Someday, Somewhere
Disclaimer: I ........ do........ not.......own..........Inuyasha...morons. im kidding AAAH GO AWAY.......AAHHHHHH *getting attacked*
A/N: Okay......hopefully this chapter will be much longer and stuff.....now I know what alot of you are probley thinking....that Im rushing their relationship into the story too early.....heehee thats what YOU THINk....im telling you theres alot of twists and turns in the story.....for instance the next chapter...just read. By the way PLEASE dont flame me for my grammar, spelling, or lack of writing in story format.(im a professional script writer....not very good at story type writing but im trying.) Anyways with that said read one....and oh yeah its my first INUYASHA fanfic....i have written 11 other fanfics ^^^ (mainly YuGiOh haha dont ask) and lastly....MIROKU AND SANGO ROCKS! M+S!!!!!!
Note: This Chapter contains alot of Drama
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Chapter 5: Here Is Gone
And i dont need to fall out
of all the pass thats inbetween us
And im not holding on
and all your lies werent enough to keep me here
..I want to be free
Talk to me
I can feel you falling
I wanted to be
All you need
Somehow here is gone.
Sango was on her bed, staring at the ceiling. It was Sunday night and Sango was busy trying to remember her History notes for her quiz tomorrow. ' I hate school ' Sango thought. She sighed then rolled over. Alot was going through her mind. For one...what had happened late Saturday afternoon. Sango sat up, thinking over about what happened. *Flashback*
Sango was out in the rain. She just stood there not knowing what to do. A couple of cars passed by, which caused her to get splashed more and more each time. She looked down. Her eyes glared from her tears that were forming. ' Be strong Sango. Dont be a baby. You dont cry because of pointless crap like this..' She tried to keep her tears in. She didnt want to cry, but she did. She was forcing herself to be strong and forget, but its hard to forget things like this, when your a girl. ' I am a girl. Im not some kinda boy but damn I wish I was. ' Sango thought to herself. Just then another car had come by only didnt splash her. ' Huh? ' She thought. Instead this car stopped. She recognized the car alright. It was that shiny black car she had seen throughout the whole day. ' ...Miroku? ' Miroku got out of his car and handed her an umbrella. "Are you crazy?"
"Quite frankly..why? Just noticed?" With that Sango practically threw the umbrella back at Miroku and walked off. Miroku stood there with one eyebrow raised. "What?" Miroku ran up to her.
"Hey! Whats your problem?!" He yelled out angrilly. He didnt understand what was her problem. He came there because he was worried about her. Strangly enough.
"Why did you come? What do you want?"
" I came here because...well I thought you would be cold and so I brought you an umbrella. "
Sango stopped walking and stood there. She turned around to reveal her mad face.
" Because you thought I was cold? HA! You make me laugh Miroku! You really do. " She proceeded to walk again. Once again, Miroku followed.
" What? I dont get you! I dont get you at all! Im trying to be nice! Do you want me to be mean to you?!"
" Hmph! Sure why not. All your other friends dont seem to care! Why are you being nice to me? Is this some kinda sick joke? Oh wait. Why am I even asking! Arent you friends with Kanayto afterall?! "
This comment caused Miroku to get furious.
" You dont even know Kanayto! In fact you dont know the facts. Kanayto may lose his head from time to time but hes a good guy! I know him! In fact he called because he was worried about you! Betcha didnt know that did you? "
" He was worried? HAHAHAHA! What a joke! He seemed way too occupied with the other girls to even notice me. I think when he called you he was drunk or high....You know I hate people like him how stupid of me to have said yes to him! How stupid! I decided to give him a chance...but it was a lie a fake. Im just somekinda doll to be toyed with am I?" She stood there leaving a confused as hell looking Miroku.
"...You have a big mouth Sango. Ha. And I thought you were quiet. I mean sorta. You know what I wanted to get to know you Sango....I did. Really. Thats why I asked you for your name. I wanted to be your friend. But now.....I see why people dont like you so much. Not only are you a big joke in general but your personality is a joke! I thought you would be nice....but your not. I can see why people pick on you twice as much as they already do! " Miroku looked pissed Sango looked even more furious like she was about to punch Miroku very very HARD.
".....Im mean? Well Im oh so sorry IM so mean and Im so hated. Your waisting your time Houshi Sama, your telling me things I already know! I know Im a loser, I know Im not wanted, I know half this damned school hates me and yet you are telling me this useless shit because.....WHY? Hmm I dont know. You want to get to know me? And I thought I was the big joke ha! Why would YOU want to get to know ME!"
