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Chapter seven: Confessions
Christmas break was quickly approaching, and the fifth and seventh year students were becoming anxious about the upcoming N.E.W.T.S and O.W.L.S.
"So Lils, what are you going over the holidays?" December asked as she read a copy of Witch Weekly.
"I guess going home and putting up with Petunia. I hear she has a new boyfriend," Lily replied.
"What about you?"
"I'm staying at Hogwarts, mum and dad are going to the States for business. I could go, but the weather there is so foul," December answered. "They have these crazy pillars of wind called tornadoes. And witches and wizards ride them on their brooms, it's called twister riding. All the rage," December explained.
Lily just rolled her eyes, December was probably the most traveled person she'd ever known. She'd talk about her adventures over the summer, she'd say that they were boring. Personally, Lily thought twister riding sounded like a lot more enjoyable way of spending the holidays then putting up with her snobby sister Petunia.
"If it's all the rage, why aren't you going," Lily asked December.
"Excitement just not there after the first couple of times," December said flatly.
The school year was flying by. Already December (the month). The school year was slipping through their fingers too quickly, they hadn't barely begun to realize the impact the end of the year would bring.
"Why are we sitting up here in the crampy dorm, why don't we go down to the common room," December asked anxiously.
Lily shot her an anxious look. Lily practically never left the safety of her dorm. After the whole ordeal with Mikel, she just didn't have the gall to face anybody. December and Beth had tried to be understanding, but they quickly realized that they would have to become recluses themselves to hang out with Lily on what they considered the normal level.
Lily dumping Mikel was the talk of the school. December's fly trap hex had been retold so many times, it now was said that Mikel was eaten by a man- eating plant, and rescued by Madame Pomfrey in barely the nick of time.
Mikel himself had written a pamphlet on his whole trying ordeal.
"How I Survived the Man-eating Plant, by: Gilderoy Mikel Lockhart Thatcher
He was pretty much over Lily, he was too busy impressing the younger girls with tales of his daring escapes. When Lily first came across this piece of literature, if it could be called that, she rolled her eyes and wonder what she ever saw in Gilderoy Mikel Lockhart Thatcher. While December had gotten her fill of torturing Thatcher, the Maunders apparently had not. Other than Severus Snape, he was their favorite victim.
"Lily, you can't hide up here forever!" December argued with her friend.
"I can try," she appealed.
"What? Are you afraid your going to run into Potter?" December asked.
Lily glanced at her and attempted to ignore the question.
James Potter was possible one of the main reasons Lily didn't want to leave her dorm room. She hated how she had behaved. He had rescued her from the Slytherins and she hadn't even muttered a thank-you to him. In fact she hadn't even so much as seen him since the night she decided to end it with Mikel.
She was intentionally coming to class late and making sure she was the first one out the door. She hadn't even tried to break up the last Quidditch party when Gryffindor beat Hufflepuff.
"Come on, I'm not going to let you rot away in this dormitory," December now said on her feet. She reached down and grabbed Lily by the arms. "Come on, get up!"
"NO! I'm perfectly content right here!" Lily spat.
"FINE, I'm going to go enjoy my life," December said sarcastically.
December left, and Lily knew she would not be returning until late. She pulled out her Ancient Ruins and Astronomy text books and began to study. She was on the verge of dozing off when she heard a strange noise near the door. She jumped, and stared in the direction of the intrusion.
There on the floor was an envelope, someone or something had slid it under the door. She got up and walked over to the open the door. She peered outside, nothing there. She looked down at the envelope and saw her name written in bright red letters.
"What in the world," she muttered. She bent down picked up the envelope and walked over to her bed.
Lily,
Meet me in the astronomy tower tonight around nine. It is really important that we talk.
P
Lily looked over at the clock on Beth's night stand, it was just turning eight.
"Who is P?" Lily asked herself. She was reluctant on going, but the more she stared at the letter the more her curiosity got the better of her. "What if it's a trap, what if it's the Slytherins were trying to get even with her," Lily thought to herself. "What if it's Mikel wants to corner me and win me back," she felt like vomiting at this thought. She couldn't think of one person who would sign a letter to her P.
She glanced at the clock again, it was now closer to eight forty-five. She let out a sigh, and grabbed her robe. She wasn't sure she should, but she was going to find out who this mystery penman was.
