Vengeance of the soul
By: Haruka-chan
Feelings part 1...Chapter 5
In the forest...
Rin walked at the same pace as Sesshoumaru not caring for Jaken's ranting. They left Farga's palace two day ago.
Rin had to admit she already missed the babies but she was back to her cold killing mode, after what happened at the castle she couldn't bear to stay any longer. I'm on my way Naraku, and I'll fight you to death. I won't let you hurt any more people! thought Rin.
What a strange girl, she rather die with her people or fight for revenge of her people then just being selfish and living on thought Sesshoumaru.
Rin stopped as did Sesshoumaru but Jaken went on.
"Shut up you fool!" said Rin sending glares at Jaken. "There is a Youkai near by, more then one" said Rin drawing her sword out.
Sesshoumaru stood completely still.
There out of nowhere came about ten Youkais' headed for Rin.
"I should Thank you for this Naraku" said Rin as she ran and cut through two Youkai.
I smelled him near by thought Sesshoumaru as he drew his Dokkasou (Poison Flower).
Rin fought off most of the Youkai's but as soon as she sliced the side of a lizard type Youkai she felt the pain ripping threw her skin where she cut the Youkai. The lizard Youkai smiled at her.
"I should have known you would be a mirror" said Rin striking the Youkai in the eye and watching it fall to the ground. "Unfortunately my wound stays" said Rin.
Rin's eyes wonder around as she saw that Sesshoumaru running deep in to the forest. Wait a minute! Naraku wants him to go in there, and I know he is smarter then just to rush in, it's a trap! thought Rin. Sesshoumaru knew that it was a trap as soon he saw the Youkais attacking only Rin.
"Naraku show yourself" said Sesshoumaru calmly.
"Ah, Sesshoumaru I have been wondering when I was going to run it to you" said Naraku.
"What do you want?" asked Sesshoumaru.
"How can ye assume that I want something?" asked Naraku.
Sesshoumaru narrowed his eyes on the baboon.
"Is it you under there, or are you still hiding" Sesshoumaru heard Rin ask from behind.
"My, my don't we have a raging heart" said Naraku.
Rin came to stand next to Sesshoumaru. "Tell me something Naraku why did you attack our village?" asked Rin.
"My little Rin you should have never been there in the first place, I was there for reasons of my own" said Naraku.
Does Naraku want her for some reason? thought Sesshoumaru.
"Damn it Naraku if it was me that you wanted then why didn't you just take me and leave them alone!" said Rin.
"Ah but what would be the fun in that, and there was something else that I wanted, I'm sure you know what I'm talking about" said Naraku.
Rin's eyes burned with hatred before she started to laugh. "Naraku when will you learn that the Shikon no tama wasn't made for your pleasures! And you can never make me turn against my own people, like you made that weak fool" said Rin remembering the soldier who had betrayed her village.
Naraku laughed also. "Don't be so sure, I will always find a way to bend you" said Naraku beaming towards Sesshoumaru.
Rin gritted her teeth as she ran towards the baboon and sliced it in half. "Damn it stop hiding and fight!" said Rin.
Sesshoumaru watch her eyes fill with pain and rage, but she kept her emotion in deft. That battle proved to be useful for Rin it seemed. The remains of the Youkais were useful and she decided it would come in handy.
"Stupid human you almost got me killed" said Jaken.
"I really wish I can just slice your throat" said Rin softly knowing very well that Jaken had heard her. Rin sighed as she saw the sky change from shades of blue to a eruption of red and gold I'll get that bastard Naraku thought Rin not noticing where she was going and walked in to Sesshoumaru's back.
"I'm sorry I must have drifted off" said Rin softly.
Sesshoumaru didn't say anything. She knows I can just kill her for that yet... Sesshoumaru let his mind wonder.
"My lord what shall we do?" asked Jaken.
"We will rest here for the night" said Sesshoumaru.
"Yes, my lord" said Jaken.
