Note: Disclaimer still applies and for the next several chapters, the
format will be that each chapter starts with a journal entry from Hyde and
then reaction from Jackie. Enjoy!
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No matter what we get out of this I know we'll never forget Smoke on the water, fire in the sky.
"Smoke on the Water" by Deep Purple
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I went to the prom yesterday. With Jackie Burkhardt. What in the hell was I thinking about? I mean she looked hot, but she's Jackie!
Damn. I wish I would have just told her no. It makes me seem like I have a heart or something. And I don't.
There's just something about that girl that makes me want to protect her. She's so freaking young. And Kelso is an ass. But that's no news.
She was really beautiful. But still. I went to the prom. With a cheerleader. I don't care that she ended up with Kelso and I ended up in the back of her dad's car with Pam Macy. I went with her. I went for her.
I think I need a toke.
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I laughed at that entry. It was near the beginning. A lot of the journal was about how the US government was out to get him. But every now and then there was stuff that actually happened. Sometimes he would let his guard down.
That's Steven's biggest problem, he never lets his guard down.
I remember that prom. I remember being devastated that Michael hadn't asked me. But Steven, he went with me. I know I kind of cried and made him feel bad, but he didn't have to take me, but he did.
That's when my whole relationship with Steven really started. I mean, I never really confided in him until that night. After that I just naturally started going to him. It probably wasn't fair to him. And I would probably regret how I treated him while I was dating Michael as I read more, but that is when it started.
I guess that's when it started for him too. Because he said he wanted to protect me. Even Michael didn't protect me like Steven did.
And I never saw it.
But he can't protect me from this. Because he did this. He hurt me. And I want to hate him. Because he, of all people, knows how what he did affects me.
But it's worse this time. Because Steven is more than a high school sweetheart. I love Steven. And I thought that was enough. I thought I could deal with the lack of trust he had in me. I didn't realize it was me who would need to be less trustful.
"Read on Burkhardt," I said to myself.
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No matter what we get out of this I know we'll never forget Smoke on the water, fire in the sky.
"Smoke on the Water" by Deep Purple
*
I went to the prom yesterday. With Jackie Burkhardt. What in the hell was I thinking about? I mean she looked hot, but she's Jackie!
Damn. I wish I would have just told her no. It makes me seem like I have a heart or something. And I don't.
There's just something about that girl that makes me want to protect her. She's so freaking young. And Kelso is an ass. But that's no news.
She was really beautiful. But still. I went to the prom. With a cheerleader. I don't care that she ended up with Kelso and I ended up in the back of her dad's car with Pam Macy. I went with her. I went for her.
I think I need a toke.
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I laughed at that entry. It was near the beginning. A lot of the journal was about how the US government was out to get him. But every now and then there was stuff that actually happened. Sometimes he would let his guard down.
That's Steven's biggest problem, he never lets his guard down.
I remember that prom. I remember being devastated that Michael hadn't asked me. But Steven, he went with me. I know I kind of cried and made him feel bad, but he didn't have to take me, but he did.
That's when my whole relationship with Steven really started. I mean, I never really confided in him until that night. After that I just naturally started going to him. It probably wasn't fair to him. And I would probably regret how I treated him while I was dating Michael as I read more, but that is when it started.
I guess that's when it started for him too. Because he said he wanted to protect me. Even Michael didn't protect me like Steven did.
And I never saw it.
But he can't protect me from this. Because he did this. He hurt me. And I want to hate him. Because he, of all people, knows how what he did affects me.
But it's worse this time. Because Steven is more than a high school sweetheart. I love Steven. And I thought that was enough. I thought I could deal with the lack of trust he had in me. I didn't realize it was me who would need to be less trustful.
"Read on Burkhardt," I said to myself.