Note: Sorry this took so long! Skool has been waaay too demanding. Not to
mention the fact that I'm only at this house every other week, making it
even harder. Well, I just now turned 13!! Yesh, I've been lying to you!!
I was 12, but NOW I'm 13. So ha. Once again, I apologize for being so
late in uploading this.
Wheeeeeeee! I gots me a whole lotta Jhonen V. shirts and stuff!! My mom took me on a shopping spree... And I finally got my ears pierced! YAY FOR ME!!
~~~~NEWS~~~~ I JUST FOUND OUT THAT INVADER ZIM WILL BE ON COMEDY CENTRAL IN ABOUT A MONTH!!! I'm happy, are you?
~Beth
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Dib's face changed from shock to self-incredulity. 'Now why didn't I think of saying that?' He thought, actually a bit freaked out that Gaz even cared.
Tis sighed warily. She then began to wring her hands, looking worried. Everyone stared at her expectantly, waiting, like she were about to announce something really important. She sighed again, and the look on her face evolved into that of submission.
"You really must know?" She asked, her eyes to the ground, her antennae pressed against her head. A tear heavy as gold fell to the ground. Everyone just nodded, not able to speak... In fact, they didn't want to push her. Except for Gaz.
"Come ON! Tell us already!" She demanded, gritting her teeth and opening her eyes in anger.
"Okay then. Sit down, get a refreshment..." Tis said, obviously procrastinating on what she was to say.
Zim quietly went into the kitchen and brought out a few cans of the Irken version of Poop Cola, which was really pretty much the same thing. He gave a can to everyone, but he obviously didn't want to give one to Gaz or Dib. Yet he could tell that Tis was upset, and he knew her emotional instability. So he did anyways.
Tis was moving her antennae in the gesture of extreme nervousness. Zim looked at her worriedly, his face seeming to say 'you don't have to.' Tis shook her head hard for a little while in defiance to her emotions. She looked at Gaz now, seeing how much she changed. Gaz just looked annoyed and impatient. Tis looked helplessly at all the faces.
"The only reason I don't want to tell you," she began, her face dusky with worry, "is because I thought you might be ashamed about what I did..." She sunk to her knees, sitting on the ground. "But I will say it now. But first..." She said, and closed her eyes. Her eyes opened, then she looked around once more. Suddenly, an image of Tis was in everyone's heads. She was in a bedroom, curled up on the bed and she had no disguise on. She sat up and opened her eyes.
Her eyes were bruise-purple from crying, and her tears were lavender--- her normal eye color. It was as if Mari's death had washed away the soft, happy color from her eyes, like her tears were stealing the color. She was choking and shuddering, looking at the white walls of her room. She curled up again, the tears streaking her face staining the white sheets of her bed.
"After Mari died I just lived in grief. I wallowed in it. I had nothing to do, I had no one else. She was the only one... Before Earth, before her, I remember nothing. It is gone, the crash to Earth made me forget... My life. All I knew was that I wasn't human, and that I still had to find a way to fix my charred Voot Runner. I wanted to leave, but my crying made me too weak to get up... My grief and sadness and lingering love made me forget what was happening now. I should have reached out to Dib and Gaz... But I just stayed locked up in myself. For many weeks, I just thought 'I will give myself to no one... I will never love again...' "
The Tis in the vision with the bruise-eyes and the purple-streaked cheeks got up slowly, a look of realization glazed with understanding and grief creeping upon her face. She hurried out of the room.
"Suddenly I realized something." Tis said.
The Tis in the vision was now hurrying through Membranes' household's hallway. She ran into the living room, where a drone-like looking little Dib sat on the couch, watching TV, but not really watching it--- his eyes were glazed, he wasn't seeing the TV. Gaz was just squinting at a Game Slave One. Tis ran up to Dib, grabbing Gaz in her arms on the way (getting a VERY annoyed look from Gaz) and gave them both in a hug. Gaz tried to squirm out of it, and Dib just lay limp.
"Mom and I used to watch this show." Said Little Dib quietly, indicating the TV. It was Mysterious Mysteries.
"We used to watch it together." Vision-Tis corrected. "All three of us..."
