Title: Lost Chances
Chapter 2
Author: JAGfreak
Disclaimer:* dodges bullets from angry shippers everywhere* Come on guys.I DON"T OWN JAG I SWEAR!!!! Blame Bellisorrya$$ for the mess it's become.
A/N: I use a little of the last of the second eppy..to kind of portray what I think Mac was thinking(that was kinda confusing, lol) as she walked away from Webb's hospital room after overhearing that Harm is going to fly planes for the CIA.
ENJOY~ and remember, As for as this story is concerned..I'm on top! Lol.(You got that DPB??!?!?! ))
Outside of Webb's hospital room (Mac's POV)
What? What did I just hear Harm say? ...*listens to Clay and Harm talk* hears a woman's voice* Who's that?...*realizes* ...Catherine Gayle...she's .she's the one who's "married" to Harm.*mouth gapes open* I can't believe it. Did she have to be so darn beautiful? It wouldn't have made me so angry if the woman he "married" wasn't so dang attractive....
Pilot for the CIA? He is working for the CIA now????I try to choke back the emotions threatening to surface..he's gone ..he really is gone. I feel so alone...I don't talk to my best friend anymore, I've ruined any chance for a relationship with the only man I'll ever completely love..
I'm such a fool...I can't move on,.. when I was the one who suggested it in the first place.
Harm has left me, JAG, his career and everything he's grown accustomed to behind...and he's doing just fine. He'll stir things up with Webb at the CIA just like he did at JAG..become respected..be successful....have a new partner..*the thought is enough to suffocate her in her own self-pity* *tries vainly to keep her emotions under control*
The truth is...I underestimated Harm. I thought that he would come back to JAG, and he would want to talk to me..want to work something out with "us". I would keep turning him down, meanwhile shoving the fact that Webb beat him to it in his face every time he would see us together..until eventually, he would just let go of everything and take the final step to make me certain...without any doubts..what he really felt for me.
I realize now how selfish that assumption really was..but I can't pretend it's not what I wanted to happen.
I feel so out of the loop now..they're Harm's new family..new co- workers...what does that make me?
The confusion, emotion, and pain is written all over my face as I turn and start to leave the hospital.
A few days Later JAG HQ Law Library (Mac's POV)
(Do you miss him, Ma'am?)
That question keeps repeating itself as I skim through more of Harm's files. I sneak a glance at Bud, lost in a case file across the table. What's gotten into me??? Why couldn't I just own up to the fact that I miss him?? I mean..everyone does! It's hard not to...the things that annoyed you the most about Harm are the things you find yourself missing the most..
I miss the way he was always late to the meeting for assigning cases, I miss the disregard to rules he often demonstrated in court. I miss the playful and sometimes annoying banter and the way he could get under my skin. I miss his arrogance and his "can't touch this" attitude.I miss all his little pet peeves and how he had to have everything his way. I miss his vegeterian antics and the playful jabs at my food intake.*sigh* ....I do miss him...
I know why I denied it though....I want to prove that I've moved on too. That I don't need his flyboy grin to get me through the day..but none of that is working...b/c I realize that before I can convince others, I need to convince myself.
THE END for now Tell me what u think by reviewing please! I'd love to hear from you!!!
Chapter 2
Author: JAGfreak
Disclaimer:* dodges bullets from angry shippers everywhere* Come on guys.I DON"T OWN JAG I SWEAR!!!! Blame Bellisorrya$$ for the mess it's become.
A/N: I use a little of the last of the second eppy..to kind of portray what I think Mac was thinking(that was kinda confusing, lol) as she walked away from Webb's hospital room after overhearing that Harm is going to fly planes for the CIA.
ENJOY~ and remember, As for as this story is concerned..I'm on top! Lol.(You got that DPB??!?!?! ))
Outside of Webb's hospital room (Mac's POV)
What? What did I just hear Harm say? ...*listens to Clay and Harm talk* hears a woman's voice* Who's that?...*realizes* ...Catherine Gayle...she's .she's the one who's "married" to Harm.*mouth gapes open* I can't believe it. Did she have to be so darn beautiful? It wouldn't have made me so angry if the woman he "married" wasn't so dang attractive....
Pilot for the CIA? He is working for the CIA now????I try to choke back the emotions threatening to surface..he's gone ..he really is gone. I feel so alone...I don't talk to my best friend anymore, I've ruined any chance for a relationship with the only man I'll ever completely love..
I'm such a fool...I can't move on,.. when I was the one who suggested it in the first place.
Harm has left me, JAG, his career and everything he's grown accustomed to behind...and he's doing just fine. He'll stir things up with Webb at the CIA just like he did at JAG..become respected..be successful....have a new partner..*the thought is enough to suffocate her in her own self-pity* *tries vainly to keep her emotions under control*
The truth is...I underestimated Harm. I thought that he would come back to JAG, and he would want to talk to me..want to work something out with "us". I would keep turning him down, meanwhile shoving the fact that Webb beat him to it in his face every time he would see us together..until eventually, he would just let go of everything and take the final step to make me certain...without any doubts..what he really felt for me.
I realize now how selfish that assumption really was..but I can't pretend it's not what I wanted to happen.
I feel so out of the loop now..they're Harm's new family..new co- workers...what does that make me?
The confusion, emotion, and pain is written all over my face as I turn and start to leave the hospital.
A few days Later JAG HQ Law Library (Mac's POV)
(Do you miss him, Ma'am?)
That question keeps repeating itself as I skim through more of Harm's files. I sneak a glance at Bud, lost in a case file across the table. What's gotten into me??? Why couldn't I just own up to the fact that I miss him?? I mean..everyone does! It's hard not to...the things that annoyed you the most about Harm are the things you find yourself missing the most..
I miss the way he was always late to the meeting for assigning cases, I miss the disregard to rules he often demonstrated in court. I miss the playful and sometimes annoying banter and the way he could get under my skin. I miss his arrogance and his "can't touch this" attitude.I miss all his little pet peeves and how he had to have everything his way. I miss his vegeterian antics and the playful jabs at my food intake.*sigh* ....I do miss him...
I know why I denied it though....I want to prove that I've moved on too. That I don't need his flyboy grin to get me through the day..but none of that is working...b/c I realize that before I can convince others, I need to convince myself.
THE END for now Tell me what u think by reviewing please! I'd love to hear from you!!!