Vengeance of the soul
By: Haruka-chan
AN: Hello this is Chapter 11 some notes as before. Sorry it has to be this way but my word doc doesn't support special lettering and formatting so please cope with me. *Kind of limey! Not much just a drop heheh ^_^*
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A hard choice to make...Chapter 11
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Sesshoumaru felt himself get nervous and worried which would lead to illness. "What happened to you?" asked Sesshoumaru holding Rin's hand. It was about two hours later did Rin moved slightly then opened her eyes. "Sesshoumaru-sama?" she asked. He nodded. Rin felt the hot liquid that was now leaving her eyes. "He wants me...he wants me and I can't fight him..." she whispered. "Who wants you?" asked Sesshoumaru. Rin couldn't stop the tears that were rushing out of her. "Rin..." said Sesshoumaru. Rin closed her eyes and found that she found comfort in the darkness. Sesshoumaru moved some hair out of her face. "Rin?" he asked again. "I loose everything I every come to love" she said more to herself then him. Sesshoumaru didn't know what to say to her, how to comfort her.
Rin looked at him "I...he wants something from me and I don't know what" said Rin. "Who Rin?" asked Sesshoumaru. "He...wants my sister and me...Sesshoumaru-sama she's still alive...my sister" said Rin. Sesshoumaru didn't know how to react to what she just told him. Rin found herself lying staring at the beautiful silk that covered the top of the bed she was lying on. *Are you really alive? Or is he playing games with me?* she thought as more unnoticed tears fell down her face. "I'm so alone" she whispered. Sesshoumaru turned to her. "So what am I to you?" he asked. Rin sat up and held on to Sesshoumaru. "Sesshoumaru-sama I...I need to find her...before I really lose her" she said in to his chest. "Where do you think she is?" he asked. Rin pulled away and shook her head. "No, Sesshoumaru-sama I...I'm going alone..." she whispered.
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"Where do you think she is?" he asked. Rin pulled away and shook her head. "No, Sesshoumaru-sama I...I'm going alone..." she whispered. Sesshoumaru felt his insides clench at her words. Did she not want to be with him, did she not want his protection? All these thought went through his head. "I will come with you" he said flatly. "No, I can't let you get hurt at my coast. I don't want to lose everyone. I don't know for sure that my sister is alive, but I want to find her on my own. I don't want to hold you back from what you need to do, what about lady Sonomi?" she asked trying to push all her hurt and angry deep within herself, surely her heart can take another heart break. Sesshoumaru's eyes narrowed on her face, what had to the most ironic moment in his life had to be now. When he first met her he questioned himself on why he let her follow, and now he was questioning himself why he couldn't let her go. Fate was just strange and funny that way. again the word Fate comes in to play in this drama she had created, like spuned silk, she weaved him and everyone around her in to this beautiful story she was going to make them care for her and leave them, she seemed truly selfish, yet selfless. Sesshoumaru let out a sigh and shook his head. Rin didn't understand what he was reacting to.
"I will not let you go alone, I don't wish for you death news, and I don't wish to feel burdened with feelings of disappointment, sadness, and guilt" he stated. Rin's eyes watered at his statement, not from what or how it sounded, but from the simple fact that he cared enough for her to feel disappointment, sadness and guilt. She tried to sit up just so she could hold him, she felt him push her down. "Lie down your still ill" he stated. "How can you tell?" she asked with a smile. It amazed Sesshoumaru how she can smile through it all. How this human girl who was so filled with pain and anger could just smile everything of. "I can smell it on you" he said in a whisper. Rin wanted to laugh, but her lungs hurt, but she didn't know why. Rin thought back to a few moments ago when she kissed him, she was still slightly drunk from all the wine she had consumed. "You mustn't come with me" she finally looked away and whispered. "And why not?" he asked. "I don't want you to get hurt, and I don't want to burden you" she said as more tears stinged her eyes. *You have already burden me, with these emotions that you lighted in me* he thought. "I don't take orders from you or anyone. I will come with you and that's final!" he said as if she was Jaken or one of his servants. "I don't want you come with me!" she finally said in both rage and pain.
Sesshoumaru felt shocked and surprised when she stared at him with her amber brown eyes that showed such pain and anger, and her words were so straight up. Did she really not want to be with him? Was he that bad? Sesshoumaru never in his life doubted himself, it was always someone else fault or he was always the best, he took much pride in everything he did and said and had. He was the Great Lord of the western land. Yet at this very moment he felt like the lowest creature to walk the lands. He felt small and why? All because of human girl? A human girl who brought back emotions he long imprisoned inside himself, longing which he didn't let his heart have, and most of all she brought back life with beauty which he locked away. Yes it was true that he surrounded himself with beauty and grace, but in reality and truth it was never meant for people to admire, but to fill the empty void in him. But she, this human girl she filled the void so perfectly it frightened him. The fact that she can smile upon a being like him, made him wonder things and possibilities that he didn't think of before. She opened new door and wonders to him. And now she was asking him to give it all back? No! he wasn't going to let her take these curiosity away, she wasn't going to take this beautiful world from him, and she definitely won't be leaving him!
Rin stared at Sesshoumaru's hard face for what seemed like forever before she heard him speak. Why must he be so stubborn and thickheaded [AN: Obviously she is kind of stupid at the whole 'understanding your man' thing and hasn't met guys of the 21 century!] She wanted his well being, she cared for him, she didn't want to leave, but there are other things she must do, other things that might kill him, if she died trying to save her sister it wouldn't really matter to her, at one point she might actually feel peace, but she would never forgive herself if he got hurt at her coast. She turned away so he couldn't read her, so he couldn't see the pain and anger building inside her. "I won't" he started. She turned towards him and stared at him to finish. "I won't let you go on your own, it's either you let me come along or you don't go at all. Don't think getting away from me will be easy" he said. Rin felt the hot liquid come again. "Why can't you see I can't stand to see you get hurt" she whispered. "And I can't do the same" he whispered back moving her hair out her face. This time he didn't stop her when he sat up and held on to him, her scent mixing with his own. Rin held him so tight, that if we was human he would be suffering from air loss, but she was afraid that he was going to disappear and she was going to be left alone, she didn't want to admit it but she wanted him to say no he will follow, she wanted him to come with her, so at least she won't feel completely lost and alone.
He kissed her hair, and held her close to him. Just being held by her was enough for him. "Rin, you are an companion now. You helped me with my need and I will help you with yours" he said to her. Rin felt herself laugh. Of course to him it was all pay back, and the need to be even, how could she ever think he would truly want to be with her. But for now she liked just being in his warm embrace, she felt like no one can take her away from him, she felt safe. But then there was that fear. "Lord Sesshoumaru?" called the voice of Sonomi. Rin pulled away from him and laid back down, tears threaten to come fast and hard, but she looked away towards the window. "Lady Sonomi" he said. "How are you feeling Lady Rin?" she asked in her sweetest voice. Rin hated it she hated herself for being jealous and cruel. Why did she have to be so nice? Why did she torment her so? Rin felt herself slipping from jealous to anger. "I'm feel better, thank you" said Rin with a fake smile. "Good you had almost everyone worried sick" she said. "Thank you and I am sorry that I ruined a night for you and Sesshoumaru-sama" she said bravely even though inside she was killing herself with every word. Sesshoumaru twitched at it to. *How can she think that?* he thought. Sonomi blushed and looked down. "I'm sure you'll be very happy" Rin went on. *Stop! Stop it! Stop saying things that hurt you!* she thought.
