0_o Well, due to the lack of my entertainment, I decided to sit down and write some more...Quite honestly, I'm writting to see how this is going...I don't know really, but I don't plan to end it in the usual way...**sighs** how I miss the Mary Sue humor...Ok, first off, I love this fanfic: I think the humor in it is great! And Buddha help me from my boyfriend who wants to figure out my bra size...**sighs angerly**

This chapter is for all the hopless romantics XD! PART-AY! Oh, one more thing, here is my anime message board:

Second, read about Vlad the Impaler, dammit...Do it! Or your going to be confused as hell...really.

Third...Beware of some OOC minutes..Im sorry!!

Night seemed to grow darker as the hours passed on. The Hellsing Mansion stood proud against the gentle night breeze. Whereas, Alucard stood with an almost peaceful, amoric expression on his fate. There was no large grin or spiteful glare apoun his face...He looked handsome for a change.

"Well, Police Girl," he said to her calmly more than usual. "You certianly thought this out." Alucard stood there for a moment waiting for her to say something again. "Please don't go, Master!" She clutched his arm and tugged down on it. "Please don't leave me like you always do." Seras blinked realizing tears were almost falling down on her soft cheeks as she held his arm to her chest. Oh, how she wished he would stop playing with her and finally be blunt about his real intentions. "Please...please stop avoiding me..." She quietly sobbed into his arm. As he looked down on her, his mocking ego never faded, but somehow he was even over come with guilt for his young vampire. She was completely devouted to him, wanting his affection or some kind of attention from him. Even Alucard was lost for words right now.

"Give me some courage
Beating me down now for some time
Are you laughing am I funny?
I hate inside,
I hate inside..."

The words floated into Seras' head, as she hoped he wouldn't mock her. Alucard then finally muttered something to her. "You can't let your silly emotions get to you," He watched her shoke as she cried deeply into his arms. "See what you've become with them?" She choked and she replied under her teary voice. "But I don't care...I just want you to notice me." So, this is was his mocking wrath he had shown down apoun her. Alucard gently removed her from his arm and lowered his head to her own eye level.

"Don't torture yourself, Seras," He said as he held her shoulders. "Emotions are not worth wrecking yourself over." Seras looked at him with watery, stained-red eyes. "...I can't...like...you have," Seras sallowed and once more added "Just listen to me, please!" Alucard shoke his head quietly. "It would be best if you stay here to clear your head." But Seras continued her inner struggle. She grasped his hands and held them against her chest. Alucard looked even more hesitant to stay with her. "You can't just leave me...not now," She thought as she peered into his ruby eyes as they looked back into her own. "You don't have to explain yourself, Seras," He said to her in the same spot he found himself eariler. "I already knew about...this." Seras stopped calmly for a few seconds. "Then, why...why have you ignored me, Master?"

"My heart's breaking
Man you really ripped it out
You take pleasure watching as
I claw my way out
The hurt rising
Soon it's gunna to tear my soul out
It's not kosher feeling like I'm on my way out"

Alucard stood there, searching for the answer within himself to answer her properly. "Your just doing it to mock me," Seras said to him pushing away his hands. "Inflating that rediculous ego of yours." She was so blind before..but she saw through more and more. Alucard stood unmotionless. He narrowed his eyes as the anger dance across his face. "Its true," The pins of words struck her. "I do mock you, but its not out of hate nor spite." Seras pulled away and turned to his back. "Your massive ego is just a cover up of those bitter memories long ago! You know it too!" She shouted at him as he slowly turned toward her. "But this is no reason to treat me like dirt, some who cares for you, like this!" Seras took her fist and slamed it into her palm. "Did you treat every woman like this near you?!" Her bold question struck a nerve in Alucard.

