Tyler's embrace was amazingly comfortable but all I could think of was
Nathan. He was the new guy on my mind, and it was almost wrong of me to
pretend that mine and Tyler's relationship was going to work. I wanted
Nathan now.
"Tyler?" I said to him while leading him, for the first time, over to the bed. I made him sit next to me without groping all over me and trying to do things I wasn't in the mood for. "Do you really think that this is going to work out between us? I mean.I'm going to be totally honest with you. I'm having doubts about, us." I stated cautiously, awaiting a blow from the back of Tyler's hand across my cheek. He looked down at his feet and then met eyes with mine.
"I was thinking about that today, when I was away from you. It felt so odd to not have you near me, so I made a vow to myself about you. I promise to try harder to let you have some space, and to not hurt you because God knows I never want to see you in pain. I hit you sometimes, and it really hurts me. I know it may not seem like it, but I promised myself today that I wouldn't hit you at all, ever again. I love you Candace, I'm willing to change for you. I need you." He said seriously, swallowing his pride while picking my hand up and placing it in his. "I also won't do anything sexual to you anymore unless you want to. I'm not making the first move at all. I want to have an honest relationship with you."
"Tyler? Are you feeling ok? I mean.I never knew you could actually be serious, and have nice thoughts like that." I responded in awe
"I really want you to be happy, and be happy with me. So mold me into whatever you want."
"Well, for starters.My partner at the primary school is a guy. His name is Nathan, and I have to say he's attractive. He's going to come over tonight and help me make some snacks for the kids. They seemed to really enjoy that today. Would you have a problem with this?" I asked him, knowing I was treading on extremely thin ice.
"No, as long as I'm in here with you guys. I can give you space, and I promise I will.but it might take some time. Would you have a problem with me sitting in here also?" He asked sincerely
"Of course not. I wanted you to stay with me" I said, now aware of the growing feelings inside of me. I leaned over and kissed him. He hesitantly gave into me, as if it were his first kiss ever. I pressed for more than just a kiss by wrapping one hand around his neck and the other hang on his upper thigh. I started to push him backwards onto the bed and he pulled away from me.
"No Candace.I don't feel right." He said while he got up and walked into the bathroom, leaving me lying on my stomach on the bed. I smiled and shook my head approvingly of his new change. I heard the shower come on as Tyler was in the bathroom. After about three minutes I heard a knock at the hotel room door, and jumped up thinking it was Nathan.
"Hey girl!" Tanya said to me while David wrapped his arms around her waste and kissed her neck, leaving a familiar mark. I smiled and pressed my lips together. "Uh, we're going to go hit the nearest movie theatre. Do you want to come with us?" She asked as David's hand moved upwards from her stomach. She grabbed his hands and squeezed them disapprovingly. He backed off and stepped inside my hotel room.
"Uh, I'm going to have to take a rain check on that one. I have some stuff I need to do for the kids tonight." I said to her and turned to watch David grab some panties out of Tanya's suitcase.
"I've never seen these ones before" He stated as he held them up in the air.
"Boy, and you never will if you don't put those damn things back where you got them." She responded playfully with a half serious smile.
"You guys go and have fun" I said in a mid laugh, and she gave me a hug and gave my hand a little squeeze.
"Hey, I might be staying in his room tonight, but I'll come check in with you when I get back." She said and then David sped past me, out of the door, and then latched onto Tanya yet again.
"Mwah" I did my trademark "kiss-in-the-air" thing. As soon as they left, I closed the door and walked over to the television. The second I sat down, I heard another knock at the door. Hoping it was Nathan, I ran over to it and peered out of the window next to the door. Nathan winked at me from outside, and I flung the door open to let him in.
"Were those your friends that just left?" He asked me, trying to start a conversation.
"Yeah, David and Tanya" I replied while motioning for him to follow me to one of the beds. We chose to do our little crafts on Tanya's bed. "Would you mind if my boyfriend stayed in the room with us while we did this? He won't bother us; he'll probably read or watch T.V."
