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Warning:  this is rated R for a reason.  this chapter in itself would probably be PG or PG-13.  There will be m/m slash in coming chapters.  If you don't want to read anything with boys touching, kissing, or having sex with other boys, HIT THE BACK BUTTON NOW!!

Chapter Five

Harry was happy that he was alone in the tower while he went through his mom's things.

The first hour was spent looking through her old school books and picture albums.  He sorted through her clothes.

When everything was out of the trunk, Harry felt somehow strange and looked back in.  There, close to the front, he could barely see the outline of a secret door.  He didn't know exactly how to open it, but he touched his wand to it and said, "Alohamora."

To his surprise the top opened and he heard a voice coming from it.  Mom, Harry thought.

"Harry, if you are hearing this, then my fears have been confirmed and James and I are dead.  I am so sorry about what you may be going through, my son.  In this compartment, you will find a jewelry box and my diary.  I want you to read the diary, but I ask that if you open it and read it, you read it in its entirety.  I also ask that you do not hold this information against me or your father.  Also, please do what you feel is right with this information.  Know that nothing you could ever do would diminish my love for you.  I love you, Harry."

After Harry wiped the tears off of his cheeks, he reached into the hole and pulled out the two objects that his mother had spoken of.

He sat the diary and jewelry box down beside the trunk and went about placing everything else back into the trunk.  He replaced the shrinking charm and put the minutely sized trunk in the bottom of his own school trunk under his invisibility cloak.  He picked up the diary and box, climbed onto his bed, and closed the curtains around the bed with a locking charm.

There he sat, for how long, he couldn't tell, just staring at the two objects of his mothers.  Already, they were as precious to him as his fathers invisibility cloak and the Marauders Map.  He wanted to read Lily's diary, but he was scared of what he might find.  His mothers request for him to not hold anything he read against his parents terrified him.

What could be in here that I would possibly hold against them?  Harry thought.

Instead of diving right into the diary as he really wished to do, he took to looking at the small box instead.  It wasn't like any jewelry box he had ever seen.  There was no visible way to open it.  Harry tried the Alohamora spell, but it didn't help.  He felt around it, trying to find a hinge or a catch.  Anything that could show a way to open it.

After a few minutes, he sat it to the side and picked up the diary.  At first, he simply looked at its faded turquoise cover, the broken binding, his mothers name engraved into the bottom corner.

©Lily Evans©

She got this before she married, he thought.

He leaned back against his pillows and opened it to the first page.

Well, might as well start at the beginning, he thought.