Rin sat down under a tree close to where Sesshoumaru was sitting. "You knew that was trap yet you walked in to it. Were you trying to prove something?" asked Rin quietly.
Sesshoumaru watched her pale face then he smelled blood, it was mixed both dried and fresh. "You were hurt during the battle?" asked Sesshoumaru.
Rin looked up and then to her side "I completely forgot that I was hurt" said Rin sitting back. "It seems that when you're full of sorrow you really don't feel anything" said Rin.
Sesshoumaru watched as she pulled out a small bottle that held very strong healing herbs, she placed a small portion on her side. Rin bit her lower lip in pain.
"My lord" said Jaken.
"What is it Jaken?" asked Sesshoumaru.
"Why can't we just leave the human behind, she is worthless now that she is hurt" said Jaken.
Sesshoumaru narrowed his eyes on Rin's face. Those herbs are strong healer but when they are put on the wound it feels as if living the event over repeatedly, yet she's not crying out in pain thought Sesshoumaru. "Jaken I didn't ask what you think I should do" said Sesshoumaru.
"Forgive me my lord" said Jaken bowing to Sesshoumaru's feet.
"Go find something to eat" said Sesshoumaru.
"Yes," said Jaken.
"You should get clean, there is a hot spring not to far from here" said Sesshoumaru.
Rin nodded as she stood up and grabbed some materials from her bag. Rin walked slowly towards the hot spring. "I have to be careful of Naraku and his little Youkai friends" said Rin. Rin walked in to a small spring that was surrounded by trees and a clear sky. "Ah that feels nice" said Rin as she lowered herself in to the water. "My body aches from the last fight, but I can't do anything about it but ignore it, your just going to have to hold on body" said Rin as she sat back enjoying the water.
Sesshoumaru watched her from the bushes. It's strange how I have never done this before and yet I'm so curious of this girl thought Sesshoumaru.
Rin looked down at the water with longing. "If I stay a little while longer, it won't hurt" said Rin closing her eyes.
Sesshoumaru's eyes wondered to her neck, then to her creamy shoulders and then the contour of the breast, her skin glowing from the wetness of the water, and her smell was rising as she cleaned herself, the sweet smell of wild spring flowers. Sesshoumaru didn't understand what was going on with him, but didn't like it. He was about to walk away when he heard his name.
"Sesshoumaru...the great prince of the western lands. What fate I have fallen in to. My village was destroyed by Youkais' twice yet I travel with one and even become friends with some" said Rin as a sad look came over her eyes.
Strange thought Sesshoumaru. Then his ears perked up when he heard soft humming, he stood and listened and watched as the breeze played with her hair. This girl such a puzzle thought Sesshoumaru as headed back to the camp.
"I better get back before Sesshoumaru-sama has a fit" said Rin smiling.
"Sesshoumaru-sama, I guess something are meant to be" said Rin getting dress in her kimono.
Sesshoumaru sat on a log that wasn't to far from where Jaken had brought them something to eat.
Rin walked slowly towards the group and smiled and sat down. This is my life now huh? thought Rin softly.
"Where have you been, you worthless human" asked Jaken.
Rin ignored Jaken.
"I'm talking to you" said Jaken about to hit Rin with his staff when her hands stop it just inches away from her head.
"Listen you disgusting Youkai if you bug me, I'll seriously rip out you insides! Now leave me alone" said Rin.
Jaken tried to move his staff in her hands but nothing happened.
She holds a hate for Youkai's yet she travels with me, that was what she called fate thought Sesshoumaru watching the little 'kill Jaken' scene.
Rin saw from the corner of her eyes that Sesshoumaru watch the little scene between her and Jaken, suddenly Rin dropped Jaken and sat down. I must have made a fool out of myself thought Rin as she closed her eyes and sighed. "What am I planning to accomplish by killing Naraku, it won't bring back the dead, it won't bring back my life" whispered Rin.
