Waiting for Death


A/N: This is a companion fic to 'Counting the Dead'. This is from Ginny's POV.



He's here again.


He's standing there, in front of Professor Snape's grave.


It's where he always stands.


He never goes to Sirius's or Remus's. He never goes to Dumbledore's. He doesn't even go to Ron's or Hermione's.


Just Snape's. Always Snape's.


It's like he's waiting for someone.


Or something.


Now I will tell you what I've done for you

50,000 tears I've cried

Screaming,

Deceiving,

And bleeding for you

And you still won't hear me

....Going Under....

Don't want your hand this time

I'll save myself

Maybe I'll wake up for once (wake up for once)

Not tormented daily defeated by you

Just when I thought I'd reach the bottom


I move up to the gate, stopping just outside it.


It's like some invisible force keeps me out, but it's just me.


I saw them die. All of them. I was fighting beside them in every battle.


But I lived.


I look at Luna, then at Blaise. They know what I think of going in there.


I can't.


I... dive again

I'm going under (going under)

Drowning in you (drowning in you)

I'm falling forever (falling forever)

I've got to break through

I'm...going under


But someone needs to get him so that we can go someplace warm, some place that will stay dry in the coming storm.


There it is. The first warning peal of thunder.


We need to get him.


But Luna can't go in there, her parents are buried right next to where Harry stands.


But Blaise won't. Harry stands in front of his Head of House. And Snape was almost a father to him.


It'd be hypothetically better if I went, my family being buried a bit further back.


Blurring and stirring the truth and the lies

(So I don't know what's real)

(So I don't know what's real and what's not 2x)

Always confusing the thoughts in my head

So I can't trust myself anymore


I just can't make my feet move though.


I can't go in there.


Or else I'll be like him.


I... dive again

I'm going under (going under)

Drowning in you (drowning in you)

I'm falling forever (falling forever)

I've got to break through,

I'm, so go on and scream

Scream at me, so far away

I won't be broken again

I've got to breathe

I can't keep going under


Standing in front of my loved ones' graves.


Standing next to the empty one between Bill and Charlie.


Standing in front of my future.


Standing and not moving. Breathing but not living. Alive but dead.


My whole family is buried in there. I watched them all die.


I'm the only one left alive.


The only one...


The only one waiting here.


I... dive again

I'm going under (going under)

Drowning in you (drowning in you)

I'm falling forever (falling forever)

I've got to break through,

I'm, going under (going under)

Going under (drowning in you)

I'm going under


And I just can't go in there.


So we wait.


We wait here for Harry to turn and head our way. We wait for the pain to ease. We wait for our feet to let us move.


And as the sky opens and drenches us with Heaven's tears, we wait.


We wait here for Death.



A/N: Um.... yeah... Odd. But, that's me for you.