Part 1
he is a god in my eyes--
the man who is allowed
to sit beside you -- he
who listens intimately
to the sweet murmur of
your voice, the enticing
laughter that makes my own
heart beat fast. If I meet
you suddenly, I can't
speak -- my tongue is broken;
a thin flame runs under
my skin; seeing nothing,
hearing only my own ears
drumming, I drip with sweat;
trembling shakes my body
and I turn paler than
dry grass. At such times
death isn't far from me
"Daniel.No.NO!" I cry out as I see my lover crumple to the ground in a heap next to the DHD.
It was meant to be a routine mission: just a standard meet-and-greet. How did it all go to Hell so quickly? I should have been more alert. I didn't even see the Jaffa patrol until it was too late. Much too late.
Now it may have cost Daniel his life. I've gone numb. Shock I think. I don't even remember returning through the gate. If it weren't for Carter's quick thinking, I'd have died on that planet. I can't believe I did the exact thing I promised myself I wouldn't do when we got involved. I froze up. I saw Daniel go down with that staff blast and I froze. I couldn't do a thing. All I could think of was that I'd failed to protect him. That he could die.
God.Danny don't die on me.I need you too much. I...I love you.Please don't leave me, you're my world.my, everything. I can't even think about living my life without you.
A week before the mission to P3X-277 we celebrated our four year anniversary.
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// "Jack, can I open my eyes yet?" Daniel complained as I led him into the house. "No. Just be patient will you, I promise you will like it. Careful.step up.okay, you can open your eyes now," I told him once we had reached the bedroom. "Jack you trying to tell me something here?" he asked with a seductive smile. "No. Stop thinking with your dick and get changed and showered. By then I should have everything ready. And no peaking! Don't come out until I say otherwise, okay?" I chastise my mischievous lover gently. "Can I at least have a kiss? You've been holding out on me for weeks," he said, pouting. "Oh. I think I can manage that," I smiled as I moved in closer so our bodies were pressed tantalizingly close. We stood there for what seemed like hours just staring at each other's faces and lips before either of us moved. Finally, having enough of watching Daniel's beautiful face, I moved in and gently covered his lips with mine, keeping the first kiss slow and gentle. I can never get enough of him. I love his unique taste and that he always tastes of coffee. I slowly brought my hand up to cup the back of his neck as I deepened the kiss. Soon the kiss turned hungry, lust driven, and I pulled back to stare into his beautiful blue eyes and gasp in a lungful of oxygen as my lungs started to protest. I brought my hand around to cup his flushed cheek in my calloused hand. "I love you Daniel," I told him, staring into his lust-darkened eyes and kiss- swollen lips. "I love you too, Jack," he said softly while staring intently at my face. "Come on, go have a shower and get changed and call me when you've finished. Okay?" I stepped back, dropping my hand back to my side. "Okay, but I told you before I hate surprises," he grumbled. "Trust me. You'll like this one," I promised him as I backed out of the room. h From the bedroom, I went into the lounge room and set about lighting the large fireplace, which took up the far wall of the room, along with several vanilla scented candles that I had placed around the room to set the mood.
I had been planning this for weeks. I had everything perfect. The table was set with a deep maroon tablecloth with a set of three white dinner candles sitting in the centre. I had also set the table with the fine china dinner plates that I had acquired after my divorce from Sara. I also placed a small metal bucket full of ice for the wine off to the side. I had the lights turned off so the room was bathed in the warm glow of the fireplace and the candles setting the romantic mood perfectly.
For dinner I had prepared steaks with Diane sauce, baked vegetables, and chocolate mousse and strawberries for desert. I had spent ages trying to get them just right; I'm a pretty good cook. Don't tell anyone though, or I'll be made to cook on all the missions, and I don't cook unless I have to or I have the motivation. Tonight it's the latter. Daniel's all the motivation I need.
I checked dinner, which was almost cooked; about another fifteen to twenty minutes left, and threw a quick glance around the room to make sure everything was in place and ready for the evening. I also quickly checked my pant's pocket to make sure I had my gift to Daniel, which thankfully had been finished that afternoon. I'd been worried that it wouldn't be ready for tonight but, thankfully, it had been.
"Jack, I'm finished. Can I come out now?" I heard Daniel call out through the bedroom door. "Aht. Stay there. Wait till I come in there," I called as I walked over to the bedroom door. "Close your eyes while I come in." "Fine my eyes are closed. You can come in now." "Don't peak," I warned him as I enter the room and walked up behind him so my body was pressed flush against his back while I removed his glasses, put them in my pocket, then placed my hands over his eyes so he couldn't see anything. "Okay, start walking forward slowly," I whispered into his ear, causing a shiver to run through his warm body as I led him into the lounge room. Once there I removed my hands from his face so he could see what I'd done to the room. I replaced his glasses so he could see better before I wrapped my arms around his broad chest and hugged him close to me, getting him to lean back and rest his head on my shoulder as he let his eyes wander around the room quietly admiring what I'd done to the place.
"Wow, Jack you did this for me?" he asked with his mouth and eyes open in amazement. "Yes, I did. Do you like it?" I asked as I leant down and kissed a trail down his neck to his collarbone. "Yes.I.love it Jack. Thank you," he said, turning around to face me. "Good," I said quietly, admiring the view. Daniel had worn tight black jeans, and a dark cobalt blue turtleneck sweater that brought out the blue of his eyes. "I love this, you went to a lot of trouble," Daniel gestured behind him with one hand while his eyes gently roamed over my body. I had dressed casually in a tan pair of lose fitting slacks with a light brown v-necked sweater. "You look really good Daniel," I told him, commenting on his choice of clothing. "Thanks, you look very handsome too," he replied and walked into the room. "God. Jack, what smell's so nice? I'm starving; I.forgot to have lunch," Daniel admitted. "Can we eat now?" I walked over to the CD player and put on some soft music. "A bit impatient aren't we Danny? Dinner's still got a little while longer before it's ready. Do you want a glass of wine while we wait?" 'Sure,' he replied as I went into the kitchen to get us both a glass of red wine.
When I got back to the lounge room with our drinks I sat them down on the coffee table, held out my hand to him. "May I have this dance?" I asked him as a slow song came on. "Id be honoured, Colonel," he smiled, grasped my hand and rose to his feet.