Sesshoumaru heard Rin clearly and wonder the same yet once again.
"Oh well at least I'll die knowing I took revenge for my people and Saki" said Rin holding the red cloth as sleep slowly came over her.
Sesshoumaru continued to watch Rin carefully. Rather Die trying, and who is this Saki? thought Sesshoumaru.
Jaken saw the way his lord watch the human girl and many unpleasant thought went through his head. Does lord Sesshoumaru feel something toward this human? I wish I could... Jaken slapped himself for even wondering things such as that and went to rest by the fire.
Sesshoumaru sat and watch Rin sleeping, her breathing was normal, but he could tell by the way her eyes moved she was having an unpleasant dream. What are you dreaming of? Wait why do I care so much? Am I becoming soft? were the questions in Sesshoumaru, but one thing was for sure his ordered life was about to be turned upside down.
The next morning...
Rin felt the sun on her eyes telling her that it was time to wake up.
Rin sat up it was early morning and she found Sesshoumaru sitting on the log she saw him sitting on last night. What a strange Youkai thought Rin before getting up and looking around.
"I wonder where ugly toad is" said Rin.
"Jaken is off on a business" said Sesshoumaru.
Rin looked at him He was awake the whole time? "When will he be back?" asked Rin.
Sesshoumaru didn't answer. Rin shrugged and walked to the lake and washed her face and then walked back. "I'm not sure you will eat what I make for you" said Rin recalling what he had said to her, when she was taking care of him.
Sesshoumaru watched as she sat and took things out of her bag. What was she doing now? he thought as a sweet smell started to rise.
Rin smiled as she watched Sesshoumaru from the corner of her eyes. These sweet cakes that Saki gave me should be enough for the both of us not unless he doesn't like sweet things thought Rin. Rin finally walked and stood next to Sesshoumaru and handed him a cake.
Sesshoumaru gave her a questioning look. Rin sighed
"They are sweet cakes, you eat them" said Rin.
Sesshoumaru didn't say anything just went back to his staring at nothing as usual.
Rin already getting frustrated by this Youkai. "So impossible" she mumbled as she chewed on her sweet cake.
Rin walked slowly down the path following after Sesshoumaru, it was rather quite without Jaken. I wonder where that ugly toad is now thought Rin. It has been almost two months since my village was attacked by Naraku and his Youkais', I wonder if everyone is happy in heaven, if they got what they wanted thought Rin. It hurts to think I can lose everything in just one day thought Rin.
Sesshoumaru stopped and turned to see Rin walking slowly with her eyes on the ground. If she doesn't look up she will walk right in to me thought Sesshoumaru.
Rin sighed I wonder where we're headed, I'm not sure if it's Naraku or some place else, I wonder if I will loose him to... thought Rin, as her feet hit a rock making her trip in to Sesshoumaru.
Well either way she ran in to me thought Sesshoumaru as his hand instinctively went around her small waist to prevent here from falling.
"I'm sorry Sesshoumaru-sama I must have dazed off" said Rin looking down what wrong with me I can't even look at him. Look up at him! she commanded herself but nothing seemed to happen.
Sesshoumaru watched as she tried to keep her eyes away from him. "If you keep it up, you will die even before, you come close to Naraku" said Sesshoumaru letting her go.
"Yes, Sesshoumaru-sama" said Rin.
Sesshoumaru watch as she dazed of yet again. I have to keep my mind straight! Yeah but his voice is just so, so beautiful and his hair...RIN! thought Rin as she shook her head and looked up ahead.
They had to travel down the mountain since it was the fastest way across.
"This is turning in to a nightmare" said Rin softly under her breath as they went down the mountains. You think he could at least help me cross! If Farga-sama was here he would! thought Rin as she tried and claim down the mountain.
Rin looked down to see Sesshoumaru walking down the mountain as if walking on a steady road. Damn that Youkai thought Rin, as she suddenly lost her grip and fell. Sesshoumaru's ears hurt from Rin scream.