"Oh Lady Rin your to kind, but Lord Sesshoumaru isn't yet ready for a mate" she said. Rin found herself laughing once more. Strange how sadness and pain always seemed funny. "Yes, and why should he be, he has such a long time" she heard herself say. "What about you lady Rin do you plan on getting a mate?" asked Sonomi sitting at the edge of the bed trying to make a conversation. "I suppose when I find the right man to marry, but I don't have as much time as Sesshoumaru-sama does" she said. Sonomi giggled. "It is no wonder you and Lord Sesshoumaru like each others company, you don't rush in to things" she said. Rin chuckled *How wrong you are, we rushed in to everything, maybe we should have slowed down a little* she thought. "And what about you Lord Sesshoumaru, what do you think of Lady Rin's love life?" she asked. "I don't feel she needs a mate right now" he simply stated. "I heard that Lord Tetsuo had asked you to be his mate, it's amazing how fast he fell for you" said Sonomi. Rin laughed again. "I met Lord Tetsuo along time back, but he doesn't remember me, I guess some old feelings stay" Rin said. "You knew Lord Tetsuo?" asked Sonomi. "Yes, when I was probably around the age of 14" said Rin. "Yes, Lord Tetsuo has a very short memory" said Sonomi chuckling. These small conversation lead Sesshoumaru in to questions and curiosity about Rin's past. "I wish you didn't fall ill or you could have enjoyed yourself, the men down there are asking for you" said Sonomi giggling. Rin chuckled "Yes, they were very polite and I would have never thought they would be so nice to me" she said. Sonomi nodded.
Sesshoumaru stood and excused himself. Sonomi stayed and chatted with Rin. "So lady Rin, what happened" asked Sonomi. "I think I had to much to drink" she said with a small smile *Oh yeah smart* she thought. "I wish I was as lucky as you" said Sonomi with a dreamy look. "What do you mean?" asked Rin *How much lucky can you get? Your marrying the guy* she thought. "To be at his side, and fight aside long with him" she said. "You sound so love struck" said Rin. "I don't know, but maybe I am. Ever since he saved me from that strange Youkai. I felt differently about him. I didn't want to mate with him at first but now it's almost a fairy tale" she said. "Yes, I suppose. I think you two will make a lovely couple" said Rin. "Didn't you ever feel anything for him?" she asked suddenly. Rin felt her throat get dry and her heart clenched. *How could I tell her that I care for him, very much! How?* she thought. "I do respect him and care for him very much" she said. "But you never felt emotions that a mate would?" Sonomi asked. Rin thought of something to change the subject and as if to the rescue her, Hinoki and Kagami walked in. "I was getting so lonely at the ball" said Kagami. "So was I" said Hinoki. "Oh where is Lord Farga?" asked Sonomi in a teasing voice. Hinoki laughed "He is with Lord Sesshoumaru" said Hinoki. "He is?" asked Rin. "Yes, I heard that you were awake and came to see you, Lord Sesshoumaru stayed at your side since the time you fainted" stated Hinoki. Sonomi was either naive, or pretending to be nice, or she was just plan stupid if she didn't get what Hinoki was getting at. "Here Rin why don't you change in to your night gown" said Kagami. Rin nodded as she stood up with the help of Hinoki holding her.
"Hinoki-chan my sister is alive" whispered Rin. Hinoki gasped and then smiled. "That's great Rin!" she said. Rin shook her head "I wish it was, but the truth is...if she's alive that means she's going to have to deal with all the trouble that lies ahead" said Rin. "I'm sure she is as strong as you Lady Rin" said Sonomi and Kagami nodded. Rin chuckled. "My sister is way more stronger then I could every be, she taught me everything I know" she said as tears trailed down her the side of her eyes. "I have a favor to ask you Hinoki, lady Sonomi, and especially you Lady Kagami" said Rin. "What is that?" asked Kagami as Sonomi and Hinoki nodded. "Please Hinoki get Farga-sama to convince Sesshoumaru-sama to stay back, and Sonomi please also convince him, and Kagami-san if you tell hi to stay back he will listen, to all of you" said Rin. "But Lady Rin I don't understand" said Sonomi. "I don't want for him to get hurt" she whispered. It was at that moment did Hinoki realize how much Rin really care for this dog demon. [AN: Sonomi is kind of thick headed so she still doesn't get it] "I know if you all tell him he will listen" she said. She felt so low at this point in time she felt lower then she ever felt, she was asking them to push away the only man she ever cared deeply for other then Farga, her father, and her brother. "Why Rin? Sesshoumaru-sama is very strong" said Hinoki. "I know he's strong, but it doesn't matter, even if he heals I don't, the fact he got hurt stitches itself to my memory" said Rin as more tears came out. Kagami felt her heart break, at her words. "Convincing hi will be hard" she said looking down. "I know Lady Kagami, but please try" said Rin. "Lady Sonomi please be selfish and hold him back if not for my sake then for his" said Rin. Sonomi nodded. Rin closed her eyes and felt the darkness over whelm her. It was so cold yet comforting.
Hinoki started at the sleeping Rin. She pulled the covers over her and kissed her forehead in a motherly way. "I can't do it Lady Sonomi, Lady Kagami, I can't tell him to stay away. She needs him to look after her, she may act and talk strong , but inside she is nothing" said Hinoki. Sonomi knew Hinoki wasn't trying to doubt her younger sister, but just telling the sheer truth. "She looks so helpless just lying there. I have seen her fight and also fall, and it was also Sesshoumaru-sama that caught her when she did. I'm worried that if he isn't there who will?" asked Hinoki with tears filling her eyes. Kagami walked towards Hinoki and held her. "I will for Lady Rin's sake" said Sonomi softly *I feel low but for fathers sake this is for the best* Sonomi thought. Hinoki nodded as they walked towards the ball once more, what they didn't notice that in the shadows of the hall Sesshoumaru stood and listen to the whole conversation. *Why must you push me away?* he thought as he watched Rin sleep. She truly did look helpless, what if a Youkai came and took her away? She wouldn't know the first thing to protecting herself. He thought as he stood and watched her sleep. She is truly beautiful, more then any woman human or Youkai, she had the essence of a goddess in her. Sesshoumaru heard himself chuckling, a few months back he would have never believed that he would be so reluctant to let a human girl walk away from him.
Sonomi saw him in the balcony and walked towards him. "Lord Sesshoumaru" she said. Sesshoumaru turned and gave her a nod. "My lord I found about Lady Rin's sister and about your proposal to join her" said Sonomi. At this point Sesshoumaru knew where she was going. "Yes, Rin helped me to rescue you, and I want to pay my debt to her" said Sesshoumaru. "Yes, I understand but I wish you would not go. My lord I don't want to see you hurt, and I want to near you" said Sonomi coming close to hold him. Sesshoumaru didn't say or do anything as she wrapped her arms around him and placed her head on his chest. "My lord at first when I heard that I was to mate with some Youkai lord I did not know or have been friends with I dreaded the thought of spending it with you, but after you saved me from that fool, something changed in me" she said. Sesshoumaru held her by her arm. "I only wished to be by your side and nothing more" she said as she looked up at him. Sesshoumaru looked down at her, yes she was beautiful and yes she was a princess, but she wasn't whom he wanted. Sonomi put her hands to his face and pulled him down. Sesshoumaru let her do as she pleased. He felt her soft lips on his, yet he wasn't as excited to feel hers as he was to feel Rin's. Sesshoumaru kissed back, Sonomi pulled away and held on to him for a while longer before she said those words that made him want to jump of a cliff or better yet let Inu-yasha kill him.
"My Lord take me as your own" she whispered. "I can't do that" said Sesshoumaru as she put her aside. "And why not my Lord?" she asked. "I just can't Lady Sonomi" he said, if she was anyone else they would have been dead for touching him and forget about what he might have done to someone who suggested that he mate with them. He could think of only one person he wanted, she was out of his reach by a couple of meters. "Lady Sonomi you are the daughter of a respectable Lord, and I myself am one as well. I can not risk your as well as my own respect for one night" he said. "But My lord if you are to mate with me, what difference does it make?" she asked. Sesshoumaru shook his head. "Lady Sonomi, I wish to repay Rin, and as I mentioned before I do not wish for a mate, yet" he said. Sonomi looked away "It is Lady Rin isn't it?" she asked. [AN: What you know she's finally catching on] "No, it's not her, I do not wish for a mate, I have much that I need to take care of, I can't risk some fool taking you away like that Tanaka did" he said. Sonomi looked up at him "Do you really care for me, or it's just that I'm a burden?" she asked. "Lady Sonomi I don't wish to lie to you, I can not feel anything in such a small time" he said. Sonomi shook her head. "I suppose it was silly of me to think that you would ever feel that way about me" whispered Sonomi. Sesshoumaru bowed "Please forgive me" he said and walked off. Sonomi gave a small painful smile *It's her I know it...I have lost* she thought.