"NO!" Alucard thundered at her but Seras remained standing with her bitter look. "No, I didn't," He snarled. "I would never treat my wife like dirt." He folded his arms across his chest. "But that would be none of your damn business." Seras folded her arms in a similar way and glared at him like wise. "Even if it was, I don't want to hear about it," She said flatly to him. "I bet she was more lucky than I."

"Suppose your right, Police Girl," He resumed his mocking fashion. "But thats not the truth about her..." Seras releaved her glare and brought forth a less angry look. She wanted him to admit what he did to her...and why she wasn't a vampire herself. "No, I drove her to her slow insanity," He said to her carefully "Becuase of my emotional protection, for her safety. You see now why emotions are useless?" Seras stepped a couple steps to him and replied finally. "On the contrary, Master, they have kept my love for you. And thats why I am still here."

Perhaps he had skimmed through her questionable loyality to him and never realized it until now...what he could be looking for was there. Seras, however was detirmined not to let him leave her until he understood fully that her feelings were vaild and real too. But the akward silence drifted between them. Alucard's domineering ego and mocking tone seemed to fade and was replaced with a man, paniced about his past.

"Y'know," Seras began, by removing her sweater and throwing it on the neighboring chair and walked around the room. Alucard watched her carefully. "I was hoping when I got into the D-11 unit to help people, and honor papa's death...but, its gone now..I will never gain that chance. Its hard to loose a father. But for a person who loses their whole family, I can't utter the words to replace those pains." She waited for Alucard to say something, but his same defensive postion stood. "But there's nothing you can do to change that," Alucard finally replied, avoiding her eyes. "You can't dwell apon it forever."
"But also, you can never hide yourself behind the factless facade." Seras said to him.

Alucard unfolded his arms. Seras stood quitely, dusting off her shirt. "So," Alucard changed perspective and looked at her. "What do you want from me?" Seras sighed deeply and replied. "I want you to know I am here and I care for you." Oh, no...Seras hoped she wouldn't screw up this moment. But the more Seras held him at bay, the more he seemed to soften back to the placid look on his face. "Is this why your so upset?" He asked to her. "You want me to particpate more?" This is why she was so weary...She yearned for his guiding hand. Someone to comfort her. But she knew well to of his bitter rage, and his seek of redmeption.. Perhaps its common ground? Tears rolled down onto Seras' cheek again. And her thoughts of him leaving her with a pointless riddle scared her. "I just...need you...I do...Please understand," She smiled at him with her tears splashing little by little from her face. "You mean so much to me." Alucard's position stood from the moment he walked in to her...Seras sobbed even more when she realized he wouldn't move. The mocking wrath was still there...after all this time, the confromtation was useless...a waist of time.

But something miraclous happened...

Seras found herself envolped in his arms. She flinched. "What...are you doing?" she asked. But he stood, tightening his grip apon her...No, he's Integra's loyal servant...She was his disiple of the darkness...He wouldn't show any affection towards her. Alucard himself couldn't belive it either...The things he preached about emotions drifted off...But his memory of his little, loyal wife, with her bright blue eyes, in his arms. Just like Seras. Alucard bent his lectures, and forgot about his self-denial in simple emotions...It was worth it to make her feel secure.

"Your a strong girl, Seras," He spoke her name again. "Your best quality is your deterimination...your selflessness." His arm wandered to the back of her head. Seras clutched his red jacket. "T-thank you, Master." she smiled faintly as she nestled into his arms. He bent down to her forehead and kissed her lightly on the cheek. Seras could feel like she was 14 again...being kissed for the first time...But would it be the only form of affection he showed her. "Please...come closer," She whispered to him softly. "Please."

Kakakakka, cliffhanger! Finally, I got to the fluff...**beams** Worth staying up till 12:30 to do...I have school tomorrow too...

Ok, tell me what to add...0_o really...I mean it...

Umm, thanks for the reviews and dont kill me...please.

Ok, the breif lyrics in the fanfic were from Korn's "Bottled Up Inside" from Untouchables...this song played a great influence in this chapter...!