Pure evil cannot know love ...
*************
Ferio had been wrong, morning had come, they we're still in the middle of a corridor, with barely any light. Why? Because Fuu didn't want to see, Fuu didn't want HIM to see.
You know what it's like don't you? The feeling that you need someone. The feeling that you need someone so bad, it hurts, but the fact is that there is nobody, there's nobody there for you. That's how I feel. Empty, and alone. I need to cry, I need to let free the flows of my heart. There's so much I can take, but my heart, seems to be stone, a wall of ice, that can't be melt, I want to scream, out into the nothingness, to the sky, to the angels. All I want . is to forget, to forget all the pain I know, but my heart bleeds, and I'm not the one that cut its wounds. There's someone speaking to me, but I don't know whom. And all I seem to remember is that I'm lying unconscious, in the arms of the man I love and I don't want to wake up, never .
All of this Fuu thought just before waking. Tears still sliding down her cheeks. A smile grew on Ferios lips, as he could once again see her beautiful, sparkling eyes. But, the glow had been taken away, and she remained practically lifeless in his arms.
Ferio was holding Fuu in his arms as tightly as he could. He felt as if at any moment now, someone would come to take her away from him, and he would never bare such a thing.
Fuu ... I ...
There's no need for you to stay ... this is my battle. She tried to sound as courageous as she could, but her voice was shaking.
It's our battle this time he said gripping her tightly. He remembered the last time she had said something similar to him, in the forest of silence. Why do you do this to me Fuu ...? He thought (only that last phrase)
'Mirror Mirror on the wall, who is destined, willing and who's faith was already decided for him ... to die ...'
'Take her away, body and soul, by sending him to the underworld ...'
'Take him out of his mind by pushing her of the cliff, she is so near the edge of already ...'
'But only one truly has it, the deep deep dream of eternal slumber, of death. Now now ... who could it be?'
Fuu's eyes shot open as she violently clenched her fists to Ferios shirt. She could hear it again, the voice that drove her into madness.
'Will it be, the charming prince ... or the pitiful young, dying girl'
-Your not taking Fuu away! Ferio screamed
'Well then, I guess I have to go with you then now don't I?'
-Never! Fuu shocked
'Valhalla .'
-What? Ferio said
'Valhalla ... Paradise ... Don't you wish her to join all the ones she has ever loved? They were all taken away from her, all but one ...'
Fuu's flesh had the touch of cold steel
-And h- how might you know?
'I can read your heart. Something he can't do, but what I don't understand his why he is the only one ... who can melt the ice walls around it. It's the only thing protecting you completely from me, for, you would be mine already.'
-Your never taking her away! I'll never give her up so easily! You want her, you gonna have to come through me!
'You can't see it, but I've already done so ... '
Fuu's and Ferio's eyes widened.
-What? I don't ... What? Ferio said
'Your weakness, the voice added, his her ...'
Ferio turned stunned to Fuu. He was afraid something would come to harm again. He dropped to his knees, and held Fuu in his arms again. Suddenly, he felt something cold and wet, it wasn't her tears, no, it was, blood. His eyes widened.
-Fuu, please, why won't you heal yourself ...
'The wounds she suffers from, accept for the small visible ones aren't physical, she dies, to join me, emotionally ... you've already forgotten? Haven't I told you that she will die by your doings?'
The faint light that shone disappeared, and Fuu managed to break free. The last thing that Ferio heard was the running steps of Fuu. The running steps of Fuu, running away, from him ...
Darkness chased Fuu, as all blood was leaving Fuu's heart. The despair in her was so deep, it was unbearable, nothing could be done, there was no purpose of her being here, only pain. And only pain did she know.
***************
Ferio was soon found by Clef. He was worried by the Prince's attitude. Ferio did not speak, he retreated to his room, without even giving Clef the slightest excuse.
Clef was even more worried when he found out that Fuu seemed to be missing, and knowing the strong feelings the prince had always had for her, he connected the prince's strange behaviour with that last fact.
He entered the room without knocking, to find Ferio lying on the bed, seeming completely disturbed, he seemed on the verge of tears, and as he noticed the presence, he simply said
I can't get out. It won't let me, and ... if anything happens to her ... it will all be my fault, why can't I just ...
