Dear Narcissa,
I can't tell you how flattered I was when I got your owl. Thanks for trusting me. To tell you the truth, I was really amazed at first, but then I remembered what I had told Draco when we received your owl about Severus coming to live with you. I said: "Well, who knows, something good may come out of it. Eventually, they might even fall in love!" And Draco said: "What?! No way!"
However, since it did happen - and it's not very surprising, after all - and you asked me for advice, I would like to tell you a bit about me and Draco. After he had changed, and we became friends - not good friends, but friends - I noticed that I was beginning to like him as more than a friend. And at first, I tried to deny my feelings, pretend I wasn't feeling them, and for a very long time I managed to act as if we were just friends. But eventually, I read somewhere the saying "Follow your heart" - and all of my doubt vanished. I knew that I couldn't be happy if I didn't follow my heart and let myself FEEL. I also realized later that love is one of the most wonderful things in life, so when it happens - why avoid it?
So I followed my heart and confessed to Draco about my feelings, and I can't find words to describe how happy I was when he told me he loved me too.
This is my advice. I know you want him to take the first step, but I'm sure he has doubts about it just like you have. Don't give up your chance. Follow your heart, Narcissa.
Love from
Hermione
***
This was it.
Narcissa had no doubts anymore. She didn't care about taking first steps - she understood that it didn't matter. But now she had to find Severus. And this, as she soon realized, wasn't a very easy task.
She waited for him to come and eat breakfast. When he didn't, she sent the house-elf again to search for him, and the house-elf informed her Severus was still in his room.
What the hell is he doing in his room? She wondered. He doesn't even have books. He doesn't even eat! Does he think that I starve the men I kiss? Why won't he come out?
She wasn't in the mood for lunch. All she could do was wait. So in the meantime, she did her hair for the hundredth time, changed her clothes, wore some make-up and gazed at herself in the mirror for at least an hour.
Eventually, at about 4:30 P.M., when it was clear that Severus wasn't going to eat lunch, Narcissa sent the house-elf again to ask him why he was not eating.
"He says he's not hungry, Miss," the house-elf replied.
"Tell him that he might get sick if he doesn't eat."
"He says thank you for the warning, Miss."
Narcissa thought she was going nuts. "Tell him that... oh, never mind, I will tell him myself!" And she stormed out, went straight to Severus' bedroom and knocked loudly on the door.
"What does she have to say this time?" Severus called from inside.
"She says that you'd better come out right now!" shouted Narcissa.
"Wh-what are you doing out there?" asked Severus, who recognized her voice.
"I'm waiting for you to come out. I need to talk to you."
Severus sighed heavily. He wasn't sure he wanted to know what she had to say. Indeed, he was slightly hungry, but was it of Narcissa's business? He got up and opened the door.
There stood Narcissa. She was wearing a red, buttoned-up blouse and dark- blue jeans. Her golden hair was down and reached her waist, and Severus was nearly unable to take his eyes off her hair - the color stunned him. But then she spoke, and her voice made him raise his gaze and look at her flushed face, right into her big, bright-blue eyes.
God, she was so beautiful, he thought he might die right there.
"What has gotten into you?!" she said, not softly or gently at all, but loudly and annoyingly.
"What are you talking about?" he asked impatiently.
"I'm talking about you not getting out of your room since yesterday afternoon!"
"Have you been following me?"
"Of course I - "
"So how do you know I didn't get out of my room?"
"I asked my house-elves to tell me where you - wait, I don't owe you any explanations!"
"Neither do I to you."
"But WHY aren't you eating?" Narcissa demanded in an annoyed voice.
"I'm not hungry."
"Liar."
"I'm not lying!"
"Yes, you are. You are terribly hungry, you are just refusing to go out because you're afraid to see me!"
"Why in the world would I be afraid to see you? It's not like you're a monster or something!"
"But obviously you are, otherwise you would have eaten! You are avoiding me, Severus."
"Why would I avoid you?"
"You should answer that!"
"But I'm not avoiding!"
"Yes, you are. And I think I have a very good idea why."
"Oh yeah? Why, then?"
"Because of THIS!" And Narcissa grabbed his head and kissed him again, in fiery passion, as if she were trying to burn him through this kiss.
He didn't respond. He was too shocked, and the kiss was too short, but Narcissa had expected this. She pulled back shortly.
"What was that all about?" he asked, touching his lips.
"Well..." Narcissa took a deep breath and the flush on her cheeks became deeper, "I kissed you again."
"And why, may I ask, did you do that?"
"Because... because I..." she wasn't brave enough to say it. No, she couldn't... she was too afraid of rejection... she wouldn't be able to face rejection.
