sleep. "Alright, I'll see you in the morning" he said with a small wave. I smiled, I quietly opened the door seeing Jeremy curled up in a ball, I kissed him gently on the cheek now feeling very excited for the baby. I pulled the covers up around Jeremy's shoulders then walked into the living room to see Carter in his sweat pants without a top on. I loved the way he looked topless, I walked over to him and smiled. "Hey." He said warmly.
"Hey." I mimicked crawling into bed next to him. He looked at me quite startled.
"Sorry." I said pulling the blankets off of myself and getting out. He grabbed my wrist to stop me. "No, it's okay." He smiled and put his book down, his head and upper body were propped up with a pillow. "What's wrong? Is the baby okay?" I laughed the baby wasn't even a baby yet. He should know this. "Festus you mean?" I chuckled. He smiled.
"So, what's going to happen to us when the baby comes," He looked extremely puzzled,
"Uh, I don't know what you mean?" He squinted at me,
"Never mind." I said getting out of bed now and walking towards my room.
"Abby, We've talked about this. You don't want me, and do you really want to get together just because we are having a baby? Besides I'm with Tanya now." This pissed me off to know end. "Carter we were together for a year, we have 2 boys and a baby on the way, we have 2 years of friendship before we started dating. What do you have with Tanya a year of work and a week of dating." I explained, hoping he would understand, but knowing it would take more then words and history to get him to hear me out. "Abby, look I love all the time we've spent together. I love you. I always have and will, I love our sons and I love the baby, but I can't be thrown through loops for someone who doesn't know what they feel. This isn't about Tanya, I don't love her I don't know if I'm capable of loving her, I just need time and space to figure things out, okay?" I squeezed my eyes shut, then turned around and walked into my room, I was glad we were out of here in a few days.
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You never lose by loving,
you always lose by holding
back.
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"Where do you want this to go ms." A huge man holding a side of Logan's bed asked,
"Oh, right in there." I said pointing to the red bedroom,
"Mommy, I like the bed at Dads, better." I rolled my eyes,
"Logan...this bed is fine." He huffed and then went to the car to carry another small box.
I like this apartment it has a nice size kitchen, and the living room is pretty big the bathroom is not in my bedroom which makes it easier, and the bedroom are down a little hall similar to Carters, mine next to the washroom and across the hall from the boys.
"I like it Abby." Susan said admiring the kitchen. I followed her into the kitchen, it was a nice space, I really did like this place, maybe one day I could own a house, but that day will not be for a long time so for now this place will do. "So, the boys are they sleeping here tonight?" Susan asked helping me put glasses into the cupboard.
"No, they're going to stay at Carters." this was better then them spending the night in a house that was a little empty at the moment and might frighten them.
"That makes sense."
"Hey, Abby where do you want this to go?" Luka asked carrying a laughing Jeremy over his shoulder. "MOMMY" He shrieked. Susan and I laughed, Luka took Jeremy and the box he was carrying into the boys room. "So you're pregnant AGAIN?" Susan said emphasising on the AGAIN.
"Yes, its exciting." I smile, I am excited I just don't know what kind of conditions we are bring this baby into. By conditions I mean the relationship between Carter and I.
"Mommy. Can I have pickles?" Jeremy asks staring down at the pickle jar.
"No, you can't have a pickle, Luka and Daddy are going to take you out for lunch."
I explain. "Oh, to where." He asks placing his self in front of Susan. Susan looks down at him and smiles. "Jeremy!" Carter hollers walking into the kitchen, and noticing him standing in front of Susan. "Will you be my girlfriend." He asks with a huge grin on his face. Susan laughs, bending down to pick him up, Carter walks over with his navy blue Old Navy sweater and pulls it over his head. "I think I'm a little old for you." Susan answers. Carter grabs him from Susan and then pulls his hat over his head and smiles.
"Lets go for lunch you can see your future wife later Jer." Carter carried Jeremy out of the apartment, and we watched him go. "So are you just going to give up on Carter?"
"I don't know, I think I'm going to give him space, the space I think he needs for the time being I mean, he loves me, he told me he does, he just needs time, I mean when he came back from Africa things were different and he was different. I think it was hard for us to continue dating because one of us had changed. He was happier saw the world differently, and I think I needed to be happier, and I am now. Now I think we just need things to settle down a bit." I smiled hoping this was true, hoping all we needed was a little time.
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I Cry for You at night, I know you're Mr. Right, I search for You in dreams, And I don't know What
You think Bout Me, But I'm better than I Seem!
