Two Sides

Chapter 4

Tezuka washed his face under the tap water. He dried his hair with a towel and put his glasses on. There's so many things on his mind right now. He can't think clearly and lost his temper easily. And because of that the regulars has suffered more than 150 laps around the court within three days. They did it without big complain either. Only Eiji and Momo's whining were heard sometimes. The regulars knew the reason due to Tezuka's lack of patience.

It is, of course, Fuji.

The prodigy has been avoiding Tezuka since that 'incident'. Tezuka kept asking himself why, but couldn't find an answer. He took a deep breath and sat on the grass to relax.

Although he knew it won't help much.

Faintly, he heard footsteps behind him. Lifting his head up, he saw a pair of blue orbs staring at him.

Fuji?

Was it only my hallucination?

"Hi.." Fuji greeted and sat beside the captain.

Tezuka didn't know if it's good or bad that suddenly Fuji came to him like this. What would bring him here? Wasn't he always avoiding him these days?

"Un…" Tezuka replied and stared at Fuji.

He was smiling. The smile Tezuka missed so much.

"I heard that your uncle was put into into jail." Tezuka started a conversation.

Fuji nodded "Un.." How did you know?

Wait..., don't tell me...

"Sorry, that's all I can do. I knew he deserved more..., for lying his dirty hands on you.."

Fuji's eyes widened, but he quickly forced a smile again.What... what did you do that for..?

"Thanks..."

The smaller boy regretted how this conversation goes. He had a whole more important thing to tell Tezuka, but the words just won't come out his throat. He didn't want to see Tezuka's reaction.

Actually, he didn't want Tezuka to know about his leaving.

"Fuji…" Tezuka circled his arm around Fuji's shoulder.

The prodigy tingled, but the next second he found himself leaning his head closer to Tezuka. "Yes?"

Tezuka could feel Fuji's hair playing on his neck. He was almost breathless when he saw the boy's face. He had seen many of his face, his smile, tears and anger. But never he expects to see him like this. His eyes were full of sorrows.

Why…?

Even though he's smiling, why…those eyes…?

The captain grabbed Fuji's shoulder and laid him on the grass. He lost his self-control. It's funny… The ice-king, Tezuka Kunimitsu could feel like this. This out of control… This passionate… Even Tezuka didn't understand why. He only knew one thing. That it's only Fuji who can make him feel like this. The more he stared at the blue orbs, the more he felt like his heart will explode.

But Fuji didn't react a bit to Tezuka's action.

Not even a bit.

He just stared blankly at him.

This made Tezuka tightened his grip.

Why did you look at me with that empty gaze…?

Answer me!!!

Don't you want me anymore?

The taller guy pressed his lips to Fuji's. He can't bear the feeling inside him anymore. He wanted to claim that Fuji is his. But… Fuji…

Fuji was only staring at him blankly.

Still that empty gaze.

And still no other reaction.

Stop it!!!

Stop that gaze!!!

And Tezuka finally pulled himself back. He was panting heavily for air. "Why…? Why you only…"

He can't continue his question.

To his surprise, Fuji circled his arms on his back and laid his head on his chest. "Then… tell me, Tezuka…" he whispered " Tell me your feeling towards me."

"I…" Tezuka stuttered. "I…"

Strange. The word 'I love you' can't get out of his throat, no matter how hard he tried to shout it out. What's this feeling that stopped his sentence?

Is this because of what happened to Fuji?

The prodigy stood up, only showing his back to Tezuka. "It's okay… You don't need to force yourself to say it…" His voice was trembling and he almost couldn't hear it himself.

But Tezuka heard it clearly. Those words stunned him.

Was he right?

He only stared at Fuji's back, which was getting farther from his sight.

But the captain didn't notice how trembling Fuji's leg at that time, how hard he tried to keep walking away and not falling on his knee.

Slowly, tears started to rolled on the usually smiling face.

I…

Goodbye…

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TBC.

Wait!! This is getting longer that I expected!!! _ But, I can't end it over there… Ugh… Still thinking of a way to end this. It's getting boring… Gomen….

To an 'Eiji-lover', Doumo arigatou for all your help and idea!!!

Oops, matte!!! Don't go away now, I need your comment!!!