Ferio, do YOU know where Fuu is? Clef interupted
No ... she won't tell me! Why won't she tell me?
If you can speak to her then ...
Her voice still echoes in my mind : "Listen to me carefully . I followed my instinct, it took me home ... Slow as I go and I wait, it seems to be over ...All that I can say ... is that my life, has become such a waste ..." Ferio's voice was broken completely. He seemed to be speaking to himself. She's making me lose control, it's unbearable...
***************
Fuu had stumbled and fallen to the ground more times then she could count.
Your world, Ferio, it cannot attract me anymore, you have to make it stop ... before, my end comes. I'm no longer pure, they are no more secrets in me, they've been revealed to you ... everything ... There is no more truth, not in me ... You have always deserved it, now you do, so now I die ... You have to stop what your doing, stop trying to help me, to save me, do yourself a favour, please, be my enemy ... My heart will never stop to bleed, I can't ignore it ... My thoughts are no longer mine, I've made to many mistakes ... I don't know who to blame ... but now, I blame myself. Let me run. Soon maybe you'll want to forget, maybe I should because your memory is to painful for me think about, but ... And I don't want your sympathy. My life is nothing more, then the cause of your sufferings, please believe me when I say don't, don't!
**************
I let these words pin me down. I waited, and now it's over, MY life, it's nothing more, then ... it's always just been, love for you ...
***************
What you want is impossible! Your impossible ... I wish ... All I want ... is to forget ...
***************
- I will find a solution. I won't fail you. All I want, is you back. There's a limit to your suffering, I know. All that I need, Fuu ... Is you, and me. Choose your path carefully. Listen to me, you can block away my physical appearance, but I won't stop, no matter how much it hurts, I won't let you fall away, not from me ... never ...
***************
- How far must I run for you to stop?
***************
- I'll never stop! Where ever you go, please , save a place for me. I'll find you. I promise.
***************
- Where am I heading? ...
Fuu was out of breath, out of strength, and out of will, whatever she would try, in all the people in the worlds, there was only one person she couldn't fight, and it was him, Ferio
Ferio ... be quick ... I don't understand ... no one waits, or believes ...
******************
Some things can't be kept Fuu. I know everything there is to know now, I'll find you, and you, will remain you, no matter what. You have your regrets, and so do I ...
Ferio found himself sitting up, he looked up at Clef, who was watching him completely amazed, he didn't hear the entire conversation, since he wasn't able to hear Fuu speak.
How did you ...? Have you found Fuu, has she told you where-
Ferio cut him off quickly by getting up. And it was only then that Clef noticed the wounds all over Ferio's body.
Ferio you need help, you can't possibly think abou-
Some people are more important then me, especially right now, she needs me, and she waits, so I must go.
That was the last thing Ferio said to Clef before he left the room.
****************
I'm lost, I'm standing in what appears to be, the middle of nowhere. Why is it that I don't recognise anything anymore. For me, it's simply the beginning of my end, farewell...
Not so fast there! You've already forgotten me?
Fuu stepped back.
I'm sorry, if I ever let you come here. I shouldn't have ... I only hope to be forgiven.
That won't be hard. You asked me to come Fuu. So I came. I did as you wanted, but there is only one thing I could never do for you ...
And what would that be?
Leave you alone ... Fuu come back with me, your exhausted, and you've lost more then just a little blood.
What would a little more do?
Don't think about it! Fuu ... I ... AH-
He fell to his knees in pain. She ran to his side without hesitation. And with the last amount of strength left in her, she healed him.
No Fuu don't!
And he hadn't finished his sentence, he was healed, and she was on the ground in a small pool of her blood.
The wounds I healed, they were worth it, because I've caused them, while I was keeping you away.
Fuu ... I've already forgiven you, what more must I do? The wounds you suffer from, I've caused them, but I ... I can't do anything.
Just the sight of you ... is enough to kill me ... Fuu said crying. But the only thing, that could help ... its for you to forget ... forget me, and I'll stop believing, and you won't have to suffer anymore, just me ... in silence, I'll be the one who loves you in silence. I can't bare for you to know everything, all of the darkness in my soul, the dirty images of death, the sound of it ...