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"So, I guess. I'll see you two in the morning." I said bringing my boys in for a hug.
"I Love you mom." Logan said burying his face in my neck. "I love you too baby." I add holding him close, I have never really spent the night apart from my sons, so this could be hard, although I am aware that this will be the first of many, especially if things do not work out between Carter and I, although I hope they do.
"Mommy, I love you too, but daddy says that we'll be here in the morning, bright and early too." Jeremy explained. He seemed pretty confident that everything was going to be okay. "I know baby give me a hug." I pulled him in close still holding Logan. Carter stood by the door watching us. "Alright guys, go with daddy okay." I said letting go of them, not before planting a kiss on them though. "Bye, mommy." They waved as they put there shoes on with a little help from Carter and myself. "You, know you can come too if you want." Carter offered. I wished I could but I knew this wasn't an option. I had to fix this place up a bit, unpack and such. "No, I better stay here, unpack." I said standing up, he followed suit. He pulled me in for a hug and kissed my forehead. "It'll be weird without you near me." with that they left.
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I'll Risk everything I have. . I'll Fight Till I bleed Give you my Life . . if that's What you need
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Authors Note- I've decided to end it here... BUT I'm going to make a sequel, because I think that these two weeks that Abby and Carter spent getting reunited, and Carter spent getting to know his sons needed to be a story in its self, So look out for the sequel to this story, it will be titled losing something part 2, or something like that. I hope you enjoyed it, Thanks to everyone who read it, and everyone who reviewed it.
Chapter 17
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This time it's over, I'm keeping
my heart ,I'm gonna be strong
& not fall apart .. It'll get better,
I'll no longer cry.. In a couple
of weeks, I wont want to die,
I won't want to go back, I'll be
able to sleep, It won't hurt so bad,
& it won't feel so deep
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I walked into the bedroom, Carter and I had already put Jeremy into my bed and had steered clear of the twins room. I crept in to their bedroom, we hadn't heard anything out of Logan in a half hour which was nice, but he still hadn't come out of his room, Carter and I both figured he tired himself out and fell asleep. The door clicked shut and there was Logan lying face down on the floor. I walked in and picked him up, I felt his warm breath on my neck and smiled, he seemed so sweet and innocent, I hated fighting with him. Jeremy does not put up the fights Logan does. "Hey." Carter whispered walking into the room, he walked over to us, brushing a loose hair out of Logan's face and watched as I laid him down on the bed. "He's so peaceful." I stated. Carter smiled then nodded. I pulled the blanket up around his small body, I sat on the bed and stared at him. Carter sat down behind me and I rested my head against his chest. "I love them both so much, I don't know what I would do with out them." I could feel him sigh and rub my arm.
"I like watching them sleep." I said nestling closer to his body. "Yeah, I don't know how I ever lived with out them." Carter said standing and then taking my hand, he put his arm around me and we left. "I'm going to get to bed," I said leaving, to go to sleep. "Alright, I'll see you in the morning" he said with a small wave. I smiled, I quietly opened the door seeing Jeremy curled up in a ball, I kissed him gently on the cheek now feeling very excited for the baby. I pulled the covers up around Jeremy's shoulders then walked into the living room to see Carter in his sweat pants without a top on. I loved the way he looked topless, I walked over to him and smiled. "Hey." He said warmly.
"Hey." I mimicked crawling into bed next to him. He looked at me quite startled.
"Sorry." I said pulling the blankets off of myself and getting out. He grabbed my wrist to stop me. "No, it's okay." He smiled and put his book down, his head and upper body were propped up with a pillow. "What's wrong? Is the baby okay?" I laughed the baby wasn't even a baby yet. He should know this. "Festus you mean?" I chuckled. He smiled.
"So, what's going to happen to us when the baby comes," He looked extremely puzzled,
"Uh, I don't know what you mean?" He squinted at me,
"Never mind." I said getting out of bed now and walking towards my room.
"Abby, We've talked about this. You don't want me, and do you really want to get together just because we are having a baby? Besides I'm with Tanya now." This pissed me off to know end. "Carter we were together for a year, we have 2 boys and a baby on the way, we have 2 years of friendship before we started dating. What do you have with Tanya a year of work and a week of dating." I explained, hoping he would understand, but knowing it would take more then words and history to get him to hear me out. "Abby, look I love all the time we've spent together. I love you. I always have and will, I love our sons and I love the baby, but I can't be thrown through loops for someone who doesn't know what they feel. This isn't about Tanya, I don't love her I don't know if I'm capable of loving her, I just need time and space to figure things out, okay?" I squeezed my eyes shut, then turned around and walked into my room, I was glad we were out of here in a few days.