"Look," she finally said, "clearly, you don't want me to kiss you anymore, so you could just tell me that. You didn't need to hide up in your room and wait for me to come and tell you this. It's OK, but will you please eat, I can't stand the thought of someone starving to death because I was stupid."
She turned to leave, but felt his hand on her shoulder - she froze.
"Who says I don't want you to kiss me anymore?" asked Severus softly, coming closer to her from behind.
Narcissa didn't answer. She couldn't answer. She just inhaled sharply through her nose, but didn't resist.
Severus slowly came closer. She felt him slowly wrapping his arms around her waist from behind and resting his chin on her shoulder. He then turned his head and softly kissed her neck.
"Oh God..." Narcissa murmured as she felt his lips on her neck. She leaned her head backwards and let him continue. And he continued, gently moving his lips as his hands rested on her stomach. "Severus..." she whispered.
He didn't say anything, just continued to kiss her. Slowly his lips moved up her neck and reached her jaw line. He nuzzled her jaw and moved to her cheek. Finally he couldn't wait anymore. He turned her gently around with his hands and kissed her passionately on the lips.
Narcissa wanted to cry. She didn't know why. Feeling his lips pressed to hers, caressing and brushing against hers, made her dizzy, happy and miserable at the same time...
She pulled back and forced herself open her eyes and gaze into his.
He smiled at her mysteriously and moved his fingers on her cheek.
"You know how I feel, don't you?" he whispered.
"No," she said truthfully.
"You don't?..."
"No."
"Narcissa, I..." he felt so awkward to say this. It was not the right way... You never lose when you love... "I love you."
Narcissa stared at him for a few seconds, not sure how to react. She only felt the waves of happiness washing over her, as she clung onto him, wrapped her arms around his neck and whispered: "And I love you."
And as Severus smiled and leaned in to kiss her again, Narcissa knew this was right. Follow your heart... she did. She kissed him back with all her despair, love and hope; she felt complete, as the sun beamed across them from the open window and the blossoming garden glowed in hundreds of spring colors, as if celebrating too.
THE END.
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A/N: Well, this story was kind of short. I'm not going to write a sequel, at least I don't think I will. But if you have any other ideas for my next story, please let me know. And thanks for the reviews, keep them up!
Love
Roni Black.
I can't tell you how flattered I was when I got your owl. Thanks for trusting me. To tell you the truth, I was really amazed at first, but then I remembered what I had told Draco when we received your owl about Severus coming to live with you. I said: "Well, who knows, something good may come out of it. Eventually, they might even fall in love!" And Draco said: "What?! No way!"
However, since it did happen - and it's not very surprising, after all - and you asked me for advice, I would like to tell you a bit about me and Draco. After he had changed, and we became friends - not good friends, but friends - I noticed that I was beginning to like him as more than a friend. And at first, I tried to deny my feelings, pretend I wasn't feeling them, and for a very long time I managed to act as if we were just friends. But eventually, I read somewhere the saying "Follow your heart" - and all of my doubt vanished. I knew that I couldn't be happy if I didn't follow my heart and let myself FEEL. I also realized later that love is one of the most wonderful things in life, so when it happens - why avoid it?
So I followed my heart and confessed to Draco about my feelings, and I can't find words to describe how happy I was when he told me he loved me too.
This is my advice. I know you want him to take the first step, but I'm sure he has doubts about it just like you have. Don't give up your chance. Follow your heart, Narcissa.
Love from
Hermione
***
This was it.
Narcissa had no doubts anymore. She didn't care about taking first steps - she understood that it didn't matter. But now she had to find Severus. And this, as she soon realized, wasn't a very easy task.
She waited for him to come and eat breakfast. When he didn't, she sent the house-elf again to search for him, and the house-elf informed her Severus was still in his room.
What the hell is he doing in his room? She wondered. He doesn't even have books. He doesn't even eat! Does he think that I starve the men I kiss? Why won't he come out?
She wasn't in the mood for lunch. All she could do was wait. So in the meantime, she did her hair for the hundredth time, changed her clothes, wore some make-up and gazed at herself in the mirror for at least an hour.
Eventually, at about 4:30 P.M., when it was clear that Severus wasn't going to eat lunch, Narcissa sent the house-elf again to ask him why he was not eating.
"He says he's not hungry, Miss," the house-elf replied.
"Tell him that he might get sick if he doesn't eat."
"He says thank you for the warning, Miss."
Narcissa thought she was going nuts. "Tell him that... oh, never mind, I will tell him myself!" And she stormed out, went straight to Severus' bedroom and knocked loudly on the door.
