REMUS pov
I only wish I could hold you once more .
.To feel you, to look at you, to tell you goodbye. to close your eyes with my loving hands and kiss your lips, so that your last kiss would go on with me, staying still, forever on my mouth, till the day I'll die as well.
I was there when you felt behind the veil but I couldn't even cry your name as Harry did.and I hid my feelings, as I had always done, also in the worst moment of my life.
Love of my life. I wanted to run to catch you everywhere you was. I didn't want to be careful any more.. because YOU where the only thing I cared, and you were gone. But. Harry, was there too, and he needed me. I had to be strong for him, to be wise for him, whilst I was going crazy with pain.
The sorrow I read in his eyes when he understood you were no more between us lacerated my heart: he was the only one who suffered as much as me, and he looked so small and harmless. I hope you were far enough to not seeing his face: it was the perfect mirror of the way I was feeling inside. smashed.
That first morning I had to live without you on this earth and I was alone in your house, in the place you were born and grown up. near the things you hated . Yes! The only things of you I could find were the things you detested. and I had a strange intuition: you hated things in general. Your love was for James, Lily, Harry. and me. Your attachment was only to people.
I was devastated, broken.I thought about the way you could hate and love.
Dumbledore came to look for me. Without a word he hugged me and. I cried. Finally, in the arms of the 'old crazy man' I cried for my lost love. for your lost life. I cried for ages.
Now my tears are finished, but my sorrow stands still, because I saw you fighting and falling: and everything I was, went away with you.
I was happy, once. I remember the days I became your friend. I was the happiest boy in the history! You were the most enjoyable company I could think about and. YOU, Sirius Black, wanted the shy, quiet and hard-working Remus Lupin as a friend of yours. At first, I believed you wanted something back from me, but I didn't really care if I could be with you.I was so happy!!
I was touched, once. You discovered that I was a werewolf (you used to discover every secret. how could you do that?) and you ran to me to tell me I was stupid not to tell you everything about me before. I couldn't believe you were there, hugging me, as a brother, despite you knew my blood was so. 'dirty': "I wanna find a way to be with you during those nights, Remus." I was so deeply touched!
I was stunned, once. The first time you kissed me. I was so stunned I almost couldn't feel the most important thing.
I was overwhelmed, once. When we let out all the passion we felt, one for the other. When your lips were all over my body. When you were inside of me. I was so overwhelmed that I almost couldn't feel the most important thing..
I was in love, once. The day we met alone after 10 years and you finally told me you loved me, only me, always me: ".now and ever!". I was so much in love that I almost couldn't feel the most important thing..
.I was complete..once!
A/N Thank you Nicole Black, for your review! I tried to go "deep"ly inside myself to write these chapters. I'm glad someone can feel it.
I only wish I could hold you once more .
.To feel you, to look at you, to tell you goodbye. to close your eyes with my loving hands and kiss your lips, so that your last kiss would go on with me, staying still, forever on my mouth, till the day I'll die as well.
I was there when you felt behind the veil but I couldn't even cry your name as Harry did.and I hid my feelings, as I had always done, also in the worst moment of my life.
Love of my life. I wanted to run to catch you everywhere you was. I didn't want to be careful any more.. because YOU where the only thing I cared, and you were gone. But. Harry, was there too, and he needed me. I had to be strong for him, to be wise for him, whilst I was going crazy with pain.
The sorrow I read in his eyes when he understood you were no more between us lacerated my heart: he was the only one who suffered as much as me, and he looked so small and harmless. I hope you were far enough to not seeing his face: it was the perfect mirror of the way I was feeling inside. smashed.
That first morning I had to live without you on this earth and I was alone in your house, in the place you were born and grown up. near the things you hated . Yes! The only things of you I could find were the things you detested. and I had a strange intuition: you hated things in general. Your love was for James, Lily, Harry. and me. Your attachment was only to people.
I was devastated, broken.I thought about the way you could hate and love.
Dumbledore came to look for me. Without a word he hugged me and. I cried. Finally, in the arms of the 'old crazy man' I cried for my lost love. for your lost life. I cried for ages.
Now my tears are finished, but my sorrow stands still, because I saw you fighting and falling: and everything I was, went away with you.
I was happy, once. I remember the days I became your friend. I was the happiest boy in the history! You were the most enjoyable company I could think about and. YOU, Sirius Black, wanted the shy, quiet and hard-working Remus Lupin as a friend of yours. At first, I believed you wanted something back from me, but I didn't really care if I could be with you.I was so happy!!
I was touched, once. You discovered that I was a werewolf (you used to discover every secret. how could you do that?) and you ran to me to tell me I was stupid not to tell you everything about me before. I couldn't believe you were there, hugging me, as a brother, despite you knew my blood was so. 'dirty': "I wanna find a way to be with you during those nights, Remus." I was so deeply touched!
I was stunned, once. The first time you kissed me. I was so stunned I almost couldn't feel the most important thing.
I was overwhelmed, once. When we let out all the passion we felt, one for the other. When your lips were all over my body. When you were inside of me. I was so overwhelmed that I almost couldn't feel the most important thing..
I was in love, once. The day we met alone after 10 years and you finally told me you loved me, only me, always me: ".now and ever!". I was so much in love that I almost couldn't feel the most important thing..
.I was complete..once!
A/N Thank you Nicole Black, for your review! I tried to go "deep"ly inside myself to write these chapters. I'm glad someone can feel it.