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You never lose by loving,
you always lose by holding
back.
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"Where do you want this to go ms." A huge man holding a side of Logan's bed asked,
"Oh, right in there." I said pointing to the red bedroom,
"Mommy, I like the bed at Dads, better." I rolled my eyes,
"Logan...this bed is fine." He huffed and then went to the car to carry another small box.
I like this apartment it has a nice size kitchen, and the living room is pretty big the bathroom is not in my bedroom which makes it easier, and the bedroom are down a little hall similar to Carters, mine next to the washroom and across the hall from the boys.
"I like it Abby." Susan said admiring the kitchen. I followed her into the kitchen, it was a nice space, I really did like this place, maybe one day I could own a house, but that day will not be for a long time so for now this place will do. "So, the boys are they sleeping here tonight?" Susan asked helping me put glasses into the cupboard.
"No, they're going to stay at Carters." this was better then them spending the night in a house that was a little empty at the moment and might frighten them.
"That makes sense."
"Hey, Abby where do you want this to go?" Luka asked carrying a laughing Jeremy over his shoulder. "MOMMY" He shrieked. Susan and I laughed, Luka took Jeremy and the box he was carrying into the boys room. "So you're pregnant AGAIN?" Susan said emphasising on the AGAIN.
"Yes, its exciting." I smile, I am excited I just don't know what kind of conditions we are bring this baby into. By conditions I mean the relationship between Carter and I.
"Mommy. Can I have pickles?" Jeremy asks staring down at the pickle jar.
"No, you can't have a pickle, Luka and Daddy are going to take you out for lunch."
I explain. "Oh, to where." He asks placing his self in front of Susan. Susan looks down at him and smiles. "Jeremy!" Carter hollers walking into the kitchen, and noticing him standing in front of Susan. "Will you be my girlfriend." He asks with a huge grin on his face. Susan laughs, bending down to pick him up, Carter walks over with his navy blue Old Navy sweater and pulls it over his head. "I think I'm a little old for you." Susan answers. Carter grabs him from Susan and then pulls his hat over his head and smiles.
"Lets go for lunch you can see your future wife later Jer." Carter carried Jeremy out of the apartment, and we watched him go. "So are you just going to give up on Carter?"
"I don't know, I think I'm going to give him space, the space I think he needs for the time being I mean, he loves me, he told me he does, he just needs time, I mean when he came back from Africa things were different and he was different. I think it was hard for us to continue dating because one of us had changed. He was happier saw the world differently, and I think I needed to be happier, and I am now. Now I think we just need things to settle down a bit." I smiled hoping this was true, hoping all we needed was a little time.
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I Cry for You at night, I know you're Mr. Right, I search for You in dreams, And I don't know What
You think Bout Me, But I'm better than I Seem!
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"So, I guess. I'll see you two in the morning." I said bringing my boys in for a hug.
"I Love you mom." Logan said burying his face in my neck. "I love you too baby." I add holding him close, I have never really spent the night apart from my sons, so this could be hard, although I am aware that this will be the first of many, especially if things do not work out between Carter and I, although I hope they do.
"Mommy, I love you too, but daddy says that we'll be here in the morning, bright and early too." Jeremy explained. He seemed pretty confident that everything was going to be okay. "I know baby give me a hug." I pulled him in close still holding Logan. Carter stood by the door watching us. "Alright guys, go with daddy okay." I said letting go of them, not before planting a kiss on them though. "Bye, mommy." They waved as they put there shoes on with a little help from Carter and myself. "You, know you can come too if you want." Carter offered. I wished I could but I knew this wasn't an option. I had to fix this place up a bit, unpack and such. "No, I better stay here, unpack." I said standing up, he followed suit. He pulled me in for a hug and kissed my forehead. "It'll be weird without you near me." with that they left.
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I'll Risk everything I have. . I'll Fight Till I bleed Give you my Life . . if that's What you need
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Authors Note- I've decided to end it here... BUT I'm going to make a sequel, because I think that these two weeks that Abby and Carter spent getting reunited, and Carter spent getting to know his sons needed to be a story in its self, So look out for the sequel to this story, it will be titled losing something part 2, or something like that. I hope you enjoyed it, Thanks to everyone who read it, and everyone who reviewed it.