"Oh no, of course I don't mind." He said while emptying his supplies onto the bed. I grabbed some baggies and a sharpie marker. I reached up for the list of names, and realized that Nathan was holding it in his hand. He playfully held it high in the air so I couldn't reach it, thus making me jump up and down trying to get this sheet of paper. He was smiling, I was smiling.Tyler was not.
"Candace? What the hell are you doing?" Tyler said while standing in the bathroom doorway wearing nothing but a towel around his waist.
"Trying to get this paper", I said while Nathan handed it to me and I held it up for Tyler to see.
"Oh" He said and while checking Nathan out, and then turned his back and walked into the bathroom yet again.
"So that's your boyfriend?" Nathan asked, his smile no longer remaining on his face.
"Yup, that's my baby" I said with my own smile still lingering on my lips. "Do you mind if I put some music on? I snuck a radio on the plane with me"
"Sure, what do you have?" He responded
"Only Christian music at this point. You don't mind do you?" I asked unsurely, knowing that many people disapprove of Christians and their music.
"Absolutely not, I don't mind at all. Do you have Passion? I would like to hear the song Madly if you have it" He responded. I smiled at his request and quickly scurried over to my stash of CD's and popped in Passion. Nathan and I were singing away, and I was half dancing in my seat when Tyler stepped out of the bathroom area.
"You're actually listening to that stuff with her?" He asked Nathan, I could tell Tyler was uneasy with my being around him. I was happy that he was even trying to start a conversation with Nathan, knowing of his unsocial and jealous side.
"I love this song" Nathan responded with a handsome smile. Tyler nodded his head up and down and smiled back.
"This is one of her favorite songs" He responded, letting Nathan know for sure, that I belonged to him.
"Yes it is, but I'm not enjoying it because you guys keep talking." I said playfully and tossed a pillow at Tyler's head. He smiled and blew me a kiss, but instead of catching it, I jumped off of my bed and over to his, and laid a real kiss on him.
"I love you" He said to me and smacked my butt as I turned around to prance back to the bed Nathan was sitting on. Nathan's smiled faded as he watched our little actions, and when I smiled at him, he smiled a fake smile back. I could tell he was jealous, and that's how I wanted it.
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"Tyler?" I said to him while leading him, for the first time, over to the bed. I made him sit next to me without groping all over me and trying to do things I wasn't in the mood for. "Do you really think that this is going to work out between us? I mean.I'm going to be totally honest with you. I'm having doubts about, us." I stated cautiously, awaiting a blow from the back of Tyler's hand across my cheek. He looked down at his feet and then met eyes with mine.
"I was thinking about that today, when I was away from you. It felt so odd to not have you near me, so I made a vow to myself about you. I promise to try harder to let you have some space, and to not hurt you because God knows I never want to see you in pain. I hit you sometimes, and it really hurts me. I know it may not seem like it, but I promised myself today that I wouldn't hit you at all, ever again. I love you Candace, I'm willing to change for you. I need you." He said seriously, swallowing his pride while picking my hand up and placing it in his. "I also won't do anything sexual to you anymore unless you want to. I'm not making the first move at all. I want to have an honest relationship with you."
"Tyler? Are you feeling ok? I mean.I never knew you could actually be serious, and have nice thoughts like that." I responded in awe
"I really want you to be happy, and be happy with me. So mold me into whatever you want."
"Well, for starters.My partner at the primary school is a guy. His name is Nathan, and I have to say he's attractive. He's going to come over tonight and help me make some snacks for the kids. They seemed to really enjoy that today. Would you have a problem with this?" I asked him, knowing I was treading on extremely thin ice.
"No, as long as I'm in here with you guys. I can give you space, and I promise I will.but it might take some time. Would you have a problem with me sitting in here also?" He asked sincerely
"Of course not. I wanted you to stay with me" I said, now aware of the growing feelings inside of me. I leaned over and kissed him. He hesitantly gave into me, as if it were his first kiss ever. I pressed for more than just a kiss by wrapping one hand around his neck and the other hang on his upper thigh. I started to push him backwards onto the bed and he pulled away from me.
