Again I know I took forever but…don't I always? LOL sorry. Hope you likely and enjoy b/c this story is coming to and end soon. Oh and I'm soo sorry about the suky poem but I was in a poetry mood.

Ch.11-beyond hope

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To feel pain is to be human

To love is to be human

Love brings pain

And pain brings love

So the circle goes

Round and round

Till love and pain clash

And become one

Here endith the lesson

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Brennan sat at the edge of Shalimar's bed, her hand securely in his. Since he had brought her back to Sanctuary the only time he had let go of her was to allow Adam have a look at her, and heal her wounds. Brennan sat there and started to go over what had happened. He remembered it so vividly, it had been burned into his memory.

He had broken every driving rule in the book rushing Shalimar back to Sanctuary. He had tried not to jar her and make her injuries worse when he rushed her into Sanctuary. All the while mentally beating himself for telling her off earlier. Now there might be a chance that he would never get to say he was sorry.

He had rushed in the lab so fast that he almost broke down the door. "Adam I got her! But I can't get her to wake up!"

Adams face contorted with worry, "okay put her on that bed over there."

He carried her over to the bed, laying her limp body down as gently as he could. All the while still clutching her hand. Unwilling to let go, fearing that if he let go, looked away for even an instant, she would slip away. This was a thought too much for him to bear.

Jesse and Emma had come bursting into med lab, but Adam sent them away, saying he couldn't work with all of them in the room.

"Brennan I need to cut her shirt off…I have to get to her shoulder, from what I can tell there are fragments of metal still there."

He lifted his head up and smiled a bit, "whatever you say Adam."

"Just grab those scissors over there," Adam pointed to a pair of black scissors on his desk.

He began to cut Shalimar's shirt off, muttering something about how Shalimar loved this shirt and she was going to kill him when she finds out he had to cut it. He laughed a bit when he caught site of her leopard print bra, "that's my girl."

"Okay Brennan I need you to take the rest of the shirt off then hold her down….I have to seal the wound but I can't do it if she thrashes."

He stripped the rest of her shirt off, giving Adam access to the gaping wound in her shoulder. Then he held her down with all his might.

"Hold her down with your whole body, you know how strong she is…. Ready?"

He nodded, he just hoped that it wouldn't be him on that bed in a second.

Adam pressed a button on the arm of the bed and a machine extended from the ceiling. Pressing another button Adam aimed the laser at Shalimar's shoulder and with another press of a button the laser began to cut into Shalimar's shoulder, cauterizing the wound.

His nostrils tingled as the smell of searing flesh assaulted them.

From the moment the laser touched her skin Shalimar had started to flair, her movements growing more aggressive and panicked as the last.

"Adam hurry this up! I can't hold her for much longer!"

Adam punched some more buttons on the arm rest, franticly trying to finish before Shalimar got out of hand. Punching one last button, the laser turned off and retracted back into the ceiling.

He stood there, somewhat dazed, nose bleeding down his face.

"You okay Brennan?"

"What?"

"Your…" Adam pointed to Brennan's nose, "she must have gotten you."

"What?" he asked confused, then he brought his now free hand up to his face and when his hand came back it was covered in blood. "Crap! I guess I didn't notice with everything that was going on."

Adam tried to guide him over to a chair, "come on she should be out for a while, lets get you cleaned up."

He didn't move an inch.

"Brennan?"

He barely acknowledged that Adam was speaking to him, giving him a slightly raised eyebrow to show he had heard him.

"It's just…so hard…."

"What is?"

"To leave her…..I'm afraid that if I take my eyes off of her for one second she'll disappear again, and I….I can't let it end this way. Never getting to say I'm sorry for what I said to her."

He was starting to confuse Adam, Adam had no knowledge of the 'lovers quarrel' in the dojo. But he knew how much Brennan cared for Shalimar.

"Brennan I promise you she will be here when you turn around, we are just going across the room." Putting emphasis on the word promise.

He reluctantly tore his eyes away from Shalimar, "I guess so…." Once Adam had helped him clean up, he was back at Shalimar's side, while Adam was hurrying around taking scan after scan.

Hours passed by, and he stayed at Shalimar's side, silently praying to himself that his love would wake up. Growing frustrated and irritated, lacking sleep, but more importantly lacking answers. "Adam! What is taking you so long to figure out what's the matter with her?"

Adam slid his fingers over a couple buttons on a keypad, bringing up the scans of Shalimar's brain. "From what I can tell she hit her head during the accident, causing swelling and bleeding in the brain. I fixed the bleeding…but the swelling will have to go down on it's own."

He brushed a stray lock of gold hair away from Shalimar's cheek, "will it?"

"In time….how much time? I can't tell…" Taking a deep breath to calm himself, "meanwhile we should really keep looking for the other Shalimar."

He stood next to Shalimar gently stroking her hair while he half listened to Adam.

"Do we have any leads?" Adam muttered unconsciously. "I've had Jesse and Emma working on it since you left to get Shalimar.."

"So nothing," he said stating the obvious.

"Nothing yet, but they are still looking and I was just about to run a search myself, I'll call you if.."

"Can I take her to her room?" he asked cutting Adam off mid-sentence.

Adam patted him on the shoulder giving a heavy sigh, "with her head injury and the swelling….It's not safe to move her just yet. But why don't you stay with her so she doesn't wake up alone, we don't know what kind of lasting effects her injury might cause. So I'm going to get an update from Jesse and I'll call you when we have any leads?"

He nodded and pulled up a chair next to Shalimar's bed.

With that Adam turned to walk out of the room.

"Adam?"

"Yeah?" Adam questioned over his shoulder.

"You promise me any lead on anything you'll call me? I wanna get this bastard…..whoever he is"

"I promise."

Then Adam was gone and he was left alone with a comatose Shalimar.

"Hey Shal…I don't know if you can hear me….but I want you to know I'm sorry, I'm so sorry for what I said, and if you…if you could just wake up? If you do, I promise I'll set everything right." He buried his face in her bare stomach, "I'll make everything as it was, just you and me. I love you beyond hope….just please…wake up…"

He stayed that way, for how long? He didn't know. Silently praying to his god…her god…he didn't care, anyone who could answer his prayers. He couldn't remember the last time he had prayed, he thought it would work. And yet nothing happened, only time could tell what fate had in store for the great Shalimar Fox.
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And here endith chapter 11 once again I'm soo sorry to subject you guys to my poetry however breif. Hope you liked it and go ahead press that button that says review before you go…even if it is to flame my poetry. I know you wanna tell me what you think.