Chapter three: Reverie
I walk around Emma's room trying hard no to focus on anything. But there are so many memories stashed in here I feel suffocated. I start looking for pictures and stuff that reminds me of the good times and soon I'm the floor looking through them. Memories rack my brain, and I try to keep my emotions in check.
This proves to be impossible rather soon, and I start crying and laughing along with the pictures. There's one of all of us that was taken by Adam, and I notice in it something I never noticed before: I was posing for the cameras, Brennan was looking at me, Emma was looking at the wall and Jesse was looking at her. His gaze was soft and tender, and it makes me wonder.
I knew about Brennan and Emma all along, but it never really bothered me. I knew that if Brennan and I were meant to be together, we would be. I guess I took it so calmly because of Jesse's advice.
Come to think of it, that should've tipped me off right there. How would he know how to deal with that particular situation? Probably because he was dealing with it, too.
I find another picture, this one of me and Emma posing in bathing suits. We look so incredibly funny it's actually rather refreshing. There's one of Emma when she was still a brunette, making a face. And one of Jesse wearing nothing but boxers. She must've sneaked up on him to get it. I laugh at the sheer irony of it. They both loved each other and the other one never knew.
I hear Brennan's footsteps coming closer and I know he's here to check up on me. He enters the room and I'm mesmerized by the sheer strength of his presence. He sits beside me and we reminisce together between laughs and tears.
He holds me close to him all the while, and I marvel at how well my body fits in his arms. Feeling him so near makes me feel stronger and safe because I know he's protecting me. He always has and he always will.
His chin rests in my shoulder and I'm comfortably draped over his body. I imagine Emma wanting to be between Jesse's arms and never getting the chance to and I sob for her loss. Brennan hugs me tenderly, murmuring sweet nothings just so I know he's here.
And how could I forget? He's everything to me. But right now, all I can feel is the sorrow of my lost sister and my heartbroken brother. Mutant X is my family, and we're caving in from the inside. It's up to Brennan and me to try to rebuild what has been lost. It will be hard, but with Jesse's help I know we can make it.
I get up and pull Brennan towards me. We hold and I kiss him softly, needing to reassure myself. Then I pull away and exit her room before it consumes me and I shrug to leave my memories behind. Time to work. Let the wrecking grief I feel overcome me some other time.
*********Not as torn apart as we thought, eh? She is, but it's in her instinct to work first. On to Brennan… let's see what he was doing before he joined Shal.*******