A week later, Severus walked in on Narcissa just as she was having lunch in
the kitchen.
"Oh, sorry," he said and turned to leave the kitchen.
"No, no, wait!" She cried. "Don't go! You can have lunch with me. I really don't care."
Severus stopped, turned again, then changed his mind. "No, I won't bother you," he said. "It's OK, really. I'll eat later."
"NO!" she insisted. "I want you to eat with me. Come on! Sit down!"
Severus shrugged and sat down.
"Help yourself," said Narcissa shortly, and he began to eat.
Narcissa watched him from the corner of her eye as he ate. It's been less than two weeks since he moved in, and he already seemed a totally different person. First of all, he was wearing a white shirt an dark-blue jeans under his robe. It made him look much less frightening in her eyes. Second, the old way he used to look at people - this look that was full of hatred, threat and coldness - it was gone. This made him a lot better-looking, Narcissa thought.
Hey! What came into me? She shook her head. Why am I thinking about how good-looking Severus Snape is? Am I having a crush on him or something?
But as she raised her eyes and looked at him again, she couldn't help but thinking: and what if he kissed me?
Before she knew it, she was having an inside-monologue with herself.
Say he kisses me... what do I do? Do I kiss him back? No, it's impossible, this is Severus Snape we're talking about! You know, that former Death- Eater? That mean teacher? That annoying, threatening man who was friends with Lucius?
Yes, but now he's changed. He just looks so different. He wears the clothes we bought together, not only black anymore. He laughs at my jokes and he jokes himself from time to time. We're having such nice conversations. I actually trusted him enough to tell him all about Lucius!
OK, so we're friends, does it mean we have to KISS? After all, I'm not even sure he trusts me back. He didn't even tell me anything about himself.
Yes, he did. He told me he used to fancy Lily Evans and that was one of the reasons he hated James Potter.
But I told him much more about myself.
Maybe he's just shy. Or maybe he doesn't have anything to tell. Or maybe he's afraid of my reaction. Maybe he has some dark secrets that in his opinion might scare me off, and he doesn't want to lose his friendship with me.
But I know this is stupid. I will never give up his friendship. He's the only friend I have in the whole world, and I'm not going to lose him just because of his past. Furthermore, if I'm falling for him now, I will most certainly NOT give him up...
Wait a second! Have I just thought about falling for HIM? I have... but I can't love him! He's... he's not my type at all!
So what IS my type? Someone like Lucius? If I'm really falling for him, I should be glad! He's much better than Lucius. Much, much, much better than him...
Severus had finished eating and got to his feet. Narcissa didn't even realize that until he spoke.
"I think I'll go to the garden to read."
"What?" she stared at him. "Oh. OK. Mind if I join you?"
You have no shame, Narcissa...
No, I don't.
"No problem," he said, actually smiling. They both got out of the kitchen and went to the library to get themselves books.
"What are you choosing this time?" she asked as he wandered around the shelves.
"Well, I really want another horror book," he said. "I'm looking for a book of Stephen King I haven't read yet."
"How about this one?" asked Narcissa innocently, drawing out a book from one of the shelves.
"Hey, that's exactly what I wanted. Thanks," said Severus, stretching out his hand to take it from her.
But before he could touch it, Narcissa pulled it back, smiling tantalizingly.
"What, is it a game or something?" he asked, trying to grab it again.
"No, but I really want to read it myself. Guess you'll just have to wait," said Narcissa, giggling and moving backwards towards the door.
"Hey! That's not fair! I've been looking for it before you did!" cried Severus, "Give it to me!"
"I don't think so," said Narcissa, smiling. Then she turned and ran out of the library.
Severus broke into run after her. He heard her laughing playfully as she ran through the long corridors towards the front door. He was getting close... if he could just catch her now...
She opened the front door and ran out, still laughing out loud.
He ran out after her, looked quickly around and saw her running away along the grass.
"No, you won't get away with this!" He shouted, chasing her; she continued to laugh. It was music to his ears.
After five minutes of playful pursuit in the big garden, Narcissa seemed to be getting tired and began to slow down. Severus could now get her easily.
But as he reached out for the books, she pulled it back again.
"Hey - it's not fair," he warned. "I got you. Give me the book."
"But I want to read it too!" she whined, although she was still smiling broadly. "I'll tell you what - let's read it together."
"What?"
"Here - we'll sit down - " she sat on the grass - "and we'll read together, here."
Severus sighed at sat next to her.
"Good!" she shouted and put the book in his lap. "Come on, open it and we'll read together."
"You know what," he said, not taking his eyes off her, "I don't really feel like reading anymore."
"You don't?" Narcissa looked disappointed. "Oh, so maybe we could do something else - "
"Like what?"
"I don't know - what do you feel like doing?"
Severus leaned in, not even aware to what he was doing. His eyes met hers and he thought he was going to drown in her blue pools of eyes...
What am I doing?
