=That Dream=
Chapter 9
It's been a very long while, no? Sorry to all of those who had high expectations. I re-read my ficlet, and it's not as great as I once thought. The idea is ingenious, the execution is pitiful.
Anyhow, I've still not gotten a computer, my old one was busted beyond repair, so says the computer guys, and I'm working on a really, incredibly bad computer! So, again, the delay was uneventful. Terribly, terribly sorry.
~*~
School was...interesting to say the least. When I got there, I sat in my usual desk, doing usual things. Like moping and wallowing in self-pity, denial, and loathing. Yes, today was normal like every other day.
Except that Sakura hates me. She *hates* me. None of this half-way, inbetween crap, she really and truly is disgusted with me. I saw her asking the sensei if she could move! MOVE!
WE'VE HAD THE SAME DAMN SEATS FOR SEVEN OR SO YEARS! NOW SHE WANTS TO *MOVE*!
Well, what can I say, everything was like it was when I first came. Except she wanted to move, and I actually liked her--NO! Loved her this time. There, I've said it, AGAIN! I love Kinomoto Sakrua. There's nothing that can be said, I don't think I can live without her, and yet I've done something so incredibly stupid. Like, have hormones. Geez!
Hiiragizawa is still an insufferable git, and I can't stand him any more than I could yesterday.
I stare at the sensei with blank eyes, and I start to think about all that has happened. Dreams... dreams are what made my life a living hell. When I had a chance with Sakura, I should've taken it. I mean, truly, what could've been the worst thing she said. Well, it was no, and that would crush me, because she was the one and I loved her more than chocolate, but now she hates me.
I hate my life, everything is just so, bleh!
I turned to look at Hiiragizawa, who wasn't in a much better state than I. His eye was purple and blue, and that made me a bit happy, but he looked thoroughly dejected. I hardly ever see Hiiragizawa like that. He turned towards me, and threw a note at me. I caught it, and read what it said.
'Did you talk to Tomoyo?'
I hurridly scribbled back a reply. 'Yes.'
'What did she say?'
'She said she likes you. She should've called last night. I'm going to take a wild guess and say she didn't.'
'You're sarcasm is felt even through the paper, little descendent.'
'You're moods are worse than a girl's.'
'Yes, so they are. No, since you've so obviously pointed out, Tomoyo didn't call me, and I'm assuming she's old-fashioned. Would she rather me ask her instead?'
'I'm not going to answer. Everyone needs to suffer once in a while.'
'You are a sadistic, evil man.'
'I learn from the best.'
"Psst... Tomoyo-san, Tomoyo-san!" Eriol said to Tomoyo. I watched as she turned around, and she grinned at him. That's so bloody not fair!
"Hai?"
"Would you like to go on a date with me sometime soon?"
"Really? I'd love to! Oh, wow!"
Hiiragizawa grins, his face the epitome of joy. Well he can go suck it. I'm not in the mood. I don't know if I trust Eriol anymore. I think I'm just going to go back to China and live peacefully there. It couldn't get any worse. Truly...
"Descendent, I want to thank you for this truly joyous event."
"Bite me."
"Well, I see that you are in a wonderful mood. Anyhow, I want you to know that everything is going according to plan."
"Yes, it is. Everything is going according to plan. By the end of this week, I'm going back to China. I'm going to fulfill my duties of the Li Clan, like the Elders wanted me to do sooner. So, I'm going to be finishing up business for the rest of this week. I suppose that I'm backing out on the bet, and I'll repay you some other time."
Hiiragizawa's mouth dropped open. I suppose he wasn't used to seeing me give up so easily. I guess he doesn't know how deeply I feel about Sakura. She's the love of my life, and I didn't plan on giving her up so easily, but I did. This was the worst I've ever felt in my life. I suppose wallowing in self-pity does that to you.
"Oh no you don't, Descendent, you are not backing out of this bet so easily. In fact, I'll add on to this bet. If I don't win, then you can leave, and do what else we've planned."
I shook my head negatively.
"No, I'm leaving. It's final, I'm leaving. There's nothing anyone can do about it."
Hiiragizawa looked like he was about to argue, then his shoulders slumped in compliance, and he agreed. "Fine, but I'm going to be visiting you in China, Little Descendent."
"I'm sure we won't welcome you with open arms. Well, the bell is going to ring, and I'm off."
I stood up as the bell rang, and I heard a couple of sniffles behind me. I can't be bothered any longer, I head out and I made my way to the office.
When I went in, the secretary winked at me and asked if she could help me. I told her I'd be leaving by the end of this week.
"Oh, Li-san, why?"
"Things never work out as expected, do they?"
"No, I suppose not. Well, before you leave, you'll have to come tell me good-bye."
"Yes, I will. Thank you."
I walked out and slowly made my way home. This is now the worst day in my life. All because of a dream, my life went upside down. I couldn't control myself, well actually, I was doing that to help a friend. So what a big load of crap that gets me into. Bleh...
As I walked home, I passed Penguin Park, and looked at the park with a heavy heart. That place held fond memories. In fact, Tomoeda held too many memories for me to stay here any longer than I needed to. Yes, it's decided, I'm leaving by the end of this week. Because there is no possible way Sakura could ever forgive me. Ever.