She walked quietly down the stairs, careful not to bring any attention to herself. She saw December sitting on Sirius's lap near the fire. Beth was on the floor next to them working on her broom. Peter was watching Beth patiently, he seemed to be entertained by her work.
Lily walked by the group silently, she made her way over to the portrait and disappeared into the darkness of the hallway. Her heart was racing, and her hand was holding her wand through her robes. She practically ran to the astronomy tower. She was almost ready to turn back, when she saw a shadowy figure enter into the tower just before her.
"Come on Lily, you can do this," she encouraged herself.
She climbed the tower stairs and looked around when she reached the top. Nobody was there, she walked over the edge of the tower wall and took a seat. Where was the person she had just saw come up here. Suddenly fear was creeping into to courage. She began to nervously look around.
"I didn't think you'd come," said a voice from behind her.
She turned around, and found herself face to face with James Potter.
James dark hair was blowing in the night wind, making it even messier than it normally was. His rimed glasses reflected the light from the night sky and caused a glare that hide his soulful eyes.
He looked different, older.
"James," Lily softy cried. She wanted to run.
They stared at each other, looking deep into the other familiar eyes. Lily felt lost, scared. She had never been so excited and frightened in all her life.
James couldn't believe she had come, he wasn't sure what had made him slip that note under her door. An hour ago he was prepared to confess everything to her, how he had wanted her since their first year. How he felt he would die if one more day went by without her in his life. But now, standing face to face with her, he was frozen.
Lily looked as if she was about to cry, she suddenly turned and started to run off, James reached for her hand, " please don't go."
She looked at him, he looked so handsome in the eerie moonlight.
"I have something to confess to you Lily Evans," he started.
His chest was racing and he felt his heart was going to explode. She didn't say a word, she just looked at him.
"I can't get you off my mind. You're the first thought I have in the morning, and the last thought I have before I go to sleep. You have no idea what you've done to me."
James stood there breathless, "I've never looked at a girl the way I look at you."
Lily was in shock. She felt her heart sinking down into her stomach and her eyes drowning in an ocean of salty tears. She wasn't sure if she was happy or upset. She didn't really know how she felt about James Potter.
"I realize," he continued, "that you don't feel the same way about me. I swear I'll never stop waiting for you, Lily, but if you want me to back away, I will," James finished.
She didn't respond. James felt like he was going to be sick.
He bowed down towards Lily and gave her a soft peck on her cheek, " good- bye Lily."
Lily was now about to drown in her own tears. She had never seen this side of James Potter.
She didn't want him to leave, she wanted him to stay. "James," she cried out.
He stopped, but didn't turn around. Lily felt her legs lift her weight and she found herself running towards him. She threw her arms around his neck kissed him. She tackled his so passionately his glasses fell off his face. He couldn't move. His leg, his arms every single part of him was numb. His mind was swimming so fiercely that he couldn't even focus on the beautiful red head he was holding.
He had never expected this, hoped for yes, but never expected. All those years of waiting, all those years hoping she'd give him a second glance. It was all worth it at this moment. This was right, and for that single moment in time, they both realized they were destined for each other.
James wasn't sure how long he was out there with Lily. Holding her, kissing her, just being with each her. A faint wolf cry pierced the perfect night. He looked down at her curtain of red hair and ran his fingers through it. He knew she had to go, the others would be here soon.
"Lily, it's getting late, you better get back," he whispered.
She looked at him and nodded. She didn't want to leave, but she knew she couldn't stay.
"Aren't you coming?" she asked.
"No, I have to stay," he kissed her.
"I'll explain everything soon," he promised.
She was confused, but didn't feel like asking questions.
"Here take this," he threw a silvery cloak over her shoulders. She noticed her body disappear beneath it.
"I'll see you in the morning," he smiled and gave a quick kiss and a nudge down the stairs. "Be careful."
She smiled back at him. Her insides were burning, and the warm thoughts of James Potter carried her all the way back to the common room.
She entered the common room, it was close to midnight. She forgot to remove the cloak from around her shoulders. She was glowing from head to toe. She was barely comprehending what just happened, everything seemed so unreal. Suddenly, she snapped back down to Earth. She smiled at the sight of December and Beth chatting by the fire.
"HEY GUYS," Lily shouted. She grabbed Beth's shoulder.
Beth let out a terrified scream, December just looked around the room puzzled.
It finally dawned on Lily, she still had on James cloak.
