Alucard shook feverishly, gritting his teeth as the churning in his stomach moved throughout his body. He hid his face in his arms that rested on his knees; the blackness was thirsting for blood. For lust. For Seras...
You want her.
Her flesh is appealing...
And the blood, so much blood...Metallically sweet...
He heard his darkness speak to him inside of his head, controlling him as his senses weakened. Alucard knew what it was what he wanted, but he would not allow this to happen...
Beads of sweat started to drop from his face; he could feel the black side of him rising inside, the surge of evil was almost overwhelming. This time, he screamed out loud the simple words of denial.
The torment in his brain and un-beating heart were tearing him apart...he didn't know if he could fight it off.
Seras' hand, holding the edge of the bed that was nearby, gripped the mattress so hard that she could have ripped little holes as big as her fingertips in it; only then did she remember the pain in her body, it wasn't as bad as it was before, but it was there...still there, of course, it had to be.
She knew better than to come close; her master was shaking and twitching, looking like a madman. She knew it was useless if she stayed inside the room when or if he turned black.
But where could she go? She'd have to stay here, and fight it as she had tried but failed before.
His eyes opened, failing to keep them shut any longer, and bulged out of his head. They wandered over to Seras unwillingly, and with a sharp pain, the one glance made his darkness want her more.
The fear and unexpectancy in her eyes and that outlined her features made her beautiful to the darkness.
Alucard wrapped his hands over his eyes, gasping for no other reason except for the sharp, rhythmic pains as his insides squirmed.
She moved her head very slowly, swiveling it around to take a look; she tried to find her halconnen, as she knew she was no match for the black Alucard unarmed. She might as well throw out her arms to her sides and tell him to do his worst. It was probably better than struggling inevitably.
But to her even greater fear, her halconnen was in her room; she was in her master's.
She muttered under her breath, her head and her eyes turning back to him.
"Damn it..."
His stomach and the feelings inside him felt like they would explode, mixed up in the foreign emotions of love and hate; not knowing if he wanted to sleep with her or brutally kill her. Images consumed his vision, but they were tainted...thing that could happen if his blackness was released.
You know you want to see this...
To have her without any problems...
Whatever you want.
The blackness mused to him, trying to consume him totally. Alucard denied him even more, shaking as if he were on the verge of a mental breakdown.
Seras knew it not best to stay in the same room, maybe get to another room, or maybe some backup would be nice.
Yeah, she scoffed nervously in her head, that'd sure be helpful.
She slowly rose to her feet shakily, then stood firm and, her eyes glued to him across the room, took long, yet quiet steps toward the exit, tiptoeing her way across the long room.
One step...
Another, and another; she was in front of the center table, the table separating each other.
Alucard heard the footsteps but they seemed to be faint, or so far that he could not catch them. Somehow the noise penetrated his random images as he now stared completely blank-faced with his arms on top of his legs.
His eyes were still rimmed with the black, but it did not seem to be spreading any more than it already had. As Alucard was lost in thought, the only images in his head were of the not-so-good-kind. A small stream of blood came from his right eye, dripping down his face as the back of his head rested limply against the stonewall in a stupor.
As he did so, he spoke aloud the one thing he could muster, but it sounded faint as well.
"...Seras..."
Her head turned slowly with her eyes, and she stared down at him from across the room, from over the table and the set chair. She sputtered at first, her voice shaky.
"Don't give up...master..." She threw out at him, babbling...saying what anybody would have said; her hand gripped the edge of the second chair, the wood splintering and crackling a tiny bit under her immense, and momentarily forgotten, strength.
Her body was turned, her legs out, like she had frozen in place as she snuck across the room; the only thing that was not turned was her head and her eyes, staring apprehensively.
Like a waking dream, he realized movement in the room, but all was black. He even wondered if was in his own room.
From within the black, a face peered out at him; pale with red eyes, himself in a sense. But the rest of him was absent.
It was the black side of him, the monster.
Ah, trying to stop what you want. Pathetic fool.
We have the same body, the same soul and intent...What can you do about it?
As a vision, the true Alucard stood there within the blackness of his mind. He spat words right back at it.
No...I don't have a soul any longer. Intent can be bargained.
And for your last request, I'll show you what I'll do about it.
He started to attack the black Alucard in his own mind, literally, but the black side of him was right.
Neither of them could win, they were on borrowed time as it was.
On the outside, Alucard's body sat there unmoving, his pupils gone from his eyes, leaving him to stare blankly ahead at nothingness as if he were in a stupor.
Seras lowered her head to get a better look, seeing him sit there like a puppet who had his strings cut made her wonder...what was going on?
Slowly, as if her limbs were creaking as she moved, she turned her body, and walked quietly as she could to him, slowly again, as if approaching a sleeping bear. She knelt down a foot away from him and stared at him.
