~Sorry… I've just had the urge to do a songfic for the longest time… it's my first so please be easy on me… and please… enjoy. ^_^~
Kurt was silently crying beside Scott. He wasn't looking at the Goth, it was too unbearable to him. He looked helplessly at Scott though. Scott was staring at Rogue, his face pale and eyes blank with disbelief.
"Kurt!" Scott suddenly said making Kurt jump with a sob. "Hurry! Get the others!" Scott said hastily.
Kurt immediately teleported away. He didn't want to leave Rogue, but he couldn't even look at her and he needed to get her help. Not only had blood been coming from her stab wound but her wrists had been cut badly from the shackles. Kurt just couldn't handle it.
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"Kurt! Hurry! Go get the others!" Scott yelled as he snapped into reality and it was soon followed by a bamf.
Scott gripped the girl in his arms. She was looking at him but her eyes looked distant.
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Catch me as I fall
Say you're here and it's all over now
Rogue knew he was there, knew he was holding her. He had come for her. She could barely believe it. At the end he had come; it was all over. Her wrists ached painfully but the metal was no longer cutting into them, the knife was no longer being twisted, and Scott thankfully hadn't tried to pull it out.
Speaking to the atmosphere
No one's here and I fall into myself
As her thoughts wondered she knew that was how she had lived her life. She had made herself invisible, unreachable, and the truth that she had been successful; that no one, no one really tried to open her up; tortured her to no end. They didn't know her, none of them did. Well, maybe Logan, but she hadn't talked to anyone. She had hidden her feelings and thoughts from everyone and made them believe it was what she wanted. The sad part was that they had fallen for it. There were two telepaths that she had lived with and she had easily deceived even them. She had hidden everything while her insides died. She had remained alone; completely alone and unnoticed. She may have been buried in misery at times, but at least she had spared the others…
I know I can stop the pain if I will it all away
If I will it all away
Hiding, unseen, and dying inside had been so painful. It could all end now; she just had to stop fighting. Stop fighting the darkness which had so swiftly come to wait for her, to so swiftly try to engulf her. Now all she had to do was give in before the others saved her, before they ripped this chance from her.
So way wasn't she doing it? Letting herself go?
Her eyes focused. Scott.
Don't turn away
Don't give into the pain
'Don't turn away from me Rogue! Stay! I know it hurts but you're strong, so much stronger then me… Scott pleaded mentally.
Don't try to hide
Though they're screaming your name
Don't close your eyes
God knows what lies behind them
Don't turn out the light
I know you Rogue, not as much as I'd like to, but I do and I know you can make it! I know it must seem easier to turn away from the light but please don't! I need you now. Don't close your eyes! Hold on! Scott became frightened. He could see her fading; diminishing. Her eyes had always been hard to read, but there had been so many emotions behind them all the same. You could at least always see that. And you could lose yourself in them, fall into the depths of her soul. Now they were frighteningly dull.
Never sleep never die!
"Stay with me Rogue." Scott said quietly, squeezing her gently.
I'm frightened by what I see
Her eyes changed, showing an emotion. She was begging him to let her go. He couldn't though, instead he tightened his grip. That look frightened him though. What could be so bad as to make her want to leave? It wasn't only her eyes though. She was so pale! Blood was pouring from her wrists onto his clothes, hands, and arms. She had a huge bruise on her cheek and then of course her stab wound.
But somehow I know that there's much more to come
Rogue, stay with me! There's so much more to come; for the both of us and if it's together, great! There's so much more to life then touch though! There's so much you can do, and so much more you can experience! Scott thought, but he couldn't form the words to say it and the silence seemed to be saying everything anyway.
Immobilized by my fear
And soon to be blinded by tears
He was so afraid that she was going to give in. There was so much pain in her eyes and he could see her begging him to let her go.
His eyes became weighted by tears. He couldn't cry though! He needed to stay strong for Rogue. She needed him to stay strong!
I can stop the pain if I will it all away
If I will it all away
She was tired of fighting, she wanted to give up; it hurt to fight. She wanted it to stop. Everything! There had to be something better waiting in the darkness. Not so much pain, not so much loneliness. Oblivion would be better then this loneliness, longing, futile hope, betrayal, and pain!