"No Candace.I don't feel right." He said while he got up and walked into the bathroom, leaving me lying on my stomach on the bed. I smiled and shook my head approvingly of his new change. I heard the shower come on as Tyler was in the bathroom. After about three minutes I heard a knock at the hotel room door, and jumped up thinking it was Nathan.
"Hey girl!" Tanya said to me while David wrapped his arms around her waste and kissed her neck, leaving a familiar mark. I smiled and pressed my lips together. "Uh, we're going to go hit the nearest movie theatre. Do you want to come with us?" She asked as David's hand moved upwards from her stomach. She grabbed his hands and squeezed them disapprovingly. He backed off and stepped inside my hotel room.
"Uh, I'm going to have to take a rain check on that one. I have some stuff I need to do for the kids tonight." I said to her and turned to watch David grab some panties out of Tanya's suitcase.
"I've never seen these ones before" He stated as he held them up in the air.
"Boy, and you never will if you don't put those damn things back where you got them." She responded playfully with a half serious smile.
"You guys go and have fun" I said in a mid laugh, and she gave me a hug and gave my hand a little squeeze.
"Hey, I might be staying in his room tonight, but I'll come check in with you when I get back." She said and then David sped past me, out of the door, and then latched onto Tanya yet again.
"Mwah" I did my trademark "kiss-in-the-air" thing. As soon as they left, I closed the door and walked over to the television. The second I sat down, I heard another knock at the door. Hoping it was Nathan, I ran over to it and peered out of the window next to the door. Nathan winked at me from outside, and I flung the door open to let him in.
"Were those your friends that just left?" He asked me, trying to start a conversation.
"Yeah, David and Tanya" I replied while motioning for him to follow me to one of the beds. We chose to do our little crafts on Tanya's bed. "Would you mind if my boyfriend stayed in the room with us while we did this? He won't bother us; he'll probably read or watch T.V."
"Oh no, of course I don't mind." He said while emptying his supplies onto the bed. I grabbed some baggies and a sharpie marker. I reached up for the list of names, and realized that Nathan was holding it in his hand. He playfully held it high in the air so I couldn't reach it, thus making me jump up and down trying to get this sheet of paper. He was smiling, I was smiling.Tyler was not.
"Candace? What the hell are you doing?" Tyler said while standing in the bathroom doorway wearing nothing but a towel around his waist.
"Trying to get this paper", I said while Nathan handed it to me and I held it up for Tyler to see.
"Oh" He said and while checking Nathan out, and then turned his back and walked into the bathroom yet again.
"So that's your boyfriend?" Nathan asked, his smile no longer remaining on his face.
"Yup, that's my baby" I said with my own smile still lingering on my lips. "Do you mind if I put some music on? I snuck a radio on the plane with me"
"Sure, what do you have?" He responded
"Only Christian music at this point. You don't mind do you?" I asked unsurely, knowing that many people disapprove of Christians and their music.
"Absolutely not, I don't mind at all. Do you have Passion? I would like to hear the song Madly if you have it" He responded. I smiled at his request and quickly scurried over to my stash of CD's and popped in Passion. Nathan and I were singing away, and I was half dancing in my seat when Tyler stepped out of the bathroom area.
"You're actually listening to that stuff with her?" He asked Nathan, I could tell Tyler was uneasy with my being around him. I was happy that he was even trying to start a conversation with Nathan, knowing of his unsocial and jealous side.
"I love this song" Nathan responded with a handsome smile. Tyler nodded his head up and down and smiled back.
"This is one of her favorite songs" He responded, letting Nathan know for sure, that I belonged to him.
"Yes it is, but I'm not enjoying it because you guys keep talking." I said playfully and tossed a pillow at Tyler's head. He smiled and blew me a kiss, but instead of catching it, I jumped off of my bed and over to his, and laid a real kiss on him.
"I love you" He said to me and smacked my butt as I turned around to prance back to the bed Nathan was sitting on. Nathan's smiled faded as he watched our little actions, and when I smiled at him, he smiled a fake smile back. I could tell he was jealous, and that's how I wanted it.
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