He couldn't even think. He was suddenly so close to her. He could feel her breath. She smelled of strawberries and cream... he wondered for a moment how it was possible - she had just eaten lunch - but her proximity was making him dizzy. He couldn't think.
She stared into his eyes in wonderment... was he going to... well...
He inched a bit closer. She closed her eyes.
Suddenly, fear overcame him. What am I doing? Am I about to kiss her? No, I can't... she would reject me... I should stop this...
But he couldn't back off.
She opened her eyes. Why hasn't he kissed me yet? I won't be able to wait much longer... do it, Severus, I want this, I need this...
Am I really thinking this? Do I really want him to kiss me?
YES!
But he was still hesitating...
Oh, for heaven's SAKE, she thought, grabbed his face and pressed her lips against his. She could hear him gasp - but she wouldn't let go... no... it was too good to be true. And he wasn't resisting, she realized. He is not letting me down...
As he began to kiss her back, he put his hands on her waist and pulled her closer. She was melting right there in his arms. Oh God, this is unbelievable...
Her lips was so soft. He couldn't believe it - it was so much better than his wildest dreams...
As she slowly pulled back and smiled at him, he smiled back. They were still holding each other, looking deeply into the other's eyes.
"Thank you," she whispered.
"For what?" he asked, smiling softly.
"For this." And she kissed him again. This time it was much more passionate - she moved closer and cupped his face as he wrapped an arms around her waist and held the back of her neck with his other hand.
"Wow," he murmured between kisses. As the kisses grew hotter and more passionate, Severus' lips left hers - and began to travel down her face... her cheeks... her jaw... her neck...
She threw her head back in ecstasy. Is it really happenning to her? She couldn't believe it... how lucky was she... she pulled his head back up to hers and kissed his lips again. Have to taste him... feel him... I need him... he moved his hand to her hair... she put one hand on his chest...
"Narcissa..." he pulled back.
"Yes?" she stared at him, her face flushed, her heart thumping so hard he could almost see it, her breath heavy.
"This... is going too fast," he breathed.
"Is it?" she murmured. "Oh, right," she forced herself to agree as he looked at her. "We should... we should wait."
"I mean - this could lead to - bigger stuff."
"I know."
"If we continued, it could lead to bigger stuff."
"And we should wait about these stuff."
"Definitely..."
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Author's Note: Wow! This is getting good! I liked your reviews, thanks, please keep them up. I'm afraid this fic is going to get a little fluffy - I'm not sure yet, but it might. But if you have any suggestions for me - just let me know!
Love,
Roni.
"Oh, sorry," he said and turned to leave the kitchen.
"No, no, wait!" She cried. "Don't go! You can have lunch with me. I really don't care."
Severus stopped, turned again, then changed his mind. "No, I won't bother you," he said. "It's OK, really. I'll eat later."
"NO!" she insisted. "I want you to eat with me. Come on! Sit down!"
Severus shrugged and sat down.
"Help yourself," said Narcissa shortly, and he began to eat.
Narcissa watched him from the corner of her eye as he ate. It's been less than two weeks since he moved in, and he already seemed a totally different person. First of all, he was wearing a white shirt an dark-blue jeans under his robe. It made him look much less frightening in her eyes. Second, the old way he used to look at people - this look that was full of hatred, threat and coldness - it was gone. This made him a lot better-looking, Narcissa thought.
Hey! What came into me? She shook her head. Why am I thinking about how good-looking Severus Snape is? Am I having a crush on him or something?
But as she raised her eyes and looked at him again, she couldn't help but thinking: and what if he kissed me?
Before she knew it, she was having an inside-monologue with herself.
Say he kisses me... what do I do? Do I kiss him back? No, it's impossible, this is Severus Snape we're talking about! You know, that former Death- Eater? That mean teacher? That annoying, threatening man who was friends with Lucius?
Yes, but now he's changed. He just looks so different. He wears the clothes we bought together, not only black anymore. He laughs at my jokes and he jokes himself from time to time. We're having such nice conversations. I actually trusted him enough to tell him all about Lucius!
OK, so we're friends, does it mean we have to KISS? After all, I'm not even sure he trusts me back. He didn't even tell me anything about himself.
Yes, he did. He told me he used to fancy Lily Evans and that was one of the reasons he hated James Potter.
But I told him much more about myself.
Maybe he's just shy. Or maybe he doesn't have anything to tell. Or maybe he's afraid of my reaction. Maybe he has some dark secrets that in his opinion might scare me off, and he doesn't want to lose his friendship with me.
But I know this is stupid. I will never give up his friendship. He's the only friend I have in the whole world, and I'm not going to lose him just because of his past. Furthermore, if I'm falling for him now, I will most certainly NOT give him up...
Wait a second! Have I just thought about falling for HIM? I have... but I can't love him! He's... he's not my type at all!
So what IS my type? Someone like Lucius? If I'm really falling for him, I should be glad! He's much better than Lucius. Much, much, much better than him...
