// Working on the night moves/Trying to make some front page/Drive-in
news/Working on the night moves/In the summertime/In the sweet summertime
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"Night Moves" by Bob Seger and the Silver Bullet Band
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I've been making out with Jackie basically the whole summer. Jackie Burkhardt. I think the US government came and planted a chip in my brain that made me want to grope and kiss Jackie. Because it's unnatural and bad. Even Jackie thinks it's bad and dirty. But damn man, it's a good time.
Foreman chased Donna to California, which makes me laugh. Jackie totally burned Foreman to cover up the fact that we were making out in the Foremans' kitchen. That made me laugh harder. After I was done making out with Jackie of course.
Luckily Jackie doesn't want to act like she's my girlfriend. I mean, I like kissing her. I mean, really like kissing her. She's got these perfect lips for kissing. Our first kiss had been great. The one on the hood of her dad's car. But they keep getting better. I can almost understand why Kelso put up with her for years now. Almost. She's that good. At kissing. I haven't gone all the way with her or anything. C'mon, she's Jackie. Not some nameless girl. Shit, I'm not supposed to have a conscience.
I don't have a conscience. It would just be really strange if I slept with Jackie. She'd get all clingy and it would make things all weird when Kelso gets back. I don't need that. So it's not my conscience. I just don't want to get too involved.
But I could fool around with Jackie all day long. In fact, I have fooled around with Jackie all day long.
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What was this? Did he honestly think reading this would make me want to get back together with him? If so, he is more delusional than I ever thought. Yeah, it's nice to find out I'm a great kisser and that Mr. Cool couldn't keep his hands off of me, but really, this is Steven pretending he doesn't care about anything all over again.
Or maybe he really doesn't care. Maybe he is cold and he doesn't have a conscience, maybe he doesn't have a heart.
But on the other hand, Steven might have been trying to convince himself that nothing was really between us at this point. I mean, we were going to stop fooling around at the end of the summer. We agreed on it during one of the few times we actually talked during the summer. We didn't need to talk.
It wasn't that we only made out. We watched re-runs and we hung out every now and then. We just didn't need to talk. It was kind of like our first date. I can just sit with Steven and be quiet. With Michael there always needed to be noise. Maybe it had something to do with his short attention span and my constant fear that he was fooling around behind my back.
It struck me how weird my relationship with Steven was. I mean, after writing about our first date, Steven barely mentioned me at all. He said something about how much he hates it when Michael and I were around. He made a few comments about how I was a stuck-up brat. But for the most part there was nothing. And that's pretty much the truth. We went from a quick flirtation to semi-friends to a hot summer fling.
I think during the summer I wanted Steven to be the rebound guy. I never really dated or anything any of the other times Michael and I broke up. I would go on dates, but no heavy fooling around or anything. It was weird, because every other guy I had ever kissed I automatically compared to Michael. But it wasn't like that with Steven. Every time I kissed Steven I just compared it to the last time Steven and I had kissed. And they kept getting hotter, more intense. I guess he felt that too.
It wasn't much of a relationship. But it was fun. Maybe I shouldn't be so mad that Steven let me see this entry. I mean it's close to how we both felt at the time. Maybe he will redeem himself. But only for this entry of course, because I can't forgive him. I know all too well, cheaters cheat.
"Night Moves" by Bob Seger and the Silver Bullet Band
*
I've been making out with Jackie basically the whole summer. Jackie Burkhardt. I think the US government came and planted a chip in my brain that made me want to grope and kiss Jackie. Because it's unnatural and bad. Even Jackie thinks it's bad and dirty. But damn man, it's a good time.
Foreman chased Donna to California, which makes me laugh. Jackie totally burned Foreman to cover up the fact that we were making out in the Foremans' kitchen. That made me laugh harder. After I was done making out with Jackie of course.
Luckily Jackie doesn't want to act like she's my girlfriend. I mean, I like kissing her. I mean, really like kissing her. She's got these perfect lips for kissing. Our first kiss had been great. The one on the hood of her dad's car. But they keep getting better. I can almost understand why Kelso put up with her for years now. Almost. She's that good. At kissing. I haven't gone all the way with her or anything. C'mon, she's Jackie. Not some nameless girl. Shit, I'm not supposed to have a conscience.
I don't have a conscience. It would just be really strange if I slept with Jackie. She'd get all clingy and it would make things all weird when Kelso gets back. I don't need that. So it's not my conscience. I just don't want to get too involved.
But I could fool around with Jackie all day long. In fact, I have fooled around with Jackie all day long.
*
What was this? Did he honestly think reading this would make me want to get back together with him? If so, he is more delusional than I ever thought. Yeah, it's nice to find out I'm a great kisser and that Mr. Cool couldn't keep his hands off of me, but really, this is Steven pretending he doesn't care about anything all over again.
Or maybe he really doesn't care. Maybe he is cold and he doesn't have a conscience, maybe he doesn't have a heart.
But on the other hand, Steven might have been trying to convince himself that nothing was really between us at this point. I mean, we were going to stop fooling around at the end of the summer. We agreed on it during one of the few times we actually talked during the summer. We didn't need to talk.
It wasn't that we only made out. We watched re-runs and we hung out every now and then. We just didn't need to talk. It was kind of like our first date. I can just sit with Steven and be quiet. With Michael there always needed to be noise. Maybe it had something to do with his short attention span and my constant fear that he was fooling around behind my back.
It struck me how weird my relationship with Steven was. I mean, after writing about our first date, Steven barely mentioned me at all. He said something about how much he hates it when Michael and I were around. He made a few comments about how I was a stuck-up brat. But for the most part there was nothing. And that's pretty much the truth. We went from a quick flirtation to semi-friends to a hot summer fling.
I think during the summer I wanted Steven to be the rebound guy. I never really dated or anything any of the other times Michael and I broke up. I would go on dates, but no heavy fooling around or anything. It was weird, because every other guy I had ever kissed I automatically compared to Michael. But it wasn't like that with Steven. Every time I kissed Steven I just compared it to the last time Steven and I had kissed. And they kept getting hotter, more intense. I guess he felt that too.
It wasn't much of a relationship. But it was fun. Maybe I shouldn't be so mad that Steven let me see this entry. I mean it's close to how we both felt at the time. Maybe he will redeem himself. But only for this entry of course, because I can't forgive him. I know all too well, cheaters cheat.