"That day I resolved to be a mother to you two. Membrane was too locked up in grief... he just worked. He was a scientist, supposedly to help find cures for the world's problems... But he really wanted to cure his own. Like I, he had had a breakdown. We were both crazy at that time. I found a cure in you two. He found a cure in no one... In nothing. He had something, right under his nose, to use a human expression, yet he did not see it. He just tried to find a cure for his own problems, his own craziness." Said Tis (That's real Tis).
"He always said I was crazy!" Dib exclaimed. "I guess he didn't want me to be crazy too... But why didn't he seek help?"
"You know you're not crazy. And he knew no good would come by seeking help. He was crazy, but with an incurable disease. One that is quite common. He really could do nothing, although he wishes he could. Do you know what the disease that he has is?" Tis queried of her audience.
They all shook their heads, including Eva. She could see what was going on, and, having an Irken Pak to give her the information, she understood most of the words said.
"I shall tell you: Love. Chronic love, lingering love... He really did love her. And he always loved you children, and still does, although he doesn't act it. The only reason he is so distant from you is because he wants you to see that brave, intelligent Professor he is on the outside. He wanted you to see his strength; not the weak, sick man he really is. He doesn't want you to be ashamed of him.
"And do you know why he wears those goggles all the time?" She asked.
"Safety...?" Dib wondered.
"No. He doesn't want people to see the sadness in his eyes.. The eyes ARE the key to the soul. He doesn't want others to see all the dry tears that leave his eyes continually, his eyes always red and puffy from crying phantom tears."
Everyone was silent. Zim even began to feel for this broken family, seeing as he had a family now. He would feel the same way Membrane did if Tis ever died. He fidgeted uncomfortably, his antennae twitching slightly. Eva, seeing his discomfort, reached up to him. He picked her up, and hugged her tightly, her head on his shoulders.
"No one can be as embarrassed of anyone as the Tallest are of me." Zim concluded quietly. Everyone stayed still, staring at him. The vision had been frozen in time for quite a while now, and they were curious as to what happened. Zim could tell, plus he wanted to know too. "Go on with the story." Zim murmured. He really didn't like everyone staring at him.
"Oh, yes." Tis said quickly, blushing slightly. "Ahem... Well, I raised Dib and Gaz for about a year. I did everything I could, even though I was crazy. I honestly tried. It was hard, especially because I knew I was annoying Membrane."
There were images floating by of Tis and Dib watching TV, playing games, visiting places, or doing homework. In many of these there was Gaz, in the background, playing her GS1, overshadowed by the other two. There were images of Tis talking to Gaz, a worried look on Tis's face. But Gaz was always ignoring her. There were even images of Membrane yelling at Tis, many times Tis on the verge of tears, looking at Membrane through a lavender glaze, perhaps a purple stripe on her face, or a tear like a jewel making its lonely journey down her cheek.
"One day he was yelling at me, saying that he didn't need me to raise his kids. Finally he said: 'You really irk me Triss.' " Then it all came back. I didn't remember my past, but I remembered I was an Irken, from the planet Irk. I remembered how to fix my damaged Voot Runner. I couldn't take it anymore. With everlasting regret I began to spend all my time working on it. I had to find out about my past."
In the vision there were now pictures of Tis working on a standard Irken Voot Runner. Other pictures showed her covered in oil and soot, looking none-too-pleased. The images were going in order, so they could see the improvement of the Voot over time, being repaired in a lab rather like Zim's.
"When I was finished, I kissed Dib and Gaz goodbye. As Gaz sat alone on the couch, Dib was crying. 'Mommy left! Please don't go!' he said. I told him I had to, that it was important. When he asked if I would ever come back... I... I wasn't sure of my decision anymore. But I decided to keep it, and just said: 'I don't know'. As I left the house, walking down the path, I heard some noises and more crying. Membrane was holding a sobbing and screaming and squirming, kicking, and biting Little Dib back as I left, with Gaz in the shadowy corner of the doorway, so beautiful and delicate looking, except for the cold, hard look in her eyes."
The vision showed just what Tis said, like a silent movie with a single narrator.
"I never looked back again. As I punched in some random coordinates to the Voot's control panel, as I rocketed through the sky, higher and higher, I didn't look back."
Suddenly, the vision diminished, and Tis began to rub her temples. Her throat was dry, so she took some big gulps of her Poop Cola. She went to Zim and quietly pried Eva away from him. She held Eva tightly against her, as if she would never let go.
