After two hours of sitting alone really calms a person down, and helps them reflect on what they had done to be alone for two hours. Too bad I don't have my journal. Dinah thought as she shivered. The brig may not be leaking or have a foot of water on the floor, but it was cold. But during those two hours she thought about how she acted like such a jerk to Ana and a brat to Jack.
For someone who doesn't want to show her emotions for fear of thought of as weak…I have a hard time doing such a thing. She thought to herself. During the two hours she had hoped that Ana or Jack would come down those stairs so she could apologize. Or even Roberts, she was starving. She hadn't eaten anything the day before, or the day before that. She figured that's part of the reason why she blew up. No food, and the hangover. But for the most part it was her feelings.
Ana was right, Dinah thought, immediately feeling bad about how she acted toward her only friend, I need to tell him what I'm feeling but I'm scared. I don't want him to listen respectfully and then tell me that he wants me but won't commit to anything. I'm not even sure I want a commitment from him…I'm not really sure I know how I feel about him. And until I'm sure there's not point of talking to him and forcing him to talk about feelings, which is something that every man hates…especially pirates.
Dinah's thoughts were interrupted by the hatch opening and someone coming down. The person was Ana. She walked to Dinah's cell with no expression on her face. She stopped in front of the bars and looked at Dinah and started off by taking a deep breath. "Look, I know you're mad at me, and I have a good reason to be mad at you too, but I'm more hurt than anything." Dinah got up and tried to say something but Ana put up her hand to stop her. "When you said that I didn't understand how you felt two years ago and what you've experience…you're completely right. But when you said I didn't understand how you feel right now…well that hurt."
"But-"
"And if you repeat that to anyone, I'll slit your throat. But I know that pirates have the reputation for being rude and crude and having no feelings towards anyone who ain't a pirate, but that's not true…well the having no feelings part at least…Because I love Trevor. The Captain on Tortuga and I want to tell him how I feel but I just bring myself to do it. Because then what would we do? He won't abandon his ship and Jack would…well I'm not sure what he would do if I left, but I can't imagine leaving!"
"Ana-"
"What I'm trying to say, Dinah, is that I can understand if you don't want to tell Jack how you feel. Because I'm going through it too, but I'm just thinking that you should. And I should too."
"Are you finished?"
Ana nodded.
"You're completely right."
"Huh?"
"I've been thinking that I do need to tell him but I can't do that until I get my heart straight with my head. I'm not really sure how I feel about Jack and until I do…I can't talk to him about it."
Ana smiled, "Okay, well I'll go get Jack and see if he'll let you out." Dinah nodded and she was gone in a flash. Jack came done a few minutes later, walked to her cell and leaned against the one across from her. He crossed his arms over his chest and looked at Dinah. She looked so small and inferior and scared. Jack kinda felt sorry for her.
"So lass, I hear you're ready to come out."
Dinah nodded, trying hard not to burst out in tears and apologize to him, trying hard not to tell him her feelings then and there, trying hard to at least mask her feelings from this man.
"Why'd you do it?"
"Try to jump?"
"And burst?" Jack filled in for her.
Dinah paused, "I need to apologize."
Jack looked confused, "Why luv?"
"Because I shouldn't have acted the ay I did. I'm sorry. I was being a brat and I would say that it was the hangover, but that's something that I don't want to be my scapegoat." She looked him the eye and they stood there for a few minutes locked in eye contact.
"Apology accepted, but why did you act like that, lass?"
She shrugged.
Jack waited.
"You seriously want me to tell you?"
He nodded.
"It was you…I was just…frustrated…as my behavior proved to everyone on ship…"
"Don't be too hard on yourself, lass."
"Too hard on myself!? Please!" She sighed, "What can I do to make up it up to you?"
Jack looked at her and raised an eyebrow. "You could stop calling my ship a boat for starters."
"I'm serious Jack…"
"Look lass, I'm a pirate. You're in a brig alone with me, and no matter what our history together was, you just asked if you could do anything to make it up…"
"What are you implying?"
"Kiss my bruise…"
Dinah raised an eyebrow, "Where is it?"