Mean while...[AN: Happening at the same time Sonomi and Sesshy is talking]
It was in the middle of the night did Rin wake once more, she looked around the room, the whole castle was silent and still. Meaning that the ball was over and everyone had retired for the night. Rin laid in her bed and listened to the small splashes the waved made on the sand. Rin smiled she loved it near the ocean, she had wanted to go out on the beach before but, she didn't want to seem rude. She got up slowly and walked towards the window and looked down to see the clear sky above the beautiful black sea. Rin walked slowly towards the door and opened it softly. She made her way down the hall, she heard the small voices which she recognized to be Sesshoumaru's and Sonomi's it was more like Sonomi's voice with Sesshoumaru occasionally saying yes, and I understand. Rin didn't want to hear or know what they were talking about, or what they were doing alone in the room. She just wanted to comfort herself. It was life's smallest things that gave Rin and her sister pleasure, they had always run in to the snow, in the winter, they had always played in the sand in the summer, it was the fact they were breathing and watching the world that gave them pleasure. Rin walked slowly towards the sand with longing bringing back old memories of her sister and herself in waist length water splashing each other and laughing, while her mother sat on the beach laughing along with them.
Somewhere, in some forest...[AN: Creative no?]
Inu-yasha, and Kagome were sitting near a fire while Sango and Miroku were sparing which was odd since Sango doesn't let Miroku near her. Kirara and Shippou were both fast asleep. "These are the moments to cherish" said Kagome with a smile. Inu-yasha looked at her. "What you mean?" he asked. "The simple fact that you get to spend your time with the people you care about, that's what. These times when everything seems so wrong, you still find peace and happiness" said Kagome with a smile. Inu-yasha shrugged. "What ever, but this is nice" he said. Kagome smiled as she laid down on the soft grass and sighed. "Yup, if life was this easy I wouldn't have to worry about anything" she said. "What do you need to worry about any way I have to always protect you and I have to always bring you back from your time" said Inu-yasha. Kagome's smile disappeared with a look of anger. "Why do you always have to ruin everything?" asked Kagome with vines sticking out on her forehead and breathing heavy. Inu-yasha backed away *Shit the bitch is going to say it* he thought. Kagome smiled and said. "Inu-yasha come and *SIT* here with me" Inu-yasha felt the invisible force push him down. "BITCH!" he yelled. Kagome only giggled and looked on. Yup life was to be lived to the fullest, even if it had it's curves here and there, life was meant to be filled with pleasure for the tiniest things, and she loved her life, she wouldn't trade it for the world, maybe passing all her classes.
Inu-yasha had to smile, even with the dirt on his face. "I guess your right" he said. Kagome looked at him and smiled. "You know Inu-yasha sometimes I feel as if I was here all my life, like for some strange reason I belong here, not that I don't now" she said. "Maybe it's just that saying you humans have 'home is where the heart is' maybe you really like it here" he said. Kagome was very impressed he remembered something like that. "I think your right Inu-yasha. Even though sometimes I feel like I'm waiting for something, maybe I wasn't meant to pick up where Kikyou left of. Maybe I'm wanted here for some other reason" said Kagome. Inu-yasha looked at her. "Why would you be here for any thing else?" he asked. "I don't know, but I have a feeling" she said and sighed. Kagome smiled as she looked up at the beautiful moon. *Who ever it is that is calling at least I know we could look up at the moon and know where looking at the same thing* she thought.
Back at the beach near the Castle...
The sand under her bear feet felt good, she walked on the cool sand and let the small dust like rocks fill the gaps in between her feet. A sigh escaped her, she walked towards the water, as if she was in a daze. "The smallest things seem to fill the void with in me" she said as she picked her sheer white light nightgown up to her knees and step in to the water. The water slapped against her feet making her laugh like a little girl on her first day on the beach. Rin ran across the water and then jumped on it. Sesshoumaru heard her leave her room and had followed after her. The things she said and did made him want to laugh, but at the moment she looked like a fallen goddess. Rin had the little girl's flute to her lips, playing it was skill. Rind twirled around playing the flute. Sesshoumaru's eyes caught the falling flowers, around her. They were falling from the sky and all around her as she played, why or how it was possible was beyond him. Rin brought the flute down started to laugh as she danced around in the falling petals. Sesshoumaru came in to view and stood there watching her. Rin turned to see him standing behind her with smiling playing on his lips. "What?" she asked. "Do you always get up in the middle of the night and run around?" he asked walking towards her. Rin laughed "No, I love the ocean, it was always my favorite place to come in the summer time with my family" she said. Sesshoumaru somehow felt happy that she had shared that little information. "Your family how was it?" he asked. "My family?" she asked taking a seat on the cool sand. "They were wonderful, my father tall with black hair and beautiful blue eyes, he was handsome. My mother was beautiful with her dark brown hair and amber eyes, My brother he looked like my father with my mother's eyes, my grandfather well he was just cute kind of looked like a monk, but cute and my sister...well I don't know how to describe her, all I know is that she is beautiful" she said with a dreamy look on her face. "Why did you?" he asked suddenly. "Why did I what?" asked Rin. "Why did you ask Lady Sonomi, Lady Hinoki, Kagami-san to tell me to stay behind" he said. "You knew?" asked Rin looking half lid at her hand. "I heard when you asked them before you fell asleep" he said.
Rin felt her eyes water yet again. "If you heard then why do you need to ask?" she chocked out. "I want to know why you are pushing me away? Do you think I'm weak?" he asked. [AN: Yup the pure male pride! and who knew fluffy was so soft T_T] Rin laughed out. "I guess my saying that hurt your big ego" she said. Sesshoumaru looked at her while she laughed away. "I would like you to know, I have much respect for Lady Sonomi and Kagami-san, but what they says won't make me change my mind" he stated recalling the kiss and conversation they shared. "I know" said Rin with smile looking towards the ocean. "You do?" he asked. "I knew that you wouldn't listen, but I had to do all I can to keep you away. If all failed then I would have you by my side. I know it seems strange but this way I don't feel guilty in if you get hurt" said Rin. "And what if I do, you will still feel guilt?" asked Sesshoumaru. "Do you have any brothers or sisters?" asked Rin suddenly. "Yes I do have a half brother, that half breed!" said Sesshoumaru. "Well when he gets hurt how do you feel? What you feel inside to see him hurt with the pain in his eyes?" asked Rin. Sesshoumaru didn't know what to say, he couldn't say that 'I feel good when that son of a bitch or more like a human is bloody and in pain' or 'I feel great to cause him that pain' Sesshoumaru didn't have an answer.
"When you care for someone you will always feel that you could have done something to prevent it, and then you feel guilty. "So the answer to your question, is yes I would," she said. Sesshoumaru nodded. "Your brother, what does he look like?" asked Rin all of a sudden. Sesshoumaru let out a growl. "He has long silver hair like mine only his is like a spiders web, he has golden eyes, and his ears are like dog-ears on the top of his head," said Sesshoumaru in a distaste full manner. "Hmm he sounds handsome and cute," said Rin. [AN: HELL YEAH!] Sesshoumaru looked at Rin like she was crazy. "Inu-yasha Handsome or cute?" ask Sesshoumaru *that's like saying a toad was a prince* he thought as a picture of Jaken turning in to a handsome prince popped in to his head. "Do you think we could see him before we go to look for my sister?" asked Rin. "Inu-yasha and I aren't in the best of terms," he said thinking about their last battle. "Oh come on, I'm sure he'll forgive you for what ever you did" said Rin. Sesshoumaru gave her a skeptical look. "And why would you assume that it was I who did something?" asked Sesshoumaru. Rin shrugged and smiled. "You know it's times like this that I want to remember," said Rin. "Why?" he asked. "Because I'm here sharing it with you, and we are sharing things about each others lives" she said. Sesshoumaru gave her a nod. "My mother told me once to take pleasure in the smallest things that come in life, maybe that's why the feeling of sand on my bare feet feels good, it feels wonderful" said Rin.