She removed the silky material from her head. Beth looked like she was about to pass out. The sight of Lily's floating head, was enough to make anyone a little light.
"Oh my god, are you dead?" Beth asked frantic.
"NO," Lily replied instantly.
"Than where in the hell is your body?" December swore.
Lily smiled and slipped the clock off her body and onto the floor.
"It's James's," Lily confessed.
"Did you steal it from him," Beth still not completely collected.
"I thought you were up in the room?" December added.
"No, he gave it to me, to borrow," Lily said sharply.
December's lip slipped into a evil grin, "you tramp!" she joked.
Lily felt her face go red, she knew December had caught the gist of what was going on, but Beth looked so clueless.
"James slipped me a letter under the door to come meet him tonight," Lily explained.
"Oh," Beth still confused.
"I didn't know it was him until I got there," Lily finished.
"Snogging take place?" December asked coolly.
"No," Lily said insulted, but her red face was telling a different story.
Beth let out a fit of giggles. December pushed her slightly and barked for her to grow up.
"So, where is the famous Potter?" December asked.
Lily's face suddenly turned into a frown, "I don't know."
"That's a little odd, a happy couple is formed, and you don't know where the other participating member is?" December replied.
"I mean damn it Lily, I have a lot of questions that he needs to answer," December demanded.
"I wasn't quite in reality December, he just told me he had to stay," Lily said with confusion.
"And you didn't ask why?" Beth interjected.
"Stay where?" December added.
"We were in the astronomy tower," Lily confessed.
"I knew it, snogging!!!" December joked.
Lily shot her a serious look, then blushed.
December suddenly got a look in her eyes, she was piecing something together.
"Sirius and Peter, just left right before you got back," December muttered. "I wonder?"
December ran up the stairs toward the seventh years boys dorm. She didn't even knock, she just peeked her head right on in. Before Lily could object to her behavior she was back on the couch announcing happily that Remus was also missing. Which wasn't unusual, he typically disappeared once a month.
"What are you hinting at?" Lily asked confused.
"Their off planning a Marauder prank," December said like it should have been obvious.
Lily stared at her in disbelief, but that didn't make sense. The look in James' eyes had told her it was something much more important than a prank.
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Chapter seven: Confessions
Christmas break was quickly approaching, and the fifth and seventh year students were becoming anxious about the upcoming N.E.W.T.S and O.W.L.S.
"So Lils, what are you going over the holidays?" December asked as she read a copy of Witch Weekly.
"I guess going home and putting up with Petunia. I hear she has a new boyfriend," Lily replied.
"What about you?"
"I'm staying at Hogwarts, mum and dad are going to the States for business. I could go, but the weather there is so foul," December answered. "They have these crazy pillars of wind called tornadoes. And witches and wizards ride them on their brooms, it's called twister riding. All the rage," December explained.
Lily just rolled her eyes, December was probably the most traveled person she'd ever known. She'd talk about her adventures over the summer, she'd say that they were boring. Personally, Lily thought twister riding sounded like a lot more enjoyable way of spending the holidays then putting up with her snobby sister Petunia.
"If it's all the rage, why aren't you going," Lily asked December.
"Excitement just not there after the first couple of times," December said flatly.
The school year was flying by. Already December (the month). The school year was slipping through their fingers too quickly, they hadn't barely begun to realize the impact the end of the year would bring.
"Why are we sitting up here in the crampy dorm, why don't we go down to the common room," December asked anxiously.
Lily shot her an anxious look. Lily practically never left the safety of her dorm. After the whole ordeal with Mikel, she just didn't have the gall to face anybody. December and Beth had tried to be understanding, but they quickly realized that they would have to become recluses themselves to hang out with Lily on what they considered the normal level.
Lily dumping Mikel was the talk of the school. December's fly trap hex had been retold so many times, it now was said that Mikel was eaten by a man- eating plant, and rescued by Madame Pomfrey in barely the nick of time.
Mikel himself had written a pamphlet on his whole trying ordeal.
"How I Survived the Man-eating Plant, by: Gilderoy Mikel Lockhart Thatcher
He was pretty much over Lily, he was too busy impressing the younger girls with tales of his daring escapes. When Lily first came across this piece of literature, if it could be called that, she rolled her eyes and wonder what she ever saw in Gilderoy Mikel Lockhart Thatcher. While December had gotten her fill of torturing Thatcher, the Maunders apparently had not. Other than Severus Snape, he was their favorite victim.
