*****DISCLAIMER***** The creators of this story do not own the characters and/or writers of Friends! And no we do not keep them locked up at night to do our evil bidding, so please, stop the phone calls!

A/N: Some of you might want to go back and read chapter 2. Somehow we posted two chapter 4's and there isn't a chapter 2. Thanks!

Chapter 18

Joey's phone rang a few times before he could get to it. When he finally picked up he was out of breath. "Hello?" he answered.

"Joey, I got your message, what's wrong?" Phoebe asked.

"Well, I'd rather tell you in person. Do you think you could come over?" His heart was racing. He knew he had to tell her now.

"Sure, I'll be there soon. Bye Joey" She said hanging up.

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Chandler felt his legs go numb, he was still trying to decide if this was just some horrible nightmare, or if Monica actually did have an affair.

"I'm gonna go" Rachel spoke up. She picked up Emma's carrier and walked out the door. She didn't go far though, she stood listening with her ear pressed to the door.

"I think I need to sit down" Chandler stumbled to the couch. "Monica, when I make jokes, it's ok...but this is just mean!"

"Chandler I wish I were joking.........but I'm not, it was one stupid, drunken mistake. I needed to tell you though, because it's killing me. I never meant for this to happen."

"I.......don't know what to say. I want to be alone for a while" Rachel could hear footsteps coming closer to the door and she ducked into Joey's apartment. Chandler walked outside into the cold, snowy streets.

Monica walked numbly to her bedroom. she couldn't see, hear, feel, react...she also couldn't believe she told him. She also couldn't feel her hands pull all of her belongings out and pack them into suitcases, not even being critical to herself about her packing. This is what she had to do though, she couldn't face Chandler everyday, she didn't want to see him hurting.

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Rachel came rushing into Monica's apartment. "Hey I heard Chandler leave, what happened?" She didn't notice the suitcases in Monica's hands.

"I'm leaving town, Rach" Monica said blankly.

"You can't leave town...your family and friends are here, your life is here" Rachel choked back tears, of all people she didn't want to lose Monica.

"I have to do this, I hurt him...and he doesn't even know the half of it"

"What? You told him you had an affair...isn't that all of it?"

"No, I'm pregnant...but it's not his." Rachel wanted to question her, but she figured it would be best to keep quiet.

"So you take care of Emma, make sure she knows I love her, and tell Ross how you really feel, we all know you two are in love, and when Chandler finds out I'm gone just be here for him." She walked over and hugged Rachel. "I love you Rach."

Tears fell from Rachel's eyes. "I love you too." With that Monica walked out the door, out of the apartment she lived in for nearly ten years, and out of the lives on the five people she loved the most.

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Joey was dimming the lights and lighting candles throughout the apartment when Phoebe knocked on the door. He finished pouring the wine and answered the door.

"Hey Pheebs..." he whispered, unable to take his eyes off her. He'd never felt this way about another person...he almost felt like he could be committed to her...

"Wow, fancy schmancy...you got a date later tonight or something?" she said, smiling and making herself comfortable.

"No...no date..." he said, still amazed at how beautiful she was.

"Then why are you dressed to impress, Snazzy McGee?"

Joey couldn't stand it any longer. He embraced her in his arms and kissed her deeply, making sure it lasted for a long, long time. Unfortunately, it didn't last as long as expected.

"Joey! Joey Oh my goodness what the hell are you doing??" Phoebe yelled as she jumped away from him.

"I-I'm sorry...I dunno what happened...I just...you look so good and...I..." Joey stammered, searching for the words to say. He knew exactly what he wanted to say and it was right on the tip of his tongue but it wouldn't come out.

"Look Joey-"

"No Phoebe...you look. I love you...I don't know if I'm delirious or crazy or what but just now for some reason I have fallen madly in love with you...and if you can't accept that then...I don't know what I'm gonna do. The last week all I've done was think about you...I haven't been able to sleep, I haven't been able to eat...ok I take that back...but...Phoebe I..."

Joey," Phoebe interrupted, "you're a really sweet guy but...I dunno. I gotta go, okay?"

"Please...Phoebe...don't."

"Look Joey...this isn't gonna work out...I'll see you later..." she said, then got up and left.

And for the first time in years that he could remember, Joey broke down and cried.

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"Monica" Chandler shouted as he entered their apartment. Rachel had been asleep on the couch and jumped up when she heard Chandler's voice. Her eyes were red from crying. Chandler knew whatever she was about to say, wasn't going to be good.

"Chandler.....she's gone, she packed her bags and she left." He could feel his body go numb.

"Where did she go?" He managed to get out.

"I don't know, she wouldn't tell me. She just left....."

"Rach, could you go, I want to be alone." Rachel nodded. She hugged Chandler before leaving.

"It's going to be ok" She whispered in his ear.

When she closed the door behind her, Chandler broke down in tears. He didn't want to believe it. He walked into their bedroom. All of Monica's things were gone. She even took the picture of them from their wedding day that sat on the nightstand, next to the bed.

Chandler sighed heavily and laid down in his bed and cried. She was gone, and he didn't know if she was ever coming back.