Chapter 9
It's been a very long while, no? Sorry to all of those who had high expectations. I re-read my ficlet, and it's not as great as I once thought. The idea is ingenious, the execution is pitiful.
Anyhow, I've still not gotten a computer, my old one was busted beyond repair, so says the computer guys, and I'm working on a really, incredibly bad computer! So, again, the delay was uneventful. Terribly, terribly sorry.
~*~
School was...interesting to say the least. When I got there, I sat in my usual desk, doing usual things. Like moping and wallowing in self-pity, denial, and loathing. Yes, today was normal like every other day.
Except that Sakura hates me. She *hates* me. None of this half-way, inbetween crap, she really and truly is disgusted with me. I saw her asking the sensei if she could move! MOVE!
WE'VE HAD THE SAME DAMN SEATS FOR SEVEN OR SO YEARS! NOW SHE WANTS TO *MOVE*!
Well, what can I say, everything was like it was when I first came. Except she wanted to move, and I actually liked her--NO! Loved her this time. There, I've said it, AGAIN! I love Kinomoto Sakrua. There's nothing that can be said, I don't think I can live without her, and yet I've done something so incredibly stupid. Like, have hormones. Geez!
Hiiragizawa is still an insufferable git, and I can't stand him any more than I could yesterday.
I stare at the sensei with blank eyes, and I start to think about all that has happened. Dreams... dreams are what made my life a living hell. When I had a chance with Sakura, I should've taken it. I mean, truly, what could've been the worst thing she said. Well, it was no, and that would crush me, because she was the one and I loved her more than chocolate, but now she hates me.
I hate my life, everything is just so, bleh!
I turned to look at Hiiragizawa, who wasn't in a much better state than I. His eye was purple and blue, and that made me a bit happy, but he looked thoroughly dejected. I hardly ever see Hiiragizawa like that. He turned towards me, and threw a note at me. I caught it, and read what it said.
'Did you talk to Tomoyo?'
I hurridly scribbled back a reply. 'Yes.'
'What did she say?'
'She said she likes you. She should've called last night. I'm going to take a wild guess and say she didn't.'
'You're sarcasm is felt even through the paper, little descendent.'
'You're moods are worse than a girl's.'
'Yes, so they are. No, since you've so obviously pointed out, Tomoyo didn't call me, and I'm assuming she's old-fashioned. Would she rather me ask her instead?'
'I'm not going to answer. Everyone needs to suffer once in a while.'
'You are a sadistic, evil man.'
'I learn from the best.'
"Psst... Tomoyo-san, Tomoyo-san!" Eriol said to Tomoyo. I watched as she turned around, and she grinned at him. That's so bloody not fair!
"Hai?"
"Would you like to go on a date with me sometime soon?"
"Really? I'd love to! Oh, wow!"
Hiiragizawa grins, his face the epitome of joy. Well he can go suck it. I'm not in the mood. I don't know if I trust Eriol anymore. I think I'm just going to go back to China and live peacefully there. It couldn't get any worse. Truly...
"Descendent, I want to thank you for this truly joyous event."
"Bite me."
"Well, I see that you are in a wonderful mood. Anyhow, I want you to know that everything is going according to plan."
"Yes, it is. Everything is going according to plan. By the end of this week, I'm going back to China. I'm going to fulfill my duties of the Li Clan, like the Elders wanted me to do sooner. So, I'm going to be finishing up business for the rest of this week. I suppose that I'm backing out on the bet, and I'll repay you some other time."
Hiiragizawa's mouth dropped open. I suppose he wasn't used to seeing me give up so easily. I guess he doesn't know how deeply I feel about Sakura. She's the love of my life, and I didn't plan on giving her up so easily, but I did. This was the worst I've ever felt in my life. I suppose wallowing in self-pity does that to you.
"Oh no you don't, Descendent, you are not backing out of this bet so easily. In fact, I'll add on to this bet. If I don't win, then you can leave, and do what else we've planned."
I shook my head negatively.
"No, I'm leaving. It's final, I'm leaving. There's nothing anyone can do about it."
Hiiragizawa looked like he was about to argue, then his shoulders slumped in compliance, and he agreed. "Fine, but I'm going to be visiting you in China, Little Descendent."
"I'm sure we won't welcome you with open arms. Well, the bell is going to ring, and I'm off."
I stood up as the bell rang, and I heard a couple of sniffles behind me. I can't be bothered any longer, I head out and I made my way to the office.
When I went in, the secretary winked at me and asked if she could help me. I told her I'd be leaving by the end of this week.
"Oh, Li-san, why?"
"Things never work out as expected, do they?"
"No, I suppose not. Well, before you leave, you'll have to come tell me good-bye."
"Yes, I will. Thank you."
I walked out and slowly made my way home. This is now the worst day in my life. All because of a dream, my life went upside down. I couldn't control myself, well actually, I was doing that to help a friend. So what a big load of crap that gets me into. Bleh...
As I walked home, I passed Penguin Park, and looked at the park with a heavy heart. That place held fond memories. In fact, Tomoeda held too many memories for me to stay here any longer than I needed to. Yes, it's decided, I'm leaving by the end of this week. Because there is no possible way Sakura could ever forgive me. Ever.