"Lily, you can't hide up here forever!" December argued with her friend.
"I can try," she appealed.
"What? Are you afraid your going to run into Potter?" December asked.
Lily glanced at her and attempted to ignore the question.
James Potter was possible one of the main reasons Lily didn't want to leave her dorm room. She hated how she had behaved. He had rescued her from the Slytherins and she hadn't even muttered a thank-you to him. In fact she hadn't even so much as seen him since the night she decided to end it with Mikel.
She was intentionally coming to class late and making sure she was the first one out the door. She hadn't even tried to break up the last Quidditch party when Gryffindor beat Hufflepuff.
"Come on, I'm not going to let you rot away in this dormitory," December now said on her feet. She reached down and grabbed Lily by the arms. "Come on, get up!"
"NO! I'm perfectly content right here!" Lily spat.
"FINE, I'm going to go enjoy my life," December said sarcastically.
December left, and Lily knew she would not be returning until late. She pulled out her Ancient Ruins and Astronomy text books and began to study. She was on the verge of dozing off when she heard a strange noise near the door. She jumped, and stared in the direction of the intrusion.
There on the floor was an envelope, someone or something had slid it under the door. She got up and walked over to the open the door. She peered outside, nothing there. She looked down at the envelope and saw her name written in bright red letters.
"What in the world," she muttered. She bent down picked up the envelope and walked over to her bed.
Lily,
Meet me in the astronomy tower tonight around nine. It is really important that we talk.
P
Lily looked over at the clock on Beth's night stand, it was just turning eight.
"Who is P?" Lily asked herself. She was reluctant on going, but the more she stared at the letter the more her curiosity got the better of her. "What if it's a trap, what if it's the Slytherins were trying to get even with her," Lily thought to herself. "What if it's Mikel wants to corner me and win me back," she felt like vomiting at this thought. She couldn't think of one person who would sign a letter to her P.
She glanced at the clock again, it was now closer to eight forty-five. She let out a sigh, and grabbed her robe. She wasn't sure she should, but she was going to find out who this mystery penman was.
She walked quietly down the stairs, careful not to bring any attention to herself. She saw December sitting on Sirius's lap near the fire. Beth was on the floor next to them working on her broom. Peter was watching Beth patiently, he seemed to be entertained by her work.
Lily walked by the group silently, she made her way over to the portrait and disappeared into the darkness of the hallway. Her heart was racing, and her hand was holding her wand through her robes. She practically ran to the astronomy tower. She was almost ready to turn back, when she saw a shadowy figure enter into the tower just before her.
"Come on Lily, you can do this," she encouraged herself.
She climbed the tower stairs and looked around when she reached the top. Nobody was there, she walked over the edge of the tower wall and took a seat. Where was the person she had just saw come up here. Suddenly fear was creeping into to courage. She began to nervously look around.
"I didn't think you'd come," said a voice from behind her.
She turned around, and found herself face to face with James Potter.
James dark hair was blowing in the night wind, making it even messier than it normally was. His rimed glasses reflected the light from the night sky and caused a glare that hide his soulful eyes.
He looked different, older.
"James," Lily softy cried. She wanted to run.
They stared at each other, looking deep into the other familiar eyes. Lily felt lost, scared. She had never been so excited and frightened in all her life.
James couldn't believe she had come, he wasn't sure what had made him slip that note under her door. An hour ago he was prepared to confess everything to her, how he had wanted her since their first year. How he felt he would die if one more day went by without her in his life. But now, standing face to face with her, he was frozen.
Lily looked as if she was about to cry, she suddenly turned and started to run off, James reached for her hand, " please don't go."
She looked at him, he looked so handsome in the eerie moonlight.
"I have something to confess to you Lily Evans," he started.
His chest was racing and he felt his heart was going to explode. She didn't say a word, she just looked at him.
"I can't get you off my mind. You're the first thought I have in the morning, and the last thought I have before I go to sleep. You have no idea what you've done to me."
James stood there breathless, "I've never looked at a girl the way I look at you."
Lily was in shock. She felt her heart sinking down into her stomach and her eyes drowning in an ocean of salty tears. She wasn't sure if she was happy or upset. She didn't really know how she felt about James Potter.
"I realize," he continued, "that you don't feel the same way about me. I swear I'll never stop waiting for you, Lily, but if you want me to back away, I will," James finished.