Rin looked up to see that she was alive, and tried to stand but apparently she sprained her ankle.
"Great how am I going to fight like this, forget about fighting how am I going to walk?" said Rin with a sweat drop --'
Sesshoumaru stood and watched as Rin sat and tried to stand. She didn't just fall by accident, something is not right, my ears hurt from her screams thought Sesshoumaru.
"Beautiful, I'm stranded here for gods know how long!" said Rin as she looked through her bag, but suddenly there was lights like fire flies coming towards her, Rin covered her eyes from the brightness, when she looked again there stood a handsome Youkai he had beautiful blue eyes, his hair a gray silver he was tall and very handsome, and he smiled down at her.
"Who...Who are you?" asked Rin.
Sesshoumaru growled he knew just what he was.
The Youkai just smiled at Rin as it came closer to her and then sat down next to her.
Rin blushed as one of his soft hands picked up her leg to examine her ankle. What is he doing? thought Rin.
The Youkai smiled at her and ripped of some kind of herb that was growing around his arm and the staff he held, he placed it over her ankle and started to rub it in gently.
A sighed escaped Rin and she blushed the Youkai smiled at her. "Thank you" said Rin softly.
The Youkai slowly came closer to her face and cupped her face.
Rin didn't know what was wrong with her she somehow felt drawn to him.
Just as the Youkai was about to place a kiss on Rin's lips, Sesshoumaru came from nowhere and cut the Youkai in half with his Dokkasou (Poison Flower), the Youkai slit in to tiny balls of light. Sesshoumaru looked down at Rin who was completely shocked for a minute, before an angry look came over her face.
"What did you do that for?" asked Rin yelling at Sesshoumaru who was taken back by her sudden out burst, and pain from his sensitive ears.
"You should be Thankful, yet you are yelling at me?" asked Sesshoumaru.
"You didn't have to kill him, he was helping me! Unlike you" said Rin.
"He was helping you to become his mate!" said Sesshoumaru yelling back.
"His mate?" asked Rin.
"That was a mountain Youkai they make young girls as yourself that are traveling down the mountain fall of the cliffs, and with their herb seduce you to becoming their mate" said Sesshoumaru.
"Sounds stupid, but ok. I don't think becoming his mate would have been so bad, he was handsome and helpful" said Rin looking down at her hands as a blush came over her.
Is she still under the herbs spell? thought Sesshoumaru.
"I mean I'm at an age where I should have a family of my own" said Rin softly.
Sesshoumaru was getting very uncomfortable with this conversation, so he walked slowly away.
Rin gave his back a glare "Oh yeah definitely, never marry a man who is self centered! I wish Farga-sama was here" said Rin under her breath as she tried to get up but fell on the ground once more.
Sesshoumaru heard her comment but choose to ignore it.
"I think you should go on without me, since I'll be stuck here for a while!" said Rin Why the hell bother informing his stubborn ass he'll just go on without me anyways! thought Rin.
Sesshoumaru couldn't believe what he was doing. He walked back to where Rin was and picked her up.
"What are you doing?" asked Rin as the air rushed out of her lungs as she found her gaze within close proximity of Sesshoumaru's chiseled granite face.
Her senses were assaulted with a heady mix of fragrant, outside his distinctly own musk that hazily reminded her of the open forest. Her arms flew up to grasp him around his shoulders, her hands locking behind his neck in an effort to keep from toppling out of his arms. She doubted if such a feat would happen, considering the strong hold he held on her. Other senses came to play havoc in her mind and imagination, one breast was crushed against a broad and warm chest, the rest of that side of her body was held against his hard body, in an almost effortlessly manner on his part. She wondered briefly why this Youkai seemed to cause so much awareness within her. She staunchly crushed the burgeoning thoughts and wondered again if she had the same affect on him with her presence as she continued to stare at his chin and broad neck where his pulse beat steadily.