My love,
There's only you in my life.
The only thing that's bright.
As the song starts to play gently I pulled him close against my body, placing my arms firmly around his waist as we started to slowly sway to the music. I felt him reach up and place his arms around my neck, before pulling in closer to me to rest his head on my shoulder.
My first love,
you're every breath that I take.
You're every step I make.
As we gently sway to the music, I listened to the words of the song, thinking of how they rang true for us. We had been together for four wonderful years now. I don't think I've ever loved someone this much in my life, not even Sara. I loved her, but there's just something about Daniel that just wants to make you open up to him and spill your guts.
And I,
I-I-I-I-I,
I want to share,
all my love with you.
No one else will do.
That's true there will never be anyone but you for me, Danny.
"Jack, I like this. Just being able to be with you. We don't get to be together like this very often," he whispered against my chest, before looking up and gazing into my eyes. "What the romantic dinner for two?" I grinned at him. "Well no . yes, I mean just being together. Just being Jack and Daniel not Colonel O'Neill and Doctor Jackson." I know what he means. I like being able to do stuff as a couple and not just team mates. "Yeah, I know. I like it too, Danny." I bent down and placed a feather light kiss onto the top of his head.
And your eyes,
your eyes, your eyes,
they tell me how much you care.
Oooohh yes, you will always be,
my endless love.
As the song continued its soft melody I gazed into his blue orbs. It's true what they say about the eyes being the windows to the soul. You can tell so much about a person just by looking into their eyes. I love Daniel's eyes they are the deepest blue I have ever seen and I could easily get lost in their depths.
As we slowly danced together, I listened to the gentle voices of the music, just letting them wash over me.
Two hearts,
two hearts that beat as one.
Our lives have just begun.
Forever,
Ohhhhhh...
I'll hold you close in my arms.
I can't resist your charms.
Who would have thought that an old Air Force Colonel like me would love dancing? I'd never live it down if any of my people found out - not that Danny would tell them - but it'd ruin my image. Though at the moment I don't care. I just love the feeling of freedom that moving around dancing with the man I love gives me.
And love,
oh, love,
I'll be a fool,
for you.
I'm sure,
you know I don't mind.
Oh, you know I don't mind.
I never realised how true this song was for us, I've heard it a million-and- one times but I've never really listened to it.
'Cause you,
you mean the world to me.
Oooohh...
I know,
I know,
I've found in you,
my endless love.
Oooh, and love.
Oh, love,
I'll be that fool,
for you.
I'm sure,
You know I don't mind.
Oh you know,
I don't mind.
As the song started to fade out to a stop I gently brought my right hand up to cup his chin, making him look up at me, before I leant down to capture his lips with mine in a sweet, tender kiss.
And, YES,
You'll be the only one.
'Cause no one can deny,
This love I have inside.
And I'll give it all to you,
My love,
My love, my love,
My endless love.
Once the song had finished, we pulled apart and walked back to pick up our wine glasses. "You know, Jack, we should go dancing more often. Your really good at it," Daniel said before taking a mouthful of wine. "Where? We can't exactly go to the normal place couples go can we?" I asked between sips of wine. "We could always go to one of those clubs in Denver.you know the ones," Daniel explained matter-of-factly or even seductively. "Yeah, okay, if we get some time off next weekend we'll go. How's that?" I asked him. "Okay. So when's dinner going to be ready?" "Ah, it should be ready," I said as I walked into the kitchen with Daniel close behind me.
I checked dinner and seeing that it was ready I serves it out onto two plates, before refilling our now empty glasses and sitting everything on the table. I pulled out Daniel's chair before sitting down to eat. "Getting sappy in your old age, Colonel?' he teased. "You better believe it! But lets keep it secret. Wouldn't want to ruin my reputation now would we?"
We ate our dinner in companionable silence just enjoying each other's company and celebrating our four years together. "Oh God! Where did you learn to cook? That was fantastic!" Daniel commented. "Can't go giving out all my secrets now can I?" "No, I suppose you can't," he replied, grinning back at me. "Care for some more wine, Daniel?" I asked him. "Sure. Why don't we move this into the lounge room?" he suggested, getting out of his seat and moving out of the kitchen. "Thanks for doing this, we never really get to spend a lot of quiet nights in, just the two of us, with no interruptions," Daniel said, sitting down on the lounge and gesturing for me to sit down next to him so he can cuddle up next to me. I like this. The cuddling and just generally being together. I could live without the sex, though the sex is really good. If I ever lost this small intimacy I don't know what I'd do. As it is we don't get to do it nearly enough, what with work and spending time with the rest of the team. I think I'm going to have to make sure we do this more often. So I tell him as much.
"Daniel, I got you something for our anniversary," I said, pulling back from him a bit so I could see his face. "Jack, I though we agreed that we weren't exchanging gifts this year." "Well, we weren't, but I've been meaning to get this for awhile and now seemed like as good a time as any," I said as I reached into my pocket and pulled out a small box, which has my gift in it. "Daniel, I love you. I always will. I don't see myself ever being in another relationship. I consider us being forever. I want to spend the rest of my life with you. Growing old together. You are the best thing that has happened to me. After Sara left me I thought I'd never fall in love again," I admitted, pausing to gather my thoughts as I looked up into his eyes. "After that first trip to Abydos, I felt something for you. It wasn't love. Not then. But it didn't take long for me to fall head over heals for you. I guess what I'm trying to say is. will you marry me? I don't even know if two guys can get married, but, well, I wanted something to show our commitment to each other. Even if you don't want to get married I got these rings to show how much I love you." I removed the two gold bands from the small jewellery box the jeweller had placed them in.
Kneeling down in front of him I took his left hand in mine and placed one of the rings onto his ring finger. Looking up into his eyes I softly asked, "Doctor Daniel Melburn Jackson, will you marry me?" "Yes, Jack, I will marry you. And yes, two guys can get married, not legally but yes, we can get married," he replied, happily flinging his arms around my neck and pulling me into a heated kiss, conveying his love for me through that small gesture.