Fuu, you can't ask me something like that, just to know your pain kills me as well, you don't know what this does to me, to see you like this.
I don't need pity ...
Its not pity! This is me getting killed! he screamed, Your killing me! The things you do to me Fuu ... This is not me pitying you Fuu, it's me loving you, they are some things that you can't let go, because I know that if you leave, you'll die ... If you leave ...
I don't want to ... I don't want to join him, not by his side, I don't want him to take me, pure evil cannot know love. If he made you understand, believe, if he made you know everything, I can't ... Fuu shook her head violently, good-bye ... She got up. I love you. She simply said. And she walked away.
Flash back **
Your not the same Fuu I used to know, she didn't use to give up on the things she loved. Give up now, and you give up on Cephiro, on yourself ... and on me ... He can't take you Fuu, not from me ... your mine Fuu, and I love you ... The Fuu I knew, she would never give up on the one she loved ... Under the ice I can see ...
'Under the ice ... how can you? ... unless ...'
Fuu seemed lost, she was staring blankly at Ferio, how could he know, that deep dark secret she had always kept. She was not supposed to love, it was forbidden.
You can't live like this Fuu, you can't lock up all your feelings inside you, you can't make me believe that you've forgotten everything, and ... you can't make me believe that you won't ... or that you don't love me ... because now I know ... and no, your not alone.
End of Flashback **
Ferio still spoke
That's when he knew ... he knew that his plan had worked, now ... I know ... everything ... That's when ... it happened ...
Ferio ran to her and pinned her to the floor.
See ... the problem is ... I love you too ... And right then, Ferio kissed her and the ice melted around her heart, a sea of sorrow washed over her, as she held him tightly, crying ...
I love you so damn much ... Fuu said.
It hurts, I know ..., I believe ... Ferio added concluding.
'There something that you haven't noticed Ferio ... what your doing ... is the same thing that Zagato had done to your sister Emeraude ... and she ended up dead! The voice gave an evil laugh. And he repeated the words Ferio had said : I will never stop Fuu! I won't stop, no matter how much it hurts, I won't let you fall away, not from me ... never ...!'
Ferio froze
'But it's not all for the worst, because now you know as well, that she belongs in the deep shadows with me.'
Never! Son of a Bitch! You don't give up do you?
'Unfortunately, you'll brake before I do! Fuu comes first.'
Ferio looked back at Fuu, she was slowly backing up, and she hit a tree, she was trying not cry, not again ... but she couldn't help it ... Ferio ran back to her side and took her hands
It's ok Fuu, don't think about it.
She looked at him
Your just like him! Now you know everything, he knows all that can make me weak! It's all his fault, if you know ... he knew that, that to would make me fall, you knowing, everything ...
She collapsed to ground
I don't know everything Fuu ...
You know why I'm crying! She yelled
Yes ... you still feel responsible for my sisters death ...
I KILLED her!! She screamed Don't you get it? How can you even look at me after what I did! She was... your last relative, the only person, that could truly understand you ...
That's not true ... there's still you ...
Stop it!!
No!
'Just like Zagato ...'
Fuck off!! Ferio yelled out to the air. Fuu's not evil! There's no darkness in her heart, not pure darkness anyway! You can't see-
'The light? There is no more light inside her, you can't se it, because you don't want to, but deep down you know ... because of me.'
Ferio gripped Fuu tightly.
And I'm not letting go! He shouted.
***************
Time stops ... and the being still lives in your heart.
_ _ _
Taiga : Liadel, lay off the Heavy Metal will you !!!!
Liadel : YOU, stop the : I'm a cow thing !!!!
Mimi : I'm a cow, can't you see, I live in the country MOOOOOOO I'm a cow !
Taiga : How did she get here !?!?
Liadel : I don't know * kicks Mimi out on her behind*
Taiga : Final Fantasy is an RPG, lalalalalalalalala.
Liadel : ...
_ _ _
I want to thank everybody who reviewed the last chapter! And if your all still a little mixed up ... it's kinda natural ... I hoped you enjoyed, so please, read and review!!
OH! And by the way ... I still don' own Rayearth! I'd like too but ... you know ... Clamp just won't sell ...
