Natalie checked the address one last time, this was definitely the Holden residence. She still couldn't believe Roxy had married someone again, maybe it was for love this time. Her mother's first husband had been a rich gambler, one loss led to five which led to fifty and soon he'd been broke, he'd been her father, she barely remembered him but she knew that he and Roxy had never loved each other. As much as she despised her mother maybe love had changed her, no matter what issues Natalie had with her she still wanted her mother to be happy, as long as it didn't involve a bottle of booze and a day at the tracks. But as she looked around she concluded it had been for money, after all money was Roxy's motive for everything. Natalie took a deep breath and prepared to knock on the door but a hand on her shoulder made her jump back. She turned around and looked into Cristian's warm brown eyes.
"What are you doing here? Did you follow me?" she asked slightly annoyed, she could take care of herself, she didn't need a babysitter.
"Well, I was about to leave when I saw you get into a taxi and I wanted to make sure you were okay, I couldn't let you get hurt again."
"Again? What do you mean?" she asked looking into his eyes and she could see something in them that she wanted to take away and make better, she just didn't know what was haunting him or why she cared as much as she did, but she cared.
"It was my fault that you got in an accident, you were upset that night and after we talked I let you go, I knew the roads were icy and you were tired and still upset but I let you go anyway. You'll never know how sorry I am Natalie."
She looked into his eyes and an understanding came over her. "The funny thing is I think I do know how sorry you are, but you don't have to be. If there is one thing that I know about myself it's that no one can make me do anything that I don't want to do. Whatever happened that night was no one's fault." She put her hand on his cheek. "You have been an amazing friend these last few days and I can't thank you and the Davidsons enough... but I have to find answers about the things I can't remember. I can't live without knowing, it's too hard, that's why I needed to find Roxy, I need someone to tell me who I am."
"What if I tell you...everything."
"Will you? Will you really tell me the truth?"
"Anything you want, I promise."
"Okay," she took a deep breath, she was finally going to get answers. "Can-can we go somewhere private"
"I know a place."

Natalie sat in the front seat as Cristian drove, she had butterflies in her stomach, she was going to find out everything, there would be no more waking up in the middle of the night knowing she had remembered something but not knowing what, there would be no little Deja Vu incidents anymore, like when she bumped a vase of flowers in her room and they crashed to the floor, it was like she could see that she had done it before, or the time when she was walking down the stairs at the Llanfair, she just knew that she had walked down them before, there just weren't any memories attached with the feelings and she hated it, she felt like she was losing her mind, and if she didn't remember soon then she probably would.

Cristian sat down next to Natalie at the quarry, it was cold but not as cold as it had been a few days ago. Cristian figured that he owed it to her to tell her the truth, to be honest, to help her. If the truth was what she wanted then he was obligated to tell her, he needed to tell her. It was selfish of him to want to lessen his guilt by telling her the truth but he felt that it was the only way he could start to make up for what he had done.
"So what do you want to know?"
"Everything, I want to know why I came here and when and what I've been doing these years and e-everything."
Cristian saw her shiver.
"Are you alright?"
"Yeah, the doctor said that I might start to shiver or get really cold, I'm okay."
"Let's take you home, Dr. MacIver wanted you to rest for the rest of the week, you should be in bed."
"Just tell me first-,"
"I'll tell you when you're back in bed where you are suppost be, come on," he said putting a shoulder around her and leading her to his car.
Natalie got in and was thankful when he turned the heater on, the doctors had said that her temperature would fluctuate for the first few days and she was absolutely freezing.
She was laying in the snow.
The memory came quickly and left in a second but she remembered laying there, snow all around her, no way to move. She looked at her hands and saw they were shaking, and it wasn't because she was cold, that was one part of her life she didn't want to remember, she didn't want to remember laying in the freezing cold waiting for Seth to rescue her...
"Seth?" she whispered under her breath, why would she want him? She clenched her teeth in frustration, every memory led to another question. She absently moved closer to Cristian and he put his arm around her and she felt better, warmer. Out of everyone she trusted him the most, after all, he had saved her live, she would never be able to repay him for that, it was the greatest gift anyone had ever given her.