"I'm tired... too tired to use the visions anymore.... And to tell the story, so I'll summarize it from here." She looked to the others for consent. They all murmured an okay or nodded. So she went on. "Well, those random coordinates ended up taking me to... Of all places, Foodcourtia." She chuckled briefly at this, remembering it all. "Well, I got there, and, since I wanted to fit in so badly, I decided to begin working there. On my first days...weeks actually, I did terribly. I burned everything, I dropped everything, and I got angry at the customers very easily. There were quite a few injuries that were caused by me there." She blushed. "Everyone was so angry at me. Yet, instead of firing me, they paired me up with...Zim. That's right. I met my mate in a fast food restaurant. It was soooo romantic." She said sarcastically.
"Well, although at first we hated each other, and wanted to be as far away from each other, and the fact that we were both provoked so very easily, and both had shaky pasts, we were forced to be together. Soon, there were rumors that he loved me. I was absolutely disgusted. How could I ever love someone so short? But soon...I don't know how, but I began to love him. Maybe it was because he was always there. Maybe he knew something about me. I don't know. But the scary thing was that when I saw him...I got this spooky feeling of deja vu. It was as if we once knew each other, as if we were once in love, as we were once...different Irkens, as if we once had different lives. And as if in that life we were together." She sighed sadly, emotion suddenly contorting her delicate features. "All we know. All we know is that we both have broken pasts. We both have a life- hole to fill. And we will" She said with a strange sort of strength and certainty. Her eyes flashed with determination.
Zim smiled and crawled over to her, still holding Eva. Eva had been asleep, and now she opened her large scarlet eyes. She looked up at Tis, and lifted her arms, wanting to be picked up. Tis did, smiling the entire time. Eva began to pull at her mother's uniform near Tis's chest. Tis smiled sadly down at her.
"Eva, honey, by being created in a genetics lab, I wasn't meant to have children... That's why you came out of an egg instead of live, and that's why I have no milk, or breasts for that matter. I'm sorry. We'll just have to feed you formula. But you were made naturally, so you are fertile, and you are going to be able to have babies normally."
Eva's eyes quivered, and then she let out a wail to wake the dead. Dib, Gaz, and Zim covered their ears as Tis tried to comfort her. Tis continued to hold her, tears now coming to her eyes. She was ashamed. She was so ashamed that she couldn't care for the life she created. So ashamed that she couldn't care for the material token of her and Zim's love-
No. Eva wasn't just the material token of their love. She was her daughter. And she was failing to be a mother to her. This made Tis sadder. But now, now there was also a burning determination within her.
"COMPUTER!" She bellowed, trying to be heard over the screaming of her daughter. "Bring me some Irken baby formula ASAP!"
"'Kay.." Grumbled the computer sourly. In a matter of seconds, there was a large bottle of it, nice and warm. Without a word, but with a triumphant grin, Tis picked it up and held it to Eva's mouth. Eva immediately chomped down on it and began to drink, looking content, her eyes closing dreamily. Everyone soon uncovered their ears tentatively, realizing that the wailing had stopped, yet still not quite sure. They all breathed sighs of relief simultaneously. Zim got up and brushed himself off. He went to Tis and knelt down beside her, his eyes alight with the love he felt for the two females who were for the moment both in the same state-of-mind: contentment. He wrapped his arm around Tis and kissed her cheek, rather cautiously. She, however, enjoyed the touch, and even turned her head so she could kiss him full on the lips. After recovering from brief shock, he responded. They didn't break the kiss until they were gasping for breath.
Tis looked puzzled. "Zim, why were you so...shocked when I kissed you back?" She queried.
Zim looked away. "Well, I thought that you hadn't quite forgiven me for leaving you like that. I certainly haven't forgiven myself yet." He said softly. His eyes met hers, searching her face.