It was as if he had been shut off, or indeed had his strings cut; his body was limp and his eyes were very out of focus, and he moved not an inch. Her curiosity got the best of her, as it always did even in times of peril, she crept closer like a cat, staring at him with wide, curious and very apprehensive and wary, dark red eyes.
Inside his head, Alucard heard nothing. The battle raged, black Alucard was lifting his opposite up by his hair and tried to choke him, which was unsuccessful as he was already dead.
You are an amusing game to play, Alucard, but we both know that you cannot last much longer...
The regular Alucard looked at him, the strain on his face and in his eyes told the black side of him as much, but he would fight.
He took a bite out of the black's hair and continued to tear at it, until he fell to the ground and rolled to get up again. Lunging into the blackness of his opposite with his teeth bare, he growled.
Even so, I will fight...Hmmm...You forget, I find this amusing as well.
The real Alucard lunged at his face; there had to be some way to stop this. Even the thought of Seras did not enter his mind.
Seras reached out a hand, sitting on the heels of her boots, edging closer carefully. Her hand recoiled the second she could have touched him, afraid that if she did, something could be unleashed.
Good OR bad, it could have been either. It was risky to try it, anyway, for the black side was always a little stronger than Alucard in his deterioration period.
Every five seconds, she inched closer and closer, like a cat stalking it's pretty, peering at him closely as if to read his mind (but that was a futile attempt).
Black Alucard hid behind the darkness again at this sudden lunge, making his other self-fall slightly but then gain his balance again.
You see, it is pointless to try and stop me...You are me, if one of us is killed, even here, we are both gone.
Black's voice resonated from the very pit of Alucard's being, and stained the outskirts of his mind. The regular Alucard fell to his knees in a huddle; he had a point, they would both die.
Just as black Alucard closed in on him, the other could see the outside of his body through his own eyes like a film, but not able to do anything else but that.
He saw his Police Girl, and that was it; the one thing that he was missing. He looked up to the face of his black self.
Not yet...You may be apart of me, but I will never let you hurt anyone again...
Surprised at himself, he jumped at black again, knocking him down this time. But it did not hold him for long as he disappeared with stealth again.
As Seras crept closer to study him, she was starting to hear and imagine things that were not there. She jumped, reeling back as she could have sworn she saw a movement come from him, though then again she could have been imagining it.
Her hand in front of her face, and her other hand propping her up from behind as she nearly fell over her knees backwards, she pushed herself back onto her hands and knees and crept up to where she was before, and continued slower.
Everything in her gut was telling her this was a danger zone...but...
Staring around him, he knew that the blackness was quicker and more devious than he could ever be, especially in his deterioration. But the one-second's glimpse of his servant gave him a rare flicker of hope; she was still there, even when he was fighting himself.
His eyes glowed a bright red and his hair grew out incredibly long, swirling all around his form.
Ahh...I see you are getting into this...
The black side of him called out to his other side, but the real Alucard only responded with a tilt of his head and said,
Tsk, the only time you actually say something obvious, and you still sound like an idiot.
Alucard laughed with a tinge of vengeance mixed in, it being more insane than anything else. He did not need to move to know where he was now, in the blackness everything seemed to clear.
He extended his growing hair out into spikes and threw them into black Alucard, who it came to him as an unexpected surprise. The black Alucard managed to get out of it quickly enough; his other grinned. He made him run where he had originally planned.
He disappeared and reappeared behind his black self and knocked him down to the ground with a double slam of his elbow.
For her, she was close enough to him now. She looked down upon his limp arm that rested atop of his bent knee and carefully brought forth her right hand, and rested it on his arm.
She peered at his emotionally dead face, his eyes blank and half-open, in a deep trance...
The currently insane Alucard stood over black, who looked up wondering how that could have been possible. The black side lunged forward but his other merely sidestepped, stuck out his leg in the process and his black side fell again.
Not exactly a cunning attack, but it worked.
I will not be fooled anymore...this is too much fun; come on, attack, if you are supposed to be so evil...
The insane Alucard mocked, making him sound even more sarcastic and evil, though, he was still in no comparison to the black Alucard on the floor.
Black Alucard sat and stared up, using his blackness around him to surround the insane Alucard and lift him into the air. It tightened around his body, twisting arms and bending knees the wrong way.
But the insane Alucard still had his sardonic grin upon his face. He just extended his hair once black thought he had him down, and twisted his wrists and broke free of the iron-like hold. Having a good grip on his black side himself, it grabbed a firm hold of the black Alucard.
Any last words? No? Hehehe...
The insane Alucard spit out at the speechless black. Giving him not a second more, his hair melted all over black's body and absorbed him completely.
It was over, for now...
Seras' muscles twitched, and it caused her hand to tighten momentarily on his arm. She blinked, and she moved not an inch...wondering what could have been going on.
AN: This sure was an interesting chapter to write...o_O...