Without even looking at her, he could feel her presence by the side of his bed; he turned to look at her anyway, an expression of deep sadness on his tired face. He extended his right arm over a little to touch her face, lifting her chin up a little and tried not to get his blood on her.
"I know, Seras...It is not a pretty thing...but I also know that it is becoming more frequent...and that's not good, either."
Seras stared at him, her mind drawing a complete blank. "...What is going to happen..." She was starting to break a little as she looked at him; she still tried to hold her composure...
"Hmmm...Well...we vampires only have a certain amount of strength, energy..." He said deeply. "...And when we lose our strength or fade from decay...our bodies disappear, but our souls live on." He had difficulty looking Seras in the face.
"And there is nothing I can do..." She said bluntly, stating rather than asking, because she was already sure she knew the answer. Folding her arms on the edge of the bed, she rested her chin on them. Alucard looked at her with mournful eyes, resting his hand on her head, then moving it down to rest on her back between her shoulder blades.
"...Seras...do not be sad," Though he tried his hardest not to show it, he was sad, just as much as Seras appeared to be. "...There is nothing you can do...but why dwell on things that are happening?" She added, somewhat in a sarcasm-forced tone to make light of the subject. "We are both relatively fine, and here together..."
Her eyes opened and she looked at him the moment his hand fell between her shoulder blades.
"..'Why?' ...Because sometimes my mind becomes preoccupied with the present...such so that I black out on all the positive and focus on just the negative..." Her head rose, eyes still boring into his. "...It makes me crazy once in a while...but I still try not to..."
His eyes widened with astonishment at her sudden, yet firm, remarks. Yet he smiled lightly in appreciation, and brought his other arm at a comfortable distance to wrap around Seras. She raised her head.
".….I didn't know you worried so much about me, Seras...the present is a thing to be weary of, but you cannot just live in the past.….it makes me crazy too, to think about things that are happening daily...some things I cannot do, some I can...but we both have to try and surpass that, to live for the now...as I said..."
Seras had just about cut him off; a hard and serious look in her eyes and on her face as she shot back. "Why wouldn't I worry about you? I worry all the time...it may not show, but it's just a part of me...that no matter how much I try, It still stays with me..." She paused for a half-second. "Maybe over time I will overcome it..." She ended it with a hint of a confident smile on her face.
Alucard's grin widened. "I have been around for many years, Seras...why would you worry about me, I don't exactly understand...I have seen so much, but there is still much more I would like to do...watch over you for a bit more and see you develop...I worry about many things, mainly what will happen to you when my body is no longer here...these are still very human emotions, and you never truly lose all of them, they just dull over time..." He said, slightly amused at this predicament.
Seras fought back, not yelling, but not talking with an 'inside voice' either.
"So what if you've been around for as long as you have?! That doesn't mean I can't worry about you..." She dropped her head, resting it on her arms again.
Alucard looked to be about the saddest guy in the world, as he rolled over to his side, his blood staining the bed. His arms found this to be a more comfortable position to hold Seras with.
"...Seras...you have to understand...I was alone, completely alone, for over hundreds of years...I am not used to having someone by my side, to worry about or take care of me...and for a vampire to do that is practically unheard of, these new ones are only for the pleasure of death and destruction..."
"...Well...it's about time something happened with you..." She grinned widely for the first time in a little while, rolling her eyes over to meet his. His eyes closed slightly, a second later opening again with a renewed glint of playfulness.
"Hmm...things are always happening to me...but what type of things do you mean...?"
Seras scoffed. "Oh come on...you know what I mean!" Her eyes fell to the sight of the blood, and her face fell a little bit, remembering. Alucard saw where she was looking, sighing in defeat as he could no longer ignore his injuries. He moved his left arm and touched one of his many wounds, staring down and bringing his stained red and white glove up to his face to see.
"Oh...you mean this? It's only a flesh wound...hehehe..."
Seras facefaulted at his reply. "Then why did I carry you to your room, then...?" She asked, sarcasm in her voice.
