TITLE: How could he do this to me? Part 4
RATING: PG
DISCLAIMER: I don't own a thing, except for the computer I am on, and since
I live at home I don't even think I own that.
SPOILERS: IOTH I think that is all.
SUMMARY: My response to Mickey's If You Love Me Letter
Challenge. Does she show and what happens. Parkers POV.
First shot at pretender fanfic. Let me know if I suck and
should stick to Stargate fan fiction.
Friday 9pm
I am just sitting here drinking, I hope he listens to me this time and leaves I love him but I can't live my life until he is back at the centre, but could I live my life then without him in it? I have heard nothing from him today so maybe he has listened. Ok 9:04 what the hell can I do at this time of night. I just pushed my best friend and my first love away from me and I feel empty, this calls for more booze.
Saturday 8:43 am
He wouldn't this can't be from him. Not again Jarod I told you to leave. Good what an idiot. Ok here goes lets open the letter and get it over with.
Dear Mirandia,
I know that you don't like you name but I am not going to stop using it. I need to talk to you face to face please come and see me meet me at the same place, at 5pm Sunday. Please I know you wanted me to become an atom and split but I can't. I NEED YOU. Your Mom wouldn't want you to stay at the centre because of her. Besides the centre doesn't carry her memory you do, she wont leave you and neither will I please come, just talk to me face to face and then you decide from there but please just come. I will not be angry if you don't feel the same but you said in your letter the you are supposed to chase and hate me, this has to mean that there is hope for us, if you are supposed to be doing it then it means that your not. So if you don't hate me Mirandia that what do you feel for me. Please I need to know but I need to here you say it and not another letter please come please
Love ALWAYS.
Jarod.
Why does he keep doing this to me he has to understand that this, us as he put it could never happen. I won't be there Jarod and You know it, so why do you hurt yourself like this and why to you keep hurting me as well. Ok here goes if that note didn't convince him I guess I will just have to try harder to do it, because I refuse to torture myself or let him torture me any more.
Listen LAB-RAT and listen good.
I will not play these games any longer.
As I write this I can't help the stray tear that escapes my control. I don't want to hurt him like this but it is the only way. To get him away from me and the centre.
Sunday 4:57pm
I stand here in the same place, watching him as he comes out with the note I left there this morning. He is reading it I can see how much he is upset from here I am so sorry but I had do it as I turn to leave I notice he is getting he cell phone out, maybe he is calling for a cab. I'll just wait to make sure he is ok.
End of part 4 hope you liked.
Selyn.
Selyn_uk@yahoo.com
SUMMARY: My response to Mickey's If You Love Me Letter
Challenge. Does she show and what happens. Parkers POV.
First shot at pretender fanfic. Let me know if I suck and
should stick to Stargate fan fiction.
Friday 9pm
I am just sitting here drinking, I hope he listens to me this time and leaves I love him but I can't live my life until he is back at the centre, but could I live my life then without him in it? I have heard nothing from him today so maybe he has listened. Ok 9:04 what the hell can I do at this time of night. I just pushed my best friend and my first love away from me and I feel empty, this calls for more booze.
Saturday 8:43 am
He wouldn't this can't be from him. Not again Jarod I told you to leave. Good what an idiot. Ok here goes lets open the letter and get it over with.
Dear Mirandia,
I know that you don't like you name but I am not going to stop using it. I need to talk to you face to face please come and see me meet me at the same place, at 5pm Sunday. Please I know you wanted me to become an atom and split but I can't. I NEED YOU. Your Mom wouldn't want you to stay at the centre because of her. Besides the centre doesn't carry her memory you do, she wont leave you and neither will I please come, just talk to me face to face and then you decide from there but please just come. I will not be angry if you don't feel the same but you said in your letter the you are supposed to chase and hate me, this has to mean that there is hope for us, if you are supposed to be doing it then it means that your not. So if you don't hate me Mirandia that what do you feel for me. Please I need to know but I need to here you say it and not another letter please come please
Love ALWAYS.
Jarod.
Why does he keep doing this to me he has to understand that this, us as he put it could never happen. I won't be there Jarod and You know it, so why do you hurt yourself like this and why to you keep hurting me as well. Ok here goes if that note didn't convince him I guess I will just have to try harder to do it, because I refuse to torture myself or let him torture me any more.
Listen LAB-RAT and listen good.
I will not play these games any longer.
As I write this I can't help the stray tear that escapes my control. I don't want to hurt him like this but it is the only way. To get him away from me and the centre.
Sunday 4:57pm
I stand here in the same place, watching him as he comes out with the note I left there this morning. He is reading it I can see how much he is upset from here I am so sorry but I had do it as I turn to leave I notice he is getting he cell phone out, maybe he is calling for a cab. I'll just wait to make sure he is ok.
End of part 4 hope you liked.
Selyn.
Selyn_uk@yahoo.com