Sesshoumaru gaze shot down to the woman in his arms, his nostrils flaring slightly as he inhaled her sweet fragrance of spring wildflowers and reminding him of a soft, summer breeze on a clear evening. Her light brown hair seemed to gleam with a light of its own underneath the poor lighting of the mountains, and the feel of her soft hands on his neck. She looked up at him that moment and their gazes collided with instant awareness of each other. Their surrounding was temporarily forgotten as they continued to stare at one another at such a close proximity.
"You talk to much" said Sesshoumaru.
Rin blushed. What are these feelings, being so closed to him, I feel...I can't explain it. Oh my...am I blushing? thought Rin.
Sesshoumaru didn't know what it was, but feeling of her body against his made his emotions run wild. What the hell is wrong with me! I shouldn't feel like this for a lowly human thought Sesshoumaru.
Rin moved around to get comfortable, while she did this Sesshoumaru tightened his jaws because of the movement of her breast on his chest.
"I'm sorry I must be really heavy" said Rin Why say something as dumb as that?!?! Great now I sound like one of those fairy tale ditz thought Rin as she mentally slapped herself.
Sesshoumaru didn't answer her, she knew very well that he was a Youkai and her weight was nothing but a leaf being carried by the wind. Sesshoumaru leaped quickly out of the mountain range and in to the forest.
As if things couldn't get any worse it started to rain, and not just a light rain, it was heavy. Rain like the gods had switched the heaven and the oceans. Sesshoumaru growled as his clothing got wet. The wind whipped Sesshoumaru's hair about his rugged face as they stepped onto the wet, dirt path. The rain fell heavily down on them and soaking their clothes within seconds. He looked back down at the bundle in his arms; she had her face buried in his chest.
"We'll have to stay at that cave there" said Sesshoumaru wondering why he was even telling her what he was going to do next.
Rin nodded her head silently, and clutched at his neck tightly. She felt his body flex and with a mighty push, he launched his body forward against the winds. After a moment of howling winds, she finally felt sudden warmth. Sesshoumaru's tail or fluffy covering afforded little protection against the rains and was already thoroughly wet on her body, the feeling of the fur on her skin made the hair at the back of her head stand up. However, it helped keep the chill of the cold air from penetrating thoroughly to her skin. Sesshoumaru seemed hardly affected by the rains and winds, his eyes narrowed against the slashing rain.
He set her down gently on the cold, rocky floor and let go of her, landing with grace and agility despite his large form. She watched with silent fascination as Sesshoumaru took his fluffy tail and shook the fur free of any water. Again, Rin felt her eyes drawn back to that wide expanse of his broad torso and shoulders, his wet clothing explicitly molding to the muscular structure of his body as he shook his fur. He caught her warm regard. She followed the direction of his eyes and felt her cheeks flush with embarrassment as he stared at her wet kimono. Water splashed loudly from the kimono to the cavern ground as if she had dipped herself in a lake. Sesshoumaru's eyes traveled down her form as her kimono hugged her like a second skin.
Great, now I can't walk, and I'm wet, soon I'll be too sick to fight thought Rin.
Sesshoumaru walked towards Rin, and picked her up once more.
"What are you doing?" asked Rin.
"The deeper in to the cave the dryer and warmer it will be" said Sesshoumaru.
Rin didn't say anything she was cold, and being in a warm and dry place will help a lot.
Sesshoumaru gently put her down once more, Rin on the other hand couldn't see from the darkness, so she was sort of happy that she had a sprain ankle other wise she would have had one now anyway.
"I can't see anything, and these clothing are completely wet" said Rin softly.
"It would help if you take them off" said Sesshoumaru.
Rin couldn't see where he was but blushed at the thought of her being naked in front of him. Come on it's not like he could see you anyway just strip of the clothing let them sort of dry and then put them back on again thought Rin as she worked on her kimono.