When we pulled apart he looked into my eyes that were shining brightly through unshed tears. "Jack, I do love you. Don't ever doubt that. I want to spend the rest of my life with you. I want to grow old with you, not worrying about anything but being happy," he grinned broadly then suddenly looks shy. "Look at me, I'm turning into a big sap." He roughly brushed at his eyes to remover the moisture that had started to form there.
"You? A sap? Never. Besides, I'm the one that's gone sappy on you. Look at this. I don't think you're sappy and besides, it's allowed once in awhile," I said, breaking into the serious mood. "Yeah, I'll give you that, you old romantic," Daniel laughed lightly. "Oh.did you get a ring for yourself?' he suddenly asked, looking at me. "Of course." I pulled the matching band out of the small box and passed it to him. "It's got an inscription on the inside," I explained as I showed him what it said.
"Jack . My Heart . My Soul . Forever . Daniel," he read out loud. The inscription was done so there was no beginning and no end to it so it read 'JackMyHeartMySoulForeverDaniel'. "Yours is the same only the Jack and Daniel bit are around the other way," I told him.
Once he had inspected the ring he grasped my left hand placing the ring on my ring finger before leaning down to plant a chaste kiss on my lips.
"Why give me the ring now? Why not wait till we get married?" he asked me quietly. "I wanted to give you something as a token of my love for you and to be honest I wasn't sure if you would say yes. So I thought I'd give you the ring now and we could take them off say a few days before the wedding and exchange rings then as well," I answered him, looking down at the band around my finger.
"Of course I'd say yes, Jack, I love you!" he replied, pulling me from where I was knelt at his feet so I could sit next to him on the lounge.
"Jack what about work? We can't wear them there. If were caught with them on they'll figure out about us," Daniel asked worriedly. "Don't worry about that. Wear it always. If we're caught out I'll retire. So we wear them all the time," I told him looking into his eyes and seeing all the love the man held for me. Sometimes I wonder what I ever did to get so lucky. "I love it Jack, and I'll wear it all the time."
"What about the wedding? When are we going to do that?" he asked me. "Soon. In a couple of weeks maybe, depending on our schedules. But we can discuss this tomorrow. Right now, do you think we could fit a short field trip to the bedroom into our schedules?,' I tell him as I stand up and hold out my hand for him to take. Daniel mutters under his breath, "Short?" as he takes my hand and I grin mischievously at him. When he got to his feet I led him to the bedroom.
As soon as we reached the bedroom the temperature rose about another ten degrees.
I quickly stepped over to my lover so we were facing each other and I ran my hands up over his smooth chest. Bringing one hand up to cup his face, I drew him in for a slow tender kiss.
God I love his mouth, his taste, it's something I'll never get tired of no matter how long I live. I gently eased my tongue out to brush along his bottom lip, encouraging him to open his mouth, which he eagerly did. I gently pushed my tongue into his mouth and started to gently explore every inch of its exquisite depths. As I explored his mouth I felt him ease his tongue into my mouth and begin to methodically count every tooth in my mouth.
As I started to ease back I heard Daniel moan in protest and felt him grasp the back of my neck and pull me into a deeper, need-filled kiss, as he ran his other hand down my back, gently caressing it along the way to finally rest on my ass so he could pull us closer together.
When the need for air became too great we pulled back, gasping for air, and gazed into each other's eyes. I slowly brought my left hand up to gently caress his cheek and brushed my thumb across his cheekbone gently stroking the soft skin of his face, while my other hand busily stroked his lower back in calming circles, which were designed to slowly arouse him.
"God, Daniel . has anyone ever told you how beautiful you are?" I quietly asked my lover. "I believe you've mentioned it a few times," he whispered back grinning coyly up at me. At that my face broke out into a grin. I loved that. The fact that no matter where we were I could always manage to get Daniel to go all coy on me, you'd think after four years of being lovers, of being soul mates, that he'd no longer get shy around me, but Danny has a habit of going against the norm, and I love him for it.
I slowly ran my hand down his face and trailed my fingertips down his long throat so my fingers just barely touch the surface of his neck causing goose bumps to appear on his skin. I brought my hands around so that they were holding him firmly around the waist as I moved my face down toward his neck so I could taste every inch of the expanse of skin revealed to me.
I started to gently lick a trail from his collarbone up to behind his ear, paying particular attention to the area just behind his ear where he is particularly sensitive. He started moaning encouragement and leaning his head back to give me better access. I nibbled along his jaw line and made my way down the other side of his neck kissing and nibbling my way down, taking his soft moaning as a sign to continue the gentle assault on his body. As I reached his collarbone I was forced to stop because his sweater is covering the remainder of his torso, restricting me from doing any further exploring. I moved my hands from their resting position on his waist to reach under the hem of his sweater to lightly caress up his broad back. I registered a couple more wandering hand easing their way underneath my own sweater to stroke my chest and back making me momentarily forget my pleasurable assault on Daniel, as I was swept away in the pleasure Daniel is giving me as he gently rubbed and stroked my nipples into aroused hardness, making me gasp.
Getting impatient to feel more of his skin I eased his sweater off his tall muscular body, then made short work of mine, quickly pulling it off to join Daniel's, forgotten on the floor somewhere. Once they were gone, Daniel leaned forward and attached his mouth onto my right nipple slowly licking around it then gently mouthing it making me moan out my approval. Taking my moaning as encouragement he started to tenderly nibble and suck on it, before he moved onto the other one and repeated the process. Instinctually, my hands came up to grasp his head loosely while he pleasured me.
Not being able to take any more teasing I pulled his head up and bring my mouth down over his, bringing him into a steamy kiss, only pulling apart when the need for air became too great. Not being able to take the pressure in my pants any longer I quickly undid them, giving myself more room. I did the same for Daniel; once I undid his pants I slipped my hand inside them to gently cup his groin. I slowly curled my fingers around his prick and started slowly stroking him and pulled him in for another fiery kiss, quickly fucking his mouth with my tongue in time to the stroking of his cock. As I continued stroking him I felt his dick harden to full arousal.
"Jack! Ahhh.Oh God.that feels.ugh.good. But if you.keep that up I'm gonna. come in my pants." Daniel gasped quietly as he eased my pants down over my ass to pool at my ankles. I quickly toed off my shoes to make removing my pants easier. "Wouldn't want that now, would we?" I said as I stepped out of my pants and kicked them out of the way. I gave Daniel a few more short strokes before removing my hand and pulling his jeans and shoes off him and tossing them across the room.