"You talk about your mother often" said Sesshoumaru. "She was my hero, she was the one I looked to when I was in trouble, her and my sister. They were always there telling me who is right for me and who's not" said Rin with smile. He had to admit that talking about the most stupid things gave him pleasure in a strange way. "Before my village was being attacked by Naraku, I was to be married to some one. I cried day and night because I didn't love him and my sister was the one who comforted me. She told me to always think of others before myself, to think of his happiness and of our families" said Rin. "So you agreed?" asked Sesshoumaru. Rin nodded "I knew that deep down my sister wanted to yell out don't do it, but she did in a sense. She told me to follow my heart, she told me to follow the calling of the wind," she said. "The calling of the wind?" asked Sesshoumaru. Rin nodded. "My sister was a miko, she taught herself many spell, and incantations. Once it was a beautiful spring night, she made a spell, well she did two spells, the first one was for both of us to find true love, it was silly and girly but we did it anyways, and the second was the spell of the wind. She had told me that the flowers she used in the spell will be visible to me, if we ever got separated, it would guide me to her. I guess I was stupid to not believe in it," said Rin. "What do you mean?" he asked.
"The Cheery blossoms at Farga-sama's palace was one of those flowers, and the next was a lily that I saw when we were heading toward the castle to fight that weirdo, she's been giving me clues all along" said Rin. [AN: Lame I know!] Rin picked up the petals that were around them. "These are the same petals we used," she said looking at the beautiful white rose petal. Sesshoumaru picked one of the flower petals up and examine it. "One thing we probably have for sure is the moon" said Rin. "The moon?" asked Sesshoumaru. "Yup! Because where ever she is, if she's looking up at the moon, were looking at the same one" said Rin with smile. Sesshoumaru started at her like a child that just discovered the art of fire, he looked at her with new longing. "You know what Sesshoumaru-sama," said Rin looking up at him with a smile. "I don't feel lonely like I did before, even when I was surrounded by people I felt lonely, but now that I'm here with you, I feel like the word 'Lonely' never existed," said Rin. Sesshoumaru didn't say anything he just looked on in to the dark ocean, to be completely honest with himself, he never felt so good and complete with anyone as he did with her. His eyes came back to the surroundings when he saw Rin get up once more and run in to the water and laugh like a child. "Come on Sesshoumaru-sama the water is warm, it won't hurt you" said Rin. Sesshoumaru shook no and sat at his spot, that is until someone came and splashed water at him and ran laughing, He growled and caught up to her, he pushed her down gently and splashed the water all over her.
Rin laughed "That isn't fair you can't use your power!" she said as more water came splashing on her face. Sesshoumaru smiled as her skin gave a beautiful glaze from the wetness, her sheer nightgown now, showed him everything she bared. That's when it froze, time...He started down at her face, her body and she breathless from laughing. He brought his face just inches away from hers. "What magic is this?" he asked softly. Rin gasped as she felt his lips at her ear. "I don't know," she whispered back as her stomach felt strangely warmth. Sesshoumaru felt her fingers in his hair, running softly through his hair. "Your hair is so beautiful...your so beautiful" she whispered. [AN: If it was taking place during modern times I would have made her ask him what conditioner he used. Oh by the way this is *FAR* from the castle so nobody saw them, but if they did can you imagine the scandal!] Rin saw something different in his usual cold eyes, she didn't know which it was envy or desire, but maybe it was both. Sesshoumaru placed his head in between her shoulder and neck, feeling her bare skin on his cheek. Her skin to him was like the finest silk, and her hair was soft as a cloud that drifted in the sky. Rin gasped once more when she felt his tongue flicker over her shoulder. Her hands where entangled in his hair. Sesshoumaru wanted to taste her, which he couldn't hold back. His eyes met hers. He felt her tremble as he bent forward and brushed his lips against hers.
Rin gasped against the soft lips that covered hers. He was kissing her, she realized trying to still the wild beating of her heart. [AN: No shit!] She returned the kiss and parted her lips beneath his. She felt the strong arms, which surrounded her, tighten as he slipped his tongue into her mouth and gently slid it against her own. Rin's hands were now at the base of his neck, locking securely around his neck. Sesshoumaru's lips took all that was being offered to him, the sweet taste of her lips, she tasted like the wine she had just hours before, mix with a sweet honey, her scent was just intoxicating mixed with the flowers that fell around her. He felt her hands move from his neck to his chest rubbing it slowly, causing his body to heat up even more then it already was. Sesshoumaru grabbed her hands and trapped them over her head as his lips made their way down her jaws to her throat and in to the small dept of her neck. He licked her collarbone and then made his way down to the contour of her breast, he licked it a few times. The cool materials of her gown against his face made him release a small growl. He wanted her so badly. Rin let out a small moan when his lips were back on her neck again. The two were to wrapped up in their own little world all up until Sesshoumaru heard a distant cry. [AN: Forever disturbed!] He got up and looked or more like sniffed around. Rin was flushed but recovered quickly.
"Sesshoumaru-sama?" asked Rin forgetting for a second what happened between them. "Something isn't right," he said grabbing her around the waist and heading towards the castle. They arrived to find Kaneda's guards on the ground. They rushed inside. "What happened?" asked Sesshoumaru to Farga who was also running toward the sound of the scream. "I don't know, I heard a cry, I think it belong to Lady Sonomi," said Farga. "I'm going to go and check on Lord Kaneda and the children," said Farga. Sesshoumaru nodded as he and Rin ran faster. When they reached Sonomi's room they found Sonomi being held captive by a large Youkai guard. Sesshoumaru looked at the Youkai. "What do suppose your doing?" he asked. "I am taking what should be mine" said the Youkai. "Lord Sesshoumaru" whispered Sonomi. Rin stood by the door away in both shock and anger. "What is yours?" asked Sesshoumaru. "This beauty was mine, even before you came and took her from me" said the Youkai. Sesshoumaru narrowed his eyes on Sonomi's captive. "Release her, and you won't die a painful death" said Sesshoumaru. The Youkai laughed and then pulled her closer. "What can you do? She doesn't deserve you, you already have a toy to play with" said the Youkai looking towards Rin. Sesshoumaru growled and ran forward. The Youkai dropped Sonomi and moved out of the way. Sesshoumaru helped Sonomi to her feet, before she threw her arms around him. "Lord Sesshoumaru" she whispered as tears fell down her face, he wrapped an arm around her. Rin looked on with out any emotion visible on her face, but inside she was crying out.
Rin didn't feel the swift moment behind she was so occupied with watching the beautiful couple before her. It hit once she felt arms warp around her waist and pulled her roughly against a chest. Rin looked behind to see the large Youkai holding her with a smirk, her voice died out and she couldn't cry out. "I have your toy now, which would you pick the princess or this human girl?" he asked. Sesshoumaru noticed Rin's uneven breathing and turned towards her, that's when he saw the Youkai grab smile and her. Sesshoumaru growled furiously. "Let her go" he said. "She's mine now, it's not fair you get both of them" he said. Sesshoumaru narrowed his eyes on him once more. The Youkai ran a finger down Rin's cheek she's a beauty. I shall have fun playing with her," he said looking at Sesshoumaru with a evil grin. "I don't wish to play childish games with you" he said. Rin couldn't call out his name, or it was she didn't want to. She felt her captor's hold on her get tighter and soon they were fleeing through the open balcony doors. "Rin!" Sesshoumaru yelled, but she didn't answer she was just shocked. Sesshoumaru let Sonomi go and ran after the already disappearing bodies of Rin and her captive. *I'll kill that piece of shit, if he lay a hand on her* he thought as he ran faster on their trail.