Miroku just stood there. They were fighting. Why? What just happened here. Miroku didnt understand but his angered face just turned to a frown.
" Why do I want to get to know you? Because.....you remind me of someone." His face seemed rather sad and he looked into the sky...which seemed to get darkened. Sango noticed it too. It was becoming night. Also the rain had stopped. Both of them were so busy arguing they didnt notice.
" I remind you of....someone? Okay. Who? "
" A friend. A very good friend. Look, I know you dont know me very well and vice versa. You know you think IM popular and stuff huh. " Sango's expression was almost too funny.
" ...Oh my god. you think. You got me! "
Miroku sweatdropped.
" Okay okay. I get it but you know I wasnt ....ALWAYS like this. My friend way back then she was alot like you. Not very fitting in and didnt have much friends or reputation at school. I was her friend though. For a long time...."
Miroku's voice trailed off. Now he seemed to be almost so sad he could be holding back tears. Sango moved closer and listened. " And..."
Miroku let out a sigh.
" She and I.....were good friends forever....then we entered Middle School together." miroku found a curve and sat while Sango followed watching Miroku and sitting about half a foot away from Miroku.
" Well you know middle school. Over the summer alot changed. I was a regular guy nothing special but suddenly I was interested in well.......girls. I changed alot. I dont think my personality changed too much but me overall did. Style and all. However she was still some loser to everyone. I felt bad. Then.....I did the impossible. " Sango was so into the story now. She moved a bit closer to hear him clearly and was anticipated to know what had happened. "O...kay."
" I..I blew her off. I mean I dissed her. I dont know why or how but everyone else did it. STupid I know you dont have to tell me but then....it was a regular thing. At first I just avoided her a bit. Then I started totally avoiding her and eventually didnt see her anymore. It was awkward. Our parents were so close that every once in a while our families would have dinner together. Whenever we did. I felt awkward. I knew what I did was wrong and well I didnt care much at first. I mean she had been my friend for a long time but as they say....we all change....we all move on eventually. Eventually she had no friends. Well at least not much very few. As for me, I was on the track to total popularity. I was happy I must admit I asked out girls and when I think they would reject me, I found out they would blush and giggle. Hmm...it was odd. Then that summer.....something happened." Miroku looked the other way from Sango. Sango didnt know what happened but she could sense the hurt in him. " Miroku? You dont have to go on. " Sango looked around her noticing the crickets chirping and the moon showing brightly. At this time the rain had completely stopped and the night was chilly. Miroku inhaled and exhaled then looked out in front of him. He continued. " Then.....I found out she had gotten into a car accident." Sango knew what he was gonna say next. She felt herself become sad also. " ....as you could probley tell...she didnt make it. " Miroku looked away again trying to hide his tears. Miroku was strong not to mention a guy. He didnt want to be all sensitive around Sango. " Im so sorry Miroku." Sango wanted to extend her arms out to hug him or something to comfort him but she didnt have the guts to she put her hands by her side and looked down. She didnt understand though. What did this girls tragedy have to do with HER? " I couldnt believe it. I felt awful more than that. She was my friend even though I let my selfish jackass ways that year pull me in. I couldnt believe it." Miroku looked over at Sango. He could sence her sadness and sorrow for him. "Thats not it though. " He said drawing Sango's attention. ' Theres more? How could there possibly be more? ' She looked at him and listened. Miroku once again turned to look up at the sky. " See I found out about a month later......the real truth. She didnt die of a car accident. " Sango moved just a little closer trying to figure out what he was gonna say next. " She didnt? "
" no....She commited suicide. " Sango really could feel the hurt in Miroku and in herself as well. It wasnt like her to be sensitive but deaths are not things to be taken as toughness of. She put her hands to her mouth. " Oh.....Im sorry. Thats horrible. "
" I know. That just killed me even more. For one thing. I found a poem that she had written me. " ' A poem? ' Sango thought. " Really? w-what did it say? " Sango stuttered feeling a bit awkward asking that question. " I mean you dont have to tell me if you dont want to " Before Sango could say anything else Miroku took a piece of paper out. " here...." he handed her the paper. " Read..." ' he kept her poem in his pocket? He must really cared for her. ' She looked at Miroku who she noticed getting up. " Read it. If you dare." He got in his car and got his engine on. " Miroku....where are you going? " He looked at his steering wheel not laying his eyes on Sango. " Home..where else. I see a car where your house is.....is that not your aunt? " Sango looked back to see a woman come out of her car from the driveway. " Oh.....well thanks Miro." She got cut off. " Listen....dont thank me because your probley forced too. And Sango. Me and you......we are very different arent we. I promise not to bother you if yu just stay the hell away from me "
" Huh? "
Miroku just stared at out the front window while Sango was staring hard at Miroku trying to puzzle together what he just said to her
" Yeah....you know I thought you were different. You are. Who cares. Anyways dont tell people or go bragging off to your little friends that I was here or anything. I felt sorry for you okay. Ill try to get Kanayto to lay off of you and all. Just avoid contact with him. Anyways I guess Ill see you at school ... or maybe not. Best if I dont. ...loser.." Miroku put on a smile....a very fake smile.