"What does she have to say this time?" Severus called from inside.
"She says that you'd better come out right now!" shouted Narcissa.
"Wh-what are you doing out there?" asked Severus, who recognized her voice.
"I'm waiting for you to come out. I need to talk to you."
Severus sighed heavily. He wasn't sure he wanted to know what she had to say. Indeed, he was slightly hungry, but was it of Narcissa's business? He got up and opened the door.
There stood Narcissa. She was wearing a red, buttoned-up blouse and dark- blue jeans. Her golden hair was down and reached her waist, and Severus was nearly unable to take his eyes off her hair - the color stunned him. But then she spoke, and her voice made him raise his gaze and look at her flushed face, right into her big, bright-blue eyes.
God, she was so beautiful, he thought he might die right there.
"What has gotten into you?!" she said, not softly or gently at all, but loudly and annoyingly.
"What are you talking about?" he asked impatiently.
"I'm talking about you not getting out of your room since yesterday afternoon!"
"Have you been following me?"
"Of course I - "
"So how do you know I didn't get out of my room?"
"I asked my house-elves to tell me where you - wait, I don't owe you any explanations!"
"Neither do I to you."
"But WHY aren't you eating?" Narcissa demanded in an annoyed voice.
"I'm not hungry."
"Liar."
"I'm not lying!"
"Yes, you are. You are terribly hungry, you are just refusing to go out because you're afraid to see me!"
"Why in the world would I be afraid to see you? It's not like you're a monster or something!"
"But obviously you are, otherwise you would have eaten! You are avoiding me, Severus."
"Why would I avoid you?"
"You should answer that!"
"But I'm not avoiding!"
"Yes, you are. And I think I have a very good idea why."
"Oh yeah? Why, then?"
"Because of THIS!" And Narcissa grabbed his head and kissed him again, in fiery passion, as if she were trying to burn him through this kiss.
He didn't respond. He was too shocked, and the kiss was too short, but Narcissa had expected this. She pulled back shortly.
"What was that all about?" he asked, touching his lips.
"Well..." Narcissa took a deep breath and the flush on her cheeks became deeper, "I kissed you again."
"And why, may I ask, did you do that?"
"Because... because I..." she wasn't brave enough to say it. No, she couldn't... she was too afraid of rejection... she wouldn't be able to face rejection.
"Look," she finally said, "clearly, you don't want me to kiss you anymore, so you could just tell me that. You didn't need to hide up in your room and wait for me to come and tell you this. It's OK, but will you please eat, I can't stand the thought of someone starving to death because I was stupid."
She turned to leave, but felt his hand on her shoulder - she froze.
"Who says I don't want you to kiss me anymore?" asked Severus softly, coming closer to her from behind.
Narcissa didn't answer. She couldn't answer. She just inhaled sharply through her nose, but didn't resist.
Severus slowly came closer. She felt him slowly wrapping his arms around her waist from behind and resting his chin on her shoulder. He then turned his head and softly kissed her neck.
"Oh God..." Narcissa murmured as she felt his lips on her neck. She leaned her head backwards and let him continue. And he continued, gently moving his lips as his hands rested on her stomach. "Severus..." she whispered.
He didn't say anything, just continued to kiss her. Slowly his lips moved up her neck and reached her jaw line. He nuzzled her jaw and moved to her cheek. Finally he couldn't wait anymore. He turned her gently around with his hands and kissed her passionately on the lips.
Narcissa wanted to cry. She didn't know why. Feeling his lips pressed to hers, caressing and brushing against hers, made her dizzy, happy and miserable at the same time...
She pulled back and forced herself open her eyes and gaze into his.
He smiled at her mysteriously and moved his fingers on her cheek.
"You know how I feel, don't you?" he whispered.
"No," she said truthfully.
"You don't?..."
"No."
"Narcissa, I..." he felt so awkward to say this. It was not the right way... You never lose when you love... "I love you."
Narcissa stared at him for a few seconds, not sure how to react. She only felt the waves of happiness washing over her, as she clung onto him, wrapped her arms around his neck and whispered: "And I love you."
And as Severus smiled and leaned in to kiss her again, Narcissa knew this was right. Follow your heart... she did. She kissed him back with all her despair, love and hope; she felt complete, as the sun beamed across them from the open window and the blossoming garden glowed in hundreds of spring colors, as if celebrating too.
THE END.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
A/N: Well, this story was kind of short. I'm not going to write a sequel, at least I don't think I will. But if you have any other ideas for my next story, please let me know. And thanks for the reviews, keep them up!
Love
Roni Black.