Soon we are both standing there clad only in our boxers and socks. I stepped forward holding Daniel around the waist and gently started walking us back toward the large king size bed taking up a majority of the room. We stopped when the back of his legs bumped the edge of the mattress. Running my hands up his sides until they rest on his shoulders, I gently pushed him back onto the bed before quickly climbing over him to lie half over him, then I started to kiss a trail, starting at his jaw and working my way down kissing every inch of exposed skin I could see.
I licked around his left nipple, teasing it into a rosy bud, teasing him. Then I kissed across his chest, repeating the process with its twin, all the while listening to his gasps and moans of pleasure as I slowly drove him insane with need.
As I started to slowly lick a trail south towards his groin he quickly flipped us so he was on top and started to kiss along my collarbone and down my chest, kissing every inch of exposed flesh. Quickly flicking out his tongue to swipe at my over sensitive nipples he made me shiver and groan with barely suppressed need. Taking his time, he worked his way down, kissing and nibbling at my stomach and quickly arousing me to full hardness. As he reached the hem of my shorts he licked along the edge gently teasing me before moving on and kissing up my inner thighs before mouthing my cock through the thin material of my boxers, making me gasp out in surprise.
"Danny. Please? I can't.take much more.of this. Stop.oh God.fucking teasing me!" I grasped his head trying to bring him back up to me for another kiss. "How about we get rid of these then?" he asked gently flicking the elastic band on my shorts. "Sounds good to me," I exclaimed, starting to calm down as Daniel gently eases my shorts down over my ass and straining cock, then tossed them over his shoulder to join the other forgotten clothes on the bedroom floor.
Once my clothing was disposed of I quickly grabbed Daniel around the waist and rolled us over again so that I was on top. I gently ran my hands and up his sides in feather light touches making his skin come up in goose bumps all over. Before leaning in close for a tender kiss we broke apart, staring into each other's eyes. God, I love his eyes - I could lose myself forever just gazing into their crystal clear depths. Slowly I started to kiss and lick a moist trail down his neck to stop at the waistline of his boxers. I kissed down the light fluttering of hair that disappeared below the elastic before easing them down and flinging them over the side of the bed.
Soon, we were both lying on the bed naked as the day we were born. I slowly worked my way down to his feet, kissing, nibbling and licking my way down, purposely avoiding his groin. Gently caressing thighs I sucked each toe into my mouth, started licking at one bony ankle then kissed my way up the inside of his left leg, paying special attention to the underside of his knee, making him squirm and pant with growing desire. I repeated the slow torture on his other leg, licking the insides of his thighs he started to loudly moan out his need.
"Jack.Jack.Oh God! Please.stop teasing me.you, ahhh.Oh God! You prick!" he panted. Soon I had him squirming on the bed trusting his hips up toward where my head is in his need to get off. "Patience," I whispered, holding his hips in place as I took the head of his dick in my mouth. "Oh.God.Jack.more. I can't take much.more of this," he gasped out as I started to pump the base of his cock in time with the movement of my head. "Come on Danny. Let go.come for me. Come for me, Danny." I never eased up on the slow pumping of his cock. I went back down on him; kissing and nibbling up the shaft before mouthing his balls, making him groan and squirm in pleasure. I moved back up to take him in my mouth and gently sucked on the head of his prick then slowly relax my throat before I took him to the base and slowly moved my head up and down, the shaft curling my tongue around him making him whimper with need. His breathing was becoming more erratic so I sped up my ministrations on his cock, bringing him over the edge. "Jack..." he panted, "I'm gonna.God! JAAAACK!" he screamed my name as he climaxed.
Before he could come down off his post-orgasmic high, I grabbed the lube, coated my fingers in the substance and gently pushed one finger into his ass, slowly moving it trying to find his hidden gland. Once I'd located it, I gave it a teasing rub before removing my finger and replacing it with two. Once I was positive my lover was fully relaxed and prepared I promptly coated myself in lube and added a little more to him. "Jack.I'm ready, already. Please.just do it! Fuck me already!" Daniel gasped out as I struck his happy button again.
Seeing how relaxed and ready he was, I knelt between his thighs, picked up his legs and dropped them over my shoulders before lining my dick up with his opening and slowly eased myself inside inch by incredible inch.
"Oh, God, Danny! You're so hot. So fucking tight." I gasped out as I eased myself in completely until I was buried balls deep in his beautiful ass. I leant down for a hungry kiss. "Jack.move, damn it. I'm more than ready." I looked up into his sweat-streaked face and, seeing the truth of those words in his eyes, started to rock, thrusting into him in long deep strokes, rotating my hips so I found his Sweet spot with every thrust. As I thrust up he moved his hips back down to meet me, gradually we established a slow rhythm. I turned my head to kiss and lick at his thighs - any part of him that I could reach from my position.
"Jesus, Danny. Love you.so hot.you're so fucking hot." I groaned out as I picked up my rhythm, grabbing his quickly hardening dick and beginning to pump in time to my thrusts. "Jack! Harder! Faster!' Daniel moaned between each thrust.
I started to speed up, hitting his sweet spot each time, making him moan out my name loudly. With each thrust I rotated my hips alternating between short hard jabs and long slow movements, fucking him into the mattress. I sped up - not able to hold out much longer. After a few more quick pumps of Daniel's cock he came over our joined bodies for the second time that night with an ecstatic cry, causing his anus muscles to contract around me. I followed him over the edge in an explosive climax.
We both lay there panting hard and covered in sweat and semen until we'd calmed down some and I pulled out of him, rolling over and pulling him to lie on my chest. I cuddled him close, stroking his hair. "I love you, Danny. I always will. For the rest of my life," I quietly whispered, dropping a light kiss onto his brow. "I love you too, Jack. And I'm never leaving you," he murmured back, leaning up and pulling me into a slow sensuous kiss that was void of all the hunger and need of our previous kisses. "Goodnight, Danny." I held him close as I drifted off to sleep. "G'night," Daniel mumbled, before letting sleep claim him.//
To Be Continued.
he is a god in my eyes--
the man who is allowed
to sit beside you -- he
who listens intimately
to the sweet murmur of
your voice, the enticing
laughter that makes my own
heart beat fast. If I meet
you suddenly, I can't
speak -- my tongue is broken;
a thin flame runs under
my skin; seeing nothing,
hearing only my own ears
drumming, I drip with sweat;
trembling shakes my body
and I turn paler than
dry grass. At such times
death isn't far from me
"Daniel.No.NO!" I cry out as I see my lover crumple to the ground in a heap next to the DHD.
