Stark Raving Mad
"How do you fall out of love? Do you fall out of love? Is it subtle or sudden? Does it take two? Was it really love? Does she love me? Did she love me? Did she ever love me? Was it all a game?" Jax thought to himself
All these questions flooded Jax's mind but there was one thing much worse that he couldn't get out of his head, and that was the sound of Skye's screams of pleasure. No matter how hard he tried to block them out, they echoed in his ears, rung like bells and then the mental images hit, Skye was flooding his mind and he had to do something about it.
"Should I turn the car around and ask her what the hell she thinks she's doing? No. that wouldn't help matters any, it would make things worse. A plan, you need a plan Jax. Think. Think. Think".
Luis had just stepped into the shower, Skye lay in bed thinking. Why was Jax here? What did he want? Did he come to fight? Like it really matters now, he had seen her with Luis, she truly never intended for it to happen, it wasn't like she planned it. She had to talk to someone and quick, but she couldn't, not with Luis still there.
"Wonder what things would be like if I had started drinking again? Would I be happy? Jax has had his first taste of forbidden fruit, shouldn't I have mine? Is this enough to cause me to drink? Do I need an AA meeting? Do I need a drink? No, what I really need is a binge, one that lasts a lifetime, to make all the pain go away. As much as I don't want it to hurt, it does".
Jax had been driving around all night, then he decided that it wasn't solving anything. He pulled in the driveway of the cottage, turned off the engine and just sat that a few minutes, thinking about all the good times that he and Skye had shared, thinking about there wedding day and how beautiful she looked. Then he thought about how the minutes he found out Brenda was alive, he pushed her away and how she would never forgive him. Jax got out of the car and headed into the cottage.
"Hey, did you talk to Skye?" Brenda asked with a hopeful smile.
"No" Jax shut the door behind him.
"No, she wasn't there or no you talked to her, but it didn't do any good?"
Jax took a seat in the chair, across from her, "No, Skye was there".
Brenda was trying to detect what was wrong but, his voice had no emotions, "Did you guys have a fight?"
"No" Jax answered calm
"You're not being very informative, what exactly happened between you and Skye?"
"I went to the lakehouse, I went inside, I noticed there was a lamp on so I thought she would be there so I walked through out the house until I found her".
"What happened when you found her?"
Jax was silent, all the trauma from seeing Skye was rushing back into his mind.
"Jax, is Skye alright?" Brenda asked half concerned
"Yeah"
"So, you found her and?" Brenda hinted for Jax to continue.
Jax looked as if he were in a daze as he spoke, "He was with her"
"He, who?"
"I don't know"
"You don't know who she was there with?"
His mind flashed back to last nights events, "No, I couldn't see his face"
"What were they doing?" Brenda asked
"Having sex" Jax blurted out point blank.
"Oh" Brenda gasped, she didn't know what else to say.
"You should have seen them together, they were sweaty, their skin was flushed, their lips were red and swollen and Skye kept screaming for him not to stop".
"I'm sorry you had to go through that, Jax".
Skye had kissed Luis goodbye and after he got in the limo and it pulled away from the lakehouse, She went back inside, got dressed and went for the phone. As soon as she began to dial she heard a knock on the door. She looked up to see Carly, putting the phone down she walk over to the door, letting her in.
Skye breathed a sigh of relief, "Oh, am I glad to see you".
"Well, good because I have some questions for you, so for starters how was dinner?" Carly made her way past Skye and took a seat on the couch.
Skye smiled, "Great"
"Where did you go afterwards?"
Skye took a seat across from Carly, "We came back here".
"Really and what happened?"
"We talked for a while and then one thing lead to another and off to the bedroom we went but, during, I looked up and saw none other than Jasper Jacks"
Carly's jaw dropped, "Oh my god, how much do you think he saw?"
"Probably all of it"
"Well, if that isn't pay back, I don't know what is"
"It's not like I planned it" Skye spoke firmly defending her actions of the last evening past.
"I know and that makes it even better"
"You should have seen the look on his face"
"Mad?" Carly questioned
"More like shocked, I think"
The tone of Carly's voice changed from playful to soft and serious, "Skye, what do you really feel for Alcazar?"