"My lips lass, what kind of pirate do you think I am?"
Dinah smirked and pointed to the locks. He quickly unlocked her and she got out and kissed him lightly on the lip. He opened his eyes, obviously wanting more. "You didn't specify what kind of kiss, mate," She smiled and quickly exited the brig and went straight to the safety of her cabin.
When Jack left two years ago I was in love. When he left me two months before that he told me he needed me. He didn't make any commitment, but for some reason I thought that was the commitment. Now when I finally moved on and starting to forget him he comes back into my life. I don't know if I want a relationship and I don't know if he wants one or even feels anything for me…why is this so…I dunno. But I know I need to do it. Dinah shut her journal and looked at the closed door. It was raining outside and Gibbs was having a hard time steering, but to where, she still didn't know.
She opened the door and ran across the ship and knocked on Jack's door he opened it and she ran in. He closed and looked at Dinah. "Yes, luv?"
"Please don't call me that."
"Fine, fine." He said, putting his hands up in defense.
She sighed, "I need to tell you something."
"Okay…" He laid on his bed and put his hands behind his head.
She sat on the edge with her side facing him. With a shaky voice she started, "Okay…before you left me two years ago I thought I that you were the man for me. That I was going to grow up for about a year and we were going to get married, live on the Pearl and I would die on the sea. But that changed when you left…and when you told me that you needed me; I thought that you loved me. But you never said that. And I don't know why I expected such a thing from a pirate and I'm not even sure why I believed that you needed me…all I pirate ever needs is a ship and money. You might want things but all you really NEED is your ship. But want and need are two very different things to a pirate…and when you told me you needed me, I thought for sure that you were going to marry me…but you didn't. Nothing. And then you leave. For no reason. And two years later you kidnap me, tell me why you left, confuse me with kisses and nights in your bed…I just don't know what to think Jack!"
She turned and looked at him and he had a relaxed look on his face. That's probably why she left the cabin when he didn't say anything. But when Jack followed her out into the rain she yelled and cried, "Oh, so now you talk! You know whenever I get serious like about that night we seriously kissed or when I asked you about when we first met and back there, you're just so blasted stubborn but then once I walk away you want to talk! So what!?"
"Don't you want to talk about this?"
"I've already talked about it! It's your turn if anyones!"
Jack sighed, he rolled his eyes and paused. When she started to walk again, he yelled, "Yes Dinah, yes I needed you back then but back then I was…"
"Young and stupid?" She filled in.
"Confused…"
"CONFUSED?! What's confusing about it?! What did you feel for me, Jack?!"
"Why is it all 'bout bloody feelin's with you Dinah? Can't you just depend on me?!"
"What would give me a reason to do that? Are you expecting me to just be with you and take one day at a time!?"
"Yes! When you're a pirate, that's all you do!"
"I'm not a bloody pirate!"
"Well if you were with me then you'd be considered as one!"
"Are you trying to tell me you want me with you?" Dinah asked, taking her voice down a notch.
Jack paused. "I don't know…But I do know that we're goin' to Barbados…"
"Jackson Wyatt! Don't you dare try to change the- We're going where?"
"Barbados…"
"Katherine?"
Jack nodded. Dinah's enraged disposition soon changed. The corners of her mouth turned upward and Jack watched with admiration. No one had cared for his mom like Dinah had; of course not many girls had met his mom. "When are we going to be there?"
"Tomorrow evenin'. She was expecting me a few days ago, but with you being here, it'll change."
"Is that why you kidnapped me?" Dinah asked over the pounding rain, hitting the ship with great force, and making Dinah shiver.
Jack walked to her and took off his coat and put it around his shoulders, "Yes."
She smiled, "Thank you Jack, really." She stood there a minute and then walked into her cabin and left Captain Jack Sparrow on his ship, alone again.
Authors Note: Ohhh! Dinah's feelings finally come to Jack! But will he respond and tell her his feelings as well? Maybe, maybe not. He's a pirate after all…but of course he's Captain Jack Sparrow! And finally we get to meet Jack's mom! And along with Jack's mom, Barbados brings back tons of memories to Dinah and the Captain. So see what happens next time!