Sesshoumaru sat across from her and saw everything, darkness was nothing, he was a Youkai and these were some of the advantages. His eyes went down her body as she took of the top kimono.
Maybe I should leave the under kimono on, it's just damp, that's all thought Rin blushing.
Sesshoumaru's eyes didn't miss anything, every bit of skin visible, got a sweep of his attention. "Aren't you going to get sick if you don't take of your wet clothing?" asked Rin thoughtfully.
"I don't get sick, I'm not a weak being" said Sesshoumaru.
"Yeah, ok what ever" said Rin.
Sesshoumaru narrowed his eyes on her face she was cold he could tell. What the hell are you thinking? thought Sesshoumaru as he got up and sat beside Rin.
Rin could feel a sudden warmth coming from something next to her, and her hand went to investigate, and instantly came in contact with Sesshoumaru's board naked chest. Rin gasped and took her hand away.
Oh gods! He took of the top part of his hakama thought Rin.
Sesshoumaru couldn't explain the feelings either.
Rin felt herself being picked up and being seated on something warm. It's...Sesshoumaru's lap?!?! thought Rin.
Sesshoumaru felt her uneasiness. "Your cold and my tail will keep you warm, I don't want to have to take care of you or get slowed down, when you get sick" said Sesshoumaru.
"Thank you" said Rin as she sat back against his chest.
Sesshoumaru could feel her through the thin inner kimono.
Rin's heartbeats went faster. What is wrong with me, he just doing to keep me warm thought Rin. Rin felt one of Sesshoumaru's arms encircle her waist and pull her closer to his body.
What the hell are you doing?!?! Don't touch her! thought Sesshoumaru, but his body did something else.
Rin's breath quickened what is he doing is something wrong with him? But I'm not complaining thought Rin. "Sesshoumaru-sama..." asked Rin softly.
Sesshoumaru growled what the hell is this human girl doing to me?!? thought Sesshoumaru.
A human woman that captures your heart can make you do things that not even the most powerful witch can, she can drive you mad just by sitting their and smiling at you Farga's words drifted through his head.
Rin felt disappointed when his hand was gone, and he wasn't holding her tight any more. Did I want him to hold me that way? No of course not thought Rin.
Sesshoumaru's body heat was enough to put Rin to sleep. Sesshoumaru sat and watched her sleep, it was strange how she trusted him enough to sleep. Her body was so fragile, and her heart in rage. Sesshoumaru rested his head in between her shoulder and neck, her sent filling his senses. Sesshoumaru found sleep over take him for the first time since they were sitting under the Cherry Blossom trees, he didn't understand why he felt peace with this human girl, the sound of the rain, her breathing and her warm body next to him brought his mind peace. Rin woke to find she was protectively wrapped in Sesshoumaru's arms, suddenly she felt her cheeks burn with heat. Rin looked at Sesshoumaru and his features up close, he was even more beautiful and handsome then any man or Youkai she had ever laid eyes on, suddenly her hands had a life of their own as she traced his face with her hands.
His so beautiful I wonder how his father and mother looks thought Rin as she reached and pulled on his ears. "They are cute looking ears, but strange" said Rin softly. Finally her eyes went down to his lips, she traced his lips with her hand.
Sesshoumaru woke right after her, but kept his eyes closed as she did her little exploration of his face.
Her hands are so soft and feathery...since do you use those words? thought Sesshoumaru.
Rin wanted so bad to plant a kiss on his lips, but held back at the urge. Her hands moved some hair from his face. Rin traced the crescent moon on Sesshoumaru's forehead with her index finger.
"Are you done playing with my face?" asked Sesshoumaru opening his eyes to look at her.
Rin gasped and almost fell of his lap if not for his arms holding on to her. Rin couldn't explain the look in his eyes they were so, distance and cold yet inviting and warm, she felt drawn to them.
What's happening to me? thought Rin once more.
TBC