I'm In Love…And Always Will Be

Lyrics from Dido's White Flag

I know you think that I shouldn't still love you or tell you that

But if I didn't day it well I'd still have felt it,

Where's the sense in that

I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder

Or return to where we were

Vaughn…..You're married and I know its wrong to love a married man but I still do. I still love you more than I should. You moved on and I was so angry with you for that but I can't stop my heart from feeling this way. I still love you more than anything else. You probably think that I should forget everything we had but I can't…every moment we shared I etched into my memory and can never be erased. And even if I don't tell you that I do, id still feel it, every time I see you , every time I smell your perfume and every time I brush against you. What will I do then? How do I survive? I know you must have been through hell and I promise im not trying to make things more difficult for you and you coming back to me is against all odds but I can't stop loving you.

I know I left too much mess and destruction to come back again

And I cause nothing but trouble, I understand if you can't

Talk to me again

And if you live by the rules of its over then

Im sure that that makes sense

I left so much chaos in your life and death and destruction has been a curse that iv carried all my life. My life is full of pain of hurt and I understand that you don't want to be a part of that hell anymore. You have a wife now so I guess it really is over and I am powerless to do anything about that. You were my one true friend, my only confidant, my anchor in a sea of lies and my pillar of support I am crushed to know that I have lost that. You may not love me anymore Vaughn but every time I look into your eyes, I feel that you still do.

And when we meet, which I'm sure we will

All that was there, will be there still

Ill let it pass, and hold my tongue

And you will think that I've moved on

So now your coming back to the CIA again. We are going to work together and see each other everyday again-just like before. Just like when I fell in love with you. I told you I can handle you being there but I lied. Because when I talk to you and gaze into your eyes and watch you move, I realize that everything that was there between us is still there. You still back my heart jump and cause butterflies in my stomach. I am still head over heels in love with you and the protocol that is keeping us apart is now that wedding ring on your finger. But ill let it pass, ill hold my tongue and not tell you that im dying each day without you, that I crave your touch and your kiss like I crave a next breath, that my heart feels empty and my body cold without your embrace to warm me. No. ill put up a brave front for your sake and pretend to be ok. And you will think that ive moved on and gotten past you but that's ok. Because I know that I love you too much to ever move on.

I will go down with this ship and I won't put my hands up

And surrender

There will be no white flag above my door,

I'm in love… and always will be

You're the love of my life Vaughn. There will never be another you so I will not settle. My life has lost its meaning and its purpose. Everyone around me has just left and I am so alone. I don't want to move on so I will just go down with my ship. But there is one thing you should know before I fade away….i will never love anyone the way I loved you. I am so deeply in love with you, Vaughn, and I always will be……forever.