Let meh go Scott, why are y'holdin' on? Can't ya see mah pain? Can't y'understand? Rogue pleaded. Ah need ya t'let me go!
Don't turn away
Don't give into the pain
Don't try to hide
Though they're screaming your name
No! I'm not going to let you give up! We're the X-men and we fight to the end. Stay with me Rogue! Scott thought back, pulling her closer to him and holding her tightly against him. He was hurting to see her like this. He had never seen her give up before!
The suppressed tears began to well in his eyes and when Rogue let out a low moan of pain they fell onto his cheeks and he cried silently.
Don't close your eyes
God knows what lies behind them
Don't turn off the light
Never sleep never die!
Scott looked at her and pleading eyes met pleading eyes; Rogue asking Scott to let her go and Scott asking her not to ask that of him. He couldn't do that, he cared to much. He lover her too much.
Fallen angels at my feet
God she's beautiful. He thought to himself. Even though she was in horrible physical shape, his black angel remained stunning.
Whispered voices at my ear
She wanted him to tell her why he was holding on. After all those times of so thoughtlessly being pushed aside he sure was trying hard to hold onto her.
Why was he crying? Don't worry Scott, it will be over soon. Ah will be out o' yer way and everythin' can go on peacefully, without meh.
Death before my eyes.
She was still slipping away, faster by the seconds, fighting to not fight. She was going, fading, leaving him.
Lying next to me I fear
She was going to give in! Don't do it Rogue! Stay! Stay for Kurt, for Kitty, for me!
She beckons me should I five in
Could she hurt that much? Could she really want it to end? What was she thinking? He wanted to ask her out loud to hold on but he was wondering weather he should as her at all. She hurt so much!
Where were the others?!
Upon my end should I begin
Forsaking all I've fallen for
I rise to meet the end
Rogue sighed and then allowed her eyes to close…
Don't turn away
Don't give into the pain
Don't try to hide
Though they're screaming your name
Don't close your eyes
God knows what lies behind them
Don't turn out the light
Never scream never die!
"No!" Scott said as more tears streamed down his face. "Rogue, don't do that! Open you're eyes Rogue! Rogue!" He said desperately shaking her. Gently at first and then more vigorously. "Rogue please! Open your eyes! I love you!" He said desperately. He didn't truly know it was true but once he said it he knew it he knew it was and it was as if a huge hole formed in his heart. He had only just really found her… when… this! She couldn't have just left! She had to be there still! He couldn't check for he dared not touch her wrists
He pulled her body closer to him and he held her desperately placing her head under his chin. She didn't respond… at all…
Don't turn away
Don't try to hide
Don't close your eyes
Don't turn out the light
Don't turn away
Don't try to hide
Don't close your eyes
Don't turn out the light…
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Thank you all for not killing me. lol. My step-sister was ready to strangle me after reading the last chapter… but here I am…I survived. Thought I did have to write this about the same day she read it…. *shifty glance* CASSIE! Grrr… lol Anyway… thanx for the reviews! I'm glad you all enjoyed. ^_^
Original: Erm… I did leave it like that? Is this fast enough for you? Erm.. I'm assuming no… . What's going to happen when Logan sees her? You're just going to have to wait and find out. *evil grin* And the Brotherhood's reaction? I didn't really think of that. I don't know how they'd even find out… or why… or anything… but if you have any suggestion… Same goes for with Mystique. How was this for Scott's reaction though? Oh… and don't you just love the ending of this chapter as well? ^_^ *evil grin*
Beth: I am cruel aren't I? *shifty glance* I can't help it! *sniffles* It makes for a good story though doesn't it? Huh? *sniffles some more*
StRaWbErRiEs AnD BlUeBeRrIeS: . Sorry that hurt you to read.. I guess this wasn't much better? Sorry
York: I'm glad you like the way I write people! ^_^ That makes me happy… Yay! I'm doing this right! Ha ha! Lol.. anyway…
Terminatrix T-X: Had you on the edge of your seat? Hmm… I'll take that as a compliment to my writing ^_^ Sorry it took me so long to update though… Pwease forgive me and don't sick those headless chickens on me. If you do that… I might just have to take twice as long to update :P lol
Tobyas: He he… ^_^ suspense -_- Ain't it wonderful? Likey?
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