*************
Ferio had been wrong, morning had come, they we're still in the middle of a corridor, with barely any light. Why? Because Fuu didn't want to see, Fuu didn't want HIM to see.
You know what it's like don't you? The feeling that you need someone. The feeling that you need someone so bad, it hurts, but the fact is that there is nobody, there's nobody there for you. That's how I feel. Empty, and alone. I need to cry, I need to let free the flows of my heart. There's so much I can take, but my heart, seems to be stone, a wall of ice, that can't be melt, I want to scream, out into the nothingness, to the sky, to the angels. All I want . is to forget, to forget all the pain I know, but my heart bleeds, and I'm not the one that cut its wounds. There's someone speaking to me, but I don't know whom. And all I seem to remember is that I'm lying unconscious, in the arms of the man I love and I don't want to wake up, never .
All of this Fuu thought just before waking. Tears still sliding down her cheeks. A smile grew on Ferios lips, as he could once again see her beautiful, sparkling eyes. But, the glow had been taken away, and she remained practically lifeless in his arms.
Ferio was holding Fuu in his arms as tightly as he could. He felt as if at any moment now, someone would come to take her away from him, and he would never bare such a thing.
Fuu ... I ...
There's no need for you to stay ... this is my battle. She tried to sound as courageous as she could, but her voice was shaking.
It's our battle this time he said gripping her tightly. He remembered the last time she had said something similar to him, in the forest of silence. Why do you do this to me Fuu ...? He thought (only that last phrase)
'Mirror Mirror on the wall, who is destined, willing and who's faith was already decided for him ... to die ...'
'Take her away, body and soul, by sending him to the underworld ...'
'Take him out of his mind by pushing her of the cliff, she is so near the edge of already ...'
'But only one truly has it, the deep deep dream of eternal slumber, of death. Now now ... who could it be?'
Fuu's eyes shot open as she violently clenched her fists to Ferios shirt. She could hear it again, the voice that drove her into madness.
'Will it be, the charming prince ... or the pitiful young, dying girl'
-Your not taking Fuu away! Ferio screamed
'Well then, I guess I have to go with you then now don't I?'
-Never! Fuu shocked
'Valhalla .'
-What? Ferio said
'Valhalla ... Paradise ... Don't you wish her to join all the ones she has ever loved? They were all taken away from her, all but one ...'
Fuu's flesh had the touch of cold steel
-And h- how might you know?
'I can read your heart. Something he can't do, but what I don't understand his why he is the only one ... who can melt the ice walls around it. It's the only thing protecting you completely from me, for, you would be mine already.'
-Your never taking her away! I'll never give her up so easily! You want her, you gonna have to come through me!
'You can't see it, but I've already done so ... '
Fuu's and Ferio's eyes widened.
-What? I don't ... What? Ferio said
'Your weakness, the voice added, his her ...'
Ferio turned stunned to Fuu. He was afraid something would come to harm again. He dropped to his knees, and held Fuu in his arms again. Suddenly, he felt something cold and wet, it wasn't her tears, no, it was, blood. His eyes widened.
-Fuu, please, why won't you heal yourself ...
'The wounds she suffers from, accept for the small visible ones aren't physical, she dies, to join me, emotionally ... you've already forgotten? Haven't I told you that she will die by your doings?'
The faint light that shone disappeared, and Fuu managed to break free. The last thing that Ferio heard was the running steps of Fuu. The running steps of Fuu, running away, from him ...
Darkness chased Fuu, as all blood was leaving Fuu's heart. The despair in her was so deep, it was unbearable, nothing could be done, there was no purpose of her being here, only pain. And only pain did she know.
***************
Ferio was soon found by Clef. He was worried by the Prince's attitude. Ferio did not speak, he retreated to his room, without even giving Clef the slightest excuse.
Clef was even more worried when he found out that Fuu seemed to be missing, and knowing the strong feelings the prince had always had for her, he connected the prince's strange behaviour with that last fact.
He entered the room without knocking, to find Ferio lying on the bed, seeming completely disturbed, he seemed on the verge of tears, and as he noticed the presence, he simply said
I can't get out. It won't let me, and ... if anything happens to her ... it will all be my fault, why can't I just ...