It was meant to be a routine mission: just a standard meet-and-greet. How did it all go to Hell so quickly? I should have been more alert. I didn't even see the Jaffa patrol until it was too late. Much too late.
Now it may have cost Daniel his life. I've gone numb. Shock I think. I don't even remember returning through the gate. If it weren't for Carter's quick thinking, I'd have died on that planet. I can't believe I did the exact thing I promised myself I wouldn't do when we got involved. I froze up. I saw Daniel go down with that staff blast and I froze. I couldn't do a thing. All I could think of was that I'd failed to protect him. That he could die.
God.Danny don't die on me.I need you too much. I...I love you.Please don't leave me, you're my world.my, everything. I can't even think about living my life without you.
A week before the mission to P3X-277 we celebrated our four year anniversary.
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// "Jack, can I open my eyes yet?" Daniel complained as I led him into the house. "No. Just be patient will you, I promise you will like it. Careful.step up.okay, you can open your eyes now," I told him once we had reached the bedroom. "Jack you trying to tell me something here?" he asked with a seductive smile. "No. Stop thinking with your dick and get changed and showered. By then I should have everything ready. And no peaking! Don't come out until I say otherwise, okay?" I chastise my mischievous lover gently. "Can I at least have a kiss? You've been holding out on me for weeks," he said, pouting. "Oh. I think I can manage that," I smiled as I moved in closer so our bodies were pressed tantalizingly close. We stood there for what seemed like hours just staring at each other's faces and lips before either of us moved. Finally, having enough of watching Daniel's beautiful face, I moved in and gently covered his lips with mine, keeping the first kiss slow and gentle. I can never get enough of him. I love his unique taste and that he always tastes of coffee. I slowly brought my hand up to cup the back of his neck as I deepened the kiss. Soon the kiss turned hungry, lust driven, and I pulled back to stare into his beautiful blue eyes and gasp in a lungful of oxygen as my lungs started to protest. I brought my hand around to cup his flushed cheek in my calloused hand. "I love you Daniel," I told him, staring into his lust-darkened eyes and kiss- swollen lips. "I love you too, Jack," he said softly while staring intently at my face. "Come on, go have a shower and get changed and call me when you've finished. Okay?" I stepped back, dropping my hand back to my side. "Okay, but I told you before I hate surprises," he grumbled. "Trust me. You'll like this one," I promised him as I backed out of the room. h From the bedroom, I went into the lounge room and set about lighting the large fireplace, which took up the far wall of the room, along with several vanilla scented candles that I had placed around the room to set the mood.
I had been planning this for weeks. I had everything perfect. The table was set with a deep maroon tablecloth with a set of three white dinner candles sitting in the centre. I had also set the table with the fine china dinner plates that I had acquired after my divorce from Sara. I also placed a small metal bucket full of ice for the wine off to the side. I had the lights turned off so the room was bathed in the warm glow of the fireplace and the candles setting the romantic mood perfectly.
For dinner I had prepared steaks with Diane sauce, baked vegetables, and chocolate mousse and strawberries for desert. I had spent ages trying to get them just right; I'm a pretty good cook. Don't tell anyone though, or I'll be made to cook on all the missions, and I don't cook unless I have to or I have the motivation. Tonight it's the latter. Daniel's all the motivation I need.
I checked dinner, which was almost cooked; about another fifteen to twenty minutes left, and threw a quick glance around the room to make sure everything was in place and ready for the evening. I also quickly checked my pant's pocket to make sure I had my gift to Daniel, which thankfully had been finished that afternoon. I'd been worried that it wouldn't be ready for tonight but, thankfully, it had been.
"Jack, I'm finished. Can I come out now?" I heard Daniel call out through the bedroom door. "Aht. Stay there. Wait till I come in there," I called as I walked over to the bedroom door. "Close your eyes while I come in." "Fine my eyes are closed. You can come in now." "Don't peak," I warned him as I enter the room and walked up behind him so my body was pressed flush against his back while I removed his glasses, put them in my pocket, then placed my hands over his eyes so he couldn't see anything. "Okay, start walking forward slowly," I whispered into his ear, causing a shiver to run through his warm body as I led him into the lounge room. Once there I removed my hands from his face so he could see what I'd done to the room. I replaced his glasses so he could see better before I wrapped my arms around his broad chest and hugged him close to me, getting him to lean back and rest his head on my shoulder as he let his eyes wander around the room quietly admiring what I'd done to the place.
"Wow, Jack you did this for me?" he asked with his mouth and eyes open in amazement. "Yes, I did. Do you like it?" I asked as I leant down and kissed a trail down his neck to his collarbone. "Yes.I.love it Jack. Thank you," he said, turning around to face me. "Good," I said quietly, admiring the view. Daniel had worn tight black jeans, and a dark cobalt blue turtleneck sweater that brought out the blue of his eyes. "I love this, you went to a lot of trouble," Daniel gestured behind him with one hand while his eyes gently roamed over my body. I had dressed casually in a tan pair of lose fitting slacks with a light brown v-necked sweater. "You look really good Daniel," I told him, commenting on his choice of clothing. "Thanks, you look very handsome too," he replied and walked into the room. "God. Jack, what smell's so nice? I'm starving; I.forgot to have lunch," Daniel admitted. "Can we eat now?" I walked over to the CD player and put on some soft music. "A bit impatient aren't we Danny? Dinner's still got a little while longer before it's ready. Do you want a glass of wine while we wait?" 'Sure,' he replied as I went into the kitchen to get us both a glass of red wine.
When I got back to the lounge room with our drinks I sat them down on the coffee table, held out my hand to him. "May I have this dance?" I asked him as a slow song came on. "Id be honoured, Colonel," he smiled, grasped my hand and rose to his feet.
