Stopped by Fear

Disclaimer: I don't own Kingdom Hearts

Rating: M

Warnings: Slash

Set: pre-KH

Chapter Two - Dreams

Riku stepped up to Sora. He hesitantly lifted his hand up to cup Sora's perfectly round cheek. Sora closed his eyes and leaned into the contact. Riku brought his face closer to Sora's and their lips met in a dance of pure bliss. Riku swept his tongue along Sora's lower lip, and Sora opened his mouth with a whimper.

Riku gently tasted the inside of Sora's mouth. He tasted like a tropical fruit wrapped in velvet warmth.

An angel, Riku thought groggily. He moaned and tried to get more from Sora's mouth. He wrapped his arms around Sora's neck and felt small lithe arms go around his waist. hands falling on his ass, pressing them together and causing friction between their bodies.

He moaned and turned over opening his eyes, realising that it was just a dream. He almost screamed in frustration. Where was his courage? Couldn't he just go after Sora? What was holding him back from Sora's embrace?

Fear, whispered a voice. Fear, he thought bitterly. I am not afraid! Today would be a day of strength. He thought about what he could do. Direct? Subtle? He sighed and pushed a hand through his hair. He didn't think... whatever he was feeling would be so difficult.

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After a quick shower and some food, Riku was standing near their raft, looking at what they had done and what they had left to do. He was considering making it wider - it really wasn't big enough for all three of them - when he heard soft footfalls behind him.

"Hey," came the gentle softness of Sora's morning-voice.

"Hey, Sora, just woke up?" Riku asked with slightly-forced cheerfulness. Sora was really cute in the morning.

"Yeah," came his sleepy reply. Sora yawned and stretched, the fabric of his clothes stretching to reveal those muscles again. He lowered his arms and glanced at Riku.

Those eyes... thought Riku, you could just loose yourself in those pools of blue...

"Huh?" he asked as he realized Sora was talking to him. Sora laughed his rich laugh and Riku smiled. He couldn't be sad around Sora anymore.

"I asked what you were doing," Sora said.

"The same thing you are," Riku shrugged. He saw a little smile flit across Sora's face as though he had said a joke. There was a small silence, then Sora started talking again.

"So what were you thinking then? Is the raft ok?"

"Yeah its fine, but we might need to make it a little bigger to accommodate all of us." he replied.

"And do we have enough stock?" Sora asked.

"Yeah we'll be fine," Riku said, wondering why Sora was making small talk.

"So why are you still here?" he asked cheekily.

"I've got nothing better to do," Riku replied, realising how much he was lying. He had something which he should be doing which was much more interesting.

"Hey, Sora!" came a shout, just as Riku opened his mouth. It was Tidus, waving at Sora from above them. "Come up here, there's something I want to show you in the shack!" Sora looked at Riku, who raised an eyebrow at him. Sora blushed and yelled up "Just a minute!"

He looked at Riku

"I'll be back," he promised.

Riku sighed

He was sitting there for about five minutes, staring into the water. He was thinking about the exact shape of Sora's lips, how the looked like a bow, and how they were always smiling. A smile of his own was spread across his face when a call distracted him.

"Riku!" he looked up sharply. Sora was waving to him from the watchtower. He beckoned to Riku and disappeared behind the edge of the rail. Riku got up and ran to the watchtower, thinking that Sora was running away. He jumped off the ladder and ran into something that had chocolate-brown on top.

"Whoa!" Two voices cried as Riku fell over and landed on something soft. "Shit sorry Sora I didn't mean to run into you I didn't see ya the-"

"Hey slow down buddy," came Sora's muffled, but still laughing voice from underneath him. Riku slowly pushed himself off Sora, already missing the close contact. He really needed Sora, he realised. When he was kneeling beside Sora, they stared at each other for a while. We seem to do this a lot, he thought absently. Sora blushed slightly and Riku's eyes narrowed. Why did he blush so much around Riku?

"So." Riku started, "That was remarkably quick, no?" he enquired. Sora blushed harder and said,

"We were just having a little talk."

"Sure, Sora," Riku said, looking at his fingernails.

"We were!" Sora protested. "What did you think we were doing! Fu-" Riku put his hand over Sora's mouth.

"I believe you," Riku said softly. They stared at each other for a while more before Riku decided to lie down next to Sora. They sat there for a moment, just staring at whatever they could.

"..."

"..."

Riku was thinking about what he was about to do. How could he phrase this? He was pondering what to do when a warmth crept into his hand. He twitched his hand away sharply, suspecting it to be something unpleasant, only to find he had just dropped Sora's hand.

Oh no oh no oh no! he thought. Sora sat up abruptly.

"Sorry," he said before storming off. Riku tried to get his throat muscles working but by the time he called out to Sora he was too far away to hear. He could see the younger boy running towards his house with a hand over his eyes.

How did I manage to fuck that up! he demanded of himself. That was perfect! He groaned and curled up into a ball, covering his face with his hands.

Things were looking bad.

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A/N: this is all moving way too fast...But at the moment, all I'm doing is fixing spelling, grammar and formatting errors, so that's okay. If I get some more reviews dunno if anyone's reading it then I'll continue it, otherwise I might be reluctant.

Snake