"Well, then forgive yourself. Forgive yourself and be done with it. I missed you too much to be angry. And too worried about what would happen to our baby." Her look darkened. "They would most likely perform tests on her. She is, after all, the first surviving naturally conceived smeet in centuries. I had to get the both her and I away from Irk before it was too late. This was the only place that came to mind, considering I thought only of you. Plus, this place is infested with water--- the Armada would never come here." She looked away, ashamed. "When I was pregnant..." She took a deep breath. "To tell you the truth, I barely even thought of coming to Earth to see you. I came here for Eva's safety. That was my top priority. I'm sorry. Its just the-just the rush of maternal hormones. They still linger even now, so I'm still quite emotional." She smiled apologetically. Zim just smiled back, completely forgiving her, and even forgiving himself. She noticed this, and hugged him tightly, her eyes alight with love.
Dib cleared his throat loudly, obviously trying to get their attention. Tis turned to him, patiently waiting for what he wanted.
"Its betting late, and Gaz and I are going to go now, 'kay?" He said, looking impatient.
Tis frowned, quickly turning to a pout. "Okay." She said.
Dib flashed a quick smile and got up, Gaz following him closely. Dib quickly crossed the room and went through the door. Gaz, however, sent a last lingering look at Tis. Her eyes were fully open, but there was no trace of anger. She turned around and crossed the room, almost reluctantly. Before going through the door, she pivoted her head slowly to face Tis. They locked eyes, if only for a brief moment, for then in the blink of Tis's eyes, Gaz was gone.
There were a few minutes of silence, Tis, Zim and Eva rocking in each other's arms. They stayed like that for a long time.
After a few minutes, maybe hours, maybe days for all they cared, Zim decided that they should go to bed. When he got up though, Tis didn't budge. She was just too tired, in mind, body, and spirit. Zim seemed to understand. He bent down and picked her up ever so gently. He carried her carefully all the way to his bedroom. There, he ordered the computer to erect a crib. It did so immediately. He gently pried Eva from Tis's grip and placed her in the crib. Then, equally as gentle, he lay Tis down on the soft bed. He pulled back the covers and climbed in beside her. He kissed her goodnight, and to his surprise, she wrapped her arms around him. He responded by wrapping his arms around her. They were soon asleep, wrapped in each other's embrace, and for the first time, they slept a full night, having the same dreams.
Dreams of memories that were theirs, but couldn't possibly have been.
What are these? And what are the feelings of deja vu that they are always getting for each other? Only Time can tell the truth of their broken pasts.
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Umm, please review! I really want reviews. They make me feel good, and I read them when I'm depressed.
Sad, isn't it?
Wheeeeeeee! I gots me a whole lotta Jhonen V. shirts and stuff!! My mom took me on a shopping spree... And I finally got my ears pierced! YAY FOR ME!!
~~~~NEWS~~~~ I JUST FOUND OUT THAT INVADER ZIM WILL BE ON COMEDY CENTRAL IN ABOUT A MONTH!!! I'm happy, are you?
~Beth
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Dib's face changed from shock to self-incredulity. 'Now why didn't I think of saying that?' He thought, actually a bit freaked out that Gaz even cared.
Tis sighed warily. She then began to wring her hands, looking worried. Everyone stared at her expectantly, waiting, like she were about to announce something really important. She sighed again, and the look on her face evolved into that of submission.
"You really must know?" She asked, her eyes to the ground, her antennae pressed against her head. A tear heavy as gold fell to the ground. Everyone just nodded, not able to speak... In fact, they didn't want to push her. Except for Gaz.
"Come ON! Tell us already!" She demanded, gritting her teeth and opening her eyes in anger.
"Okay then. Sit down, get a refreshment..." Tis said, obviously procrastinating on what she was to say.
Zim quietly went into the kitchen and brought out a few cans of the Irken version of Poop Cola, which was really pretty much the same thing. He gave a can to everyone, but he obviously didn't want to give one to Gaz or Dib. Yet he could tell that Tis was upset, and he knew her emotional instability. So he did anyways.
Tis was moving her antennae in the gesture of extreme nervousness. Zim looked at her worriedly, his face seeming to say 'you don't have to.' Tis shook her head hard for a little while in defiance to her emotions. She looked at Gaz now, seeing how much she changed. Gaz just looked annoyed and impatient. Tis looked helplessly at all the faces.
"The only reason I don't want to tell you," she began, her face dusky with worry, "is because I thought you might be ashamed about what I did..." She sunk to her knees, sitting on the ground. "But I will say it now. But first..." She said, and closed her eyes. Her eyes opened, then she looked around once more. Suddenly, an image of Tis was in everyone's heads. She was in a bedroom, curled up on the bed and she had no disguise on. She sat up and opened her eyes.