My love,
There's only you in my life.
The only thing that's bright.
As the song starts to play gently I pulled him close against my body, placing my arms firmly around his waist as we started to slowly sway to the music. I felt him reach up and place his arms around my neck, before pulling in closer to me to rest his head on my shoulder.
My first love,
you're every breath that I take.
You're every step I make.
As we gently sway to the music, I listened to the words of the song, thinking of how they rang true for us. We had been together for four wonderful years now. I don't think I've ever loved someone this much in my life, not even Sara. I loved her, but there's just something about Daniel that just wants to make you open up to him and spill your guts.
And I,
I-I-I-I-I,
I want to share,
all my love with you.
No one else will do.
That's true there will never be anyone but you for me, Danny.
"Jack, I like this. Just being able to be with you. We don't get to be together like this very often," he whispered against my chest, before looking up and gazing into my eyes. "What the romantic dinner for two?" I grinned at him. "Well no . yes, I mean just being together. Just being Jack and Daniel not Colonel O'Neill and Doctor Jackson." I know what he means. I like being able to do stuff as a couple and not just team mates. "Yeah, I know. I like it too, Danny." I bent down and placed a feather light kiss onto the top of his head.
And your eyes,
your eyes, your eyes,
they tell me how much you care.
Oooohh yes, you will always be,
my endless love.
As the song continued its soft melody I gazed into his blue orbs. It's true what they say about the eyes being the windows to the soul. You can tell so much about a person just by looking into their eyes. I love Daniel's eyes they are the deepest blue I have ever seen and I could easily get lost in their depths.
As we slowly danced together, I listened to the gentle voices of the music, just letting them wash over me.
Two hearts,
two hearts that beat as one.
Our lives have just begun.
Forever,
Ohhhhhh...
I'll hold you close in my arms.
I can't resist your charms.
Who would have thought that an old Air Force Colonel like me would love dancing? I'd never live it down if any of my people found out - not that Danny would tell them - but it'd ruin my image. Though at the moment I don't care. I just love the feeling of freedom that moving around dancing with the man I love gives me.
And love,
oh, love,
I'll be a fool,
for you.
I'm sure,
you know I don't mind.
Oh, you know I don't mind.
I never realised how true this song was for us, I've heard it a million-and- one times but I've never really listened to it.
'Cause you,
you mean the world to me.
Oooohh...
I know,
I know,
I've found in you,
my endless love.
Oooh, and love.
Oh, love,
I'll be that fool,
for you.
I'm sure,
You know I don't mind.
Oh you know,
I don't mind.
As the song started to fade out to a stop I gently brought my right hand up to cup his chin, making him look up at me, before I leant down to capture his lips with mine in a sweet, tender kiss.
And, YES,
You'll be the only one.
'Cause no one can deny,
This love I have inside.
And I'll give it all to you,
My love,
My love, my love,
My endless love.
Once the song had finished, we pulled apart and walked back to pick up our wine glasses. "You know, Jack, we should go dancing more often. Your really good at it," Daniel said before taking a mouthful of wine. "Where? We can't exactly go to the normal place couples go can we?" I asked between sips of wine. "We could always go to one of those clubs in Denver.you know the ones," Daniel explained matter-of-factly or even seductively. "Yeah, okay, if we get some time off next weekend we'll go. How's that?" I asked him. "Okay. So when's dinner going to be ready?" "Ah, it should be ready," I said as I walked into the kitchen with Daniel close behind me.
I checked dinner and seeing that it was ready I serves it out onto two plates, before refilling our now empty glasses and sitting everything on the table. I pulled out Daniel's chair before sitting down to eat. "Getting sappy in your old age, Colonel?' he teased. "You better believe it! But lets keep it secret. Wouldn't want to ruin my reputation now would we?"
We ate our dinner in companionable silence just enjoying each other's company and celebrating our four years together. "Oh God! Where did you learn to cook? That was fantastic!" Daniel commented. "Can't go giving out all my secrets now can I?" "No, I suppose you can't," he replied, grinning back at me. "Care for some more wine, Daniel?" I asked him. "Sure. Why don't we move this into the lounge room?" he suggested, getting out of his seat and moving out of the kitchen. "Thanks for doing this, we never really get to spend a lot of quiet nights in, just the two of us, with no interruptions," Daniel said, sitting down on the lounge and gesturing for me to sit down next to him so he can cuddle up next to me. I like this. The cuddling and just generally being together. I could live without the sex, though the sex is really good. If I ever lost this small intimacy I don't know what I'd do. As it is we don't get to do it nearly enough, what with work and spending time with the rest of the team. I think I'm going to have to make sure we do this more often. So I tell him as much.
"Daniel, I got you something for our anniversary," I said, pulling back from him a bit so I could see his face. "Jack, I though we agreed that we weren't exchanging gifts this year." "Well, we weren't, but I've been meaning to get this for awhile and now seemed like as good a time as any," I said as I reached into my pocket and pulled out a small box, which has my gift in it. "Daniel, I love you. I always will. I don't see myself ever being in another relationship. I consider us being forever. I want to spend the rest of my life with you. Growing old together. You are the best thing that has happened to me. After Sara left me I thought I'd never fall in love again," I admitted, pausing to gather my thoughts as I looked up into his eyes. "After that first trip to Abydos, I felt something for you. It wasn't love. Not then. But it didn't take long for me to fall head over heals for you. I guess what I'm trying to say is. will you marry me? I don't even know if two guys can get married, but, well, I wanted something to show our commitment to each other. Even if you don't want to get married I got these rings to show how much I love you." I removed the two gold bands from the small jewellery box the jeweller had placed them in.
Kneeling down in front of him I took his left hand in mine and placed one of the rings onto his ring finger. Looking up into his eyes I softly asked, "Doctor Daniel Melburn Jackson, will you marry me?" "Yes, Jack, I will marry you. And yes, two guys can get married, not legally but yes, we can get married," he replied, happily flinging his arms around my neck and pulling me into a heated kiss, conveying his love for me through that small gesture.