You and I got something but its all and then its nothing to me
Yeah.
And I got my defenses when it comes to your intensions for me
yeah
" WHAT?!" Sango was trying to comprehend what he was saying
' What the hell is his problem all the sudden?! '
" Whats your problem? What are you talking about! "
" YOU AND ME ARE NOT TO BE SEEN TOGETHER IN PUBLIC, PRIVATE OR ANYTHING!" He said very slowly as if Sango was special ED or something.
" WHAT....PART OF THAT DONT YOU UNDERSTAND? HELLO! LOSERGIRL? ME I AM TOTALLY DIFFERNT FROM YOU LISTEN I DONT WANT YOU TO GET THE WRONG IDEA BABE....you got your uh....so called LIFE and I got mine.....Lets leave it at that. " With thats said he vroomed away splashing Sango yet again with the water from the rain.
" WAIT MIROKU!!!!!!" She yelled at him..
And we wake up in the breakdown in the things we never thought we could be
Yeah
Im not the one who broke you
Im not the one you should fear
' UGH!!!!!!! THAT FREAKIN ASS!!!!!! UGH I HATE BOYS!!!!!!!!! ' She took her piece of paper that Miroku gave her then looked at it. She slowly opened the folded up piece of paper. It read....
(we got to move you darling
i thought i lost you somewhere
but you were never there at all.....)
I see you I hear you
I can breath and I feel you
I cant explain the fears
I dont know how to form the words
Its like an empty box containing a hole
No more things of thoughts that can be explained.
You knew me but you hurt me and threw me away
I didnt know why but it would always rain.
My heart would thump and Id lose my mind
Its hard it hurts and your hard to find.
I thought I loved you but I was too blind
To tell you or let you read my mind.
Would you return the feelings?
Now its too late
I dont know how we met
But I thought it was fate
One day I would ask you If you see me
Do you see me now? Perhaps not.
Im not a flower nor an appliance
Nothing pretty, nothing useful
I dont seem to fly or shall be pink
No, Im not special, Im not pretty.
If Id be ever a butterfly
Not possible, for Im not beautiful
If so or not be a cup
Yes, perhaps. Trapped inside
Just a flowing, red liquid.
Nothing less nothing more.
Maybe less but nothing more.
You dont understand and you never will
Why I feel an angst inside me
You tore me up and burned me alive
You will never understand but you did?
YOu used to tell me I was something
Something that only you could see
How could you could you kill me off
How could you just leave me
Tonight I plan on being alone
For I know you will never know
This blood, this fountain that forms
This scar is soon to show.
Damn you to hell for what you did
But that line will be erased.
Im sorry I wasnt what you wanted
I thought you didnt care
It doesnt matter now anyway
But I want you to know I love you still
Thats right I said. I love you
From the soul of my heart I love you
no more tears, Im sorry Im gone now forever
Forget to forget me my Miroku.
....And I want to be free
talk to me
I can feel you falling
I wanted to be
All you need
Somehow here is gone.
The Flashback Ends.
Sango is still on her bed trying to recall that night. Where everything felt like hell. She placed her right hand on her heart and started to press against it. Her heart was aching again. Recently it had been unusually achy. Her heart pained. She didnt know why. It was like a bad stomache ache you felt like you were being shoved into a can or something but then it went away quickley. She closed her history book and got ready for bed. ' Stupid baka. Forget about him ' With that said Sango closed her eyes and tucked herself in thinking about...what tomorrow would bring.
NEXT CHAPTER! This chapter was abit drama and sad......but the next chapter is back to school and full of suprises! READ!!!! What happens between miroku and sango? FIND OUT.