Her eyes were bruise-purple from crying, and her tears were lavender--- her normal eye color. It was as if Mari's death had washed away the soft, happy color from her eyes, like her tears were stealing the color. She was choking and shuddering, looking at the white walls of her room. She curled up again, the tears streaking her face staining the white sheets of her bed.
"After Mari died I just lived in grief. I wallowed in it. I had nothing to do, I had no one else. She was the only one... Before Earth, before her, I remember nothing. It is gone, the crash to Earth made me forget... My life. All I knew was that I wasn't human, and that I still had to find a way to fix my charred Voot Runner. I wanted to leave, but my crying made me too weak to get up... My grief and sadness and lingering love made me forget what was happening now. I should have reached out to Dib and Gaz... But I just stayed locked up in myself. For many weeks, I just thought 'I will give myself to no one... I will never love again...' "
The Tis in the vision with the bruise-eyes and the purple-streaked cheeks got up slowly, a look of realization glazed with understanding and grief creeping upon her face. She hurried out of the room.
"Suddenly I realized something." Tis said.
The Tis in the vision was now hurrying through Membranes' household's hallway. She ran into the living room, where a drone-like looking little Dib sat on the couch, watching TV, but not really watching it--- his eyes were glazed, he wasn't seeing the TV. Gaz was just squinting at a Game Slave One. Tis ran up to Dib, grabbing Gaz in her arms on the way (getting a VERY annoyed look from Gaz) and gave them both in a hug. Gaz tried to squirm out of it, and Dib just lay limp.
"Mom and I used to watch this show." Said Little Dib quietly, indicating the TV. It was Mysterious Mysteries.
"We used to watch it together." Vision-Tis corrected. "All three of us..."
"That day I resolved to be a mother to you two. Membrane was too locked up in grief... he just worked. He was a scientist, supposedly to help find cures for the world's problems... But he really wanted to cure his own. Like I, he had had a breakdown. We were both crazy at that time. I found a cure in you two. He found a cure in no one... In nothing. He had something, right under his nose, to use a human expression, yet he did not see it. He just tried to find a cure for his own problems, his own craziness." Said Tis (That's real Tis).
"He always said I was crazy!" Dib exclaimed. "I guess he didn't want me to be crazy too... But why didn't he seek help?"
"You know you're not crazy. And he knew no good would come by seeking help. He was crazy, but with an incurable disease. One that is quite common. He really could do nothing, although he wishes he could. Do you know what the disease that he has is?" Tis queried of her audience.
They all shook their heads, including Eva. She could see what was going on, and, having an Irken Pak to give her the information, she understood most of the words said.
"I shall tell you: Love. Chronic love, lingering love... He really did love her. And he always loved you children, and still does, although he doesn't act it. The only reason he is so distant from you is because he wants you to see that brave, intelligent Professor he is on the outside. He wanted you to see his strength; not the weak, sick man he really is. He doesn't want you to be ashamed of him.
"And do you know why he wears those goggles all the time?" She asked.
"Safety...?" Dib wondered.
"No. He doesn't want people to see the sadness in his eyes.. The eyes ARE the key to the soul. He doesn't want others to see all the dry tears that leave his eyes continually, his eyes always red and puffy from crying phantom tears."
Everyone was silent. Zim even began to feel for this broken family, seeing as he had a family now. He would feel the same way Membrane did if Tis ever died. He fidgeted uncomfortably, his antennae twitching slightly. Eva, seeing his discomfort, reached up to him. He picked her up, and hugged her tightly, her head on his shoulders.
"No one can be as embarrassed of anyone as the Tallest are of me." Zim concluded quietly. Everyone stayed still, staring at him. The vision had been frozen in time for quite a while now, and they were curious as to what happened. Zim could tell, plus he wanted to know too. "Go on with the story." Zim murmured. He really didn't like everyone staring at him.
"Oh, yes." Tis said quickly, blushing slightly. "Ahem... Well, I raised Dib and Gaz for about a year. I did everything I could, even though I was crazy. I honestly tried. It was hard, especially because I knew I was annoying Membrane."
