Madeline's pov, this is sort of a tag to Four Light Years Farther, but I haven't seen it, so I am kind of making up my own version of Madeline's "suicide". The song is Kissing You, by Des'ree. If everyone likes it, I was thinking of writing a "sequel" in Paul's pov. ~Nicole~
~~Pride can stand a thousand trials
The strong will never fall
But watching stars without you
My soul cries~~
Day after agonizing day, we drag ourselves through our meaningless lives. Accepting our fate, not arguing with it no matter how much abhorrence we have for what we've become. The face I display shows no emotion, it has been carved out of stone, in no way changing. Emotions are a risk here, they can certainly get you killed. Rather, we show no mercy, manipulate and do as we are told. Following the rules, is by far the only rule. People die, daily I watch their wretched faces, twisting in agonizing pain. Powerful men scream, begging for their pathetic lives. The thought itself sends a sharp chill up my rigid spine. Each day I wonder when it will end. Will it be my day to face death? Sometimes I can only wish death was near, it would be plenty less painful than living this despicable life.
~~Heaving heart is full of pain
Oooh, oooh, the aching
'Cause I'm kissing you, oooh
I'm kissing you, oooh~~
And I say it, "Paul." His name on my lips puts me at ease, thinking of him calms my mind and I usually push on. If it were not for him, I would have ended it by now. Yet, here I am, clasping a vile of poison. A poison that will taste sweet on my tongue, an escape from it all. I glance at the worn out picture in my hand and feel as though I am betraying him. Venice, the Fall; he is holding me in his arms and smiles grace both our young faces. I close my eyes and recall everything; vibrant colors surround us and I remember every sound and smell. It was when everything was still so innocent, as were we. When the world wasn't cruel, and we were happy. It is unimaginable to think that we were once smiling, laughing and holding one another. I smile tenderly at the memory, slowly opening my eyes, but the smile fades abruptly.
~~Touch me deep, pure and true
Give to me forever
'Cause I'm kissing you, oooh
I'm kissing you, oooh ~~
I look down at my shaking hand and slide the silver ring of my finger, reading the inscription. To My Madeline, Forever I'll Be Yours. While blinking back burning tears I place the ring and tattered picture in an envelope. I set it on his desk and before I turn away, I barely audibly whisper, "I love you."
~~Where are you now
Where are you now
'Cause I'm kissing you
I'm kissing you, oooh~~
~~Pride can stand a thousand trials
The strong will never fall
But watching stars without you
My soul cries~~
Day after agonizing day, we drag ourselves through our meaningless lives. Accepting our fate, not arguing with it no matter how much abhorrence we have for what we've become. The face I display shows no emotion, it has been carved out of stone, in no way changing. Emotions are a risk here, they can certainly get you killed. Rather, we show no mercy, manipulate and do as we are told. Following the rules, is by far the only rule. People die, daily I watch their wretched faces, twisting in agonizing pain. Powerful men scream, begging for their pathetic lives. The thought itself sends a sharp chill up my rigid spine. Each day I wonder when it will end. Will it be my day to face death? Sometimes I can only wish death was near, it would be plenty less painful than living this despicable life.
~~Heaving heart is full of pain
Oooh, oooh, the aching
'Cause I'm kissing you, oooh
I'm kissing you, oooh~~
And I say it, "Paul." His name on my lips puts me at ease, thinking of him calms my mind and I usually push on. If it were not for him, I would have ended it by now. Yet, here I am, clasping a vile of poison. A poison that will taste sweet on my tongue, an escape from it all. I glance at the worn out picture in my hand and feel as though I am betraying him. Venice, the Fall; he is holding me in his arms and smiles grace both our young faces. I close my eyes and recall everything; vibrant colors surround us and I remember every sound and smell. It was when everything was still so innocent, as were we. When the world wasn't cruel, and we were happy. It is unimaginable to think that we were once smiling, laughing and holding one another. I smile tenderly at the memory, slowly opening my eyes, but the smile fades abruptly.
~~Touch me deep, pure and true
Give to me forever
'Cause I'm kissing you, oooh
I'm kissing you, oooh ~~
I look down at my shaking hand and slide the silver ring of my finger, reading the inscription. To My Madeline, Forever I'll Be Yours. While blinking back burning tears I place the ring and tattered picture in an envelope. I set it on his desk and before I turn away, I barely audibly whisper, "I love you."
~~Where are you now
Where are you now
'Cause I'm kissing you
I'm kissing you, oooh~~