When we pulled apart he looked into my eyes that were shining brightly through unshed tears. "Jack, I do love you. Don't ever doubt that. I want to spend the rest of my life with you. I want to grow old with you, not worrying about anything but being happy," he grinned broadly then suddenly looks shy. "Look at me, I'm turning into a big sap." He roughly brushed at his eyes to remover the moisture that had started to form there.
"You? A sap? Never. Besides, I'm the one that's gone sappy on you. Look at this. I don't think you're sappy and besides, it's allowed once in awhile," I said, breaking into the serious mood. "Yeah, I'll give you that, you old romantic," Daniel laughed lightly. "Oh.did you get a ring for yourself?' he suddenly asked, looking at me. "Of course." I pulled the matching band out of the small box and passed it to him. "It's got an inscription on the inside," I explained as I showed him what it said.
"Jack . My Heart . My Soul . Forever . Daniel," he read out loud. The inscription was done so there was no beginning and no end to it so it read 'JackMyHeartMySoulForeverDaniel'. "Yours is the same only the Jack and Daniel bit are around the other way," I told him.
Once he had inspected the ring he grasped my left hand placing the ring on my ring finger before leaning down to plant a chaste kiss on my lips.
"Why give me the ring now? Why not wait till we get married?" he asked me quietly. "I wanted to give you something as a token of my love for you and to be honest I wasn't sure if you would say yes. So I thought I'd give you the ring now and we could take them off say a few days before the wedding and exchange rings then as well," I answered him, looking down at the band around my finger.
"Of course I'd say yes, Jack, I love you!" he replied, pulling me from where I was knelt at his feet so I could sit next to him on the lounge.
"Jack what about work? We can't wear them there. If were caught with them on they'll figure out about us," Daniel asked worriedly. "Don't worry about that. Wear it always. If we're caught out I'll retire. So we wear them all the time," I told him looking into his eyes and seeing all the love the man held for me. Sometimes I wonder what I ever did to get so lucky. "I love it Jack, and I'll wear it all the time."
"What about the wedding? When are we going to do that?" he asked me. "Soon. In a couple of weeks maybe, depending on our schedules. But we can discuss this tomorrow. Right now, do you think we could fit a short field trip to the bedroom into our schedules?,' I tell him as I stand up and hold out my hand for him to take. Daniel mutters under his breath, "Short?" as he takes my hand and I grin mischievously at him. When he got to his feet I led him to the bedroom.
As soon as we reached the bedroom the temperature rose about another ten degrees.
I quickly stepped over to my lover so we were facing each other and I ran my hands up over his smooth chest. Bringing one hand up to cup his face, I drew him in for a slow tender kiss.
God I love his mouth, his taste, it's something I'll never get tired of no matter how long I live. I gently eased my tongue out to brush along his bottom lip, encouraging him to open his mouth, which he eagerly did. I gently pushed my tongue into his mouth and started to gently explore every inch of its exquisite depths. As I explored his mouth I felt him ease his tongue into my mouth and begin to methodically count every tooth in my mouth.
As I started to ease back I heard Daniel moan in protest and felt him grasp the back of my neck and pull me into a deeper, need-filled kiss, as he ran his other hand down my back, gently caressing it along the way to finally rest on my ass so he could pull us closer together.
When the need for air became too great we pulled back, gasping for air, and gazed into each other's eyes. I slowly brought my left hand up to gently caress his cheek and brushed my thumb across his cheekbone gently stroking the soft skin of his face, while my other hand busily stroked his lower back in calming circles, which were designed to slowly arouse him.
"God, Daniel . has anyone ever told you how beautiful you are?" I quietly asked my lover. "I believe you've mentioned it a few times," he whispered back grinning coyly up at me. At that my face broke out into a grin. I loved that. The fact that no matter where we were I could always manage to get Daniel to go all coy on me, you'd think after four years of being lovers, of being soul mates, that he'd no longer get shy around me, but Danny has a habit of going against the norm, and I love him for it.
I slowly ran my hand down his face and trailed my fingertips down his long throat so my fingers just barely touch the surface of his neck causing goose bumps to appear on his skin. I brought my hands around so that they were holding him firmly around the waist as I moved my face down toward his neck so I could taste every inch of the expanse of skin revealed to me.
I started to gently lick a trail from his collarbone up to behind his ear, paying particular attention to the area just behind his ear where he is particularly sensitive. He started moaning encouragement and leaning his head back to give me better access. I nibbled along his jaw line and made my way down the other side of his neck kissing and nibbling my way down, taking his soft moaning as a sign to continue the gentle assault on his body. As I reached his collarbone I was forced to stop because his sweater is covering the remainder of his torso, restricting me from doing any further exploring. I moved my hands from their resting position on his waist to reach under the hem of his sweater to lightly caress up his broad back. I registered a couple more wandering hand easing their way underneath my own sweater to stroke my chest and back making me momentarily forget my pleasurable assault on Daniel, as I was swept away in the pleasure Daniel is giving me as he gently rubbed and stroked my nipples into aroused hardness, making me gasp.
Getting impatient to feel more of his skin I eased his sweater off his tall muscular body, then made short work of mine, quickly pulling it off to join Daniel's, forgotten on the floor somewhere. Once they were gone, Daniel leaned forward and attached his mouth onto my right nipple slowly licking around it then gently mouthing it making me moan out my approval. Taking my moaning as encouragement he started to tenderly nibble and suck on it, before he moved onto the other one and repeated the process. Instinctually, my hands came up to grasp his head loosely while he pleasured me.
Not being able to take any more teasing I pulled his head up and bring my mouth down over his, bringing him into a steamy kiss, only pulling apart when the need for air became too great. Not being able to take the pressure in my pants any longer I quickly undid them, giving myself more room. I did the same for Daniel; once I undid his pants I slipped my hand inside them to gently cup his groin. I slowly curled my fingers around his prick and started slowly stroking him and pulled him in for another fiery kiss, quickly fucking his mouth with my tongue in time to the stroking of his cock. As I continued stroking him I felt his dick harden to full arousal.
"Jack! Ahhh.Oh God.that feels.ugh.good. But if you.keep that up I'm gonna. come in my pants." Daniel gasped quietly as he eased my pants down over my ass to pool at my ankles. I quickly toed off my shoes to make removing my pants easier. "Wouldn't want that now, would we?" I said as I stepped out of my pants and kicked them out of the way. I gave Daniel a few more short strokes before removing my hand and pulling his jeans and shoes off him and tossing them across the room.