There were images floating by of Tis and Dib watching TV, playing games, visiting places, or doing homework. In many of these there was Gaz, in the background, playing her GS1, overshadowed by the other two. There were images of Tis talking to Gaz, a worried look on Tis's face. But Gaz was always ignoring her. There were even images of Membrane yelling at Tis, many times Tis on the verge of tears, looking at Membrane through a lavender glaze, perhaps a purple stripe on her face, or a tear like a jewel making its lonely journey down her cheek.
"One day he was yelling at me, saying that he didn't need me to raise his kids. Finally he said: 'You really irk me Triss.' " Then it all came back. I didn't remember my past, but I remembered I was an Irken, from the planet Irk. I remembered how to fix my damaged Voot Runner. I couldn't take it anymore. With everlasting regret I began to spend all my time working on it. I had to find out about my past."
In the vision there were now pictures of Tis working on a standard Irken Voot Runner. Other pictures showed her covered in oil and soot, looking none-too-pleased. The images were going in order, so they could see the improvement of the Voot over time, being repaired in a lab rather like Zim's.
"When I was finished, I kissed Dib and Gaz goodbye. As Gaz sat alone on the couch, Dib was crying. 'Mommy left! Please don't go!' he said. I told him I had to, that it was important. When he asked if I would ever come back... I... I wasn't sure of my decision anymore. But I decided to keep it, and just said: 'I don't know'. As I left the house, walking down the path, I heard some noises and more crying. Membrane was holding a sobbing and screaming and squirming, kicking, and biting Little Dib back as I left, with Gaz in the shadowy corner of the doorway, so beautiful and delicate looking, except for the cold, hard look in her eyes."
The vision showed just what Tis said, like a silent movie with a single narrator.
"I never looked back again. As I punched in some random coordinates to the Voot's control panel, as I rocketed through the sky, higher and higher, I didn't look back."
Suddenly, the vision diminished, and Tis began to rub her temples. Her throat was dry, so she took some big gulps of her Poop Cola. She went to Zim and quietly pried Eva away from him. She held Eva tightly against her, as if she would never let go.
"I'm tired... too tired to use the visions anymore.... And to tell the story, so I'll summarize it from here." She looked to the others for consent. They all murmured an okay or nodded. So she went on. "Well, those random coordinates ended up taking me to... Of all places, Foodcourtia." She chuckled briefly at this, remembering it all. "Well, I got there, and, since I wanted to fit in so badly, I decided to begin working there. On my first days...weeks actually, I did terribly. I burned everything, I dropped everything, and I got angry at the customers very easily. There were quite a few injuries that were caused by me there." She blushed. "Everyone was so angry at me. Yet, instead of firing me, they paired me up with...Zim. That's right. I met my mate in a fast food restaurant. It was soooo romantic." She said sarcastically.
"Well, although at first we hated each other, and wanted to be as far away from each other, and the fact that we were both provoked so very easily, and both had shaky pasts, we were forced to be together. Soon, there were rumors that he loved me. I was absolutely disgusted. How could I ever love someone so short? But soon...I don't know how, but I began to love him. Maybe it was because he was always there. Maybe he knew something about me. I don't know. But the scary thing was that when I saw him...I got this spooky feeling of deja vu. It was as if we once knew each other, as if we were once in love, as we were once...different Irkens, as if we once had different lives. And as if in that life we were together." She sighed sadly, emotion suddenly contorting her delicate features. "All we know. All we know is that we both have broken pasts. We both have a life- hole to fill. And we will" She said with a strange sort of strength and certainty. Her eyes flashed with determination.
Zim smiled and crawled over to her, still holding Eva. Eva had been asleep, and now she opened her large scarlet eyes. She looked up at Tis, and lifted her arms, wanting to be picked up. Tis did, smiling the entire time. Eva began to pull at her mother's uniform near Tis's chest. Tis smiled sadly down at her.
"Eva, honey, by being created in a genetics lab, I wasn't meant to have children... That's why you came out of an egg instead of live, and that's why I have no milk, or breasts for that matter. I'm sorry. We'll just have to feed you formula. But you were made naturally, so you are fertile, and you are going to be able to have babies normally."