TBC
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AN: Aahaha! I finished it! I finally finished chapter 11! Sorry that it took so long but I was in the hospital for two days and I didn't get much done after I came back home due the order of the doctor to have bed rest. Anyways chapter 12 will up soon if I don't sick again this year just sucks for me! We are coming close to the surprise of the story. Sorry for all spelling and grammar. PLEASE REVIEW!!! Thanks! ^_~
By: Haruka-chan
AN: Hello this is Chapter 11 some notes as before. Sorry it has to be this way but my word doc doesn't support special lettering and formatting so please cope with me. *Kind of limey! Not much just a drop heheh ^_^*
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A hard choice to make...Chapter 11
Last Time
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Sesshoumaru felt himself get nervous and worried which would lead to illness. "What happened to you?" asked Sesshoumaru holding Rin's hand. It was about two hours later did Rin moved slightly then opened her eyes. "Sesshoumaru-sama?" she asked. He nodded. Rin felt the hot liquid that was now leaving her eyes. "He wants me...he wants me and I can't fight him..." she whispered. "Who wants you?" asked Sesshoumaru. Rin couldn't stop the tears that were rushing out of her. "Rin..." said Sesshoumaru. Rin closed her eyes and found that she found comfort in the darkness. Sesshoumaru moved some hair out of her face. "Rin?" he asked again. "I loose everything I every come to love" she said more to herself then him. Sesshoumaru didn't know what to say to her, how to comfort her.
Rin looked at him "I...he wants something from me and I don't know what" said Rin. "Who Rin?" asked Sesshoumaru. "He...wants my sister and me...Sesshoumaru-sama she's still alive...my sister" said Rin. Sesshoumaru didn't know how to react to what she just told him. Rin found herself lying staring at the beautiful silk that covered the top of the bed she was lying on. *Are you really alive? Or is he playing games with me?* she thought as more unnoticed tears fell down her face. "I'm so alone" she whispered. Sesshoumaru turned to her. "So what am I to you?" he asked. Rin sat up and held on to Sesshoumaru. "Sesshoumaru-sama I...I need to find her...before I really lose her" she said in to his chest. "Where do you think she is?" he asked. Rin pulled away and shook her head. "No, Sesshoumaru-sama I...I'm going alone..." she whispered.
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"Where do you think she is?" he asked. Rin pulled away and shook her head. "No, Sesshoumaru-sama I...I'm going alone..." she whispered. Sesshoumaru felt his insides clench at her words. Did she not want to be with him, did she not want his protection? All these thought went through his head. "I will come with you" he said flatly. "No, I can't let you get hurt at my coast. I don't want to lose everyone. I don't know for sure that my sister is alive, but I want to find her on my own. I don't want to hold you back from what you need to do, what about lady Sonomi?" she asked trying to push all her hurt and angry deep within herself, surely her heart can take another heart break. Sesshoumaru's eyes narrowed on her face, what had to the most ironic moment in his life had to be now. When he first met her he questioned himself on why he let her follow, and now he was questioning himself why he couldn't let her go. Fate was just strange and funny that way. again the word Fate comes in to play in this drama she had created, like spuned silk, she weaved him and everyone around her in to this beautiful story she was going to make them care for her and leave them, she seemed truly selfish, yet selfless. Sesshoumaru let out a sigh and shook his head. Rin didn't understand what he was reacting to.
"I will not let you go alone, I don't wish for you death news, and I don't wish to feel burdened with feelings of disappointment, sadness, and guilt" he stated. Rin's eyes watered at his statement, not from what or how it sounded, but from the simple fact that he cared enough for her to feel disappointment, sadness and guilt. She tried to sit up just so she could hold him, she felt him push her down. "Lie down your still ill" he stated. "How can you tell?" she asked with a smile. It amazed Sesshoumaru how she can smile through it all. How this human girl who was so filled with pain and anger could just smile everything of. "I can smell it on you" he said in a whisper. Rin wanted to laugh, but her lungs hurt, but she didn't know why. Rin thought back to a few moments ago when she kissed him, she was still slightly drunk from all the wine she had consumed. "You mustn't come with me" she finally looked away and whispered. "And why not?" he asked. "I don't want you to get hurt, and I don't want to burden you" she said as more tears stinged her eyes. *You have already burden me, with these emotions that you lighted in me* he thought. "I don't take orders from you or anyone. I will come with you and that's final!" he said as if she was Jaken or one of his servants. "I don't want you come with me!" she finally said in both rage and pain.
Sesshoumaru felt shocked and surprised when she stared at him with her amber brown eyes that showed such pain and anger, and her words were so straight up. Did she really not want to be with him? Was he that bad? Sesshoumaru never in his life doubted himself, it was always someone else fault or he was always the best, he took much pride in everything he did and said and had. He was the Great Lord of the western land. Yet at this very moment he felt like the lowest creature to walk the lands. He felt small and why? All because of human girl? A human girl who brought back emotions he long imprisoned inside himself, longing which he didn't let his heart have, and most of all she brought back life with beauty which he locked away. Yes it was true that he surrounded himself with beauty and grace, but in reality and truth it was never meant for people to admire, but to fill the empty void in him. But she, this human girl she filled the void so perfectly it frightened him. The fact that she can smile upon a being like him, made him wonder things and possibilities that he didn't think of before. She opened new door and wonders to him. And now she was asking him to give it all back? No! he wasn't going to let her take these curiosity away, she wasn't going to take this beautiful world from him, and she definitely won't be leaving him!
Rin stared at Sesshoumaru's hard face for what seemed like forever before she heard him speak. Why must he be so stubborn and thickheaded [AN: Obviously she is kind of stupid at the whole 'understanding your man' thing and hasn't met guys of the 21 century!] She wanted his well being, she cared for him, she didn't want to leave, but there are other things she must do, other things that might kill him, if she died trying to save her sister it wouldn't really matter to her, at one point she might actually feel peace, but she would never forgive herself if he got hurt at her coast. She turned away so he couldn't read her, so he couldn't see the pain and anger building inside her. "I won't" he started. She turned towards him and stared at him to finish. "I won't let you go on your own, it's either you let me come along or you don't go at all. Don't think getting away from me will be easy" he said. Rin felt the hot liquid come again. "Why can't you see I can't stand to see you get hurt" she whispered. "And I can't do the same" he whispered back moving her hair out her face. This time he didn't stop her when he sat up and held on to him, her scent mixing with his own. Rin held him so tight, that if we was human he would be suffering from air loss, but she was afraid that he was going to disappear and she was going to be left alone, she didn't want to admit it but she wanted him to say no he will follow, she wanted him to come with her, so at least she won't feel completely lost and alone.
He kissed her hair, and held her close to him. Just being held by her was enough for him. "Rin, you are an companion now. You helped me with my need and I will help you with yours" he said to her. Rin felt herself laugh. Of course to him it was all pay back, and the need to be even, how could she ever think he would truly want to be with her. But for now she liked just being in his warm embrace, she felt like no one can take her away from him, she felt safe. But then there was that fear. "Lord Sesshoumaru?" called the voice of Sonomi. Rin pulled away from him and laid back down, tears threaten to come fast and hard, but she looked away towards the window. "Lady Sonomi" he said. "How are you feeling Lady Rin?" she asked in her sweetest voice. Rin hated it she hated herself for being jealous and cruel. Why did she have to be so nice? Why did she torment her so? Rin felt herself slipping from jealous to anger. "I'm feel better, thank you" said Rin with a fake smile. "Good you had almost everyone worried sick" she said. "Thank you and I am sorry that I ruined a night for you and Sesshoumaru-sama" she said bravely even though inside she was killing herself with every word. Sesshoumaru twitched at it to. *How can she think that?* he thought. Sonomi blushed and looked down. "I'm sure you'll be very happy" Rin went on. *Stop! Stop it! Stop saying things that hurt you!* she thought.