Soon we are both standing there clad only in our boxers and socks. I stepped forward holding Daniel around the waist and gently started walking us back toward the large king size bed taking up a majority of the room. We stopped when the back of his legs bumped the edge of the mattress. Running my hands up his sides until they rest on his shoulders, I gently pushed him back onto the bed before quickly climbing over him to lie half over him, then I started to kiss a trail, starting at his jaw and working my way down kissing every inch of exposed skin I could see.
I licked around his left nipple, teasing it into a rosy bud, teasing him. Then I kissed across his chest, repeating the process with its twin, all the while listening to his gasps and moans of pleasure as I slowly drove him insane with need.
As I started to slowly lick a trail south towards his groin he quickly flipped us so he was on top and started to kiss along my collarbone and down my chest, kissing every inch of exposed flesh. Quickly flicking out his tongue to swipe at my over sensitive nipples he made me shiver and groan with barely suppressed need. Taking his time, he worked his way down, kissing and nibbling at my stomach and quickly arousing me to full hardness. As he reached the hem of my shorts he licked along the edge gently teasing me before moving on and kissing up my inner thighs before mouthing my cock through the thin material of my boxers, making me gasp out in surprise.
"Danny. Please? I can't.take much more.of this. Stop.oh God.fucking teasing me!" I grasped his head trying to bring him back up to me for another kiss. "How about we get rid of these then?" he asked gently flicking the elastic band on my shorts. "Sounds good to me," I exclaimed, starting to calm down as Daniel gently eases my shorts down over my ass and straining cock, then tossed them over his shoulder to join the other forgotten clothes on the bedroom floor.
Once my clothing was disposed of I quickly grabbed Daniel around the waist and rolled us over again so that I was on top. I gently ran my hands and up his sides in feather light touches making his skin come up in goose bumps all over. Before leaning in close for a tender kiss we broke apart, staring into each other's eyes. God, I love his eyes - I could lose myself forever just gazing into their crystal clear depths. Slowly I started to kiss and lick a moist trail down his neck to stop at the waistline of his boxers. I kissed down the light fluttering of hair that disappeared below the elastic before easing them down and flinging them over the side of the bed.
Soon, we were both lying on the bed naked as the day we were born. I slowly worked my way down to his feet, kissing, nibbling and licking my way down, purposely avoiding his groin. Gently caressing thighs I sucked each toe into my mouth, started licking at one bony ankle then kissed my way up the inside of his left leg, paying special attention to the underside of his knee, making him squirm and pant with growing desire. I repeated the slow torture on his other leg, licking the insides of his thighs he started to loudly moan out his need.
"Jack.Jack.Oh God! Please.stop teasing me.you, ahhh.Oh God! You prick!" he panted. Soon I had him squirming on the bed trusting his hips up toward where my head is in his need to get off. "Patience," I whispered, holding his hips in place as I took the head of his dick in my mouth. "Oh.God.Jack.more. I can't take much.more of this," he gasped out as I started to pump the base of his cock in time with the movement of my head. "Come on Danny. Let go.come for me. Come for me, Danny." I never eased up on the slow pumping of his cock. I went back down on him; kissing and nibbling up the shaft before mouthing his balls, making him groan and squirm in pleasure. I moved back up to take him in my mouth and gently sucked on the head of his prick then slowly relax my throat before I took him to the base and slowly moved my head up and down, the shaft curling my tongue around him making him whimper with need. His breathing was becoming more erratic so I sped up my ministrations on his cock, bringing him over the edge. "Jack..." he panted, "I'm gonna.God! JAAAACK!" he screamed my name as he climaxed.
Before he could come down off his post-orgasmic high, I grabbed the lube, coated my fingers in the substance and gently pushed one finger into his ass, slowly moving it trying to find his hidden gland. Once I'd located it, I gave it a teasing rub before removing my finger and replacing it with two. Once I was positive my lover was fully relaxed and prepared I promptly coated myself in lube and added a little more to him. "Jack.I'm ready, already. Please.just do it! Fuck me already!" Daniel gasped out as I struck his happy button again.
Seeing how relaxed and ready he was, I knelt between his thighs, picked up his legs and dropped them over my shoulders before lining my dick up with his opening and slowly eased myself inside inch by incredible inch.
"Oh, God, Danny! You're so hot. So fucking tight." I gasped out as I eased myself in completely until I was buried balls deep in his beautiful ass. I leant down for a hungry kiss. "Jack.move, damn it. I'm more than ready." I looked up into his sweat-streaked face and, seeing the truth of those words in his eyes, started to rock, thrusting into him in long deep strokes, rotating my hips so I found his Sweet spot with every thrust. As I thrust up he moved his hips back down to meet me, gradually we established a slow rhythm. I turned my head to kiss and lick at his thighs - any part of him that I could reach from my position.
"Jesus, Danny. Love you.so hot.you're so fucking hot." I groaned out as I picked up my rhythm, grabbing his quickly hardening dick and beginning to pump in time to my thrusts. "Jack! Harder! Faster!' Daniel moaned between each thrust.
I started to speed up, hitting his sweet spot each time, making him moan out my name loudly. With each thrust I rotated my hips alternating between short hard jabs and long slow movements, fucking him into the mattress. I sped up - not able to hold out much longer. After a few more quick pumps of Daniel's cock he came over our joined bodies for the second time that night with an ecstatic cry, causing his anus muscles to contract around me. I followed him over the edge in an explosive climax.
We both lay there panting hard and covered in sweat and semen until we'd calmed down some and I pulled out of him, rolling over and pulling him to lie on my chest. I cuddled him close, stroking his hair. "I love you, Danny. I always will. For the rest of my life," I quietly whispered, dropping a light kiss onto his brow. "I love you too, Jack. And I'm never leaving you," he murmured back, leaning up and pulling me into a slow sensuous kiss that was void of all the hunger and need of our previous kisses. "Goodnight, Danny." I held him close as I drifted off to sleep. "G'night," Daniel mumbled, before letting sleep claim him.//
To Be Continued.