Severus had finished eating and got to his feet. Narcissa didn't even realize that until he spoke.
"I think I'll go to the garden to read."
"What?" she stared at him. "Oh. OK. Mind if I join you?"
You have no shame, Narcissa...
No, I don't.
"No problem," he said, actually smiling. They both got out of the kitchen and went to the library to get themselves books.
"What are you choosing this time?" she asked as he wandered around the shelves.
"Well, I really want another horror book," he said. "I'm looking for a book of Stephen King I haven't read yet."
"How about this one?" asked Narcissa innocently, drawing out a book from one of the shelves.
"Hey, that's exactly what I wanted. Thanks," said Severus, stretching out his hand to take it from her.
But before he could touch it, Narcissa pulled it back, smiling tantalizingly.
"What, is it a game or something?" he asked, trying to grab it again.
"No, but I really want to read it myself. Guess you'll just have to wait," said Narcissa, giggling and moving backwards towards the door.
"Hey! That's not fair! I've been looking for it before you did!" cried Severus, "Give it to me!"
"I don't think so," said Narcissa, smiling. Then she turned and ran out of the library.
Severus broke into run after her. He heard her laughing playfully as she ran through the long corridors towards the front door. He was getting close... if he could just catch her now...
She opened the front door and ran out, still laughing out loud.
He ran out after her, looked quickly around and saw her running away along the grass.
"No, you won't get away with this!" He shouted, chasing her; she continued to laugh. It was music to his ears.
After five minutes of playful pursuit in the big garden, Narcissa seemed to be getting tired and began to slow down. Severus could now get her easily.
But as he reached out for the books, she pulled it back again.
"Hey - it's not fair," he warned. "I got you. Give me the book."
"But I want to read it too!" she whined, although she was still smiling broadly. "I'll tell you what - let's read it together."
"What?"
"Here - we'll sit down - " she sat on the grass - "and we'll read together, here."
Severus sighed at sat next to her.
"Good!" she shouted and put the book in his lap. "Come on, open it and we'll read together."
"You know what," he said, not taking his eyes off her, "I don't really feel like reading anymore."
"You don't?" Narcissa looked disappointed. "Oh, so maybe we could do something else - "
"Like what?"
"I don't know - what do you feel like doing?"
Severus leaned in, not even aware to what he was doing. His eyes met hers and he thought he was going to drown in her blue pools of eyes...
What am I doing?
He couldn't even think. He was suddenly so close to her. He could feel her breath. She smelled of strawberries and cream... he wondered for a moment how it was possible - she had just eaten lunch - but her proximity was making him dizzy. He couldn't think.
She stared into his eyes in wonderment... was he going to... well...
He inched a bit closer. She closed her eyes.
Suddenly, fear overcame him. What am I doing? Am I about to kiss her? No, I can't... she would reject me... I should stop this...
But he couldn't back off.
She opened her eyes. Why hasn't he kissed me yet? I won't be able to wait much longer... do it, Severus, I want this, I need this...
Am I really thinking this? Do I really want him to kiss me?
YES!
But he was still hesitating...
Oh, for heaven's SAKE, she thought, grabbed his face and pressed her lips against his. She could hear him gasp - but she wouldn't let go... no... it was too good to be true. And he wasn't resisting, she realized. He is not letting me down...
As he began to kiss her back, he put his hands on her waist and pulled her closer. She was melting right there in his arms. Oh God, this is unbelievable...
Her lips was so soft. He couldn't believe it - it was so much better than his wildest dreams...
As she slowly pulled back and smiled at him, he smiled back. They were still holding each other, looking deeply into the other's eyes.
"Thank you," she whispered.
"For what?" he asked, smiling softly.
"For this." And she kissed him again. This time it was much more passionate - she moved closer and cupped his face as he wrapped an arms around her waist and held the back of her neck with his other hand.
"Wow," he murmured between kisses. As the kisses grew hotter and more passionate, Severus' lips left hers - and began to travel down her face... her cheeks... her jaw... her neck...
She threw her head back in ecstasy. Is it really happenning to her? She couldn't believe it... how lucky was she... she pulled his head back up to hers and kissed his lips again. Have to taste him... feel him... I need him... he moved his hand to her hair... she put one hand on his chest...
"Narcissa..." he pulled back.
"Yes?" she stared at him, her face flushed, her heart thumping so hard he could almost see it, her breath heavy.
"This... is going too fast," he breathed.
"Is it?" she murmured. "Oh, right," she forced herself to agree as he looked at her. "We should... we should wait."
"I mean - this could lead to - bigger stuff."
"I know."
"If we continued, it could lead to bigger stuff."
"And we should wait about these stuff."
"Definitely..."
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Author's Note: Wow! This is getting good! I liked your reviews, thanks, please keep them up. I'm afraid this fic is going to get a little fluffy - I'm not sure yet, but it might. But if you have any suggestions for me - just let me know!
Love,
Roni.