"...Because you are my servant, Seras..." He laughed, and then winced as a flash of sparking pain rushed through his sides.
Seras pointed a finger at him, her voice filled with warning...but she could already tell her master wouldn't take her too seriously.
"Didn't I say I'm not a toy for you, master?!"
Alucard laughed heartily this time, ignoring the pain, and he watched her point at him.
"Hmmmmm...Well, you will always be my toy, Seras...and didn't you know it is not polite to point at your MASTER?!?!?!" He said in his high-pitched maniacal, shrilly voice. Before Seras could realize what had happened, he leaned over ever so slightly and put his teeth down on her protruding finger, biting it not too hard, but just enough to bleed a drop or two. Seras' eyes bugged out of her head.
"NA?! I was only kidding..." She whimpered, and then caught herself. "HEY!!!!" She shouted, seeing him bite onto her finger. Alucard watched all of this with amusement; he was enjoying himself.
"Mwahahaha...I know that, Seras..." He leaned his head back from her hand, taking it into his left hand and looked at it. He took of her glove, ripping it off her hand with one of his fangs, and spit it out to land on top of her kit box on the floor. While he was on the topic, he did the same with her other hand in a flash, and she watched him carefully. He grinned at her as he held the hand with the finger he bit.
"Watch this, Seras...and you will learn the type of abilities you possess..." He licked the little drop of blood that dripped from her finger, revealing small teeth marks. Licking them gently as well, the marks and the cut disappeared, healing right in front of their eyes.
Seras gazed in awe as her finger was healed almost instantaneously. "Nani..." She then had realized something and forgot about her hand, pointing now at his wounds.
"Why don't you lick them, ne?!" She asked, exasperated as if it were the most obvious thing to do. He gazed at her as he admired her sheer clarity.
"Hmmmm...Well if it would work on me, do you not think I would have already done so...Seras? Mwahahaha...it only works on light wounds..."
And Seras nodded dumbly, realizing her slight stupidity. "Ah...So I see..."
Yet he looked at her warmly, grabbing her unsuspecting, and ungloved, hand and rubbed it on his face to feel her...without the obstructing piece of material that was constantly present.
"Hmmm..." He closed his eyes and then opened them. "It's okay, Seras, I did not expect you to know that, yet...vampires regenerate to heal...sometimes you can speed up the rate of healing depending on abilities and age of the vampire; sort of vampire ranking, if you will."
Seras grinned, and turned her hand that touched his face turned around and cupped the side of his face, moving her thumb slowly back and forth on the spot underneath his eye.
"Hmmm...So that means if I got shot in the stomach again I wouldn't have that much of a chance, eh?"
"It depends...you would have a chance either by having a shallow cut, or drinking blood...a blood transfusion..."
"That sounds most obvious..." She blinked at him, turning her head to a 90-degree angle to the side of look at him squarely in the face, eye to eye. Her cheek rested on the very edge of the mattress, while she still kneeled comfortably on the ground.
He looked at her dazedly, his bangs falling over his right eye as he pressed his face against the pillow. "Well, if it was so obvious, why ask...?...Unless there was something else you wanted to know, Seras...?"
"Maybe..." Her face turned mysterious; dark, taking away the hand on his face to lay gently on his wound. His forthcoming blood stained her hand.
"Does it hurt?"
"Huh...oh..." He looked down at his wounds, bloody holes of mess and stomach parts. His eyes deepened red at the sight. "Sort of ...I can feel the pain of it, see it happening...but after awhile, you stop feeling it...it goes numb...but with you hand on it, I feel as if it is still there..." He grabbed the hand on his stomach wounds with his left and rubs it against his stomach/chest wounds, which was the biggest. The amount of blood that was released was a great amount...though, he didn't mind showing her, his face contorting to try and give off a small grin.
Seras watched with hardly an expression on her face, half of it was blackened out.
"I guess I can say this is preparation...for when something like this happens to me..."