Chapter 3
I felt something warm on my cheek. I swatted it and rolled over. Cringing at how stiff I was. I still felt the warmth on my shoulder. I looked over at the window and saw the sun streaming in.
I scowled. How could it? The whole world was go on as if nothing had happened as if Malhon had never happened? How dare it, they? I would never be ready, I would never feel anything again. How could I? The last good thing I had was gone. I had nothing left. I wanted to crawl into a very deep hole and rejoin Malhon wherever he was. I felt so hallow, so empty.
I couldn't take it the sunshine, the birds, mixed with my tears and my fears. I cried out to God "How could you do this. What am I to do now? I can never go back to my father. How can you taunt me like this, how can you go on is nothing has happened. I'm not ready for sun, I'll never be. I have nothing, nothing to live so take me as well, I beg of you. Just please don't leave me alone, here, by myself," I sob.
"Ruth,"
I freeze and look around. Did I hear that.
"Ruth, my child,"
Oh this is great, I knew I shouldn't have taken any of that tea the Rabbi left. Now I'm hearing thing. "God, Father I beg of you take me now. I can't make here by myself, I have nothing left to live for. Why should I stay here?"
"Ruth! Do not say such things. I will take you when your times has come, till then you must wait."
I jumped "Who's there?" I ask.
"It is I, God, your father."
I suddenly feel very overwhelmed and bow down on my face. What else am I to do? Talking to God, okay I can do this.
"You are wrong, I didn't leave you here alone. I left you Naomi. She will need you in this time. Be kind to her and care for her like your own mother."
"What can I do? I feel so lost myself. Who will comfort me? Malhon is what kept me going and now he is gone." Did I just say that? Should I really be questioning God?!
"Do not worry about Malhon, he is with me and he is happy. He doesn't want you to be like this, he loves. He also loves his mother and wants her looked after."
I still feel doubt.
"Do not worry anymore my child. I am watching over you and I promise I have not forsaken you. You must go on. Remember the happy times but do not look back. I know it is hard now, but in time you will see it will be for the best."
I nodded my head. Well sort of I'm still of my face. "I will do my best" is all I can muster.
"I love you, and will never forsake you. Remember that always." Is God's finally boom.
"I love you, and you Malhon," I whisper and a tear falls.
"I love you too, and I'm watching you, always." I hear a whisper back and I know it's him, my Malhon.
I felt something warm on my cheek. I swatted it and rolled over. Cringing at how stiff I was. I still felt the warmth on my shoulder. I looked over at the window and saw the sun streaming in.
I scowled. How could it? The whole world was go on as if nothing had happened as if Malhon had never happened? How dare it, they? I would never be ready, I would never feel anything again. How could I? The last good thing I had was gone. I had nothing left. I wanted to crawl into a very deep hole and rejoin Malhon wherever he was. I felt so hallow, so empty.
I couldn't take it the sunshine, the birds, mixed with my tears and my fears. I cried out to God "How could you do this. What am I to do now? I can never go back to my father. How can you taunt me like this, how can you go on is nothing has happened. I'm not ready for sun, I'll never be. I have nothing, nothing to live so take me as well, I beg of you. Just please don't leave me alone, here, by myself," I sob.
"Ruth,"
I freeze and look around. Did I hear that.
"Ruth, my child,"
Oh this is great, I knew I shouldn't have taken any of that tea the Rabbi left. Now I'm hearing thing. "God, Father I beg of you take me now. I can't make here by myself, I have nothing left to live for. Why should I stay here?"
"Ruth! Do not say such things. I will take you when your times has come, till then you must wait."
I jumped "Who's there?" I ask.
"It is I, God, your father."
I suddenly feel very overwhelmed and bow down on my face. What else am I to do? Talking to God, okay I can do this.
"You are wrong, I didn't leave you here alone. I left you Naomi. She will need you in this time. Be kind to her and care for her like your own mother."
"What can I do? I feel so lost myself. Who will comfort me? Malhon is what kept me going and now he is gone." Did I just say that? Should I really be questioning God?!
"Do not worry about Malhon, he is with me and he is happy. He doesn't want you to be like this, he loves. He also loves his mother and wants her looked after."
I still feel doubt.
"Do not worry anymore my child. I am watching over you and I promise I have not forsaken you. You must go on. Remember the happy times but do not look back. I know it is hard now, but in time you will see it will be for the best."
I nodded my head. Well sort of I'm still of my face. "I will do my best" is all I can muster.
"I love you, and will never forsake you. Remember that always." Is God's finally boom.
"I love you, and you Malhon," I whisper and a tear falls.
"I love you too, and I'm watching you, always." I hear a whisper back and I know it's him, my Malhon.