Skye remained silent for the longest time, hoping that maybe she could pull a simple answer out of thin air but there was no chance in hell of that happening, so she began the only way she knew how, stretching the truth and smoothing it over with guilt.
"Well, I know that I'm not in love with him or anything but, I just feel good when I'm with him, he makes me feel alive and tells me all the things that I want to hear. After I noticed that you were right about Jax trying to turn me into Brenda, everything fell into place, maybe Jax and I didn't belong together and maybe I have Brenda to thank".
But, Skye, you were so happy with Jax, you too were so much in love, he was fulfilling all of your dreams and desires and was willing to give you the world at your fingertips". Carly watched as Skye's shield began to lower.
"Carly, I love Jax, I really do but, I was just a substitute for Brenda, I'm sure Jax has some feelings towards me but, not like he has for his perfect love" A few tears began to form in her eyes but, she was determined to swallow her emotions.
"One day Jax is going to wake up and discover that his perfect love isn't so perfect and that she's never been, she bounced back and fourth from Jax to Sonny like a ping-pong ball".
"Not caring who she hurts in the process"
"That's Brenda, until it happens to her that is, someone needs to hurt Brenda like she's hurt so many others and before it's all said and done, she will be". Deep down Carly had every intentions of keeping that true, even if she had to take care of Brenda herself.
"The sooner the better, I'm just relieved that I found out about this whole Brenda thing before Jax told me otherwise, the outcome may have been very different, but thanks to Jason I had time to prepare."
-----At the cottage-----
"Are you sure you don't know who Skye was with?" Brenda questioned
"Brenda, I'm not real sure but, I think it was Alcazar" Jax tried avoiding eye contact with her
"No, it couldn't have been Luis, he loves me" Brenda snapped.
"Brenda, calm down, I didn't say it was Alcazar, I said it could have been"
Brenda was now paranoid and a little upset, "Maybe we should find out"
"How are we going to do that?"
"You're going to go and ask Skye who she was with".
Jax knew what Skye's reaction to that question would be, "Skye would never tell me"
She smiled, "Not even to rub it in your face?"
TBC................................
Next time............Brenda confronts Skye
"How do you fall out of love? Do you fall out of love? Is it subtle or sudden? Does it take two? Was it really love? Does she love me? Did she love me? Did she ever love me? Was it all a game?" Jax thought to himself
All these questions flooded Jax's mind but there was one thing much worse that he couldn't get out of his head, and that was the sound of Skye's screams of pleasure. No matter how hard he tried to block them out, they echoed in his ears, rung like bells and then the mental images hit, Skye was flooding his mind and he had to do something about it.
"Should I turn the car around and ask her what the hell she thinks she's doing? No. that wouldn't help matters any, it would make things worse. A plan, you need a plan Jax. Think. Think. Think".
Luis had just stepped into the shower, Skye lay in bed thinking. Why was Jax here? What did he want? Did he come to fight? Like it really matters now, he had seen her with Luis, she truly never intended for it to happen, it wasn't like she planned it. She had to talk to someone and quick, but she couldn't, not with Luis still there.
"Wonder what things would be like if I had started drinking again? Would I be happy? Jax has had his first taste of forbidden fruit, shouldn't I have mine? Is this enough to cause me to drink? Do I need an AA meeting? Do I need a drink? No, what I really need is a binge, one that lasts a lifetime, to make all the pain go away. As much as I don't want it to hurt, it does".
Jax had been driving around all night, then he decided that it wasn't solving anything. He pulled in the driveway of the cottage, turned off the engine and just sat that a few minutes, thinking about all the good times that he and Skye had shared, thinking about there wedding day and how beautiful she looked. Then he thought about how the minutes he found out Brenda was alive, he pushed her away and how she would never forgive him. Jax got out of the car and headed into the cottage.
"Hey, did you talk to Skye?" Brenda asked with a hopeful smile.
"No" Jax shut the door behind him.
"No, she wasn't there or no you talked to her, but it didn't do any good?"
Jax took a seat in the chair, across from her, "No, Skye was there".
Brenda was trying to detect what was wrong but, his voice had no emotions, "Did you guys have a fight?"
"No" Jax answered calm
"You're not being very informative, what exactly happened between you and Skye?"
