TITLE: BETRAYED AND LIED TO part4

"Listen I am tired and I am not feeling up to this and I don't believe I ever will so I would like you to leave and please ask Sydney to come in." before her mother could interrupt her she added "Goodnight Catherine"

The hurt and the shock of what her daughter had just said, made her feet go towards the door before her daughter could she the tears cascading down her cheeks. Sydney was waiting outside and with a nod of his head and the look of compassion in his eyes told her he had heard and, he stroked her arms as her walked past and into to the room Miss Parker was occupying. He felt however he was walking into the room he had just left, with a few differences, because the site he saw was a younger version of the woman he loved and also the daughter he felt he had, was too also trying hard to control the tears that had escaped her hard as nails exterior to prove she had a heart and it was breaking as much as the older woman's who had just left.

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Sydney didn't know what to say as he walked over to a very emotional Miss Parker. The only time he had seen her in such an emotional state was the day her mother was shot. The funeral was the start of hiding her emotions, she didn't want to let anyone that close again. Close enough that she would get hurt. Then when Thomas was killed that was when it all happened again. Everyone she lets close gets hurt in her eyes. I guess it is no wonder why she is upset.

"Miss Parker are you alright?" Sydney said as he took the chair next to the bed.

He saw the woman change in front of his eyes. No longer was she emotional but she straighten her back and wipe the only evidence of her emotions away so no-one would know.

"Fine Syd just fine. However what I would like to know is when can I go home and also I will need to use a phone. So I can call daddy but there is no point until I know when the hell I am going back so I can fill him in. Ok fraud what is wrong you have been looking at me like that since I first turned to look at you."

"It is nothing, just when I walked in you where upset, and please don't try to deny it I saw you. But now it is almost like nothing has happened, your mother appears again and alive and you have to………"

"Listen Syd and listen good MY Mother is dead and died along time ago. I can't turn back the clock and forget what I saw. Yeah I know that she didn't die in the damned elevator and yes I did come to terms with that especially after I saw Ethan, but Syd I understood shy she left then. That was the end of it and I don't want to have to go through that again I mourned for a woman twice. So I aint likely to forget she is dead. I don't have a mother Syd not anymore."

THE KITCHEN CATHERINE AND MARGARET TALK

"She hates me Margaret she really hates me."

"Come on Catherine give her time she is just upset and in shock at the moment she will want to talk to you when she calms down."

"the voices don't think so and neither do I. You know what is the worst part of it. Her hating me I could deal with but…. SNIFF… she called me Catherine, she is so cold and detached I know Jarod told me what to expect but I.. just thought I could see her and she would feel something other then hatred."

"give her time Catherine give her time."

BACK IN THE BEDROOM WITH MISS PARKER.

"could you excuse us for a few minutes please Sydney." Jarod said as he walked through the bedroom door.

As Sydney passed Jarod on his way out he told him not to upset Parker as she is still very easily angered. With that said he left and just as he closed the door he saw Jarod take the seat he had just left. All he could think about was helping Catherine.

"Parker are you ok?"

"Lab rat I will never forgive you for this how could you. I know you live to torment me but this was going overboard and you know it. She…I…… ohhhh I watched her die Jarod nothing can delete that memory, not even a living version of her."

"I found my family Parker and I know how much you love your mother when mine told me about her and her situation I had to help her, but I didn't do it for her, I did it for you. I thought that if I could be happy then you deserved to be also. I knew you would be angry and hurt but I thought…… I thought that once she explained you would be alright but you want even let her explain."

"Jar…. (slip of the tongue on Miss Parkers behalf. As all she could remember was how they used to be as children and where talking about things. A slip she soon corrected.) Jarod I don't want to hear any explanations or excuses. SHE…LEFT…ME. Don't you understand I needed her then, I don't anymore I don't need a mother that can be disappointed in me for things I have done, I just don't want that."

"she loves you. She always has and always will. Nothing can or will change that no matter how hard you try. She will al…….."

"yes she may love me be I love her ghost her memory Jarod that is what I have known for a long time, how to love her as anything but flesh and blood, and we both know how well I take to changes. when can I leave?"

"I would like you to stay a little while, and before you interrupt me hear me out please." no interruptions for her Jarod continued. "Ethan is hurting Parker, he wants to love his mother and get to know her but since you have shown up and have refused to interact with her, he is becoming distant, he told me a few minutes ago he feels torn in half. He loves you and he doesn't want to hurt you by being with her and visa versa, he doesn't want to hurt his…your mother either."

"Ok I will stay for a little while, but Jarod I will not be cornered by her or made to feel guilty for not wanting anything to do with her. I will be civil but don't ask for anymore. Tell Ethan that she is his mother and I don't expect him to cut her out because of what I feel towards her and that I love him no matter what he does or feels I may be apart of the centre but I don't want to be held responsible for controlling his life."

"Ok. I understand and I will tell him. Would you like to join us all for dinner this evening or do you want to have dinner…………."

"I will join you all Jarod I said I will be civil and I meant it. I promise not to start a fight. May I use a phone though so I can call daddy"

"Sure I will make sure someone brings one up. I will tell you when dinner is ready."

TBC

Hope you enjoy.

SELYN