"Oh Lady Rin your to kind, but Lord Sesshoumaru isn't yet ready for a mate" she said. Rin found herself laughing once more. Strange how sadness and pain always seemed funny. "Yes, and why should he be, he has such a long time" she heard herself say. "What about you lady Rin do you plan on getting a mate?" asked Sonomi sitting at the edge of the bed trying to make a conversation. "I suppose when I find the right man to marry, but I don't have as much time as Sesshoumaru-sama does" she said. Sonomi giggled. "It is no wonder you and Lord Sesshoumaru like each others company, you don't rush in to things" she said. Rin chuckled *How wrong you are, we rushed in to everything, maybe we should have slowed down a little* she thought. "And what about you Lord Sesshoumaru, what do you think of Lady Rin's love life?" she asked. "I don't feel she needs a mate right now" he simply stated. "I heard that Lord Tetsuo had asked you to be his mate, it's amazing how fast he fell for you" said Sonomi. Rin laughed again. "I met Lord Tetsuo along time back, but he doesn't remember me, I guess some old feelings stay" Rin said. "You knew Lord Tetsuo?" asked Sonomi. "Yes, when I was probably around the age of 14" said Rin. "Yes, Lord Tetsuo has a very short memory" said Sonomi chuckling. These small conversation lead Sesshoumaru in to questions and curiosity about Rin's past. "I wish you didn't fall ill or you could have enjoyed yourself, the men down there are asking for you" said Sonomi giggling. Rin chuckled "Yes, they were very polite and I would have never thought they would be so nice to me" she said. Sonomi nodded.
Sesshoumaru stood and excused himself. Sonomi stayed and chatted with Rin. "So lady Rin, what happened" asked Sonomi. "I think I had to much to drink" she said with a small smile *Oh yeah smart* she thought. "I wish I was as lucky as you" said Sonomi with a dreamy look. "What do you mean?" asked Rin *How much lucky can you get? Your marrying the guy* she thought. "To be at his side, and fight aside long with him" she said. "You sound so love struck" said Rin. "I don't know, but maybe I am. Ever since he saved me from that strange Youkai. I felt differently about him. I didn't want to mate with him at first but now it's almost a fairy tale" she said. "Yes, I suppose. I think you two will make a lovely couple" said Rin. "Didn't you ever feel anything for him?" she asked suddenly. Rin felt her throat get dry and her heart clenched. *How could I tell her that I care for him, very much! How?* she thought. "I do respect him and care for him very much" she said. "But you never felt emotions that a mate would?" Sonomi asked. Rin thought of something to change the subject and as if to the rescue her, Hinoki and Kagami walked in. "I was getting so lonely at the ball" said Kagami. "So was I" said Hinoki. "Oh where is Lord Farga?" asked Sonomi in a teasing voice. Hinoki laughed "He is with Lord Sesshoumaru" said Hinoki. "He is?" asked Rin. "Yes, I heard that you were awake and came to see you, Lord Sesshoumaru stayed at your side since the time you fainted" stated Hinoki. Sonomi was either naive, or pretending to be nice, or she was just plan stupid if she didn't get what Hinoki was getting at. "Here Rin why don't you change in to your night gown" said Kagami. Rin nodded as she stood up with the help of Hinoki holding her.
"Hinoki-chan my sister is alive" whispered Rin. Hinoki gasped and then smiled. "That's great Rin!" she said. Rin shook her head "I wish it was, but the truth is...if she's alive that means she's going to have to deal with all the trouble that lies ahead" said Rin. "I'm sure she is as strong as you Lady Rin" said Sonomi and Kagami nodded. Rin chuckled. "My sister is way more stronger then I could every be, she taught me everything I know" she said as tears trailed down her the side of her eyes. "I have a favor to ask you Hinoki, lady Sonomi, and especially you Lady Kagami" said Rin. "What is that?" asked Kagami as Sonomi and Hinoki nodded. "Please Hinoki get Farga-sama to convince Sesshoumaru-sama to stay back, and Sonomi please also convince him, and Kagami-san if you tell hi to stay back he will listen, to all of you" said Rin. "But Lady Rin I don't understand" said Sonomi. "I don't want for him to get hurt" she whispered. It was at that moment did Hinoki realize how much Rin really care for this dog demon. [AN: Sonomi is kind of thick headed so she still doesn't get it] "I know if you all tell him he will listen" she said. She felt so low at this point in time she felt lower then she ever felt, she was asking them to push away the only man she ever cared deeply for other then Farga, her father, and her brother. "Why Rin? Sesshoumaru-sama is very strong" said Hinoki. "I know he's strong, but it doesn't matter, even if he heals I don't, the fact he got hurt stitches itself to my memory" said Rin as more tears came out. Kagami felt her heart break, at her words. "Convincing hi will be hard" she said looking down. "I know Lady Kagami, but please try" said Rin. "Lady Sonomi please be selfish and hold him back if not for my sake then for his" said Rin. Sonomi nodded. Rin closed her eyes and felt the darkness over whelm her. It was so cold yet comforting.
Hinoki started at the sleeping Rin. She pulled the covers over her and kissed her forehead in a motherly way. "I can't do it Lady Sonomi, Lady Kagami, I can't tell him to stay away. She needs him to look after her, she may act and talk strong , but inside she is nothing" said Hinoki. Sonomi knew Hinoki wasn't trying to doubt her younger sister, but just telling the sheer truth. "She looks so helpless just lying there. I have seen her fight and also fall, and it was also Sesshoumaru-sama that caught her when she did. I'm worried that if he isn't there who will?" asked Hinoki with tears filling her eyes. Kagami walked towards Hinoki and held her. "I will for Lady Rin's sake" said Sonomi softly *I feel low but for fathers sake this is for the best* Sonomi thought. Hinoki nodded as they walked towards the ball once more, what they didn't notice that in the shadows of the hall Sesshoumaru stood and listen to the whole conversation. *Why must you push me away?* he thought as he watched Rin sleep. She truly did look helpless, what if a Youkai came and took her away? She wouldn't know the first thing to protecting herself. He thought as he stood and watched her sleep. She is truly beautiful, more then any woman human or Youkai, she had the essence of a goddess in her. Sesshoumaru heard himself chuckling, a few months back he would have never believed that he would be so reluctant to let a human girl walk away from him.
Sonomi saw him in the balcony and walked towards him. "Lord Sesshoumaru" she said. Sesshoumaru turned and gave her a nod. "My lord I found about Lady Rin's sister and about your proposal to join her" said Sonomi. At this point Sesshoumaru knew where she was going. "Yes, Rin helped me to rescue you, and I want to pay my debt to her" said Sesshoumaru. "Yes, I understand but I wish you would not go. My lord I don't want to see you hurt, and I want to near you" said Sonomi coming close to hold him. Sesshoumaru didn't say or do anything as she wrapped her arms around him and placed her head on his chest. "My lord at first when I heard that I was to mate with some Youkai lord I did not know or have been friends with I dreaded the thought of spending it with you, but after you saved me from that fool, something changed in me" she said. Sesshoumaru held her by her arm. "I only wished to be by your side and nothing more" she said as she looked up at him. Sesshoumaru looked down at her, yes she was beautiful and yes she was a princess, but she wasn't whom he wanted. Sonomi put her hands to his face and pulled him down. Sesshoumaru let her do as she pleased. He felt her soft lips on his, yet he wasn't as excited to feel hers as he was to feel Rin's. Sesshoumaru kissed back, Sonomi pulled away and held on to him for a while longer before she said those words that made him want to jump of a cliff or better yet let Inu-yasha kill him.
"My Lord take me as your own" she whispered. "I can't do that" said Sesshoumaru as she put her aside. "And why not my Lord?" she asked. "I just can't Lady Sonomi" he said, if she was anyone else they would have been dead for touching him and forget about what he might have done to someone who suggested that he mate with them. He could think of only one person he wanted, she was out of his reach by a couple of meters. "Lady Sonomi you are the daughter of a respectable Lord, and I myself am one as well. I can not risk your as well as my own respect for one night" he said. "But My lord if you are to mate with me, what difference does it make?" she asked. Sesshoumaru shook his head. "Lady Sonomi, I wish to repay Rin, and as I mentioned before I do not wish for a mate, yet" he said. Sonomi looked away "It is Lady Rin isn't it?" she asked. [AN: What you know she's finally catching on] "No, it's not her, I do not wish for a mate, I have much that I need to take care of, I can't risk some fool taking you away like that Tanaka did" he said. Sonomi looked up at him "Do you really care for me, or it's just that I'm a burden?" she asked. "Lady Sonomi I don't wish to lie to you, I can not feel anything in such a small time" he said. Sonomi shook her head. "I suppose it was silly of me to think that you would ever feel that way about me" whispered Sonomi. Sesshoumaru bowed "Please forgive me" he said and walked off. Sonomi gave a small painful smile *It's her I know it...I have lost* she thought.