She didn't respond. James felt like he was going to be sick.
He bowed down towards Lily and gave her a soft peck on her cheek, " good- bye Lily."
Lily was now about to drown in her own tears. She had never seen this side of James Potter.
She didn't want him to leave, she wanted him to stay. "James," she cried out.
He stopped, but didn't turn around. Lily felt her legs lift her weight and she found herself running towards him. She threw her arms around his neck kissed him. She tackled his so passionately his glasses fell off his face. He couldn't move. His leg, his arms every single part of him was numb. His mind was swimming so fiercely that he couldn't even focus on the beautiful red head he was holding.
He had never expected this, hoped for yes, but never expected. All those years of waiting, all those years hoping she'd give him a second glance. It was all worth it at this moment. This was right, and for that single moment in time, they both realized they were destined for each other.
James wasn't sure how long he was out there with Lily. Holding her, kissing her, just being with each her. A faint wolf cry pierced the perfect night. He looked down at her curtain of red hair and ran his fingers through it. He knew she had to go, the others would be here soon.
"Lily, it's getting late, you better get back," he whispered.
She looked at him and nodded. She didn't want to leave, but she knew she couldn't stay.
"Aren't you coming?" she asked.
"No, I have to stay," he kissed her.
"I'll explain everything soon," he promised.
She was confused, but didn't feel like asking questions.
"Here take this," he threw a silvery cloak over her shoulders. She noticed her body disappear beneath it.
"I'll see you in the morning," he smiled and gave a quick kiss and a nudge down the stairs. "Be careful."
She smiled back at him. Her insides were burning, and the warm thoughts of James Potter carried her all the way back to the common room.
She entered the common room, it was close to midnight. She forgot to remove the cloak from around her shoulders. She was glowing from head to toe. She was barely comprehending what just happened, everything seemed so unreal. Suddenly, she snapped back down to Earth. She smiled at the sight of December and Beth chatting by the fire.
"HEY GUYS," Lily shouted. She grabbed Beth's shoulder.
Beth let out a terrified scream, December just looked around the room puzzled.
It finally dawned on Lily, she still had on James cloak.
She removed the silky material from her head. Beth looked like she was about to pass out. The sight of Lily's floating head, was enough to make anyone a little light.
"Oh my god, are you dead?" Beth asked frantic.
"NO," Lily replied instantly.
"Than where in the hell is your body?" December swore.
Lily smiled and slipped the clock off her body and onto the floor.
"It's James's," Lily confessed.
"Did you steal it from him," Beth still not completely collected.
"I thought you were up in the room?" December added.
"No, he gave it to me, to borrow," Lily said sharply.
December's lip slipped into a evil grin, "you tramp!" she joked.
Lily felt her face go red, she knew December had caught the gist of what was going on, but Beth looked so clueless.
"James slipped me a letter under the door to come meet him tonight," Lily explained.
"Oh," Beth still confused.
"I didn't know it was him until I got there," Lily finished.
"Snogging take place?" December asked coolly.
"No," Lily said insulted, but her red face was telling a different story.
Beth let out a fit of giggles. December pushed her slightly and barked for her to grow up.
"So, where is the famous Potter?" December asked.
Lily's face suddenly turned into a frown, "I don't know."
"That's a little odd, a happy couple is formed, and you don't know where the other participating member is?" December replied.
"I mean damn it Lily, I have a lot of questions that he needs to answer," December demanded.
"I wasn't quite in reality December, he just told me he had to stay," Lily said with confusion.
"And you didn't ask why?" Beth interjected.
"Stay where?" December added.
"We were in the astronomy tower," Lily confessed.
"I knew it, snogging!!!" December joked.
Lily shot her a serious look, then blushed.
December suddenly got a look in her eyes, she was piecing something together.
"Sirius and Peter, just left right before you got back," December muttered. "I wonder?"
December ran up the stairs toward the seventh years boys dorm. She didn't even knock, she just peeked her head right on in. Before Lily could object to her behavior she was back on the couch announcing happily that Remus was also missing. Which wasn't unusual, he typically disappeared once a month.
"What are you hinting at?" Lily asked confused.
"Their off planning a Marauder prank," December said like it should have been obvious.
Lily stared at her in disbelief, but that didn't make sense. The look in James' eyes had told her it was something much more important than a prank.