Ferio, do YOU know where Fuu is? Clef interupted
No ... she won't tell me! Why won't she tell me?
If you can speak to her then ...
Her voice still echoes in my mind : "Listen to me carefully . I followed my instinct, it took me home ... Slow as I go and I wait, it seems to be over ...All that I can say ... is that my life, has become such a waste ..." Ferio's voice was broken completely. He seemed to be speaking to himself. She's making me lose control, it's unbearable...
***************
Fuu had stumbled and fallen to the ground more times then she could count.
Your world, Ferio, it cannot attract me anymore, you have to make it stop ... before, my end comes. I'm no longer pure, they are no more secrets in me, they've been revealed to you ... everything ... There is no more truth, not in me ... You have always deserved it, now you do, so now I die ... You have to stop what your doing, stop trying to help me, to save me, do yourself a favour, please, be my enemy ... My heart will never stop to bleed, I can't ignore it ... My thoughts are no longer mine, I've made to many mistakes ... I don't know who to blame ... but now, I blame myself. Let me run. Soon maybe you'll want to forget, maybe I should because your memory is to painful for me think about, but ... And I don't want your sympathy. My life is nothing more, then the cause of your sufferings, please believe me when I say don't, don't!
**************
I let these words pin me down. I waited, and now it's over, MY life, it's nothing more, then ... it's always just been, love for you ...
***************
What you want is impossible! Your impossible ... I wish ... All I want ... is to forget ...
***************
- I will find a solution. I won't fail you. All I want, is you back. There's a limit to your suffering, I know. All that I need, Fuu ... Is you, and me. Choose your path carefully. Listen to me, you can block away my physical appearance, but I won't stop, no matter how much it hurts, I won't let you fall away, not from me ... never ...
***************
- How far must I run for you to stop?
***************
- I'll never stop! Where ever you go, please , save a place for me. I'll find you. I promise.
***************
- Where am I heading? ...
Fuu was out of breath, out of strength, and out of will, whatever she would try, in all the people in the worlds, there was only one person she couldn't fight, and it was him, Ferio
Ferio ... be quick ... I don't understand ... no one waits, or believes ...
******************
Some things can't be kept Fuu. I know everything there is to know now, I'll find you, and you, will remain you, no matter what. You have your regrets, and so do I ...
Ferio found himself sitting up, he looked up at Clef, who was watching him completely amazed, he didn't hear the entire conversation, since he wasn't able to hear Fuu speak.
How did you ...? Have you found Fuu, has she told you where-
Ferio cut him off quickly by getting up. And it was only then that Clef noticed the wounds all over Ferio's body.
Ferio you need help, you can't possibly think abou-
Some people are more important then me, especially right now, she needs me, and she waits, so I must go.
That was the last thing Ferio said to Clef before he left the room.
****************
I'm lost, I'm standing in what appears to be, the middle of nowhere. Why is it that I don't recognise anything anymore. For me, it's simply the beginning of my end, farewell...
Not so fast there! You've already forgotten me?
Fuu stepped back.
I'm sorry, if I ever let you come here. I shouldn't have ... I only hope to be forgiven.
That won't be hard. You asked me to come Fuu. So I came. I did as you wanted, but there is only one thing I could never do for you ...
And what would that be?
Leave you alone ... Fuu come back with me, your exhausted, and you've lost more then just a little blood.
What would a little more do?
Don't think about it! Fuu ... I ... AH-
He fell to his knees in pain. She ran to his side without hesitation. And with the last amount of strength left in her, she healed him.
No Fuu don't!
And he hadn't finished his sentence, he was healed, and she was on the ground in a small pool of her blood.
The wounds I healed, they were worth it, because I've caused them, while I was keeping you away.
Fuu ... I've already forgiven you, what more must I do? The wounds you suffer from, I've caused them, but I ... I can't do anything.
Just the sight of you ... is enough to kill me ... Fuu said crying. But the only thing, that could help ... its for you to forget ... forget me, and I'll stop believing, and you won't have to suffer anymore, just me ... in silence, I'll be the one who loves you in silence. I can't bare for you to know everything, all of the darkness in my soul, the dirty images of death, the sound of it ...