Mean while...[AN: Happening at the same time Sonomi and Sesshy is talking]
It was in the middle of the night did Rin wake once more, she looked around the room, the whole castle was silent and still. Meaning that the ball was over and everyone had retired for the night. Rin laid in her bed and listened to the small splashes the waved made on the sand. Rin smiled she loved it near the ocean, she had wanted to go out on the beach before but, she didn't want to seem rude. She got up slowly and walked towards the window and looked down to see the clear sky above the beautiful black sea. Rin walked slowly towards the door and opened it softly. She made her way down the hall, she heard the small voices which she recognized to be Sesshoumaru's and Sonomi's it was more like Sonomi's voice with Sesshoumaru occasionally saying yes, and I understand. Rin didn't want to hear or know what they were talking about, or what they were doing alone in the room. She just wanted to comfort herself. It was life's smallest things that gave Rin and her sister pleasure, they had always run in to the snow, in the winter, they had always played in the sand in the summer, it was the fact they were breathing and watching the world that gave them pleasure. Rin walked slowly towards the sand with longing bringing back old memories of her sister and herself in waist length water splashing each other and laughing, while her mother sat on the beach laughing along with them.
Somewhere, in some forest...[AN: Creative no?]
Inu-yasha, and Kagome were sitting near a fire while Sango and Miroku were sparing which was odd since Sango doesn't let Miroku near her. Kirara and Shippou were both fast asleep. "These are the moments to cherish" said Kagome with a smile. Inu-yasha looked at her. "What you mean?" he asked. "The simple fact that you get to spend your time with the people you care about, that's what. These times when everything seems so wrong, you still find peace and happiness" said Kagome with a smile. Inu-yasha shrugged. "What ever, but this is nice" he said. Kagome smiled as she laid down on the soft grass and sighed. "Yup, if life was this easy I wouldn't have to worry about anything" she said. "What do you need to worry about any way I have to always protect you and I have to always bring you back from your time" said Inu-yasha. Kagome's smile disappeared with a look of anger. "Why do you always have to ruin everything?" asked Kagome with vines sticking out on her forehead and breathing heavy. Inu-yasha backed away *Shit the bitch is going to say it* he thought. Kagome smiled and said. "Inu-yasha come and *SIT* here with me" Inu-yasha felt the invisible force push him down. "BITCH!" he yelled. Kagome only giggled and looked on. Yup life was to be lived to the fullest, even if it had it's curves here and there, life was meant to be filled with pleasure for the tiniest things, and she loved her life, she wouldn't trade it for the world, maybe passing all her classes.
Inu-yasha had to smile, even with the dirt on his face. "I guess your right" he said. Kagome looked at him and smiled. "You know Inu-yasha sometimes I feel as if I was here all my life, like for some strange reason I belong here, not that I don't now" she said. "Maybe it's just that saying you humans have 'home is where the heart is' maybe you really like it here" he said. Kagome was very impressed he remembered something like that. "I think your right Inu-yasha. Even though sometimes I feel like I'm waiting for something, maybe I wasn't meant to pick up where Kikyou left of. Maybe I'm wanted here for some other reason" said Kagome. Inu-yasha looked at her. "Why would you be here for any thing else?" he asked. "I don't know, but I have a feeling" she said and sighed. Kagome smiled as she looked up at the beautiful moon. *Who ever it is that is calling at least I know we could look up at the moon and know where looking at the same thing* she thought.
Back at the beach near the Castle...
The sand under her bear feet felt good, she walked on the cool sand and let the small dust like rocks fill the gaps in between her feet. A sigh escaped her, she walked towards the water, as if she was in a daze. "The smallest things seem to fill the void with in me" she said as she picked her sheer white light nightgown up to her knees and step in to the water. The water slapped against her feet making her laugh like a little girl on her first day on the beach. Rin ran across the water and then jumped on it. Sesshoumaru heard her leave her room and had followed after her. The things she said and did made him want to laugh, but at the moment she looked like a fallen goddess. Rin had the little girl's flute to her lips, playing it was skill. Rind twirled around playing the flute. Sesshoumaru's eyes caught the falling flowers, around her. They were falling from the sky and all around her as she played, why or how it was possible was beyond him. Rin brought the flute down started to laugh as she danced around in the falling petals. Sesshoumaru came in to view and stood there watching her. Rin turned to see him standing behind her with smiling playing on his lips. "What?" she asked. "Do you always get up in the middle of the night and run around?" he asked walking towards her. Rin laughed "No, I love the ocean, it was always my favorite place to come in the summer time with my family" she said. Sesshoumaru somehow felt happy that she had shared that little information. "Your family how was it?" he asked. "My family?" she asked taking a seat on the cool sand. "They were wonderful, my father tall with black hair and beautiful blue eyes, he was handsome. My mother was beautiful with her dark brown hair and amber eyes, My brother he looked like my father with my mother's eyes, my grandfather well he was just cute kind of looked like a monk, but cute and my sister...well I don't know how to describe her, all I know is that she is beautiful" she said with a dreamy look on her face. "Why did you?" he asked suddenly. "Why did I what?" asked Rin. "Why did you ask Lady Sonomi, Lady Hinoki, Kagami-san to tell me to stay behind" he said. "You knew?" asked Rin looking half lid at her hand. "I heard when you asked them before you fell asleep" he said.
Rin felt her eyes water yet again. "If you heard then why do you need to ask?" she chocked out. "I want to know why you are pushing me away? Do you think I'm weak?" he asked. [AN: Yup the pure male pride! and who knew fluffy was so soft T_T] Rin laughed out. "I guess my saying that hurt your big ego" she said. Sesshoumaru looked at her while she laughed away. "I would like you to know, I have much respect for Lady Sonomi and Kagami-san, but what they says won't make me change my mind" he stated recalling the kiss and conversation they shared. "I know" said Rin with smile looking towards the ocean. "You do?" he asked. "I knew that you wouldn't listen, but I had to do all I can to keep you away. If all failed then I would have you by my side. I know it seems strange but this way I don't feel guilty in if you get hurt" said Rin. "And what if I do, you will still feel guilt?" asked Sesshoumaru. "Do you have any brothers or sisters?" asked Rin suddenly. "Yes I do have a half brother, that half breed!" said Sesshoumaru. "Well when he gets hurt how do you feel? What you feel inside to see him hurt with the pain in his eyes?" asked Rin. Sesshoumaru didn't know what to say, he couldn't say that 'I feel good when that son of a bitch or more like a human is bloody and in pain' or 'I feel great to cause him that pain' Sesshoumaru didn't have an answer.
"When you care for someone you will always feel that you could have done something to prevent it, and then you feel guilty. "So the answer to your question, is yes I would," she said. Sesshoumaru nodded. "Your brother, what does he look like?" asked Rin all of a sudden. Sesshoumaru let out a growl. "He has long silver hair like mine only his is like a spiders web, he has golden eyes, and his ears are like dog-ears on the top of his head," said Sesshoumaru in a distaste full manner. "Hmm he sounds handsome and cute," said Rin. [AN: HELL YEAH!] Sesshoumaru looked at Rin like she was crazy. "Inu-yasha Handsome or cute?" ask Sesshoumaru *that's like saying a toad was a prince* he thought as a picture of Jaken turning in to a handsome prince popped in to his head. "Do you think we could see him before we go to look for my sister?" asked Rin. "Inu-yasha and I aren't in the best of terms," he said thinking about their last battle. "Oh come on, I'm sure he'll forgive you for what ever you did" said Rin. Sesshoumaru gave her a skeptical look. "And why would you assume that it was I who did something?" asked Sesshoumaru. Rin shrugged and smiled. "You know it's times like this that I want to remember," said Rin. "Why?" he asked. "Because I'm here sharing it with you, and we are sharing things about each others lives" she said. Sesshoumaru gave her a nod. "My mother told me once to take pleasure in the smallest things that come in life, maybe that's why the feeling of sand on my bare feet feels good, it feels wonderful" said Rin.
