Author's Note:

Am I boring you guys???

I hope this chapter will be better. :) lol.

The car pulled into the driveway of the condos and unloaded everyone. 

Julie went to the Front Desk to get Keys and things.

3 hours later…They were all sitting by the swimming pool.

Julie sat poolside and wrote in her diary.

~~~Julie's Diary~~~

I feel really weird about Dean.  We kissed the other day and it was so amazing.  I mean for a minute I could actually see myself 'being' with him.  I guess that scares me.  I mean he is DEAN!  He is like my best friend for one, but another thing is he seems like the heartbreaking type of guy.  I don't want to go add myself to his list of women.  (I KNOW he has a 'little black book'.)   I mean I know I play it off and stuff but he gets to me.  I don't know what to do.  On a nonsexual level, I really care about him.  And I want the best for him.  And on the sexual level…well let's be honest, he is brutally hot!  How could I not be attracted to him.  I don't know what to do.  I mean it is fun to have 'fun' with him, but that is not the kind of relationship that I want with him…

Oh geez, I don't know what to do!

~~~ End Entry ~~~

"Hey Jules!  What cha doin'?"  Averman asked.

"Nothing anymore."

"Does anyone want food…Besides Goldberg?" Jules asked.

"HEY!  That's not funny!"  Goldberg shouted from the pool.

"Hahahah, Yeah it is man!"  Fulton said.

"I will send out some food."

"Where are you going Jules?"  Asked Dean.

"I am going to go for a little hike."

"Right on."

"You want to join me?" She asked.

He looked around.  Looked up at the sky…

"You don't have to if you don't want to!"

"No!  I want to."

*****

They walked up and around on the little island in silence most the time.

She led them to her favorite lookout point. 

They stood there for a long while just looking out at the ocean, the colors of the water, and the colors of the sky reflecting off the water. 

"Is the silence killing you yet?"  Dean asked.

"Yes!"

She let out a long sigh.

Dean sat down on the ground and patted the spot next to him for her to sit.

She took the offered spot gladly.

Dean was sick of the silence too, but he didn't know where to start.

"I guess I should start…but I am not sure where to." He said finally.

"I know.  Me either…."

She waited a few more seconds then spoke.

"Dean, I know things are changing between us…"

"Yeah."

"Do you want them too?"  She asked.

He was looking out to the scenery but now he switched his gaze to meet hers.

After a long while he finally spoke.

"I don't want to ruin our friendship.  Your friendship means more to me than anything in the whole world.  You make me want to be a better person.  I am happy when I wake up in the morning, because I have you.  You make me want to do well in school, you make me want to do more with my life than hockey."  His gaze broke from hers.  "Sure hockey is great, but if I don't want to play hockey for the rest of my life, I would need to be educated.  You make me WANT that.  I used to not care.  Hockey was a legal way of beating people up, and it was so awesome because I am a big guy, so I could do lots of damage and not get in too much trouble for it.  But now, I don't feel like I want to hurt people just for the sake of hurting people."  He looked back up into her eyes and said, "I don't want to loose what we have.  You mean so much to me."

"Wow, Dean, I had no idea I had such an effect on you.  I don't want things to be messed up either.  I guess I am afraid that I would just turn into another one of your girlfriends, and that is the last thing I want, because you mean a lot to me too.  As a friend, I love you so much." 

"I love you too Jules."

She stood up and started a short pace in front of where Dean was sitting.

"So what are we going to do?"

Dean stood up.

She continued, "I mean what if we screw everything up?  Things can't go back to the way they were before, but they can get better.  But what if we loose it all?"

Julie said shaking her head back and forth.

Dean caught her head in her hands and looked deeply in her eyes. 

"You are worth the risk."  He said simply and kissed her deeply.

She let herself be kissed by him.  He lowered his hands from her face to her waist, and closed her in his embrace.  She felt powerless in his embrace, but she let her self go.  It would be all right, as long as she had Dean's love.