Eva's eyes quivered, and then she let out a wail to wake the dead. Dib, Gaz, and Zim covered their ears as Tis tried to comfort her. Tis continued to hold her, tears now coming to her eyes. She was ashamed. She was so ashamed that she couldn't care for the life she created. So ashamed that she couldn't care for the material token of her and Zim's love-
No. Eva wasn't just the material token of their love. She was her daughter. And she was failing to be a mother to her. This made Tis sadder. But now, now there was also a burning determination within her.
"COMPUTER!" She bellowed, trying to be heard over the screaming of her daughter. "Bring me some Irken baby formula ASAP!"
"'Kay.." Grumbled the computer sourly. In a matter of seconds, there was a large bottle of it, nice and warm. Without a word, but with a triumphant grin, Tis picked it up and held it to Eva's mouth. Eva immediately chomped down on it and began to drink, looking content, her eyes closing dreamily. Everyone soon uncovered their ears tentatively, realizing that the wailing had stopped, yet still not quite sure. They all breathed sighs of relief simultaneously. Zim got up and brushed himself off. He went to Tis and knelt down beside her, his eyes alight with the love he felt for the two females who were for the moment both in the same state-of-mind: contentment. He wrapped his arm around Tis and kissed her cheek, rather cautiously. She, however, enjoyed the touch, and even turned her head so she could kiss him full on the lips. After recovering from brief shock, he responded. They didn't break the kiss until they were gasping for breath.
Tis looked puzzled. "Zim, why were you so...shocked when I kissed you back?" She queried.
Zim looked away. "Well, I thought that you hadn't quite forgiven me for leaving you like that. I certainly haven't forgiven myself yet." He said softly. His eyes met hers, searching her face.
"Well, then forgive yourself. Forgive yourself and be done with it. I missed you too much to be angry. And too worried about what would happen to our baby." Her look darkened. "They would most likely perform tests on her. She is, after all, the first surviving naturally conceived smeet in centuries. I had to get the both her and I away from Irk before it was too late. This was the only place that came to mind, considering I thought only of you. Plus, this place is infested with water--- the Armada would never come here." She looked away, ashamed. "When I was pregnant..." She took a deep breath. "To tell you the truth, I barely even thought of coming to Earth to see you. I came here for Eva's safety. That was my top priority. I'm sorry. Its just the-just the rush of maternal hormones. They still linger even now, so I'm still quite emotional." She smiled apologetically. Zim just smiled back, completely forgiving her, and even forgiving himself. She noticed this, and hugged him tightly, her eyes alight with love.
Dib cleared his throat loudly, obviously trying to get their attention. Tis turned to him, patiently waiting for what he wanted.
"Its betting late, and Gaz and I are going to go now, 'kay?" He said, looking impatient.
Tis frowned, quickly turning to a pout. "Okay." She said.
Dib flashed a quick smile and got up, Gaz following him closely. Dib quickly crossed the room and went through the door. Gaz, however, sent a last lingering look at Tis. Her eyes were fully open, but there was no trace of anger. She turned around and crossed the room, almost reluctantly. Before going through the door, she pivoted her head slowly to face Tis. They locked eyes, if only for a brief moment, for then in the blink of Tis's eyes, Gaz was gone.
There were a few minutes of silence, Tis, Zim and Eva rocking in each other's arms. They stayed like that for a long time.
After a few minutes, maybe hours, maybe days for all they cared, Zim decided that they should go to bed. When he got up though, Tis didn't budge. She was just too tired, in mind, body, and spirit. Zim seemed to understand. He bent down and picked her up ever so gently. He carried her carefully all the way to his bedroom. There, he ordered the computer to erect a crib. It did so immediately. He gently pried Eva from Tis's grip and placed her in the crib. Then, equally as gentle, he lay Tis down on the soft bed. He pulled back the covers and climbed in beside her. He kissed her goodnight, and to his surprise, she wrapped her arms around him. He responded by wrapping his arms around her. They were soon asleep, wrapped in each other's embrace, and for the first time, they slept a full night, having the same dreams.
Dreams of memories that were theirs, but couldn't possibly have been.
What are these? And what are the feelings of deja vu that they are always getting for each other? Only Time can tell the truth of their broken pasts.
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Umm, please review! I really want reviews. They make me feel good, and I read them when I'm depressed.
Sad, isn't it?