Fuu, you can't ask me something like that, just to know your pain kills me as well, you don't know what this does to me, to see you like this.
I don't need pity ...
Its not pity! This is me getting killed! he screamed, Your killing me! The things you do to me Fuu ... This is not me pitying you Fuu, it's me loving you, they are some things that you can't let go, because I know that if you leave, you'll die ... If you leave ...
I don't want to ... I don't want to join him, not by his side, I don't want him to take me, pure evil cannot know love. If he made you understand, believe, if he made you know everything, I can't ... Fuu shook her head violently, good-bye ... She got up. I love you. She simply said. And she walked away.
Flash back **
Your not the same Fuu I used to know, she didn't use to give up on the things she loved. Give up now, and you give up on Cephiro, on yourself ... and on me ... He can't take you Fuu, not from me ... your mine Fuu, and I love you ... The Fuu I knew, she would never give up on the one she loved ... Under the ice I can see ...
'Under the ice ... how can you? ... unless ...'
Fuu seemed lost, she was staring blankly at Ferio, how could he know, that deep dark secret she had always kept. She was not supposed to love, it was forbidden.
You can't live like this Fuu, you can't lock up all your feelings inside you, you can't make me believe that you've forgotten everything, and ... you can't make me believe that you won't ... or that you don't love me ... because now I know ... and no, your not alone.
End of Flashback **
Ferio still spoke
That's when he knew ... he knew that his plan had worked, now ... I know ... everything ... That's when ... it happened ...
Ferio ran to her and pinned her to the floor.
See ... the problem is ... I love you too ... And right then, Ferio kissed her and the ice melted around her heart, a sea of sorrow washed over her, as she held him tightly, crying ...
I love you so damn much ... Fuu said.
It hurts, I know ..., I believe ... Ferio added concluding.
'There something that you haven't noticed Ferio ... what your doing ... is the same thing that Zagato had done to your sister Emeraude ... and she ended up dead! The voice gave an evil laugh. And he repeated the words Ferio had said : I will never stop Fuu! I won't stop, no matter how much it hurts, I won't let you fall away, not from me ... never ...!'
Ferio froze
'But it's not all for the worst, because now you know as well, that she belongs in the deep shadows with me.'
Never! Son of a Bitch! You don't give up do you?
'Unfortunately, you'll brake before I do! Fuu comes first.'
Ferio looked back at Fuu, she was slowly backing up, and she hit a tree, she was trying not cry, not again ... but she couldn't help it ... Ferio ran back to her side and took her hands
It's ok Fuu, don't think about it.
She looked at him
Your just like him! Now you know everything, he knows all that can make me weak! It's all his fault, if you know ... he knew that, that to would make me fall, you knowing, everything ...
She collapsed to ground
I don't know everything Fuu ...
You know why I'm crying! She yelled
Yes ... you still feel responsible for my sisters death ...
I KILLED her!! She screamed Don't you get it? How can you even look at me after what I did! She was... your last relative, the only person, that could truly understand you ...
That's not true ... there's still you ...
Stop it!!
No!
'Just like Zagato ...'
Fuck off!! Ferio yelled out to the air. Fuu's not evil! There's no darkness in her heart, not pure darkness anyway! You can't see-
'The light? There is no more light inside her, you can't se it, because you don't want to, but deep down you know ... because of me.'
Ferio gripped Fuu tightly.
And I'm not letting go! He shouted.
***************
Time stops ... and the being still lives in your heart.
_ _ _
Taiga : Liadel, lay off the Heavy Metal will you !!!!
Liadel : YOU, stop the : I'm a cow thing !!!!
Mimi : I'm a cow, can't you see, I live in the country MOOOOOOO I'm a cow !
Taiga : How did she get here !?!?
Liadel : I don't know * kicks Mimi out on her behind*
Taiga : Final Fantasy is an RPG, lalalalalalalalala.
Liadel : ...
_ _ _
I want to thank everybody who reviewed the last chapter! And if your all still a little mixed up ... it's kinda natural ... I hoped you enjoyed, so please, read and review!!
OH! And by the way ... I still don' own Rayearth! I'd like too but ... you know ... Clamp just won't sell ...