"I went to the lakehouse, I went inside, I noticed there was a lamp on so I thought she would be there so I walked through out the house until I found her".
"What happened when you found her?"
Jax was silent, all the trauma from seeing Skye was rushing back into his mind.
"Jax, is Skye alright?" Brenda asked half concerned
"Yeah"
"So, you found her and?" Brenda hinted for Jax to continue.
Jax looked as if he were in a daze as he spoke, "He was with her"
"He, who?"
"I don't know"
"You don't know who she was there with?"
His mind flashed back to last nights events, "No, I couldn't see his face"
"What were they doing?" Brenda asked
"Having sex" Jax blurted out point blank.
"Oh" Brenda gasped, she didn't know what else to say.
"You should have seen them together, they were sweaty, their skin was flushed, their lips were red and swollen and Skye kept screaming for him not to stop".
"I'm sorry you had to go through that, Jax".
Skye had kissed Luis goodbye and after he got in the limo and it pulled away from the lakehouse, She went back inside, got dressed and went for the phone. As soon as she began to dial she heard a knock on the door. She looked up to see Carly, putting the phone down she walk over to the door, letting her in.
Skye breathed a sigh of relief, "Oh, am I glad to see you".
"Well, good because I have some questions for you, so for starters how was dinner?" Carly made her way past Skye and took a seat on the couch.
Skye smiled, "Great"
"Where did you go afterwards?"
Skye took a seat across from Carly, "We came back here".
"Really and what happened?"
"We talked for a while and then one thing lead to another and off to the bedroom we went but, during, I looked up and saw none other than Jasper Jacks"
Carly's jaw dropped, "Oh my god, how much do you think he saw?"
"Probably all of it"
"Well, if that isn't pay back, I don't know what is"
"It's not like I planned it" Skye spoke firmly defending her actions of the last evening past.
"I know and that makes it even better"
"You should have seen the look on his face"
"Mad?" Carly questioned
"More like shocked, I think"
The tone of Carly's voice changed from playful to soft and serious, "Skye, what do you really feel for Alcazar?"
Skye remained silent for the longest time, hoping that maybe she could pull a simple answer out of thin air but there was no chance in hell of that happening, so she began the only way she knew how, stretching the truth and smoothing it over with guilt.
"Well, I know that I'm not in love with him or anything but, I just feel good when I'm with him, he makes me feel alive and tells me all the things that I want to hear. After I noticed that you were right about Jax trying to turn me into Brenda, everything fell into place, maybe Jax and I didn't belong together and maybe I have Brenda to thank".
But, Skye, you were so happy with Jax, you too were so much in love, he was fulfilling all of your dreams and desires and was willing to give you the world at your fingertips". Carly watched as Skye's shield began to lower.
"Carly, I love Jax, I really do but, I was just a substitute for Brenda, I'm sure Jax has some feelings towards me but, not like he has for his perfect love" A few tears began to form in her eyes but, she was determined to swallow her emotions.
"One day Jax is going to wake up and discover that his perfect love isn't so perfect and that she's never been, she bounced back and fourth from Jax to Sonny like a ping-pong ball".
"Not caring who she hurts in the process"
"That's Brenda, until it happens to her that is, someone needs to hurt Brenda like she's hurt so many others and before it's all said and done, she will be". Deep down Carly had every intentions of keeping that true, even if she had to take care of Brenda herself.
"The sooner the better, I'm just relieved that I found out about this whole Brenda thing before Jax told me otherwise, the outcome may have been very different, but thanks to Jason I had time to prepare."
-----At the cottage-----
"Are you sure you don't know who Skye was with?" Brenda questioned
"Brenda, I'm not real sure but, I think it was Alcazar" Jax tried avoiding eye contact with her
"No, it couldn't have been Luis, he loves me" Brenda snapped.
"Brenda, calm down, I didn't say it was Alcazar, I said it could have been"
Brenda was now paranoid and a little upset, "Maybe we should find out"
"How are we going to do that?"
"You're going to go and ask Skye who she was with".
Jax knew what Skye's reaction to that question would be, "Skye would never tell me"
She smiled, "Not even to rub it in your face?"
TBC................................
Next time............Brenda confronts Skye