"You talk about your mother often" said Sesshoumaru. "She was my hero, she was the one I looked to when I was in trouble, her and my sister. They were always there telling me who is right for me and who's not" said Rin with smile. He had to admit that talking about the most stupid things gave him pleasure in a strange way. "Before my village was being attacked by Naraku, I was to be married to some one. I cried day and night because I didn't love him and my sister was the one who comforted me. She told me to always think of others before myself, to think of his happiness and of our families" said Rin. "So you agreed?" asked Sesshoumaru. Rin nodded "I knew that deep down my sister wanted to yell out don't do it, but she did in a sense. She told me to follow my heart, she told me to follow the calling of the wind," she said. "The calling of the wind?" asked Sesshoumaru. Rin nodded. "My sister was a miko, she taught herself many spell, and incantations. Once it was a beautiful spring night, she made a spell, well she did two spells, the first one was for both of us to find true love, it was silly and girly but we did it anyways, and the second was the spell of the wind. She had told me that the flowers she used in the spell will be visible to me, if we ever got separated, it would guide me to her. I guess I was stupid to not believe in it," said Rin. "What do you mean?" he asked.
"The Cheery blossoms at Farga-sama's palace was one of those flowers, and the next was a lily that I saw when we were heading toward the castle to fight that weirdo, she's been giving me clues all along" said Rin. [AN: Lame I know!] Rin picked up the petals that were around them. "These are the same petals we used," she said looking at the beautiful white rose petal. Sesshoumaru picked one of the flower petals up and examine it. "One thing we probably have for sure is the moon" said Rin. "The moon?" asked Sesshoumaru. "Yup! Because where ever she is, if she's looking up at the moon, were looking at the same one" said Rin with smile. Sesshoumaru started at her like a child that just discovered the art of fire, he looked at her with new longing. "You know what Sesshoumaru-sama," said Rin looking up at him with a smile. "I don't feel lonely like I did before, even when I was surrounded by people I felt lonely, but now that I'm here with you, I feel like the word 'Lonely' never existed," said Rin. Sesshoumaru didn't say anything he just looked on in to the dark ocean, to be completely honest with himself, he never felt so good and complete with anyone as he did with her. His eyes came back to the surroundings when he saw Rin get up once more and run in to the water and laugh like a child. "Come on Sesshoumaru-sama the water is warm, it won't hurt you" said Rin. Sesshoumaru shook no and sat at his spot, that is until someone came and splashed water at him and ran laughing, He growled and caught up to her, he pushed her down gently and splashed the water all over her.
Rin laughed "That isn't fair you can't use your power!" she said as more water came splashing on her face. Sesshoumaru smiled as her skin gave a beautiful glaze from the wetness, her sheer nightgown now, showed him everything she bared. That's when it froze, time...He started down at her face, her body and she breathless from laughing. He brought his face just inches away from hers. "What magic is this?" he asked softly. Rin gasped as she felt his lips at her ear. "I don't know," she whispered back as her stomach felt strangely warmth. Sesshoumaru felt her fingers in his hair, running softly through his hair. "Your hair is so beautiful...your so beautiful" she whispered. [AN: If it was taking place during modern times I would have made her ask him what conditioner he used. Oh by the way this is *FAR* from the castle so nobody saw them, but if they did can you imagine the scandal!] Rin saw something different in his usual cold eyes, she didn't know which it was envy or desire, but maybe it was both. Sesshoumaru placed his head in between her shoulder and neck, feeling her bare skin on his cheek. Her skin to him was like the finest silk, and her hair was soft as a cloud that drifted in the sky. Rin gasped once more when she felt his tongue flicker over her shoulder. Her hands where entangled in his hair. Sesshoumaru wanted to taste her, which he couldn't hold back. His eyes met hers. He felt her tremble as he bent forward and brushed his lips against hers.
Rin gasped against the soft lips that covered hers. He was kissing her, she realized trying to still the wild beating of her heart. [AN: No shit!] She returned the kiss and parted her lips beneath his. She felt the strong arms, which surrounded her, tighten as he slipped his tongue into her mouth and gently slid it against her own. Rin's hands were now at the base of his neck, locking securely around his neck. Sesshoumaru's lips took all that was being offered to him, the sweet taste of her lips, she tasted like the wine she had just hours before, mix with a sweet honey, her scent was just intoxicating mixed with the flowers that fell around her. He felt her hands move from his neck to his chest rubbing it slowly, causing his body to heat up even more then it already was. Sesshoumaru grabbed her hands and trapped them over her head as his lips made their way down her jaws to her throat and in to the small dept of her neck. He licked her collarbone and then made his way down to the contour of her breast, he licked it a few times. The cool materials of her gown against his face made him release a small growl. He wanted her so badly. Rin let out a small moan when his lips were back on her neck again. The two were to wrapped up in their own little world all up until Sesshoumaru heard a distant cry. [AN: Forever disturbed!] He got up and looked or more like sniffed around. Rin was flushed but recovered quickly.
"Sesshoumaru-sama?" asked Rin forgetting for a second what happened between them. "Something isn't right," he said grabbing her around the waist and heading towards the castle. They arrived to find Kaneda's guards on the ground. They rushed inside. "What happened?" asked Sesshoumaru to Farga who was also running toward the sound of the scream. "I don't know, I heard a cry, I think it belong to Lady Sonomi," said Farga. "I'm going to go and check on Lord Kaneda and the children," said Farga. Sesshoumaru nodded as he and Rin ran faster. When they reached Sonomi's room they found Sonomi being held captive by a large Youkai guard. Sesshoumaru looked at the Youkai. "What do suppose your doing?" he asked. "I am taking what should be mine" said the Youkai. "Lord Sesshoumaru" whispered Sonomi. Rin stood by the door away in both shock and anger. "What is yours?" asked Sesshoumaru. "This beauty was mine, even before you came and took her from me" said the Youkai. Sesshoumaru narrowed his eyes on Sonomi's captive. "Release her, and you won't die a painful death" said Sesshoumaru. The Youkai laughed and then pulled her closer. "What can you do? She doesn't deserve you, you already have a toy to play with" said the Youkai looking towards Rin. Sesshoumaru growled and ran forward. The Youkai dropped Sonomi and moved out of the way. Sesshoumaru helped Sonomi to her feet, before she threw her arms around him. "Lord Sesshoumaru" she whispered as tears fell down her face, he wrapped an arm around her. Rin looked on with out any emotion visible on her face, but inside she was crying out.
Rin didn't feel the swift moment behind she was so occupied with watching the beautiful couple before her. It hit once she felt arms warp around her waist and pulled her roughly against a chest. Rin looked behind to see the large Youkai holding her with a smirk, her voice died out and she couldn't cry out. "I have your toy now, which would you pick the princess or this human girl?" he asked. Sesshoumaru noticed Rin's uneven breathing and turned towards her, that's when he saw the Youkai grab smile and her. Sesshoumaru growled furiously. "Let her go" he said. "She's mine now, it's not fair you get both of them" he said. Sesshoumaru narrowed his eyes on him once more. The Youkai ran a finger down Rin's cheek she's a beauty. I shall have fun playing with her," he said looking at Sesshoumaru with a evil grin. "I don't wish to play childish games with you" he said. Rin couldn't call out his name, or it was she didn't want to. She felt her captor's hold on her get tighter and soon they were fleeing through the open balcony doors. "Rin!" Sesshoumaru yelled, but she didn't answer she was just shocked. Sesshoumaru let Sonomi go and ran after the already disappearing bodies of Rin and her captive. *I'll kill that piece of shit, if he lay a hand on her* he thought as he ran faster on their trail.
TBC
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AN: Aahaha! I finished it! I finally finished chapter 11! Sorry that it took so long but I was in the hospital for two days and I didn't get much done after I came back home due the order of the doctor to have bed rest. Anyways chapter 12 will up soon if I don't sick again this year just sucks for me! We are coming close to the surprise of the story. Sorry for all spelling and grammar. PLEASE REVIEW!!! Thanks! ^_~